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sarahwrites37 · 1 year

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Lines from "Maybe In Another Life" by Taylor Jenkins Reid that altered my brain chemistry 🫀

My life may be a little bit of a disaster. But I am not going to lie here and stare at the ceiling, worrying the night away. Instead, I go to sleep soundly, believing I will do better tomorrow. Things will be better tomorrow. I’ll figure this all out tomorrow. Tomorrow is, for me, a brand-new day.

Even after I got over him, I was never able to extinguish the fire completely. He still, all these years later, shines brighter to me than other people.

I may be broken and scared. But I am alive.

I want to try order instead of chaos.

I’m going to make a plan. I’m going to be proactive.

And then I realize that simple and easy aren’t the same thing.

I have a life to create here. Romance is great. But it’s only one part of a well-rounded life.

Things will always work out for Hannah. You know? She was born under a lucky star or something.

I am here today, alive today, because I made the right choices, however brief and insignificant they felt at the time.

I find that when you are doing something you are not supposed to be doing, the best course of action is to act as if you are absolutely supposed to be doing it.

“We don’t know what would have happened. But whatever would have happened wasn’t supposed to happen.”

“Say it with me. Everything is going to be great.”

We can’t say what we would do in other circumstances. We can only know what we will do with the ones we face.

“I can’t love a different movie just because everyone loves the movie I love.”

I want to try to do something myself, knowing that when I have nothing left, someone will take me the rest of the way.

Her voice is strong and stoic. She is a force to be reckoned with.

I have to admit things in order to move forward.

"You are unstoppable. You are the strongest woman I’ve ever known.” "Strongest person. She is the strongest person I know. Her gender is irrelevant."

And part of loving someone, part of being the recipient of trust, is telling the truth even when it’s awful.

And I think to myself that if, by being here, I have taken away one one-hundredth of the pain that Gabby feels, then maybe I have more of a life’s purpose than I ever thought.

“Like you meet them and you think, this one isn’t like the rest of them, this one is something?”

I thought it the first time I met Ethan. I thought there was something different about him, something special. And I was right. Look at what we had. It turned out not to be for a lifetime, but that’s OK. It was real when it happened.

I truly believe we could mean something to each other, and we owe it to ourselves to see.

If I’m meant to find him, I’ll find him. But sometimes I wish I got to decide what I was meant to do.

“You know, when you meet the love of your life, it makes you do crazy things"

I’d go so far as to say your actions in love are not an exception to who you are. They are, in fact, the very definition of who you are.

"I don’t think meeting the love of your life gives you carte blanche to ruin everything in your path. There are a lot of people out there who find the person they believe they are supposed to be with, and it doesn’t work out because they have other things they have to do, they act like adults and do the right thing.”

We make choices, big and small, every day of our lives, and those choices have consequences. We don’t get to erase them just by saying we didn’t mean to. Fate or not, our lives are still the results of our choices.

I’m no longer a person willing to pretend the things I’ve done wrong are justifiable because of how they make me feel.

I’ve been thinking about breaking the rules. I’ve been thinking about giving you my number. Or asking for yours. But I care too much about my work to compromise it by doing something I’ve sworn not to do. All of this is to say that I wish we had met under different circumstances. Maybe one day we will end up at the same place at the same time. When we are just two people.

If there are people in this world we are supposed to love, we’ll find them in time.

The future is so incredibly unpredictable that trying to plan for it is like studying for a test you’ll never take.

That’s what you do when you want something. You don’t look for reasons why it won’t work. You look for reasons why it will.

If you love someone, if you think you could make them happy for the rest of your life together, then nothing should stop you. You should be prepared to take them as they are and deal with the consequences.

Relationships aren’t neat and clean. They’re ugly and messy, and they make almost no sense except to the two people in them.

“I mean I love you, and I want to be with you, and if you want to be with me, then nothing is going to stop me."

The world is splitting further and further into an infinite number of parallel universes where everything that could happen is happening. It’s a legitimate interpretation of quantum mechanics.

It’s entirely possible that every time we make a decision, there is a version of us out there somewhere who made a different choice.

I have to think that while I may exist in other universes, none is as good as this.

