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Ruminations on Saturn

As a Saturnian person, it has taken a long time to embrace the lessons that Saturn has consistently tried to teach me. The responsibility of Saturn certainly makes it feel as though it's not an enjoyable part of your life to partake in.

Saturn is stability. Many of the things that we take for granted are Saturnian. The stability that comes from building the underlying support structure of your life, especially early in life when it is often built for you, makes it easy to not think about it. Stability is a state that you don't have to think about until it's gone or disrupted.

Saturn is diligence. It is the feeling of looking forward at your life & it feeling insurmountable, like you don't know where to start. But when you do & you work consistently, it goes by quicker & easier than you expected. It is the joy of routine - of understanding that routine & diligence builds a form of power. It is the art of being thorough, working to the point where you learn about every crack & crevice, & understanding deep intricacies that are only learned through experience.

Saturn is neglect. The flip side of diligence. Saturn compels us to acknowledge the things that we need to be diligent & consistent in working on - but if those things are instead neglected, you might not notice a difference at first. Sometimes things degrade so slowly that it never feels as if it's change day to day, but it is. & when that neglect builds, it can become catastrophic if left unchecked.

Saturn is boundaries. Boundaries require diligence. They are a day-in, day-out negotiation of learning about someone else, their boundaries, & also enforcing your own. Knowing what, ultimately infringes upon your self & being. Boundaries are not a one-time event. But, once again, if neglected, you shrink yourself in your relationships & aren't able to display your true essence. Saturn provides the protective boundaries needed to be yourself.

Saturn is slow, Saturn is methodical, Saturn is cold, & Saturn is unforgiving. Listen to Saturn.

Saturn is transition. It is the small changes day by day that we adjust to. The ones that add up, making us look back at our lives 3 years ago, & realizing that we couldn't imagine it anymore even if we wanted to. It is the realization that change will always occur, & our structures of support are integral in helping us adapt to that change.

Saturn is the endless passage of time. Knowing that nothing will be forever, knowing that we are insignificant in the grand scheme of things, but also knowing that your commitment is what builds a legacy that changes the course of history. The power of routine builds over time, creating generational change through diligence & consistency. Saturn rewards this type of behavior, reminding us that the responsibility we feel for ourselves is important and helpful to make our lives better & more stable. That stability provides the foundation on which we can change the world.

None of the accomplishments we see & learn about coming from other people are done in a day - they are a result of the Saturnian pull - a need to contribute a legacy, to look beyond ourselves at generational change. It is slow, it is methodical, it is cold in nature. But don't let the coldness of Saturn fool you. That coldness is needed in order to think about how to contribute to the world in a loving, & caring manner.

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Fleabag is making me think so much about the role 4H/8H/12H placements often end up having within their own family aka the black sheep but also the one everyone expects to miraculously save them and resolve the worst issues and heal family traumas while also rejecting them for it.

They're the only ones capable - also because they've been forced to do so tho - of bearing the weight of actually being ready to change things by addressing what's wrong but while others are subconsciously grateful for them to do so, these natives also are an easy target in their family because of it aka they've become the scapegoat as it's easier for others to treat them like this than to recognize all the internal dysfunctions they've helped to create and maintain.

4H/8H/12H placements know that even if it's painful, it will free themselves and potentially everyone else around to speak about the most difficult topics, to end some stigmas and taboos that have been going for too long within the family.

It's hard though and that's why their own blood and community often resent them for it: they think these natives are troublemakers that just want to attract attention, that just want to ruin everything (just like Claire's husband is seeing Fleabag btw) because remember how it's always better for toxic people and abusers to make sure that things don't change so they can go on with their bad actions and bad treatments of everyone around.

Because speech, just like writing, is freeing: that's how you'll get to make sense (or at least try to) of what's happening in your head, you'll give tangible forms to your thoughts and feelings, that's how you can explain yourself to others - which is also why abusers are so against it and try to control their environment by constantly distorting the truth through lies, gaslighting and such.

Anytime Fleabag is saying something her family doesn't want to hear - because they're not ready and they don't want her to disturb their fragile balance (even if it's an unhealthy one, they're like 'it has worked like this so far, stop trying to change it!!') - they're literally rejecting her and making her feel like she's such a mess, a trash person and almost like she shouldn't even exist, even actually trying to erase her impact by acting like she doesn't matter - it's unfair and that's often what happens to 4H/8H/12H placements because they dared say out loud what was supposed to be kept silent, to be kept a secret.

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Dancing With the Moon 🌝

The Moon is in Aries ♈

Aries is the spark of inspiration that begins moving the wheel. Even just a little spark can set off a huge fire.

With the Moon in Aries ♈, you may feel more forceful & restless after the deep, watery Pisces ♓. Action is the name of the game - you will feel emotionally fulfilled when you take action, learn by doing, or even assert yourself. You might feel impulsive, restless, even reckless with the Moon in Aries.

Pisces was about yearning, feeling, imagining a better future - giving up something in order to achieve your dreams. In contrast, Aries is much more about the inspiration that comes from doing.

