Today... today I just want to give up. The work stress is too high. The financial stress is too high. The pain is too high. The joy is too low. Hope feels low.
But here I am anyway. Still moving. So... if I stumble across this later, I want this to be the bathroom wall. I kept going. I survived. I made it through. I've done it before. I'm doing it today. I'm sure I'll do it again in the future.
Sometimes I am just tired and overwhelmed and struggling... but don't know how to create a scenario in which taking the break I need is feasible or allowable.
Isn't it weird how bad things, like trauma resurfacing, spur you on to work on things you didn't have the will power for even just a day ago? Cleaning house, working out, journaling, playing an instrument, drawing. All of them things I like to do, but couldn't find the willpower to. Next, I want to go skating.
Tfw you're still awake and only have 3 hours until you have tonget up.
And then tfw current me dgaf because i dont want to work tomorrow to help cover someone else's department, so who cares if they don't get my best brain power?
And then finally tfw your future self is screaming on the inside because it turns out it's not just about rebellious bad attitude at work, it's also about how I will feel generally.
I honestly do not think “AI will never be as good as human creativity” is a good argument at this point. Like yes, it is true right now, but they’re just going to keep trying to prove it wrong. To me the line is, “Modern AI is built off of PLAGIARISM, UNPAID and UNDERPAID labor.” AI is a labor rights issue, not just for the people who’s labor it would replace, but for the people whose labor was STOLEN for the AI to “create” anything.
Running a little cross platform test on reach vs platform with some WIP art from a little #TearsOfTheKingdom something that I'm working on for an eye-catch ^_-
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I like to draw, play trombone, write, and skate. I am good at zero of these things, but I like them. I also love TTRPGs and board games when I have time.
I'm an occupational therapist studying for my certified hand therapist.