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happy birthday to me

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so this is the new year / and i don't feel any different

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mood music

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let live the new year

feverishly burning through three or four days

fighting fire with fire, the threated malaise

let live the new year, let live the life

let live all things in their right time

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old jokes

i am increasingly reminded these days

of the old joke where a man goes to see

his doctor. and he says "doctor, doctor,

it hurts everywhere" as he prods himself

all over. and the doctor takes his hand gently,

takes hold of his finger, and tells him

he has a broken finger.

i don't find it so funny now, though.

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People change in the maze. Oh find the cup if you can. But be very wary, you might just lose yourself along the way

Albus Dumbledore — Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

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happy boxing day y'all

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i’m writing poems about you / and they’re not very nice

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xmas eve

christmas eve is here —

the cat's sleeping on my stomach,

my friends asleep in chairs,

the movies are all playing

there is whisky in the air

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chaiku

get home for christmas —

don't talk about your life and

watch the fairy lights

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questions for my younger self (no. 4)

what about christmas?

what about midnight mass,

and jesus, and hymns, and loving

one another?

what about feeling lonely, and

walking under street lights into rain, and

living unobserved? what about

christmas trees, tinsel, and advent calendars?

i know that you are thinking about

the presents, wrapped neatly by the fire,

but remember this — when you are older.

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"i might kiss you on the back of your neck 'cause it's christmas time"

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regaining my obsession with oasis this week...

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never made no one

don't read so much, just turn it off

just sleep in late, your life can always wait

go out and throw a punch, skip your lunch

forgot your friends and spend your cash on getting drunk

don't be too, don't be too clever

or we'll never take you serious,

never take you serious at all

clever never made no one happy

pretty never made no one happy

dreaming never made no one happy

i guess i never made no one happy

don't think so much, just turn it off

come with me out to the garden, lie and watch the stars then

we can fall asleep, we'll have all we need

forgot your inhibitions, and pretend like we're in love

don't be too, don't be too pretty

or we'll never take you serious,

never take you serious at all

clever never made no one happy

pretty never made no one happy

dreaming never made no one happy

i guess i never made no one happy

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watching oasis documentaries, trying to decide whether i want to be liam or noel more

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buy me a mirror

please do not ask me what

i am doing. because to know what

you are, requires one of the following:

another person; a mirror;

or a good amount of self reflection. and

i have none of these. alone,

it is hard to see yourself.