scrambledjenny

[scrambledjenny]

Give a boy a girlfriend he’s happy for a day

Turn a boy into a girlfriend she’s happy for life

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I find it funny that I have “be kind” on my profile when I’m incapable of being kind to myself

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It’s going to get a whole lot more lonely for me, but happens. I should be use to lonely

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I’m so mad at myself for telling someone how much I appreciate them, and for them seeing me as me not as mask or masc or monster I feel I am. I’m just a fucking idiot. I’m trying to tell them that they meant a lot to me and now… now I’m just kicking myself. It’s not flirting or anything. It’s just. Why am I so stupid? Why be open? Why do anything? I’m so stupid.

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Never talk to people. Never be you in front of them. Never let down your mask. Always keep pretending. It just hurts you to be vulnerable and real and authentic

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Why can’t I stop crying tonight?

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I wish I could just go out someplace and be alone

Go on a drive and not exist for awhile

Not be person

Not be me

Not be anything

Just quiet

Wishful thinking

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I’m spiralling so hard tonight. It’s so hard getting to have moments of being authentic me and then having them taken away having to pretend to not be me. I literally can feel the physical change. The weight crush me as I mask back up, and it’s hard to bounce back into that.

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I should just delete everything. Everything would be better without me on the internet

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This is the money Marge. Reblog for good fortune

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Sorry I haven’t posted in forever 💕

You should send me an ask if you like this

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What I’d give to have someone see me, to flirt with me, to make me feel seen and desirable. To not worry about being too fat, too ugly, too masc, too monsterous. To be wanted and desired. To be loved. To not have to work constantly to have someone want you.