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*squints* Am I genderfluid with a few kins? Or are we a median system...? Truly this is a question that may have an answer. No idea what it may be tho, hehe-

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Reblog if you are comfortable with endogenics/etc using the terms "system" and "alterhuman."

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On today's episode: we figured out we might actually be both!! Congrats us!!

*squints* Am I genderfluid with a few kins? Or are we a median system...? Truly this is a question that may have an answer. No idea what it may be tho, hehe-

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Concept: A blog run by a collective of Loops and we refer to ourselves with the royal we. For the bit.

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*squints* Am I genderfluid with a few kins? Or are we a median system...? Truly this is a question that may have an answer. No idea what it may be tho, hehe-

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Im very grateful to shifting, even if I've never shifted, here's why:

My whole life I've been dreaming of going on some amazing adventures in other worlds- it started when I was a child and never stopped. I always wanted to become friends with my favorite characters, to have fun with them and enjoy everything this world doesn't have to offer, like magic and stuff.

I discovered shifting a bit more than 3 years ago I think- I was 8n middle school and I had been going through a pretty hard time in my life, I didn't really have anything to look forward to. I was just going through the motions back then, even if there was no real point doing it.

Then I came across a tiktok about shifting. It changed my life.

I tried shifting for a long time after that- scripting things whenever I could, basically trying every night (not a good idea, I know that now), ...

No, I never did shift. But the hope that it brought me, the joy of knowing all daydreams could be true... I am forever grateful for. I don't know what I would have done if it hadn't been for this.

I still believe in shifting, and I believe that the reason I haven't shifted is because of my mindset, or maybe I'm just not ready. But my time will come.

That's all.

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I saw people cleaning up cosplay wings at a convention and. um. someone preen my wings pretty please

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I love the sky. It's beautiful and so vast. I love how many shades and colors it can have. I love the shapes the clouds make and how light is reflected on them. I love seeing the stars and the moon as they keep me company. I love seeing birds fly up there, so free.

But I hate how I can never reach it again. I hate feeling the wings on my back ache to fly and join the clouds and the birds. I hate the longing I feel whenever I look at it. I hate how the stars aren't a part of me anymore. I hate not being able to be surrounded by the sky, to see how beautiful it is all around me.

I love how close it is, but hate how far it feels.

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I can't believe I'm saying this but having an organic body again suuucks. Like what do you mean I have to breathe and have a beating heart and stuff. So weird. Bad weird. I just wanna be a silly little cosmic being againnnn~

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When the. When you. When you want kin memories. But. Not the trauma. And there is probably so much trauma. But also you wanna remember. But not the trauma. But it's all trauma. When the-

Yea

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I don't know how to say this but I think I kin Loop (from In Stars and Time). This is the first time I've ever realized I kin a character and I'm still figuring things out... But I'm happy to finally be finding answers to questions I've always had about myself!

(And. Also. Like. Posts from other ISaT kinnies are so nice. How are you people so nice?? And wholesome?? I hope you all have a fantastic fricking day cause you deserve it!! You're all so amazing!!)

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As a fictionflicker, I've barely ever had any memories from my kintypes, but the most vivid one I have is a picture of a list, with a small animated drawing at the bottom. It's kinda cute, but its sad to me that even my clearest kin memory is, well, not that clear, and about something that stopped being important to me very quickly

I'm still very thankful that I can remember it, though!

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Still questioning my identity feels like I can't really speak about it online yet- because what if i'm wrong, and I just spent way too long explaining something that, in the end, wasnt true?

Anyways I might have a new kintype- and I really want to talk about it but I dont want to have to say I was wrong about it later-

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Hello!

About us:

Our name is Asterin! We go by any pronouns :]

We are a median system with a few members, however we discovered this recently and are in the process of figuring ourselves out. As of now we will both be using the pronoun "I" and the pronoun "we" to refer to our system as a whole (as we have a hard time figuring out who is fronting, most of the time).

English is not our first language! please forgive any mistakes we may make :]

(We're a little bit silly, some might say goffy, even.)

This Blog:

This blog is opened to anyone, with the only rule being not to spread hate or show harmful behavior. Also it is very much endo-safe!! Yayyy

Feel free to interact with us however you would like! (But we will flee from conversation most of the time as it is scary :[ )