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I hate it here /j

ponyboy held captive by his own grief ily. ponyboy feeling sick every night and throwing up and sobbing cause johnny isn’t there anymore ily. it took weeks for it to all hit him and as soon. as it did it hit hard and fast and violently. he turns to tell johnny something but he is never there.

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It’s ok tho

stevepop romantically is literally just stevepop platonically but they kiss sometimes

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“Rumble Fish: The Complete Novel” is a NEED…have you SEEN the deleted scenes??!?! They’re so Rusty+Steve coded (rustyhay)

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I feel like this is a perfect example of the two sides of fandom

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Oh.

This might be a hot take but I’m fully convinced that if Ponyboy got injured in the church fire and died in Johnny’s place, that Johnny would still die because he’d be the member of the gang that wouldn’t be able to handle it

I used to think it would be Darry or Soda- and sure, they’d be absolutely devastated. They’d never be the same. But the Curtis boys know loss, they lost both their parents at once and not only survived but bounced back in a relatively short period of time. Losing Pony would be worse and it would take them far longer to move past it, but Soda and Darry have each other and they would survive it.

Johnny though, Johnny couldn’t.

We know what Johnny and Pony mean to one another. Whether you read them as platonic or romantic or a secret third thing there is no denying they are each others person, unquestioningly and irrevocably. We see in the book how depressed Ponyboy is after Johnny’s death, delusional and then nearly catatonic with grief, and he has his brothers and the remainder of the gang watching over him like a hawk. Their support and presence is absolutely constant for a reason, even if Ponyboy’s suicide watch is largely subtextual and glossed over in a few short paragraphs.

Johnny doesn’t have brothers. He has the gang, that are family in all but blood, but Johnny has spent his life looking out for himself. He sleeps in the lot or couch surfs because no one else is going to find a spot for him, and because his own house isn’t safe. But Johnny is depressed. Ponyboy mentions how the greaser lifestyle and his parents’ warring is ‘killing Johnny’ rather than turning him cold and mean. Ponyboy also mentions that the gang is the only thing keeping Johnny from running away from Tulsa altogether, while Johnny literally voices his suicidal thoughts to Pony in the lot. Point is, Johnny’s mental state was already precarious before the events of the novel. Had he, Pony, and Dally all lived through the story Johnny would still struggle tremendously, probably even more than before. If Pony had died Johnny probably still would not have lived to the end of the book.

Johnny is incredibly protective of Ponyboy (even if Pony doesn’t realize it). Throughout the book we see him take charge whenever Ponyboy falls to pieces, comfort him when Ponyboy is feeling embarasssed after meeting Cherry, let Pony sleep on his legs even when Pony put them to sleep and they had to jump off a train. He was ready to run away with Pony no questions asked. He buys Pony a book and cigarettes when they’re on the run and don’t have a ton of money just to make the whole thing easier for Pony mentally. He literally stabs Bob to death for Pony. So imagine what would happen if Johnny went into that church with Pony and was unable to save him?  If they were in that inferno and he saw the beam crash down and helped Dallas drag Pony’s limp body out and it still wasn’t enough? What do you think happens to an already seriously depressed kid when his person- the one person who always understood him without him having to say a word, a boy who was so naive, yet so wise and so desperately kind- dies? What do you think happens when Johnny can’t save the one person he desperately wanted to protect?

It’s simple. Johnny pulls a Dally, and Johnny dies. And then Dally dies too, because he can’t live without Johnny (if it had JUST been Pony who died, Dallas would survive. Dallas cared about Pony- I firmly believe that, but Pony’s death would not affect Dally the same way Johnny’s did. It wouldn’t affect him any LESS but it would affect him DIFFERENTLY- and would not result in his suicide for a myriad of reasons that deserve a whole post of their own.)

But yeah. Had Pony died from the church fire I think Johnny would have died too, and The Outsiders would end with four dead kids instead of three. It is a horrible, inevitable, preventable tragedy, and no matter what variable is changed it will always be a horrible, inevitable, preventable tragedy.

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Wait the outsiders is so “Time For Change” coded send tweet

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Name a better match than Matt Dillon and S.E Hinton. You can't. It's impossible. He plays his roles so well.

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I- what?

“Soda is canonically a virgin” dawg what 😭. What part of “it ain’t mine” and Soda’s devastation did you miss. shocker, teens have sex, fucking crazy I know. Anyway that’s enough Tumblr dot com purity culture today

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Ok but I wish I could find the outsiders tv show with exceptional quality :(

Lore since it’s probably not well known outsiders media: there’s not much to it but basically it only ran for 1 season in 1990 and it had 12 episodes and the only place you can find it is YouTube and it’s pretty low quality since it’s just taped and uploaded to YT..

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ALSO, all creds to @m0urningtime on tt for getting me on this whole Rustyhay train

He posts really cool edits and you should like, totally go follow him on tt

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Well, I guess I’m carrying the Rustyhay shippers on my back (Rusty James + Steve Hays)

Wait no bc why does Rusty have such an disgusted look 😭

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Steve and Soda slow dancing.

That’s it. That’s the post. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

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Thinking about the Curtis house. Thinking about how Mr. and Mrs. Curtis created a place that everyone in the gang can go to that feels like a warm hug, a place that makes their heartbeat slow and time stand still even just for a moment. A place where they can catch their breath and nurse their wounds and fall asleep beneath a wool blanket.

Thinking about Darry’s cut line from RITF, “Come hell or high water, I’m gonna make this house a home. I’ll never leave those boys alone.” Thinking about how Darry never locks the front door so that anyone can take refuge if they need to. Thinking about how Darry cares so much about that house, he wants the laundry folded and dishes washed because love can’t grow if you don’t take care of the soil you plant it in.

That house, man.

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Aran Ryan pmo so bad send tweet

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Unpopular opinion: in the“Tex” movie, they should’ve left the part in where Tex and Mason get stoned.

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This except I’m pretty sure we’re on the same continent so a win is a win but hoping one day he’ll pull a Rob Lowe (on me)

When the devil can’t reach you so he makes your dream man 42 years older than you and live oceans away

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When he’s beaten up>>>>>