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Arrowheads | Nya Smith x fem! reader | Part 4

Was it wrong to want more?

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They say the best writers are the most experienced. I disagree. Artists have gone on to win awards for their lyricism without anyone having a clue that it was me who wrote their lyrics. And in terms of my experience, I have none. In anything. In anything except rotting in my room and living in fear of things that would probably never happen to me. No one liked those lyrics. They were too personal and too complex for someone to take and somehow connect with. How does an artist who performs in front of thousands of people connect with lyrics that speak of forever living in a shadow and hoping the shadow will never move. How do artists that hope to progress their careers further and further connect with lyrics that talk of never wanting to move, to change, to experience anything new because the chances of something bad happening are low, but never 0. And somehow that number close to zero seems like a 89% chance in your mind. How many people relate to not moving from one corner in the house because it’s the only corner no one can see you from the window and if the door opens, it will be the last corner someone would look in? Not many I found.

People love depressing lyrics. People love lyrics that talk about heartbreak and longing. People love lyrics about unrequited love. People love lyrics about anxiety but not the kind of anxiety that prevents you from living. Paranoia is a quirky word in lyrics, not as severe. Not as scary. Apparently I’m scared to go outside because bad things happen paranoia is better than I’m scared to go outside because my mind makes me think I hear shit that I don’t paranoia. People love lyrics about anxiety and paranoia when it relates to situationships. People love situationship lyrics. People love gay lyrics and bi anthems but seem to push aside lesbian anthems and still somehow relate them to men. I write lyrics I love and no one wants them. I write lyrics that are good but I have no connection to and- and what the fuck rhymes with cinnamon?!

“You’ve got one hell of a frown on you, Nibbles.” Her voice wasn’t loud in the dark of the room but it still made me jump. She shifted in the bed to rest her head on her arm and look up at me.

“What rhymes with cinnamon?” I whispered and I shone my phone brightness in her face to see her expression. She squinted her eyes and creased her brows at the harsh light… she hadn’t been awake for long then.

“Wha- are you working?! Baby, it’s 4am.” She exclaimed softly, eyes still shut because of the light.

“Ever since Chappell Roan got tiktokified, half my clients are suddenly lesbians!” I told her and I saw the corner of her lips lift up in half a grin.

“Chappell Roan?” Nya asked and I rolled my eyes.

“Yes! It’s not even June!” I told her and she lifted her head up and dropped it onto my stomach and then threw her arm over my lower stomach.

“Is she like- anything I listen to?” Nya asked and I rolled my eyes.

“Like 90s hip hop and a random post Malone song? No.” I told her and she sighed.

“I should’ve never shared my playlist with you.” Nya murmured and I rolled my eyes.

“Yeah that ‘I listen to everything’ was a lie… you couldn’t even recognise summertime sadness until the main chorus.” I told her and it was silent for a moment before all I heard was little snores. She had fallen asleep again. I poked her side and she flinched awake.

“-‘m awake!” She said, looking up at me through droopy eyes.

“I’ll finish this and then go to sleep.” I told her and she nodded, lying face first in my stomach.

“I knew letting you have that redbull was a bad idea.” Nya told me and I grinned.

“You said you weren’t going to go fast.” I told her.

“I thought a kiss was a good enough apology…” she yawned and I smiled as she laid straight back down on my stomach. “… then you saw my last redbull in the mini fridge.” Nya finished and I ran a hand through her hair. The hair tie had fell out and now the back of her hair was loose.

“That ‘mini fridge’ is bigger than the fridge in my apartment… also who needs a mini fridge in their garage?” I asked and she nuzzled just above my belly button with her nose as she tried to get more comfortable.

“Your girlfriend… and your big backed brother.” She added and I laughed, the smile on my face etching all the way to my cheeks.

“…I’m your girlfriend?” I asked, a little hushed.

“I might ask you to be if you let me go back to sleep.” Nya told me and I grinned.

“That’s one way to get me to sleep.” I told her and she shrugged. I shuffled down the bed until my head hit the pillow and Nya laid down again with an arm thrown over my waist and her head coming to settle on my shoulder. My eyes closed as I felt them her heavier and heavier.

“Discipline rhymes with cinnamon.” Nya suddenly said and my eyes shot open.

