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Why is it always psych majors who feel the need to do the neurotypical equivalent of mansplaining about autism to me?

@neurotypical psych majors: you know nothing. Literally, you don’t even know what you don’t know. I do not need you explaining autism to me, I do not need you explaining implicit social rules or facial/tone signals to me, I do not need you to explain to me why the joke I just made didn’t come across as funny. Maybe YOU should work on understanding autistic communication, social rules, and humor? We do in fact have those things btw. Look up the double empathy problem. Y’all neurotypicals are just as shitty at understanding us as we are at understanding you. Probably more so because most autistic people I know actively study NT behavior from the age of like. Eight fucking years old. How long have you studied autism for? Like a 3 week unit on developmental disabilities in your Intro to Human Development class?

To help you understand, I have made a helpful diagram based on the Dunning-Kruger Effect graph:

Seriously, if I have ONE MORE neurotypical psych major start NTsplaining autism to me, I will personally show up at your college and deliver an eight hour lecture on how little you know about autism and why you should shut up about it and listen to the people who actually know what we’re talking about

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A new mode of production arises out of the newly networked masses.

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A new mode of production arises out of the newly networked masses.

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so can we start hunting down white liberals now or what

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hot take from your local mentally ill friend with swiss cheese memory; saying “if you dont remember something it means you dont care” is fucking ableist. 

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bro im gonna CRY i didnt know this 🥺

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is it weird to have adhd and not have a constant stream of crazy and loud thoughts?? my head is like,,pretty empty on its own and I always create my own noise but I always feel so invalid when people are like “people with adhd can relate to this audio because this is what our minds sound like!!” and then the audio is pure chaos but I just,,don’t relate

oh inner experience is a past hyperfixation of mine i can explain

okay the first thing ur getting wrong is that that isnt what their heads actually sound like, its metaphor about how chaotic the thoughts they make feels like internally

secondly thing so the theory of inner speech (ive done reading on this)

it that there is about 5 types, inner speech, inner seeing, inner emotions, inner feeling (touch, tactile), and pure thought (extremely rare)

these can all be mixed with each other to create blends (except for pure thought)

from what your saying you say you create your own noise so I am going to assume you have inner speech the most common kind and what I have too, with a mix of inner seeing 

so you can have different degrees of how constant and incessant your inner speech is, i personally have a constant monolgue with no pauses

if i am not speaking in my head, i will be speaking outloud or focusing on something with intensity

otherwise its constant chatter which is why people can relate it to such chaotic noises because hearing urself talking in ur head constantly all your life is hell for me personally

i think you have inner speech but just not as severe in intensity

a lot of people can just stop thinking in their heads and be mentally empty for a bit

but your degree of inner speech is not indicative of whether you have adhd or not

its simply the most common type of inner experience is inner speech, 

and people with adhd tend to be more hyperactive and constant inner speeches thus causing those types of posts to gain so much popularity

its a common adhd experience but not universal

there are many types of inner experiences and there is currently no science behind what determines what type you have

mmm hyperfixation really jumped out of me okay hope this helps

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I feel attacked

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i learned that a makeup artist with Parkinson’s just launched a cosmetics brand for people with shaky hands (x)

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truly the thing that has most improved my mental wellbeing since my slow motion mental breakdown sophomore year was not actually improving my time management skills and getting more organized or any of those things that ive been bad at my entire life but instead just not glowing with incandescent self loathing and inadequacy because of it. like i still do a ton of shit at the last minute and forget to open important emails and my bedroom is a mess but im sooo much happier because at least i am not constantly stewing in overwhelming guilt because of it.

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you are allowed to be proud of the victories that no one else can see. like showering without completely hating your body, not breaking into tears at the thought of the future, talking yourself out of a dark mindset, calming yourself down in public, or like waking up every single day and choosing life. be proud of the progress no matter if it is visible for others or not. you’re doing great, keep up the good work!

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listen, when i go to open my mouth & what comes out is 12 degrees of seperation from what the original topic was, u need to connect the dots bitch. think fast. i’m not gonna hold ur hand but we’re leaving now and visiting every topic along the line. wave it goodbye, don’t get hung up on it

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people make a lot of touch-starved gay jokes about Lush but the truth is it’s not a gay experience, it’s a human experience. no one is safe, no one is immune.

you walk in there for the first time thinkin’ I’m gonna buy some hand soap today and then some dude who smells like something impossible, like he’s being described by a YA author, he smells like lavender, leather, and the steam coming from hot pavement after a short summer rain,

That guy. He comes up to you and he asks if he can help you sample something. He leads you to a small, metal basin of water. It’s so pastoral, it’s so quaint. You can imagine it sitting beside your bed with a porcelain pitcher in your farm cottage for you to use to wash your face in the morning.

He rolls up your sleeve a bit, and you awkwardly apologize for not doing it yourself, and he says it’s fine.

Sir LeatherRain gently rinses your hand in the warm water, and then he dries it off attentively. Then he massages some of the product into your palm. It’s the cinnamon bean massage bar. He says “don’t you love how it feels warm as you rub it in?”

He’s making more direct eye contact with you than you’ve ever made in your entire life.

As he finishes, a woman who smells like coffee beans and pink-skied winter sunrises approaches and says “oh I LOVE that product.”

You know it’s about the sell. It’s transactional, but you’re in love. You can’t help it.

You’re also More uncomfortable than you’ve ever been in your entire life.

As you walk away to the register, you clench your hand and unclench it like Mr. Darcy when he touches Elizabeth Bennet’s hand to help her out of a coach.

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Tumblr users are often so arrogant and it shows. They can draw a full cast of POC characters but when POC say "Hey we want more than just our skin tone" they're suddenly deaf as shit.

Representation on Tumblr has become a way for white people to win brownie points just because they took a Hershey's bar and slapped it onto a person's skin tone.

The most disgusting thing is that they insist on making JUST African-Americans. They insist on making JUST one facial type, one nose type, one lip type, one hair type, one slang type, one skin tone.

And when they make a person Asian, it's Japanese. And when they make a person Hispanic, it's Mexican. And when they make a person indigenous, they never specify on which tribe/nation they came from, but you'll bet they're Native AMERICAN.

But my favorite part is when other POC demand representation and those same fucking white people are like "But but but look at all my black characters!!!!"

POC isn't just confined to America.

POC isn't just black.

POC isn't just Japanese.

POC isn't just Mexican.

POC isn't just Native American.

It's from the Miskitu in Nicaragua, from the highlands of Ethiopia, from the deserts of Saudi Arabia, from the mountains of Indonesia. It's from the arroz con gandules, from the folk music, from the festivals. It's many cultures blending, it's speaking more than just English, it's dealing with racism unique to our countries of origin.

It's more than just one universal experience, and white Tumblr isn't willing to show that.

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I know it's sand but I want to eat it

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Remember that fucking Rise of the Guardians movie? with twink jack frost and Hugh Jackman’s fursona??? Remember how like, that was so big??? for like half a year???? and then it completely fucking disappeared???? does anyone remember ANYTHING from that movie?????????? I fucking watched it and I straight up cannot remember ANYTHING. What the hell was that.