The Moon is in a mutual reception with Mars in Cancer ♋ at the moment. They're exchanging contradictory energies, looking to each other for resources. This will balance out the fire, making your reactions less forceful.

But it's still a Martian-ruled Moon. Stand up for yourself, get out there & put action to your dreams, allow yourself to learn by doing. Aries loves doing, & seeing what the result is. Let yourself be inspired by your own actions. Each step you take in a new direction opens up a whole new world of possibilities around who you're becoming. Let Aries be your spark.

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Dancing With the Moon 🌛 Lunar Eclipse Edition

The Moon is in Pisces 🌑 ♓

Pisces is the dream world - the depths of the ocean, the expansiveness of a seemingly neverending open field. Pisces is the possibility of infinite, & the ability to feel those possibilities all at once.

The first eclipse of the eclipse season comes with the Moon in Pisces ♓

There is a rawness to Pisces that makes people feel exposed. It's easy to get lost in that feeling. There are many emotional experiences that add up to Pisces, & Pisces collects them, holds them & carries them forth, using them as inspiration for the future.

The imagination of Pisces can be a form of creativity that makes the world better, & it can also be a form of escapism. This full Moon eclipse is a stretch between the dream that you've built up, & the practical steps you've made to make it. The point is to find the balance.

Use your imagination. Eclipses are visceral in nature, revealing sharp changes in life that take a while to adjust to. This eclipse will show you where you are on the axis between imagining your dreams & taking practical steps to get there.

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Dancing With the Moon 🌛

The Moon is in Aquarius ♒

Aquarius is the cultural water-bearer to the material structures that Capricorn creates, popularizing culture sprouting from newly realized material realities.

After the practical, disciplined nature of Capricorn, Aquarius brings an unpredictability & unconventional lens that compels us to distill & popularize new ideas. When the Moon is in Aquarius, this will make us want to connect with others, conventional & unconventional, to build & bring to fruition community networks that allow our individual selves to thrive.

The Moon in Aquarius is a social time, where intellectual ideation is rewarded & taken in a sincere manner - but it's also a time where socializing & connecting with community is important, whatever form that takes.

There is a need to understand & grapple with our changing material realities - changing financial situations, changing climate, etc. The discipline of change shines through in Aquarius, which can be thought of as a "go with the flow" type of sign, but is also very in tune with the fact that change is constant, & unpredictability is constant - no matter how much we try to.

Allow yourself to settle & be okay with your changing material realities, & find the utility in your surroundings. Connect with people through this & see what ideas flows from the community that you find yourself in. Look to the margins for inspiration. Connecting with your community is one of the most important things to be doing at this time.

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Dancing With the Moon

Moon in Capricorn ♑🐐

Capricorn is the reality check after the optimism of Sagittarius.

After the wild, childlike optimism of Sagittarius ♐, it's time to get real. With the Moon in Capricorn ♑, we are checking in with ourselves. It's so hard to live wild & free & also be in touch with your material reality, but the coldness of Capricorn & the Moon being in detriment is perfect for this.

Dreams are nothing without setting structures in place to achieve them. Earth signs allow us to do this, & Capricorn especially allows us foresight to build up long lasting structures that give us the ability to make mistakes, & be human, while also being supported by our underlying structures.

I often recommend doing something that has been on your mind, putting it off - the Moon in Capricorn gives you the ability to push down those feelings & unease about starting a project, or doing chores that need to be done, & recognize that what needs to be done is sometimes non-negotiable, & your life will be better once it's done.

The Moon in Capricorn is also a good time to think about long-term goals, & where you wanna be down the line. The coldness & objective nature of Capricorn allows you to love yourself in a way that gives you agency for a long time to come. Sometimes excessive warmth is not love, but indulgence. Coldness sometimes allows you to love yourself, making shrewd decisions now that set you up for the future.

Start that project you've been thinking about, do those chores you've been putting off, make those shrewd decisions you haven't had the courage to make. Capricorn will compel you to - it will still be tough, but this will give you the extra push you need ♥️

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Dancing With the Moon 🌛

Moon in Sagittarius ♐🏹

Sagittarius is the playful, optimistic ecstasy after the depths of Scorpio.

The Moon in Sagittarius brings forth a tendency to want playful banter, to explore, & to find inspiration among the mundane aspects of our lives. To lose ourselves in concepts other than the ones we usually reside in. Expansion beyond our current confines.

After the river of emotion we experience with Scorpio ♏, Sagittarius is optimistic, inspirational, & gives us a yearning to try something new. If you have a restless feeling after being locked in place by emotion during the Scorpio Moon, this is a great time to follow that restless feeling & try something, anything, new. I personally love having a list of things I would like to try, & I find myself returning to it when the Moon shifts into Sag.

This is also a time for humility, to laugh at yourself, & to laugh while trying new things. The learning process is important to Sagittarius, & is a boon to both teacher & student. You will feel emotionally fulfilled when engaging in doing new things & allowing yourself to embrace the clumsiness of it. This is a time for messiness!! Embrace it.

