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Emma talking to Regina while sitting like *that* -> season 5 deleted scene

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Calling you out for excellent self-talk strategies.

I’ve noticed in your posts about ongoing health that you often finish up with something along the lines of “I am experiencing Situations and Limitations, and this is ok. It is unpleasant, but still ok”

(Ok as in morally neutral, not as in everything is fine and normal and should be ignored)

And like… I can’t articulate how much I appreciate seeing that. It’s helpful as an outsider to see things put into context like that, and it’s also excellent modeling. Because I try so hard to talk to myself the same way, but sometimes it’s… just… really hard. And seeing other people using the same words makes it feel a tiny bit easier, for me, like it’s a little more real. And maybe it is actually ok.

Thank you for noticing, and I’m glad it’s something you find validating.

It’s actually something I’ve learned from radical acceptance therapy.

Too many people think that acceptance means either giving up or that you’ve found a way to be positive about something, when in reality it is a neutral stance.

I work daily to accept the curve balls my complex health needs throw at me. I am not happy about them, and nor do I need to be.

I refuse to embrace toxic positivity and say I am thankful for the challenges I overcome because I am not. No one needs to be thankful for surviving suffering. You are not obligated to find meaning in your pain.

It can just be something that is.

But nor should I view myself as negative.

I can acknowledge that I have negative feelings toward it, but I refuse to assign moral value to my situation because health is morally neutral. I will not berate myself with shoulda, coulda, woulda. That’s the path to madness and one I’ve been down many times before.

It’s far more healthful for me to say, “wow, this sucks. What can I do in this moment to care for myself that is realistic and mindful of my limitations?” and move on from there.

Sometimes the answer is “nothing” in which case I accept that all I can do is rest and be kind to myself over it.

It’s hard. But it’s a skill worth learning.

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the dubious philosophy of salmon

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wait WHAT is OREO COKE

its okay, it tastes like someone put the chocolate part of an oreo cookie in the bottom of a diet coke can

meh 6/10

the cookies have pop rocks and cola flavoring in the cream with a vanilla cookie

10/10

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I did a big scary thing today and then I did ANOTHER big scary thing and now I am being small and tired and trying not to think about being scared.

"do it scared" is certainly advice to follow, but goddamn it's exhausting to slog through

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btw if i haven't replied to your messages and you see me posting on here that's just cause i'm a bad person and a terrible friend. hope that clears things up.

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Piping plover chick

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Did you check the weather? - Jeremy Miranda , 2024.

American , b. 1980 -

Acrylic on board , 7 x 8 in.

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Tyler James Williams 2024 Emmys

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I wanted to be part of the club, so I bought a book lol

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I was helping observe and tidy some biotopes in Shibuya yesterday and found this tiny fish. Even the tiniest little living things can be so strikingly beautiful, i was very moved by it.

(Sorry for the lack of art, i have been working very hard on client work and sadly haven't had much energy for my own work. <3 )

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The trio is back! ↳ Wynonna Earp // Wynonna Earp: Vengeance

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Google Docs provides language-model driven autocorrect, where it highlights "unlikely" strings of words and offers to replace them for you.

It makes a lot of sense. But it's also a bit ironic, given that statistical language models started with Shannon's information theory, which identifies "information" with surprisal. Like, you could imagine if you just keep right-clicking the text, eventually Google will rewrite it for you into something carrying zero bits of information.

That's actually what LLM-written texts try to optimize for. Which I believe you can notice!

There is no "idea" in the poem except what is forced on it by the prompt; the text generation algorithm specifically tries to put as few bits as possible into the text. The more clichéd the poem is, the closer it is to optimal.

Sometimes humans fall into the same trap. I keep thinking about the editor who changed "a feeling of jealousy" into "a pang of jealously", replacing the phrase by a cliché and deliberately erasing the bits of information contained in it.

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also ik when we're talking about revolution we mean all sorts of different things but it is important to keep neocolonialism & people living in the global south in mind when we talk about changing things for the better. like yes americans deserve free healthcare and its shocking they dont have it but there's countries where cholera can and will still kill you due to a lack of clean water and proper infastructure. in the global north, dying of cholera is something of the past, something that stopped happening hundreds of years ago. because the north exploits the south and hoards its wealth. like the whole argument of "you're not allowed to tear the system down because people who need access to medical care will suddenly start dying preventable deaths" is terrible because it ignores the fact that this apocalyptic scenario you've come up with that has to be avoided at all costs is already happening, it's just not happening to you. the least privileged person in the global north is not the least privileged person in the world !

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the human stress response seems so maladaptive!