So I have to think that while I may exist in other universes, none of them are as sweet as this.

#maybe in another life #taylor jenkins reid #book quotes

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sarahwrites37 · 1 year

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Celestial Threads: My Quest Towards Passion and Purpose

In the tapestry of existence, where colors meld and narratives intertwine, there lies a constellation of stories waiting to be unveiled. Amongst this celestial ensemble, I, Sarah Margaret Gicaro, emerge as a vibrant star. Dear reader, let us embark on this odyssey—a dance with destiny and a celebration of the human experience. Through the words that grace these pages, I hope to impart a profound truth—that within each of us lies the power to transform, to transcend the ordinary, and to create a life story that radiates with authenticity and boundless possibility. With the stroke of my pen, I invite you to step into this living tapestry, where the threads of my past and present converge, revealing the essence of who I am.

I was born on a radiant summer day, the 4th of May, in the bustling city of Trece Martires, Cavite. Like a shooting star streaking across the night sky, I arrived with a blaze of curiosity, ready to illuminate the universe with my unique light. In the tender embrace of my family, I took my first breath, embarking on a journey that would be uniquely mine. Like a blossom unfolding in the gentle summer breeze, I began to navigate the intricate dance of life's rhythms. In the tapestry of my upbringing, there is a special thread that weaves through the fabric of my life—a place where my roots found firm ground. Indang, Cavite, a quaint town nestled amidst historical landscapes, became the backdrop for my formative years, shaping me into the person I am today. In the embrace of this close-knit community, I begin to experience the harmonious symphony of rural life—the symphony of rustling leaves, the melody of chirping birds, the cadence of laughter that fills the air, the lively morning markets brimming with the colors and flavors of local produce, and the vibrant festivities that brought the town to life. It was within these humble surroundings that I experienced the purest joys and learned the deepest lessons of life.

In the early morning light, I would embark on enchanting walks with my beloved grandmother. Hand in hand, we would explore the winding paths, breathing in the crisp air and savoring the beauty of nature unfolding before us. As the sun dipped below the horizon, the dark evening sky became our playground. With my cousins by my side, we would sing our hearts out, our voices echoing through the night. The melodies soared and intertwined, carrying the weight of our innocent dreams and aspirations. These songs, etched into the fabric of my being, remain a testament to the unbreakable bonds we shared beneath that vast expanse of stars. My grandmother, my guiding light, was always there when my mother embarked on her work duties. Her love was a constant unwavering presence that nurtured my soul and shaped me into the person I am today. Even now, every visit to Indang evokes a flood of nostalgia, and I am transported back to those precious moments spent with my beloved lola. One recurring event that holds a special place in my heart is the "Santacruzan" in our Barrio. It became a cherished tradition, a celebration of community and faith. From the tender age of two until I turned twelve, my grandmother urged me to partake in this vibrant procession. Year after year, as May unfolded its blossoms, I eagerly prepared myself for this celebration. Adorned in a beautiful gown, every intricate detail woven with love and care, I would join the procession with grace and pride. It was during those moments, amidst the cheers and applause, that I felt a sense of belonging and purpose, as if I were part of something greater than myself.

I took my pre-school, elementary, and early junior high school education at Saint Thomas Becket Academy in the City of Trece Martires, Cavite, laying the foundation for my intellectual growth and personal development. The classrooms became a canvas upon which my mind painted vivid strokes of understanding as I delved into the vast realms of social sciences, mathematics, language arts, and the natural sciences. Moreover, it was a place where I discovered a community of educators who believed in me—their dedication to their craft went beyond the realm of textbooks and exams. They saw not just a student, but an individual brimming with untapped talent and boundless potential. I can still vividly remember the faces of my teachers who believed in me, even when I doubted myself. They saw my potential, even when I struggled to see it within myself. Indeed, their impact over my early 10 years of learning extended far beyond the confines of my education.

