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I feel beaten with my health. I will put this in perspective

8th October I get diagnosed with Freiberg's disease fine I thought can work with this.

31st October my referral to see rheumatology came through fine I thought even though I knew I would be tired as fuck! Turns out I've been living with chronic fatigue syndrome.

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When you overhear something you wasn't ment too oops

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Yay for intrusive thoughts coming back FFS I just wanted a month away from them

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Ever felt completely done and you can't do shit about it yep that's me right y

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New Sunday morning tradition?

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I actually feel alone I can't talk to my partner as he shuts me down can't talk to a friend as he isn't picking up his phone I am alone

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New personal best on leg press. Not bad for someone with two arthritic knees

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Just some of today's training a month back in the gym

And the personal best on legs I feel proud

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Fuck paranoia

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Despite feeling like crap I pulled this off

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Not as much as yesterday but small steps right

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So

I have been waiting for several medical specialists to get in touch with me ranging from women's health specialists (thanks PCOS) right through to Psychariatrists yet I found self-help books have actually helped me learn a little and workout which one of my conditions constantly makes me feel like shit. I am drawing up a plan to tackle everything as I possibly can this year by myself

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The one thing I hate about this disorder you can always be surrounded by people yet feel so alone