roxanne-xanne

[roxanne-xanne]

Breathless in deep ocean Can't swim in light How come you live Without air

Silent cries are heard By those who are deaf and blind But why others can't? Instead they eat you alive

[roxanne-xanne]

I feel emotions, yet you asked what it is?

Still in one room, yet you feel lost

People surrounds you, yet you feel alone

[roxanne-xanne]

Emptiness is hard to define

Its better to be silence

Than hearing them says

That's only on your head

[roxanne-xanne]

Goodbyes are inevitable Moments become memories Not all sweets can’t become bitter Not all visible can’t fade  Treasures are meant to kept But we won’t know the value unless its loss S orrow aren’t always sad Joy aren’t always happy But hey! Can you please not knock on my door Cause welcomes aren't always meant 'to stay’

[roxanne-xanne]

Anne and The world within

Chapter 1

How long I’ve been here? I don’t know anymore the concept of days, all I know was morning and evening where Chuck tortured me endlessly.

“I won’t kill yet. You have to say first you’re bloodline of Harold” Chuck say after he almost drowned me and whipped me.

Rather than saying anything, I spit blood on his face that makes him more agitated. He slaps me harder that make my lips taste blood. He walks out in the room after several of torture and still didn’t get the answer he wants.

I become numb to his torture to the point I’m not scared of dying anymore because I already gave up living. Its easier than expect someone to help me. But this man who came in make me think twice.

Red always treat me after Chuck tortured me, he always sneak in to gave some food and everything I need. Red is an interesting guy, he was fond in school because he didn’t have the opportunity to experience it and he has different persfective among his race.

“Again, I was born and raise here but it doesn't mean that I value the same thing. I can't oppose their believes but I have the right to believe what I want” Red says when he caught me looking at him.

“Do you hate me?”

“I wouldn’t say, I don’t hate your race because that would be a lie. I was raised to hate your kind that it become normal to me. That’s why I hope for younger ones to think and to feel what they want. Sounds contradicting right?” he continued to aid my wounds.

“I’m asking you, if you hate me not as Harold’s granddaghter?”

He didn’t answer, he just continue what he came for then leave but before he left, I said something to him. “Don’t generalized your hate, everyone is individual”

I put the blanket around me and for some reason I started to reminise all the events before I came here and experience this.

It was fine day at that time, everything was normal. Getting nightmares of a girl who looks like me, then waking up, getting ready at school after that I will talk to my friend and hear them talking about Dale.

Dale is who you can describe as tall, dark and handsome but not for me, I don't even gave a damn thing about him. But what makes me curious about Dale is, he was proctective to me ever since grade school but the funny thing is, we don’t even talk but whenever I’m in trouble he was always there to protect me then leave like nothing happen.

Then after talking to my friends, my teacher instructed us to used his time to find a book in a library that we want to make report and from there, everyhing become a mess.

While searching for a good book, I came to a corner that gives eerie feeling and honestly I don't know why but there's something on me that tells me that I should go there.

Without having any second thought, I step my feet on that corner and browse the books there. "What a weird book" I said while checking the book that piqued my interest.

The cover says nothing about what title might this book be nor it has a brief summary at the back of the cover. The paper looks like it survived the time and fire because it has burnt edges but apparantly that makes look like it was the intention of the manufacturer.

As I flipped the pages it gets more weirder and weirder, there's nothing on it except of my name at the very last page of the book. Before I closed the book something bit my index finger which result of dripping my blood on the book. After that happened, I feel little shake on my sorroundings, a howl of the wind and everything that I can describe as an effect on fantasy movie when they opened something they shouldn't.

I was gonna put the book to where I found it but suddenly I found myself in the middle of forest and was about to attack by red fox but like what I said, Dale is always there to protect me.

I was really surprised at that time when I see the red fox lying on the ground while bathing on his own blood then second later the fox turned into human. I was really shocked that I couldn’t move nor what to say at that moment.

Dale grabbed my wrist and then we started running. But the red fox was so fast that we end up cornered by them. Dale took one playcard out of his pocket. He tossed it into the air and said “Thou respond in my call for who am I your owner. Lend me strength, come forth Ari!" then a girl came out in the playcard and possessed Dale.

He fight them until the wolves pack saved us but I can’t say they totally saved us. We ride the big wolf but the red fox ambush us and grabbed me by my neck and put me here.

Chuck is the one who brought me here and put me in this situation. He accused me that I’m the granddaughter of Harold, which honestly, I don’t know where he get that. I don’t know who he is.

My whole body was trembling at that time when I thought I was gonna die. I wanted to cry and call my parents, to helped me. So, when an elder say that they must wait until they prove that I am related to this Harold, I was really relieved that I want to hug her.

But now, I don’t know anymore whether I’m grateful to be alive. I should die right there than slowly dying of losing hope to live. I put my arms around my knee as I hug myself then slowly closing my eyes as my tears started to fall.

"This way Mr. Harold. I saw them there"

"Leave no one. Slaughter them all child, women, men, anyone you see"

"But--"

"They will not listen to our peace . Its either to be killed or killed. That's our only way to stop this millennium war"

What are those voices? Mom and dad? But how come they are with them? What’s the meaning of this?

I open my eyes and to my surprised, Red is infront of me, untying my rope.

“Harold and his packs are coming here. You need to get out of here, they will kill you”

Red help me to get out of the torture room. He help me until I get far away in their village.

“I don’t hate… you” he said before he left.

As I started walking towards my freedom, something came to my mind. What will gonna happen to them? I'm not saint to not hate them, after what happened to me. I can't even stand properly nor stamina to walk but... Chuck is the one who made me like this not all of them.

And they were driven by war that started millennium years ago by their ancestors because of hatred for being different. I don’t know, why they can’t choose for their own future. Was it really disrespectful for their ancestor not to bring their hatred towards to different kind? Or that it became norms to them? I know that we shouldn’t forget our history but we shouldn’t live be their beliefs. History is there to help us learn and change our future.

I gather all of my strength to walked back to where the red fox lair. I run desperately at the middle of the village, hoping I could stop their upcoming war. But who am I again? I was fool to believe I could stop it.

One of the red fox shot an arrow on my shoulder and that’s when the wolves arrive. Dale immediately take me to safe place while the others started attacking the red fox. All I could do is cry silently as they slaugher the red fox. They can’t hear my voice. A howl is the only thing you could hear and that’s when you know the war is now gone.