In the intricate tapestry of my life, a new chapter unfurled as my family and I embarked on a journey that led us to the busy city of General Trias, Cavite. Leaving behind the familiar landscapes of Indang, we ventured into the unknown, opening ourselves to the possibilities that awaited us in this bustling urban haven. Honestly speaking, I found myself caught in the whirlwind of adjustment as I entered this transition period. I found myself grappling with feelings of unease and longing for the familiar embrace of serenity that had once defined my daily existence. It was not just the tranquility of Indang that I mourned, but also the deep connections forged over 13 years of shared experiences and cherished moments. Yet, even as I mourned the physical distance that separated me from those cherished souls, I found solace in the knowledge that true connections transcend time and space.

Moving on, I also found myself facing yet another significant transition—transferring to a new school. As an introverted person, transferring to a new school was a daunting endeavor. But within the depths of my introverted soul, a quiet determination emerged—a resolve to embrace the unfamiliar and to uncover the hidden treasures that awaited me. As I transferred to Blessed Maria Cristina Brando, I embarked on a journey that extended beyond intellectual growth. It was here that I deepened my relationship with God, exploring the boundless depths of His love and finding solace in His divine presence, since this institution is led by nuns.

As I ventured into the adolescent stage, I experienced a time of transformation, discovery, and the delicate dance between childhood innocence and the dawning of adulthood. It was during this period that I found myself navigating the labyrinthine corridors of self-discovery. The once-familiar contours of my identity began to shift, morphing into something new and unfamiliar. The world around me seemed both enchanting and bewildering as I grappled with questions of purpose, belonging, and the ever-elusive quest for self-acceptance. But adolescence is not without its challenges. It is a time of uncertainty, where the path ahead seems shrouded in fog, and the pressures of societal expectations loom large. I faced the formidable task of carving out my own identity amidst the cacophony of voices telling me who I should be and how I should act. I stumbled and faltered, experiencing moments of self-doubt and grappling with the fear of failure. Yet, through it all, I discovered an inner reservoir of resilience—a strength that emerged from the depths of my being, propelling me forward in the face of adversity.

In the ebb and flow of unpredictable tides, I discovered a sanctuary, a respite from the storm of adolescent emotions. Books became my steadfast companions, their pages transforming into portals that transported me to worlds both real and imagined as the authors poured their souls onto the written canvas. Music became the soundtrack to my journey, a tapestry of melodies and lyrics that echoed the depths of my emotions. Nature became my sanctuary, an oasis of tranquility amidst the cacophony of life—from the gentle sway of the trees, the delicate fragrance of blooming flowers, and the whisper of the wind. Sunsets became my daily poetry, a canvas upon which the sky painted its most vibrant hues—a gentle reminder that endings, too, can be beautiful. Coffee became a moment of indulgence, a sensory journey that awakened my taste buds and invigorated my senses, reminding me to pause and embrace the present. And then there were ice creams—frozen delights that would transform my darkest days into moments of clarity and sweetness. These things taught me that amidst the complexities of existence, it is often the small moments, the subtle gestures, and the familiar comforts that bring the greatest solace and nourish the soul.

Adolescence also carried with it the stirring of romantic entanglements—the intoxicating dance of first loves, heartaches, and the unveiling of the complexities of human connection. On September 2019, like a delicate butterfly emerging from its cocoon, my heart fluttered with newfound emotions, awakening a kaleidoscope of feelings that both thrilled and confused me. It was during this period that I found myself falling headlong into an affection that consumed my thoughts and my heart. For nearly one and a half year, I reveled in the warmth of a young romantic connection. Yet, as time unfurled its chapters, I began to sense a yearning deep within my soul—a yearning for something more than the confines of a romantic commitment. On the early months of year 2021, I realized that the early years of my life were meant for exploration, growth, and self-discovery. The desire for freedom, independence, and the unfettered pursuit of my passions and hobbies echoed louder with each passing day. With trembling uncertainty, I embarked on the arduous journey of untangling my heart from the grip of a love that had once seemed unbreakable. It was a painful decision, as I grappled with the fear of hurting another and the profound impact it would have on our shared circle of friends. Yet, deep down, I knew that honoring my own desires and pursuing the path of self-discovery were essential for my personal growth and profound commitment to embracing the depths of my individuality.

