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my final act of love is leaving you alone for the rest of your life. not because i don't love you anymore but because i know there's no more point in staying at a place i’m no longer welcomed. even so, i hope my absence haunts you forever.

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plants that look like they're dying immediately after you forget to water them one (1) time but also recover immediately after you do are my best friends actually. very clear signals, hold no grudges, that's a relationship that works for me

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sometimes u listen to some pop song from 2010 and realize oh my younger self is still in here

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when people are like “the hunger games just stole the plot of battle royale” like listen everything steals from the plot of everything the lion king is just furry hamlet westworld is jurassic park but sexier lost is edgy gilligan’s island there are no original stories and the only good piece of media is jennifer’s body

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When someone says hey how are you and you dont know how to casually explain the insurmountable levels of grief you have been carrying around for years, how you dont know how to mourn for something that never existed, the potential you never had, the timeline that never was. The inescapable doom of a dying planet that you yourself contribute to because you're too depressed and subdued and complacent to make changes. That tiktok is rotting your brain, the microplastics give you daily headaches and stomach issues, the poison youre fed daily, the medication they prescribe to treat the symptoms but not a cure, never a cure. The crushing awareness that humans were never meant to process this much information. AbortionpalestinetexasfloodjamescharlesscandaltrumpelongazaalligatoraushwitzfoodstampkrisjennernewfacehealthinsuranceunemploymentchatgptskincareroutineshewasbraindeadjojosiwaboyfriendscandalICEsayhernameinsidertradingepsteinsuperbowliranepstientrumptrumptrump. pdiddyaqquited.

When does it end?

Waking up nauseous from the ozempic and the antibiotic I said I didnt need, because even though drinking isnt advised youll be deported if you dont celebrate with alcohol and a hot dog. They stole your healthcare to blow up kids in the east. Killer clowns never really went away they just rebranded. Sitting at my desk, killing my spine, watching my tissues decay, replying to 6 emails then doomscrolling till I'm allowed to leave. Waiting waiting waiting to be free. Dying of a disease no one wants to cure, never a cure. Feeling my rage and anger and despair and grief, trying so hard to just be happy, fake it till you make it! Imposter syndrome. Just smile more, try harder why aren't you trying harder? Failure. Loser. Why bother trying the world is on fire and so are you.

But you can't say all that so you just say youre tired.

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This might get a little winded and weird and let me preface this with im okay, but only as okay as I think alot of us are right now. I hope that by posting this, maybe it will resonate and you, dear reader will feel a little less alone. If you read this and get bored and scroll or it doesnt resonate, youre either very lucky or very unlucky idk. Its just insane to me that I'm relaxing on a Friday night, in one text thread talking about ice cream, and in another talking about what to do if new york city gets attacked. I saw a post that was like "lay down and open your mouth so your lungs dont explode. You'll have 30 seconds to get in your basement and stay there for 3 days to reduce radiation poisoning" like I know, I know, crack a history book, these types of threats have been a threat since the 1940s its fine. Is it fine?? Because going to work and taking zoom calls while watching tiktoks of Palestines being genocided in real time, and texting my parents about how to prepare for the 110° F wet bulb temperatures were going to experience next week in between emails has not been so great for me mentally. I constantly think about how Suzanne Collins got the inspo for the hunger games by TV channels surfing. Love island and Gaza. Fallout shelter tips and ariana grande as glinda. Elon Musk admitting the 2024 election was rigged and labubus. Its a constant doom cycle. "Girl, just turn it off, go touch grass, go find your community!!" I would literally love nothing more than to just disconnect from the online world but how easy is that really?? Because these things are still happening regardless of whether or not I choose to stick my head in the sand. (It is at this point I realized I cannot post this to fb and I copy and pasted it to Tumblr) all I know is i am sick. Genuinely actually ill, from a medication I have to take, that makes everyone else skinny, and I just get heartburn and fatigue. The stress of it all, I had to buy a nightguard bc Ive grinded my teeth into oblivion. Rosemary oil to regrow your hair thats falling out in clumps. Like are you fucking insane? You should be insane. Constantly torn between were all fucked and gonna die, and also trying to get better so I can enjoy my future. Fuck its not looking good.

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no other person on this planet was made for you, they were made for themselves. love is all about choices. no one is going to be perfect for you, and i think we need to stop raising everyone on the belief that someone out there, just one other person in the whole world, was “made for you” because it isn’t true. no one is made for you, besides you. other people belong to themselves. if you want to make it work with someone, it’s about hard work, understanding, compassion, communication, and choice

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As someone who used to work in a bank and has taken so so many trainings on fraud and phishing and scams and am a Young Person, I myself have had several close calls with being scammed. It's very easy to have happen to you!! Technology will keep evolving and it will not be explained to you and one day you will live in a world where things are confusing and young people are patronizing.

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What the media won't show

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MANIFESTING

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You guys do know you're supposed to reblog things, right

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"I wouldn't want to bother anyone," I say as the thing inside of me eats me alive.

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My coworker is complaining about the price of eggs being like $7 and im like hmm wasn't that guy suppsed to lower the egg prices? So yall traded in your black and gay neighbors for cheaper eggs and you're not even getting cheaper eggs?