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agent snooper and cooper :3

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any advice for college? im 3 days in & already want to mysteriously disappear during my next bathroom break

start a psychosexual relationship with one specific and convenient vending machine

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is this even funny i dont think its funny im not putting it in the tags

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Okay so. This is a wild story.

Back in 2007, when I was 17 years old, I made this little two headed rabbit out of felt. I used to wear him in my hair to high school. I took the below photo on my digital camera on top of a school desk and uploaded it to deviant art and never thought about it again.

Last March I got a message on instagram from someone who contacted me because they wanted permission to tattoo something from my deviant art account. I was baffled because it had mostly been cosplay, so I asked what they were interested in and they pulled him up.

I told them I was surprised anyone was interested in him and was fine with it. They immediately were like, what? He's so popular, hasn't anyone told you?

I did a quick google search and honestly nothing could have prepared me.

In the nearly 15 years since I had uploaded this photo it had gone BERSERK. Pinterest has dozens of copies of him, artwork of him, remakes inspired by him, DUPES being sold for years online. Reverse image search showed countless pfps, album covers, memes, edits, A PICREW, endless amazon and alixpress and redbubble products with him slapped on it.

I also found plenty of art, edited videos, all sorts of positive things. And all together its been a rollercoaster of emotions watching something you made when you were a teenager skyrocket in popularity and no one thought to tell you.

I sat on this for a long time, I had to process a lot of emotions about seeing something I had created and kept be whisked off and used like this. I enjoyed the creative work and inspiration, and I despised the people who used it as a chance to make money off an uncredited artist, one who happens to be trans, queer, disabled and native. I feel I should be going out guns blazing and taking down all the listings that are selling him, but it feels ..... I dont know. It feels like a lost cause.

I further sat on it until a friend who knew sent me a photo of a new product Marc Jacobs is putting out.

And Im.

:')

Anyways.

I would love to get the word out that the creator of the two headed rabbit beloved by creative internet weirdos was not made by an anonymous mysterious nothingness, but by a trans and queer and deeply hurting seventeen year old who grew up to be a very happy adult who is still creating things.

Please help me get the word out. I posted this video on both my doll accounts on instagram and tiktok, please share around, please give me a follow to support my new work.

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Gifted-kid-burnout Artemis Fowl is so important to me. He gets half-way to Mars and is just like “oh no… I don’t believe I want to think anymore??” And spends the rest of the trip just staring at the stars and Not Thinking.

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artemis fowl is a strange series because it's about this kid who was conditioned to be a criminal and so has very complex morals which leads to discussion of subjects such as mental trauma and gray morals while the action the characters go through is very gritty and involves stuff such as torture, kidnapping, and psychological manipulation in the first book alone and all the while throughout the book there's just, a fuck ton of toilet humor. never ending fart jokes. artemis could be having a mental crisis about his neglectful childhood while mulch is in the background with his ass bare and pooping out soil

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reylos crying on twitter because Adam Driver explicitly confirmed that Bendemption was never originally in the plans for Kylo....this is justice for the last 8 years, actually

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While cleaning out my room I found a paper that my therapist gave me some time ago to deal with obsessive and intrusive thoughts. Sorry the paper is a little crinkled and stained, but I figured I’d post it in hopes that it will help someone like it helped me.

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Eat Blood? Yea that mean Ur a Dracula

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Gendered parenting is so weird. As a little kid I was a total daddy's girl, I was told I would always try to sneak into the garage, I was always very interested in everything he was doing and would follow him around while he was working, but while my family was never the type to outright say "you can't do that because you're a girl", they simply didn't entertain the idea that I could possibly be interested in cars. Then when my little brother was born, it was just assumed he would become a mechanic like our dad because he was a boy. Even though he, unlike me, didn't like being in the garage much and wasn't all that interested in what dad was doing. Once he got to a certain age, dad started making him help and would drag him away from his actual interests for it, which lead to a lot of arguing and not much actual learning.

Gendered expectations sort of create doubles of children. There's the real child with their actual personality, interests and behaviors, and then there's the Gender Child.

My real brother hated soccer and team sports. The Gender Child that existed only the minds of the adults in his life needed to play soccer because that's what a Boy Child does.

Growing up, I always felt like adults didn't actually know me as a person and they weren't interested in getting to know me. Because they felt they'd already learned everything there was to know about me when they were told "it's a girl".

When I talk about how I never got gifts I actually liked from my relatives (to this day I still don't like getting gifts that aren't something I picked out myself), it isn't actually about the gifts themselves. I don't even remember them. What I do remember is the feeling of being given gifts that were seemingly not bought with the real me in mind. They were for the Girl Child™️ version of me. The me that adults wanted me to be, not who I actually was.

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happy 5 year anniversary to me getting into dc comics! turns out they never fucking bring up damian's mixed culture anyway, so i spent all that time developing a special interest for nothing 😒

me: i dont read dc

someone on tumblr: damian wayne is asian/arab--

me: DJFHWHDHG WHAT *immediately reads batman and son*

AKA I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER FIND REPRESENTATION FOR MY SPECIFIC MIXED CULTURE BUT IT TURNS OUT I WOULD HAVE FOUND IT ALL ALONG IF I JUST LOOKED AT DC COMICS? ANYWAY CHINESE-ARAB RIGHTS

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The contrast between both looks😍😍

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Twitter wallet meme

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