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The goals will be going up after this one!

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i have to constantly remind myself that he doesn't like being touched bc im such a touchy person. and like i want to respect his boundaries and i do my absolute best.

but god i was sitting next to him earlier and it was so fucking hard to not just lay my head on his shoulder. i was tired and i do it with my other friends it's not even like it would be romantic.

im just a touchstarved gay it's totally fine

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[DAZED FROM BLOOD LOSS] hey not to kill the vibe completely but i think i am in love with you

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i don't know how to flirt so i just stare at you like a cat dragged out of a dumpster and hope you can see the longing in my panicked gaze

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i get butterflies when i see your name on my phone but that’s literally none of your business

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sunshiney characters who adore the mean grumpy character, platonically or romantically, but not DESPITE them being mean as if that isn’t who the other “really” is deep down. they love it. they think the other is the funniest cleverest most delightful person alive

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there's something so deeply true about how telling someone you love them is a confession. it's falling to your knees and admitting to the deepest darkest parts of yourself, that you desire what you shouldn't want. it's baring yourself, being so completely vulnerable, handing them a knife and asking them not to make a sacrifice of you.

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my friend thinks I'm not just gonna forget about this guy cause it's been four months. i don't have the heart to tell her it's been almost two years.

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idk how to flirt but i can make things awkward if you're into that

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“It’s all right to love someone who doesn’t love you back, as long as they’re worth you loving them. As long as they deserve it.”

— Cassandra Clare; Clockwork Angel

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sorry to bother but YOUR PFP AND BANNER AND NAME ARE ALL SO COOL!!!!!!!! I’m not calling it aesthetic BUT SERIOUSLY IT LOOKS SO COOL LIKE ITS PRETTY IVE BEEN STARING AT IT FOR TWO MINUTES NOW DELICIOUS

!!!!!!!!!

YO THANK YOU SO MUCH!! i actually took the photos myself so I'm glad someone likes them!

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Transfem to Transmasc solitary must exist as much as any trans solidarity must exist.

Protect my boys.

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I want to _____ you.

reblog and see what your followers say

Interesting..

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some of my transguy friends got to be stupidly hot lesbians before their transitions.

i, on the other hand, looked like someone had turned a scrangly cat into a girl who was *not* supposed to have been a girl

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blasting "gimme! gimme! gimme! a man after midnight" like the pathetic gay idiot i am

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Like my big problem with the whole "NO CIS MEN" specific policy that's so socially enforced in queer spaces (not like you putting that under your nudes or whatever the fuck, but the specific fear and ostracization of cis men as threats in trans groups online and irl) is that that policy is necessarily and unavoidably going to target trans women.

Its going to target questioning and closeted girls who are looking for a space to crack their egg. It's going to target out and proud transfems and amab nb people who are looked at with suspicion as just "faking it" to get access to "resources" or in order to take advantage of and assault the "real queer people" who are always necessarily assumed to be afab, petite, and only ever capable of being victims instead of perpetrators of abuse. And it covers up and hides the actual abuse that takes place in these places because abusers in these spaces are going to be inherently looked at as innocent because they are not cis men.

You can bring along your cis girlfriend to the trans support group but if anyone dares to bring their cis boyfriend then they're ignoring others boundaries and endangering the group. This group is for "women and femmes" but if that femme has a penis or facial hair then their really just a rapist in disguise. Damn has anyone noticed that everyone here only knows about what testosterone does to your body but no one in the room can define what "anti-androgen" means.

I've seen this play out time and time again in my damn near decade of experience in this community, on and offline. And it's especially painful whenever I see another trans woman talking about how all cis men need to be kept away for everyone's safety because it just feels so "fuck you got mine." I was able to do the right make up and voice training and get on hormones early enough that I'm only viewed with a little bit of suspicion. But this is overwhelmingly enforced by afab trans and nonbinary people who think they're feminists cause they get mad when a man says "bitch" but will absolutely never question why they view people with vaginas as inherently safe and people with penises as inherently dangerous. I'm sick of it