rima-1508-03

[rima-1508-03]

Didn’t write anything for a long time. I graduated.

[rima-1508-03]

UwU UwU

I do reget a lot of thing but cutting my hair will always be one of the things that make me angry... but I still do it.

Lara doesn’t really got time for me anymore but that’s not only because of Tom. She told me many times she has to learn for her a levels and I understand that but I am pretty sure that it has sth to do with her relationship because they are pretty mucho in love with each other.

Julia and callum are also still in a relationship and I am concerned that I will tell her the truth one day. I know that I never liked callum in that way but it still feels weird how I talked to him in the past and I don’t think that she knows about it. I am also still confused bc he committed going into a relationship. She must be an angel

[rima-1508-03]

Everything feels like a weird normal

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I can’t do that. It should be easy, right ?

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It’s like nothing happened? Are we gonna pretend. U are so ridiculous

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They are so happy together. It’s like I was never an option to care about anyway

[rima-1508-03]

I messed up

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U never really cared

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I still miss u

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It was a lie

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She’s skinnier.

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Can we go back ? I don’t want this anymore

I never did this to someone. All my friends left me; I never thought I would have to leave someone but I know it’s the best for you

I miss you. I miss your bed time stories and your laughing

[rima-1508-03]

I miss talking to you so much but I know that I shouldn’t tell you. You look so much happier ?

Maybe it was because I was never good enough to help you.

Maybe it was because I am not pretty enough or because you are more comfortable talking to her than me. I’m pretty sure that’s the reason.

I am annoying. I told you

I always knew that you don’t wanna spend time with me.

[rima-1508-03]

I miss you.

U were the only one who has always been proud of me and now it feels like u were never included in my life

Where are u right now ?

U promised to stay

[rima-1508-03]

I really want to end it all. I started it again and i have to go to school again in exactly 7 days. I am not talking to my best friend and not even my internet friends like me :)

I gained weight.

I am a disappointment

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It’s getting worse again, does it ?

Yes

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What am I trying ?

Telling everyone that I am feeling a lot better but thats truly a lie.