secondsonaym

[secondsonaym]

Trying to close my inbox because unfortunately some people just didn't seem to get the message of my previous post, but when I try, there's an error that says "use 25 or fewer characters"

?????

Functioning app, everybody

So consider this a more direct announcement until I find a way to fix it: Any asks I get directed as if they're for characters in the AU (or just as if I were still working on the AU in general) are gonna get ignored/auto-deleted.

Taps the sign that is my previous post.

[secondsonaym]

I am the good vibes anon. Here to send you good vibes ✨️✨️✨️✨️

I don't particularly need them, but thank you?

[secondsonaym]

Ayo so what's going on

Hey so. No doubt you've noticed I am Not Really Doing Shit here anymore.

And. There's a lot of reasons for that.

Gonna put the bulk of it under the readmore, but I highly recommend you look it over, if you ever enjoyed the AU to any capacity.

The one I've talked to you guys about a loooot is that my disabilities (chronic fatigue+migraines) flared up pretty hard in the later half of the summer last year, and have been in constant flux following, only just recently having stabilized a little to the point I can be somewhat regularly productive.

But they're still disabilities, and they could pop back up at any point.

Another reason is simply that my focus has drifted elsewhere. I have ADHD, and experience fixations a lot, and while Cult of the Lamb was one of my longer ones, it's definitely started to wane (There's a mix of reasons why it is, but none I can really articulate without sounding like I'm blaming others, which I don't want to do)

So my mind has been drifting back to a more neutral state, letting myself enjoy other things without the constant feeling of "I should be writing the AU. I should be drawing the AU. I should be updating the AU."

And when in this neutral state, I've been letting my interests drift carefully back to my Original ideas and projects. As in. Stories and characters I made up with my own brain, separate of fandom.

Because while I love fandom, fandom can't exactly pay the bills unless your fork over your soul to it, and I don't really want to do that.

So I've been finally returning to my original story and large headworld, Court of Fools.

I want to make a game for it, I want to make things for the larger lore and worldbuilding, I want to share it with people. But I can't do that if I'm focusing on fandom work to the extent I did with the AU.

Would I like to have the AU in a sort of finished state where people aren't left with a billion questions? Well, sure. But it would be a lot of work still. There's still a LOT of story beats and details in my brain, but I just never got a good chance to get them out, and now the prime opportunity has passed.

I wouldn't say that means I'd leave this blog a wasteland, perhaps I'll come back with doodles and stuff now and then, but. I guess, basically, the AU likely isn't going to be touched in any large capacity for a while? Maybe if I can organize some sort of schedule, I could find a way to dripfeed more stuff back here, so I wouldn't say it's 100%, totally, for-sure, absolutely dead. It's just... Not my creative priority.

I would hope that through the AU, I have made you interested in my art and storytelling as a whole, because if you did enjoy those aspects, separate of the fact that it was a fandom work, then I would highly recommend you stick with me and see my work on Court of Fools and its larger world--It's my passion project, so I'll be giving it my absolute best all the way through, too.

Things have been silent on it for a while, primarily because of my fixation on Cult of the Lamb, so I'm really gearing up to get back to it.

My first plan is to make a smaller game, or games, set in the same world--something to get back into Ren'Py properly, practice implementing certain gameplay elements I want to have, and so on. I'll be sure to make a proper announcement on the relevant spaces when I do get into that more formally. Catch me on bluesky!

In the meantime, if you'd still like to be in my general sphere and see me create, I do still do adopts and stuff over on my ko-fi. For as little as $1 a month, you can see my concepts, preclaim adopts, and get monthly doodles, so please consider checking it out--I'm, currently trying to meet a goal for survivability, as my disabilities really destroyed my ability to do things the past few months.

Sooo, yeah. I think that's the bulk of what I wanted to say? In summary:

AU is going Super Dormant and you likely won't hear from me here without long stretches in between

I'm working on more original stories and projects, hopefully a game

You can find and support me on ko-fi, which will really help mitigate stress from not being able to do much last year

Really sorry if this disappoints or surprises you, though I'm fairly sure a lot of you saw this coming. So. Here's just a formal confirmation or whatever, I guess.

I'll catch you later!

[secondsonaym]

Ayo so what's going on

Hey so. No doubt you've noticed I am Not Really Doing Shit here anymore.

And. There's a lot of reasons for that.

Gonna put the bulk of it under the readmore, but I highly recommend you look it over, if you ever enjoyed the AU to any capacity.

The one I've talked to you guys about a loooot is that my disabilities (chronic fatigue+migraines) flared up pretty hard in the later half of the summer last year, and have been in constant flux following, only just recently having stabilized a little to the point I can be somewhat regularly productive.

But they're still disabilities, and they could pop back up at any point.

Another reason is simply that my focus has drifted elsewhere. I have ADHD, and experience fixations a lot, and while Cult of the Lamb was one of my longer ones, it's definitely started to wane (There's a mix of reasons why it is, but none I can really articulate without sounding like I'm blaming others, which I don't want to do)

So my mind has been drifting back to a more neutral state, letting myself enjoy other things without the constant feeling of "I should be writing the AU. I should be drawing the AU. I should be updating the AU."