“Oh my-“

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When I woke up I was alone and a bit confused until I remembered the events of the day before and earlier in the morning. Then I checked my phone and saw that I had slept until mid afternoon. I chucked my phone away and turned to notice that a post it note had been placed underneath my phone.

‘Training all day :( - Blame Lloyd.’

‘- p.s cinnamon rhymes with discipline’

I smiled at the note and placed it back where I found it. I stretched and revelled in the pop of my back before heading to Nya’s bathroom to brush my teeth. It had been a long night. I had spent most of it working whilst Nya snored either on my arm or whatever part of my body she decided to find comfort on. After a night of being her pillow, I was feeling ready to do it again and again. This was a much better outcome than rotting in my apartment like I would’ve been right now if not for Nya’s confession yesterday. This was much better than stewing in my own mind and regretting every decision I’d ever made and hating myself for it. This life was so much- happier. I somehow felt free, like the things lurking away in my mind couldn’t get to me. Like nothing could and- why the fuck is Peach behind me?!

“Oh! Lloyd thought he had heard you earlier.” Peach stated like it was normal she appeared out of nowhere.

“I- uhm. I didn’t hear you come in.” I told her and she grinned.

“That’s because I didn’t use the door.” She told me and grabbed something off Nya’s dresser. “I feel like I’m always doing errands for them… I’m glad you came back, though! I’m not sure how much longer I could deal with my shower not working or throwing water at me.” She told me before disappearing- no glitching away.

Note to self: remember how weird the ninja are.

I dressed myself, very quickly know that that I knew someone could just appear at any moment, and then ventured out into the monastery. I took it all in again. It was only a little more than a day ago I had left and about 12 hours since I returned but when you’re hand in hand with the woman of your dreams, you don’t tend to notice much else. And the fact it was dark and we were trying to silently and quickly make our way back didn’t give didn’t help either. I had forgot how homely the monastery felt despite being millennia years old. There were ancient artifacts, tapestries, paintings and murals decorated all around but despite being in heavy contrast, there was also many photos of the ninja around and previous generations of elemental masters. A particularly large mural of the final battle sat on one wall, it detailed Lloyd’s golden gi perfectly and the overlord looked as menacing as he had in real time. Opposite to it sat another mural, it was of a large dragon and the back of a woman’s body as she glowed and it took me a moment to realise it was Peach yet I didn’t know what the mural was of. The entire hall of the bedrooms was painted with special moments or more accurately murals. Nya’s was my favourite although I didn’t understand it. I never really kept up with the ninja. Cole and my Dad both told me that it would only bring me more dread and thinking back to it- that makes sense. They were trying to cover Cole’s secret life. I wonder if Dad even knows that I know?

“Papita, you’ve been standing still for 5 minutes now. Is everything okay?” I turned to see Snowdrops, the code ran down her body like usual but apart from her obvious holographic life form, she almost looked completely real. Her voice was automatically soothing and calm, the tone soft and no rough edges to her voice. She almost didn’t sound like a robot.

“Yeah!” I snapped out of my distracted state and she smiled. “I- what are these?” I asked, more to try and cover up the fact I had been caught staring at a wall for minutes on end.

“Murals, painted by the monks… they are to commemorate the ninjas biggest moments. They each symbolises the most prolific moment of each ninja’s life.” Snowdrop said and I nodded.

“So there’s a story behind all of them?” I asked and she nodded.

“I’d recommend not asking the ninja personally.” Snowdrops said and I frowned. “Each of these moments may signify something great but it does not account for the emotional toll they had… For example, Lloyd’s is of the final battle. He had to fight his father possessed by the overlord to cure him of his evil. His father is now evil again and disowned him… he calls it pointless now.” Snowdrops said and my eyes widened.

“Nya’s doesn’t have some awful thing attached to it that I should know about, right?” I asked and Snowdrops smiled.

“Nya’s mural shows that she is more than the water ninja, she is also- well was, Samurai X. It is important for Nya to show that she does not just follow her brother’s footsteps, she is her own person.” Snowdrops said and I frowned.

“How could she be both?” I asked and Snowdrops smiled.

“Nya was Samurai X before she was the water ninja. And she saved the ninja more times than they’d like to admit.” She told me and I grinned.

“Overachiever…” I shook my head before turning to the other murals. “I don’t get Peach’s and Pearl’s.” I said and Snowdrops sent me a look.

“That’s not our story to tell.” Snowdrops said and I stayed silent for a moment before she smiled.