This Sagittarius Moon will square Saturn in Pisces, & oppose Jupiter in Gemini. Jupiter in Gemini might compel you to feel a tension between the need to be trendy & Sagittarius's need to be messy. Sag doesn't necessarily care about the opinions of other people, whereas that's the majority of what Gemini cares about.

This is going to form a massive square in the sky, creating tension between Saturn, Jupiter, Mercury, & the Moon. All of those dimensions of your life will pull at the seams, forcing you to shift & make decisions about conflicting interests that have been bubbling to the surface.

Let your inspiration for exploring, trying new things, & being silly flow. It will show you the path to take with your conflicting interests. Honor your inner child, & allow them to guide you. ♥️

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The Moon is in Scorpio ♏🦂

Mutual Reception w/ Mars in Cancer ♋🦀

Where the Scorpio Moon feels like a fixation on feeling deep, transformative feelings, the mutual reception with Mars might balance that need for depth. This will allow us to better feel these deep wounds & integrate them into ourselves without getting lost in it.

The deep, flowing river of emotion is constant with the Moon in Scorpio. There is a need to find the core, the origin of our hurt, our pain, & transform it. This will be a transformative one, especially with the Sun in Virgo providing a practicality to our feelings - a supportive sextile.

Check which house Scorpio falls in. Are there deep feelings that have not yet been uncovered that need to be acknowledged? Let them flow. The Moon provides us with a tendency, let that tendency take hold.

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Eclipse season has truly snuck up on me. The next eclipse is Tuesday, September 17th at 7:45pm. This is what it looks like:

I usually describe eclipses as something that has been building since the last eclipse, but will finally reveal itself during eclipse season. Like screaming into the void when the void finally responds. It's a moment of clarity where you finally realize where you've been putting your energy, & the places that you'll be rewarded.

Be sure to check which houses the eclipse falls under to know where this energy will be concentrated.

There are two things that stick out to me about this chart:

- The sole dispositor, or rather the central planet in the theme of this first eclipse, is Mercury. For people with heavy Mercury energy, this will be a BIG & eventful eclipse for you. The theme is communications, learning, & taking practical steps toward your dreams & goals. With it being a full Moon, I would presume that it could reveal the impracticality of your dreams, or you could be taking big, practical steps toward them. With Saturn in Pisces I would probably lean toward the former.

- The concentration of Pisces ♓ energy is gonna be felt very acutely. With Neptune & Saturn co-present, we might get some hard reality checks about our idealism that might shake our faith. This is also in a square to Jupiter, which rules optimism & faith. We might feel like we're not doing enough to achieve our bigger life dreams, & some real material barriers might reveal themselves to us. It's up to us to understand them & how, just like the water of Pisces, to find the cracks & crevices, dissolving material barriers & reforming them to change our own realities.

I do think that there will be some reality checks in our rhetoric & idealism which will ultimately force us to be more practical, but practicality does not necessarily mean that we have settled. It just means we need to spend some time working on our foundations.

Happy eclipse season babes!

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Having a debilitated Moon is like knowing you *should* be feeling some type of way in a certain situation, but never quite being able to fully embody it. Or on the other hand, when feeling something, the debilitation pulls you away from what you should be feeling.

The Moon is in fall in Scorpio ♏. Where the Moon wants to feel & move on, Scorpio wants to dwell in it. It wants to problem solve, to move toward a solution, whereas the Moon is not about finding a solution. It's about experiencing. Scorpio wants to take these experiences, these crises, & transform them into a strength. Scorpio almost wants crisis, needs it in order to thrive.

The Moon is in detriment in Capricorn ♑. This is a similar problem but in a different way. The coldness & the dryness of Saturn removes the emotion from the situation, making it easy to push your emotions down so that you can get through it. But it doesn't allow you to feel. The cautiousness of Saturn pulls people away from living & fully experiencing things.

Feelings, the body, the Moon, are so important. While the problem solving of the problems the Moon faces is important, it is also easy to ignore the feeling & instead learn not to listen to your body.

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When I'm sitting with a dear crush who says something unexpectedly delightful, my heart lights on fire. It echoes throughout my life, reminding me at unexpected times how much I adore them.

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& my heart melts

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Dividing capitalism into “good industrial capital” and “corrupt financial capital” is what the fascists do, infamously the Nazis. So if you go on about how the problem is “crony capitalism” and not just capitalism as a whole congratulations you agree with a conspiratorial worldview which massacred 6 million Jews.

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You know what I hate? Non bite-sized crackers. If you have to bite into a cracker, it's expected that there will be crumbs. Those crumbs should exist in your mouth!! Not anywhere they fall. It also frustrates me that large crackers are served in places where it's inconvenient for finger foods, like standing events. Then I have to awkwardly hold my paper plate below my mouth as I make this deafening crunch in the middle of someone talking to me. Sometimes they'll even pause while I do it. If you get crackers for an event, make them bite sized!!!

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