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I may not be where I wanna be just yet but the differences are still incredible. Also peep that pec muscle in the right picture 😏

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Welp. I may not be quite where I want to be but that is entirely because I eat like shit 24/7. The picture on the left was this morning (183.4) and the one on the right was from august of 2019 (200 - but not the fattest I ever was).

Consistency is key and nutrition is 80% of weight loss. Now if I only I could stick to that 😅

Also it’s been approximately 18 years since I posted to this blog lmao

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The Resistance Manual is an open-source wiki guide where you can find and add information about the most recent proposed policies for various social justice issues and how to resist them.

You can also find information on issues and upcoming elections specific to your state, crisis resources for marginalized communities, a list of social justice organizations to support, a calendar of upcoming events to join, and a list of essential readings on related issues.

“Action begins with information.                                            Get educated. Get organized. Take action.”

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Trump’s Muslim Ban Realized

Today on 1/27/17 Trump closed America’s doors to refugees, indefinitely, banned immigrants from several countries, suspended the Visa program, and effectively left untold numbers of people stranded–including those with Green Cards and especially those with no where else to turn who had already been approved to come here.

It is not a ban purely on Muslims, just on specific (majority Muslim) countries, so there’s a chance it could hold up in court.

He signed this executive order on Holocaust Remembrance Day. Even if he didn’t understand the significance of that, I have no doubt Bannon and the other nazis on his staff did. 

This is monstrous.

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So the Rogue POTUS Staff Twitter is … terrifying

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Lmao

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Even in death you cannot respect a woman enough to use her name. How disgusting.

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I know it’s dubbed but like….is it?

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Hubs is back from his third deployment and I didn't work out. St all. While he was gone. I did go for a run yesterday and we are at the TINY ASS gym rn. Waiting for him t finish his mile.

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Active ways to cultivate positive body image:

(Because oh my god, it’s so hard, and everyone’s all like stop feeling so bad about yourself and it’s like how???) 

Be naked. A lot. Sleep naked. Have sex naked. Eat cereal naked. (Or naked and wrapped in a sheet. Favorite thing.) 

Follow beautiful, confident, (un-photoshopped) body-positive babes on the Internet. Unfollow anything that makes you feel insecure. Exposure is key. You’re not going to get it if you don’t seek it out, because the media sucks and wants us to feel like shit about ourselves so they can take our money. (Some hashtags to follow: #effyourbeautystandards #bootyrevolution #blackisbeautiful #transisbeautiful #wheelchairlife #fatkini #fatshion)

Lingerie. Next best thing to being naked. 

Self care, babe. Different for everyone. (Me? Showers, books, shaving my legs, nature walks, dark lipstick, good playlists, clean rooms, candles, sexy time.) 

Get ready in your underwear. Boobs = happiness. 

Self portraits. Be pro-selfie. Take a million selfies. Take sexy selfies. Take no makeup selfies. Take bad angle silly selfies. Take artsy tripod selfies. Take everything-is-on-point selfies. You’re gorgeous; document your gorgeousness. You don’t even need to post them. 

Stop with the self deprecationnnnn. Pleeeeaseeee. It’s hard to control your thoughts love, I know, but you can control what you say. NEVER insult yourself out loud. Dare I say compliment yourself out loud? (And if you can, do your best to try to body-positive-ify your thoughts too.) 

Sex (including solo sexy time), wine, and chocolate. In that order. 

Share the body love. Compliment your girlfriends. Cultivate a nonjudgemental, supportive, lift-each-other-up “we’re so cute” friend group. Everyone’s insecure. Compliment your besties. And strangers, too. Be that person that makes everyone feel good about themselves when they’re around. 

Good luck gorgeous. It’s a battle. We gotta unlearn all this societal bullshit.

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Actually going to the gym again 😍

Starting measurements(in inches):

N: 14 1/4

Bi: 16 1/2

Bust: 40 3/4. Over: 37

W: 37

H: 46

T: 28 3/4

C: 16 1/2

Weight: 204-208

Current measurements, and they're not even the biggest because I didn't have a tape measure at that time (kinda glad). When I moved to NC I was literally doing nothing, I was out of work for over a month. I ate like shit. Was nervous about going to the gym alone and not knowing what I was doing.

