robbie-vespertine

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You know I'm weird when I say

"You give me mustard vibes"

To my best friend

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~Late Night Doodles~

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It’s sad because I have to do this too.

onion not even doing satire at this point

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men with stretch marks my beloveds

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Been a hot minute since I’ve posted. I’ve been in the hospital for the last three months to only go home for two weeks to then be sent back into the hospital and admitted for an unknown amount of time I have spent more time in the hospital than inside my own home as of this year so far. I have been poked so many times that even when they walk in to come do a IV I scream I cry, and at this point, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do because they refused to knock me out. They refused to sedate me I just have to sit there and scream, and they’re aware that I’m chronically ill. They’re aware I am suffering chronic pain.  I had a central line, but the doctors decided to take it out because they had no plans for it. It’s very frustrating to be told that you’re going to get better and everything is going to be OK when at the moment everything is not OK everything is not getting better. I’m only getting worse and makes me feel inferior to everyone. I feel like I’m useless, and even being stuck in the hospital it makes me feel even more useless I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore. Life is not fair I want to fucking die 

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I want to cuddle so bad. I want my body pressed against another body. I want my arms and legs entwined with theirs. I want to feel our breathing and heart beats synchronize. I want to become one being with another person for a little while.

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Why... chronic fatigue... why...

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For a research project!

If yes, please add in tags how you heard about her

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*MWAH* ♡~

You just got kissied!! RB to totally kissy your friends!! <3

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Sometimes I think "oh no what if Im faking my disability" and then my body kills itself for no reason

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deadbeat transmasc guy lounging around in a binder and smoking

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Pls reblog if u vote :)

I just had all 4 removed so now I’m curious how many ppl here have too

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Robin Williams on the set of “The Birdcage” in 1995 in Miami Beach, Florida.

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I’ve been super bored waiting on a transfer out of the the hospital and into rehab therapy. So I’ve been drawing my boyfriend, his brother and my best friend as Jojo characters.

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I am absolutely terrified

TW: Discussing open wounds + surgery 

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I was admitted to the hospital yesterday afternoon, my right knee has a severe open wound and is infected with staphylococcus pseudomonas. I spoke to the doctor and they told me I was too skinny for a muscle flap surgery.

I’m gonna lose my fucking leg. I’m scared, I don’t know what the actual fuck I’m supposed to do anymore… I just wanna curl up, scream and cry. Why did the doctors let my wounds get this bad??! It was left to eat itself away over the last year and now I’m just slowly rotting away…

Fuck my life

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Nothing more punk than someone who is in pain all the fucking time and just continues to exist.

Edit: this isn't about random characters. This is about physically disabled people.