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Testing... testing.. is this thing on?

Testing… testing.. is this thing on?

Well, hello! Let’s see if I still know how to do this. I would be surprised if there is anyone still subbed and actually reading this blog. But if there is, I would love to see a comment below. I don’t even know where to start! I started this blog originally “to document my experience of changing what my definition of normal is.” As a secondary, and more longform and less edited version of my…

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THIS is probably one of the most important things I have learned over this last month. Learning to be still and just sit with myself, without feeling unproductive or uncomfortable. Self care is the key to being able to choose to love myself and enjoy life. #selfcare #loveyourself #beyou #effyourbeautystandards illustration by @bykellymalka ✨💕🙌🏻 (at Newport Beach, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq4FHeoFdca/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1pnpvr75fr2bf

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💕✨ perspective has been HUGE for my recently. I didn’t even realize that I was spending my days pointing out to everyone else the positive things in life, but I had a really negatively focused outlook on my own. I have had to work everyday, changing my perspective and literally changing the way I see myself and my life, and holy moly guys. When I take a moment, am mindful and realize what I am grateful for, my whole perspective shifts massively! It’s not easy, but life it so much better and more fun when I have just as much love and acceptance for who I am right now as I do for the person next to me. Take a chance on yourself, you might surprise you 💕💕 #facetofacefriday #effyourbeautystandards #mentalhealth #healthjourney #anxiety #anxietyrelief #mindfulness #loveyourself (at Newport Beach, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq1bmlMF5EI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hn16ktxa61xk

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Probably one of the most important things I’ve done ✅ get out and vote if you can 🗳 ✨ #vote #ivoted https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp2sRQxFARu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10dglos3awp1b

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Weight stayed the same this weigh in, tbh thought it would be up so I’m happy. Been feeling pretty sick recently and dealing with some anxiety too, it’s easy to get wrapped up in my own ish but I’m working my self out of it. But I might take a short little break from posting on here, not sure but think it may be good for me ✌🏻💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp02qiYFk2W/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gwoaxs5v9yzf

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Love these #sunsets 🌞🌜😍 (at Newport Beach, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpvb5XhF3Oq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1r6wl237ei6vo

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A reminder for today. Credit @bykellymalka 🙌🏻✨💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpsQJ1YlFoh/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=jyxenyhmheq8

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I’ve never identified with a shirt more @monicachurch ✨ thanks for creating awesome merch! This has been such a conversation starter 😂 (at Orange Coast Community College) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpqH02Hlftm/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1td82ic6b5oh8

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@itscashh is 18 today, I don’t think I can call her my little cousin anymore. Lucky to have such a cool, kind, and talented family member and feiend 💕💕💕🎉🎊🎈 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpp5FSEF4ca/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=g2vf4tcw4hte

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🌱🌱 If you’ve kept an eye on my story then you may have been part of naming the newest addition to my plant fam! This devils Ivy’s name is ✨Athena✨🌱🌱 #plantsofinstagram #plants #devilsivy #pothos #homedecor #houseplants https://www.instagram.com/p/BpkN58mlGwp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1rbp6dkkpyjey

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@thisdoodgoose is a master when it comes to #puppydogeyes 😍 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpipg4BlJ02/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7m910iw4fbnt

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Not where I was, but feeling good with where I am today. 🖤 Perspective is everything 🙌🏻✨ #fitnessjourney #fitness #effyourbeautystandards #weightlossjourney #weightloss #weightlosstransformation #loveyourself #gym #gymmotivation #gymselfie #fabletics #fableticsleggings #loveyourself #bingeeatingrecovery (at 24 Hour Fitness - Costa Mesa Newport, CA) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bpd0x15lVti/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8wetk5i9j3qi

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Just got back into the gym for the first time in a while, and not going to lie, I am kind of annoyed at myself. I know that won’t get me anywhere, but it was really apparent today that my fitness level and ability have seriously almost disappeared and it sucks. I am SO happy I went and am going to make it a part of my routine again, so I can get back to where I was and go even farther. Not for weight loss, or looks, but because working out and exercising makes me feel good (mentally and physically). Only thing I can do from here is change and work on myself, and take it every day at a time. Despite there being 100 things I could have used as an excuse to not go, I went and I’m proud of that 💪🏻💕 #weightlossjourney #weightloss #fitness #fitness #fitnessjourney #effyourbeautystandards #gym (at Costa Mesa, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpVPQZUle80/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1cbkfon56j1wa

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Time to get REAL with you guys. The one thing that has been true for me since I started documenting my life on here was being honest, no matter what. Sometimes, when things are hard, that can be really difficult, but if I can't honest with myself and you guys, then I would just be continuing the cycle. That's where I am right now, stuck in a cycle of binging, and then freaking out and restricting before my weigh in and i'm over it. It is honestly one of the most exhausting things I could put myself through, and I don't have the energy for it anymore. ✨ ✨ There are so many other things, productive things I could be doing with my time and that's what I am choosing. Part of me wants to stop posting my weigh ins because I let them create this feeling of anxiety and pressure, but I think it would be a mistake to right now. So for now, I have a plan. ✨ ✨ A plan of not letting myself hold on to these feelings of anxiety or pressure to get back into this cycle that I literally hate. ✨ ✨ I am going to be meal prepping good food for breakfasts and lunch for the next week, and most importantly I am going to be kind to myself and realize that a temporary gain is probably going to happen on monday. But I am not going to LET that define who i am and my self worth. instead I am going to use the coping mechanisms i have that are healthy and don't rely on treating my body poorly. ✨ ✨ Just like in my last post, I need to have perspective and see how far I have come, and that this is just a little speed bump in the road. I know I can get back to feeling good about myself, my body, and my relationship with food and the world with some dedication and determination. And of course, realizing that I am worth the work and effort it takes✨💕 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpKM5BXFgXl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gumu0cb7bryo

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Friday. Aka crazy hair day 💁🏼‍♀️😜 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpIfhJqFUjI/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cfwx1ajgvr8k

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Happy #facetofacefriday ✨💕 sometimes I get lost, and seeing photos like this make me appreciate how far I’ve come, and be ok with where I am right now 🙌🏻💕#healthjourney #weightlosstransformation #weightlossjourney #weightloss #mentalhealth #effyourbeautystandards #selflove #beforeandafter #beforeandafterweightloss https://www.instagram.com/p/BpH4TGClG3T/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=l6qw9r2iyhps

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✨ starting to realize what it means to achieve a healthy balance in life is always changing. What worked for me a few years ago doesn’t work now 🖤 working on redefining what balance means for my life now ✨🙌🏻 what does “balance” mean to you? Let me me know in the comments ⬇️ #healthylifestyle #healthjourney #selflove #selfcare #effyourbeautystandards #weightlossjourney #mentalhealth #balance #losangeles #california #orangecounty https://www.instagram.com/p/BpDcFy1FgEr/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=150va6gortw0a