shapes-in-consciousness

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I'm going through a spiritual awakening and it gets messy. Literally-- most days I have trouble cleaning my bedroom. I have trouble cooking for myself, too, so I've lost weight. But I'm grateful for this journey. I've learned more in the span of a year and a half than I have in my 30-ish years around the sun

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Aways be motivated by kindness. No matter what people do to you, give love in return. Set boundaries, of course; you don't have to entertain someone who disrespects you. However, giving love instead of harboring resentment cuts the cord binding you to certain situations. Lessons repeat until we make our peace with them

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At least I can look sad on Tumblr without judgement 😂 17 days till I'm the big 3-0

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So....I'll be 30 in 4 months

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I want addiction to lose its hold, but for that to happen I must remain equanimous toward having and not having, alike; and must learn to accept and ride waves of emotion which provoke thought and fear in their wake. Fear only occurs when there’s a snag in consciousness, when we wrestle with sensation instead of flowing into and through it. Right now kratom, gabapentin, marijuana, and abilify comprise daily dosages of relief or numbing, but it’s an unsustainable system.

 This is my blog about recovery and the resulting spirituality.