And when in this neutral state, I've been letting my interests drift carefully back to my Original ideas and projects. As in. Stories and characters I made up with my own brain, separate of fandom.

Because while I love fandom, fandom can't exactly pay the bills unless your fork over your soul to it, and I don't really want to do that.

So I've been finally returning to my original story and large headworld, Court of Fools.

I want to make a game for it, I want to make things for the larger lore and worldbuilding, I want to share it with people. But I can't do that if I'm focusing on fandom work to the extent I did with the AU.

Would I like to have the AU in a sort of finished state where people aren't left with a billion questions? Well, sure. But it would be a lot of work still. There's still a LOT of story beats and details in my brain, but I just never got a good chance to get them out, and now the prime opportunity has passed.

I wouldn't say that means I'd leave this blog a wasteland, perhaps I'll come back with doodles and stuff now and then, but. I guess, basically, the AU likely isn't going to be touched in any large capacity for a while? Maybe if I can organize some sort of schedule, I could find a way to dripfeed more stuff back here, so I wouldn't say it's 100%, totally, for-sure, absolutely dead. It's just... Not my creative priority.

I would hope that through the AU, I have made you interested in my art and storytelling as a whole, because if you did enjoy those aspects, separate of the fact that it was a fandom work, then I would highly recommend you stick with me and see my work on Court of Fools and its larger world--It's my passion project, so I'll be giving it my absolute best all the way through, too.

Things have been silent on it for a while, primarily because of my fixation on Cult of the Lamb, so I'm really gearing up to get back to it.

My first plan is to make a smaller game, or games, set in the same world--something to get back into Ren'Py properly, practice implementing certain gameplay elements I want to have, and so on. I'll be sure to make a proper announcement on the relevant spaces when I do get into that more formally. Catch me on bluesky!

In the meantime, if you'd still like to be in my general sphere and see me create, I do still do adopts and stuff over on my ko-fi. For as little as $1 a month, you can see my concepts, preclaim adopts, and get monthly doodles, so please consider checking it out--I'm, currently trying to meet a goal for survivability, as my disabilities really destroyed my ability to do things the past few months.

Sooo, yeah. I think that's the bulk of what I wanted to say? In summary:

AU is going Super Dormant and you likely won't hear from me here without long stretches in between

I'm working on more original stories and projects, hopefully a game

You can find and support me on ko-fi, which will really help mitigate stress from not being able to do much last year

Really sorry if this disappoints or surprises you, though I'm fairly sure a lot of you saw this coming. So. Here's just a formal confirmation or whatever, I guess.

I'll catch you later!

[secondsonaym]

A bit of a random question: Will Stolas get a partner in the future?

Does it matter if he does or not?

[secondsonaym]

(blinks my eyes cutely)

you want to buy some of my adopts sooooo bad

no, but seriously, my disabilities are currently at the point where i can work maybe a couple hours, then fatigue as well as a migraine hits me, forcing me to stop everything and spend a good chunk of time in bed so i reaaalllyyy need the support

I also have commissions open and am more confident in being able to get through them, albeit at a pretty slow pace, so if you want some pretty art from me then by all means <3

My adopts

My commissions

You can also become a ko-fi supporter to get previews/preclaims to my adopts and discounts on commissions

[secondsonaym]

FINALLY DONE

This was a big ol' pic I had set out to do for my ko-fi supporters on Halloween, but disability just kept slapping me with fifteen different things in quick succession, so it was pretty slow OTL

But! It's done!!!!!!!!

[secondsonaym]

Howdy ho, if anyone's shifting over to bluesky because of the recent X decisions, I've been there for a little while but have decided to try and shift more to it now!!!

So here's my profile!!!

[secondsonaym]

BTW I did some halloween-y lambs which are up on my kofi now yippee yahoo

Kofi link

[secondsonaym]

kiss me goodbye, im defying gravity

lamb yuri....

Star belongs to @secondsonaym

[secondsonaym]

habby halloween :)

don't have any pretty art this year because i'm working on a sort of ambitious pic for my ko-fi supporters and due to energy consistency i won't even have it done today. crying </3

[secondsonaym]

BTW I did some halloween-y lambs which are up on my kofi now yippee yahoo

Kofi link

[secondsonaym]

BTW I did some halloween-y lambs which are up on my kofi now yippee yahoo

Kofi link

[secondsonaym]

Btw that leshy post i meant like. Full on writing *prose,* not. The AU in general. Were my energy more consistent I would want to keep it up, but it's just my body is not aligned with my brain half the time.

[secondsonaym]

Howdy ho, if anyone's shifting over to bluesky because of the recent X decisions, I've been there for a little while but have decided to try and shift more to it now!!!

So here's my profile!!!

[secondsonaym]

Narinder's such a buzzkill

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I dunno if I'll ever get back to full-fledged writing for the AU but. The ideas are there. In my brain juice. And I had a bit of energy so I was able to get this finished up!

Basically a lil explanation for Leshy's head branch thingies