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Today my husband brought at least 5 monster cans, 1 large red bull can, and an app inside to throw out from his car. I watched him take them out of his car and he just looked at me and said "I don't have a problem." <p> Needless to say, I think he has a problem.

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An Apology To My Body

I am sorry for filling you with beer and bad thoughts and then asking you why you shook. I am sorry for pinching you, for hitting you, for bruising the thin-skinned parts of you. I am sorry for the names I called you when we were fighting. You are not ugly. You are not useless. You would not be better off gone. I’m sorry for almost throwing you out into the street because my sadness was too much for me. I’m sorry for carving my fingernails into your thigh and then resenting the way people asked, “How’d that happen?” I’m sorry for plucking you and knicking your calves with drugstore razors. I’m sorry I let some people see you in the moonlight. They didn’t deserve to know the color of your hips like I do. I’m sorry for leaving you convulsing over a toilet bowl over some boy. I’m sorry I did not thank you for simply trying to take me where I wanted to go. I’m sorry I screamed at you to shrink, shrink, shrink when all you could do was grow. I’m sorry that this apology is ten years too late. I’m sorry that it will probably come again. I’m sorry that I do not treat anybody else as poorly as I have treated you. I’m sorry that I am constantly learning how to love you, when you have never once doubted how you feel about me. I’m sorry.

                                                                               — Lora Mathis

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First "run" in North Carolina completed (I mostly walked 😕)

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Played soccer the other day (finally) and twisted my ankle. Fuck. Seriously can't wait for it to be warm enough, and my ankle be good again, so I can do sprints. What is wrong with me? Lol

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What a productive day this Friday has been! Cleaned the house, sent out emails and programs, finished up my sociology homework, wrote a paper for composition that is due on the 6th, and got ahead in anatomy class! Also managed to make this amazing paleo pumpkin spice bread. Cause who doesn’t like fall recipies?! 🍂🍁🍃 this recipe made a moist, dense, delicious and healthy festive bread we can enjoy guilt free(eating shouldn’t make you feel guilty anyway, but you get what I mean) here’s the recipe! 1/2 cup coconut flour 2 teaspoons pumpkin pie spice 1 tablespoon cinnamon 1 teaspoon baking soda 5 eggs 1/2 cup canned, full fat coconut milk 1 1/2 cups pumpkin puree 1 teaspoon vanilla extract 3 tablespoons pure maple syrup, honey or coconut sugar

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees 2. Mix dry ingredients in a large bowl(coconut flour, baking soda, spices) 3. In a smaller bowl, mix wet ingredients (eggs, vanilla, coconut milk, pumpkin puree, maple syrup) 4. Pour wet ingredients into dry ingredients bowl and mix until there are no clumps 5. Optional: fold in Enjoy Life dairy free dark chocolate chips, walnuts, pumpkin seeds, etc. 1/2 cup 6. Pour dough into a greased bread pan and bake for 45 minutes Allow to cool (or dont, just a warning) and then enjoy! I ate mine with homemade apple butter mom made for me, but butter, almond butter, or even eating it plain is still delicious!

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If you’re like me and love pumpkin flavored things, you have to try this. Pumpkin pie “nice cream”. So good. Tastes just like pumpkin pie. Here’s the recipe:

3 bananas, frozen 1/2 cup of 100% pure pumpkin purée, also frozen 3 tbs nutmeg 3 tbs ground cinnamon 2 packets of stevia in the raw (optional) Crushed walnuts (also optional)

I recommend freezing the bananas for at least 2.5 hours to make sure that the nice cream turns out closer to the consistency of actual ice cream. I’m thinking about using this as a filling for a frozen vegan pumpkin pie. I’m gonna test it and get back to all of you. PUT THIS IN YOUR MOUF.