As the world grappled with the onset of a global pandemic, my family was thrust into a whirlwind of challenges that tested our resilience and faith. In the midst of these turbulent times, one of our greatest fears became a harsh reality—a sorrowful event that forever altered the fabric of our lives. In January 2020, our beloved grandmother, a shining beacon of compassion, love, and generosity, departed this earthly realm, ascending to the heavens above. The weight of her absence reverberated through our hearts, leaving an indelible mark of grief and loss. Our tears mingled with the tears of relatives who had also experienced her unwavering love and witnessed the depth of her kind spirit. In the tapestry of my existence, my grandmother has been a constant source of unconditional love, guidance, and wisdom. Her gentle embrace and reassuring words provided solace in times of uncertainty. She taught me invaluable life lessons that have shaped the person I am today, lessons that I hold close to my heart like precious gems sparkling amidst the darkness. Though the ache of her absence persists, her memory remains an eternal flame that illuminates my path. I find solace in the knowledge that she is forever intertwined within the tapestry of my life, an ethereal presence guiding me from beyond the veil. Her legacy lives on through the love she showered upon us, the lessons she imparted, and the compassion she instilled within our hearts.

In the midst of a global pandemic that brought forth uncertainty and upheaval, we made the choice to transfer me to a public high school located near our house. As traditional classroom settings gave way to remote learning, the concept of modular learning emerged as a lifeline, ensuring the continuity of education in these challenging times. Embracing this new approach, I found myself immersed in a system that relied on self-directed study and independent learning. Instead of physically attending classes, I received modules—comprehensive learning materials that encompassed the curriculum—allowing me to navigate through the subjects at my own pace. In addition to this, I appreciate the dedication of educators at this academic institution. Despite our choosing the modular learning approach instead of online classes, they went above and beyond to ensure that we received a quality education. One remarkable initiative taken by our educators was the establishment of a YouTube channel dedicated to our learning journey. Recognizing the limitations of modular learning and the importance of visual instruction, they saw an opportunity to bridge the gap by utilizing the power of technology. Through this YouTube channel, our teachers became virtual guides, presenting engaging lessons and providing us with valuable insights.

As I stood at the crossroads of my senior high school educational journey, I found myself at a crossroads where familial expectations and personal passions collided. While my family advocated for me to pursue Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics (STEM) due to its promising financial opportunities and sense of practicality, my heart was steadfastly drawn towards the Humanities and Social Sciences (HUMSS). As a stubborn yet tenacious Taurus woman, I have this innate strength that emboldened me to choose the path that ignites my soul. A path that resonates with my deep connection to the principles of fairness, equality, and the pursuit of truth—one that is aligned with the law and social justice.

As I stand at the precipice of a milestone, my heart swells with a mixture of anticipation, pride, and reflection. The time has come for me to don the mantle of a graduating HUMSS student at Emilio Aguinaldo College-Cavite, where my senior high school educational journey has unfolded and flourished. These past years have been transformative, offering me opportunities for growth, learning, and self-discovery. Guided by dedicated Emilian educators, I have developed critical thinking skills, embraced my unique perspectives, and engaged in meaningful dialogue. Their support has nurtured my curiosity and allowed me to freely express myself. Now, on the brink of a new chapter, I am filled with a sense of potential and endless possibilities. This program has provided me with a versatile skill set that extends beyond the classroom walls. While the road has not always been smooth, I have persevered, drawing strength from the challenges I have faced. The trials have forged resilience within me, shaping me into a tenacious and adaptable individual ready to tackle the ever-evolving landscape of life. Looking back, I am filled with gratitude for the relationships I have forged along this journey. The bonds formed with my peers, teachers, and schoolmates have been instrumental in shaping my growth. As I prepare to embark on the next phase of my journey, I carry with me the lessons learned, the memories cherished, and the dreams that burn brightly within my soul. The flame of curiosity, ignited during my HUMSS studies, continues to guide me forward, beckoning me towards new horizons and unexplored territories.

As I prepare to walk across the stage, adorned in a cap and toga, I do so with a profound sense of gratitude for the experiences that have shaped me and the knowledge that has enriched my mind. With a heart filled with gratitude and a mind brimming with possibility, I step forward into the next chapter of my life, ready to embrace the adventures that await.

Inspired by trailblazing women throughout history, I resolved to make my own mark on the world, shaping a path that aligned with my passions and values.

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