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Hey someone who works in the medical field tell me how its legal for a hospital to just “forget” to schedule a procedure that has been on the books for almost a year now??? Because now my partner can’t get the reconstructive surgery he desperately needs on his wrist and hand (despite literally receiving a prep packet last week for it).

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Haven’t listened to Welcome to Night Vale in a long time so i decided to give it a relisten, and tragically episode 12 is,,, terribly applicable to today’s time.

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After a coworker of mine gave me shit for needing to go home after literally vomiting on my way to work this morning, this is the sentiment.

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Always "My Chemical Romance Stadium Tour" and never "My Chemical Romance Abandoned Local Church Tour"

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11/22/2010 🕷️⚡️ Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys is released, the fourth studio album by My Chemical Romance

Photos: Scans from the California 2019 Special Edition boxset, with art direction by Ellen Wakayama, Matt Varnish, and Gerard Way, and photography by Neil Krug and Greg Watermann.

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Lake from Infinity Train was the first time I saw my TV glow

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Why does Trump’s new pick for AG look like Sweet Dee from It’s Always Sunny???

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no, spotify, i don't want to use ai to "turn my ideas into playlists". i already fucking do that with my brain and hands and i do it for fun. what, should i get ai to pet my cat for me? to play my silly games for me? to spend time with my beautiful wife for me? how about i rend you asunder

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I hope that the person who told me and my partner “congratulations on your ex-friends” when they saw us holding hands after the March 8th Fall Out Boy concert in Austin, TX knows how much my partner and I think about what you said

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In a rare occurance, it is now once again very appropriate to rewatch Bo Burnham’s Inside

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Knowing that more than 3/4ths of the men in my state voted for Trump genuinely makes doing my job (i work in higher academia) so damn hard sometimes. Because how am i supposed to keep up being the empathetic and understanding confidant and advisor when looking at someone and knowing that odds are they directly participated in the stripping of my rights?

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Me, dying for the 46,000th time during the Queen Gibdo fight in Tears of the Kingdom

*sighs*

*closes game* *opens new save of Breath of the Wild*

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Seeing a conversation about being kind to others be stripped of its nuance and turned into a debate on whether or not people deserve human decency just based on the concept that people are overworked and are “too tired” for social interaction is so disheartening to me.

No one expects you to be everyone’s best friend, but acknowledging someone’s existence and experience is a free action and allows for overall a more positive and meaningful experience for everyone involved!

I work an incredibly emotionally and mentally strenuous job, and yes, I am EXHAUSTED at the end of the day. On top of it all, I am chronically ill, disabled, and also the primary financial provider for my family. So yeah, it’s exhausting to work over 40 hours a week, and still have more to do outside of that.

That being said though, it is not my right to take that out on the people I work with whether they are coworkers or clients. It is my job not just as an employee but as a fellow HUMAN to greet, meet, and provide a base level of care and sympathy, especially when the people I work with are almost always dealing with external pressures and issues too. It is not my place to be the judge of who is and who isn’t deserving of kindness and respect.

I understand being tired. I understand being disabled. I understand living in the hell that is late-stage capitalism. And at the same time, I am able to understand that all of humanity is in this together, many of us trying our damnedest to make it by day by day.

Something else I’m seeing people not understand is that just because something is not a third space to you, does not mean it isn’t for others, and just because you are having a bad time doesn’t give you the right to take it out on other people, especially when you have no idea what someone else is going through.

“Well but third spaces are places where people can socialize outside of work or school!”

Ok, but even in common third spaces like parks, libraries, shopping malls, people STILL work, and its important to understand that a third space to you is not always what a third space is to someone else. It is unfair to treat others poorly just because “your third space isn’t a grocery store/bank/school.” What about the gardeners and landscaping staff who keep your third space park in order? What about the librarians? What about office workers? Or teachers?

There’s nuance to this conversation because people forget that for so many people who are overworked, they don’t have access to third spaces that are typically enjoyed by others! But dont they deserve kindness and respect at their third spaces? Does the ER nurse who is severely overworked and underpaid deserve to be treated like they are invisible or worse, like shit, when they are simply trying to grab a meal at a fast food chain? Do restaurant employees deserve to be completely dismissed when going to the bank to deposit their tip money? Do teachers deserve to be ignored when they try to make conversation in the break room, just because “they’re at work so it’s not a third space”?

No! This is why the conversation about community and basic kindness is so important! Kindness is free and it doesn’t take that much more energy to give basic decency to others. Toxic individualism and bastardized therapy speech has convinced people that their own self comfort is more important than being considerate of other’s circumstances regardless of what they might be. Was it difficult for me to feel like myself after experiencing a horrendous flashback? Yes. Was it also amazing to see the face of the trans woman I worked with (immediately after said flashback) light up when i told her that she wasn’t alone and that her name was beautiful? Also yes!

These things can coexist and if we want to foster community and a better existence, we need to prioritize taking it upon ourselves to create that better experience for all we come in contact with. It cannot happen overnight and it cannot happen without radical action.

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Today i’m reminded of that old post about pets not understanding on a literal level what human emotions are (like love) but still show and express their fondness for their caretakers to their fullest extent

This morning my cat and my partner had to wake up to me screaming from another PTSD induced nightmare. My partner held my hand and reminded me what was real and what wasn’t, and our cat moved from the foot of the small bed the three of us share and laid high on my chest until my breathing leveled, purring louder than he ever has before.

When i woke up again two hours later, both were still curled up next to me. If that isn’t love I don’t know what is.

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Thanks for saving my laundry

A lot of adulthood is shouting “AUGH MY LAUNDRY” hours after you put it in the washer/dryer and running to go fetch it