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Your soul stained my shoulders. My whole life smells like you. This will take time, undoing you from my blood.

Nayyirah Waheed

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I actually did not expect that I would someday meet someone who could single-handedly make my heart flutter and complete my day with just their warm eyes and bright smile.

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“The people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, no matter how far they wander.”

— Robert Tew

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I just can't say that 'it should've been me', when I didn't even take the chance the universe gave me. A chance to tell you just how much space you take up in my heart, my mind, and my entire world. A chance to show you how easy it is to love you, to cherish you, and to care for you. A chance to make you feel all the love, care, and tenderness that you deserve. But at the same time, it was also a chance that could've broken whatever we have right now. When you read this, you'll probably see me as a coward and an all-talk-but-no-actions kind of person, but it's fine. I can always be the coward and the one who can't walk the talk if it means that I can always see your eyes shining brightly, your smile wider than usual, and your laugh louder than it has ever been, even if it isn't because of me.

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i am writing this again with the hopes of reaching you. it has been a while since i have seen you. i hope you're doing great and is happy with everything that's going on with you. i guess you already found your person. i hope you believe me when i say that i am proud and truly happy for you. even though my heart is full of bittersweet emotions, i am writing this for you with a sweet smile, calm mind, and loving eyes. i hope you both take care and love each other always. i hope you still remember that you will always have a comfortable space in my life.

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Maybe I already know the truth. I'm just afraid of admitting it because it might become more real than it already is.

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“We just got to accept that some people can only be in our hearts, not in our lives.”

— Kathy B.

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Intimacy is not just physical. To crave a persons presence and energy rather than just their body is the purest form of intimacy.

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People make a lot of good "thank god I'm not a kid anymore" posts about like school bullies or homework or puberty. But actually my #1 top of the "thank god I'm not a kid anymore" list is the fact that I can leave the event when I want to.

Any event I'm at! I can say "okay well I'm tired I'm going home goodbye." Could not do that shit as a kid. If you're a kid it's like yeah you will sit here at your brother's soccer game in the cold for the next 1.5 hours. You will sit here at your sibling's football practice. You will stay at this BBQ until the whole family is done with the BBQ. You are stuck at the mall until mom finds the pants she needs. You are stuck at the grocery store. No we don't know how long. You are stuck at band practice. It's running late but you're not allowed to leave. You are stuck at the party that the adults said you're leaving soon but they keep talking to these 2 people who showed up late. What the Fuck.

And that shit is on top of having homework.

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i always have the urge to write you a letter consisting of thousands of words my heart always fails to deliver to you personally. however, until now, i am still unable to find the right words to let you know exactly how i feel towards you. so, for now, i hope you bear with me and my subtle advances as i am just gathering my courage and finding the heart to finally break it to you, with the possibilities of breaking your heart, too.

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i need 40yo me come from the future right fucking now and say don't worry wait a little longer it's gonna be okay you'll find your place

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i just hope she knows 'cause if she doesn't then ahgalhgkhlakjgahlgha

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i feel like im missing them everyday even in times that i am with them

sorry yeah ive got a bad case of Thinking About My Friends. im afraid its incurable. symptoms include happiness and love and wishes that they will have the life they want to live.

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badly want to experience the quiet side of romance

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oh to love and be loved

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This goes so hard

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sometimes, i really envy those people who wear their hearts on their sleeves. as a person who is so used to keeping their feelings and emotions bottled up and away from the light, sometimes, there's just a part of me that wants to let everyone know every little thing im hiding. the problem is, i don't know how to. and often times, it kinda feels wrong to be seen vulnerable and weak.