“I was an abandoned programme.” She said and my eyes widened. “Known as Galanthus Nivalis. I met Zane when his programme became lost too and years later after he had found himself again, he found me and repurposed me. He gave me another chance to live again and I love him for it.” She told me and I smiled.

“That’s really nice.” I told her and she nodded.

“I’m sure yours and Nya’s story will be one to tell too…” Snowdrops said before gasping. “Speaking of the ninja, Lloyd’s making them stand on their hands for another half an hour because Kai made a fart joke.” She said before disappearing. I laughed in shock before continuing my walk to the kitchen.

“I hate him. I hate him so much.” I heard Learl curse, she sounded out of breath. “Why would you marry a man like that?!” She questioned, loudly and angrily.

“He made you do a plank, he’s not the overlord himself.” I heard Peach tell her.

“After that training session, if I were you, I would leave him and become a lesbian!” Pearl told her and I saw Peach roll her eyes.

“Women are better. I would know.” I said and they both spun towards me. Pearl’s face, surprisingly, lit up.

“Y/n! Thank the spinjitsu master himself! I can take a bath without drowning again!” Pearl cheered. I laughed as a familiar figure approached me. I let Cherry hug me before she stood back and took in my appearance.

“Wow, lesbians really do have a glow.” She said and I smiled. “However, that could be oily skin or- did you start doing skincare?!” Cherry asked and I rolled my eyes, pushing her away.

“Nice to see you too.” I said and she smiled.

“Tell us everything. How did she do it- No! Tell us tonight. We’ll kick out the boys and the masc and have a night of our own.” Cherry said and I laughed and she dragged me further into the room.

“Oh shit, it’s gonna be like Pearl’s bachelorette again.” Peach said and Pearl sent her a look.

“We are not going that far- never again.” Pearl told her and Peach grinned before looking at me.

“Of course, Papita doesn’t have the metabolism and Cherry is already a seasoned veteran.” Peach said and Cherry shrugged.

“How do you know anything even happened?” I asked and Pearl deadpanned.

“My bath turned into a tsunami yesterday.” Pearl told me.

“My shower turned off and then when it came back on it shot me across the room.” Peach told me.

“I went to wash my face and the tap shot out water so hard that it broke my sink.” Cherry added and I looked between them, sheepishly.

“Sorry.” I said and Cherry shook her head.

“Don’t be sorry, we’ve all had our moments.” She said and Pearl nodded.

“Plus, it’s been fun watching you and Nya dance around each other.” Pearl said and my eyes widened.

“We were obvious?” I asked and Peach laughed.

“You had Lloyd feeling like he’s the relationship connoisseur.” Peach told me and I frowned. I still didn’t know Lloyd well enough to know if she was calling him oblivious or not.

“Telling Cole is going to be hard though, he won’t react well.” Pearl said and my heart stopped.

How in all of this did I forget my own brother?! Of course he wouldn’t react well, it’s Cole! When has he ever not over-reacted to me?! When has ever been sensible about something? That man reacts to shock how gasoline reacts towards a spark. How could I of been so struck by Nya that I forgot that I was messing with my brother’s teammate. I was potentially severing a relationship and breaking trust between people who needed it most in order to operate together and save the world! What the fuck was wrong with me?!

“Oh that was not the right thing to say at all.” Pearl said and turned to Peach helplessly. I could feel my chest start rising rapidly, it felt tight. My whole body did. My head felt too big. My neck felt too weak, like it couldn’t support my head anymore. My eyes felt too wide and suddenly dry.

“Papita… Y/n?” I heard someone ask and I felt a hand sliding onto my chest. My heart felt like it was banging against my rib cage. “Hey.” I turned to looked up at the voice, it was my own brother. Who had done so much for me and I, uninvited, came into his life and was about to make it a mess. What had I ever done for him?! “Hey. Breathe. You’re okay. You’re safe.” Cole told me and I shook my head.

“What’s going on?” I heard someone else asked but I didn’t look at them.

“Hey! It’s okay.” He said, sternly but soft. “Try steadying out your breathing a little, like mine! Okay?” He asked and I nodded but I couldn’t stop thinking about what I was doing. “What’s wrong?” He asked.

“I’m sorry.” I said and he shook his head.

“What happened? I thought you were going home?” Cole said and I shook my head.

“Not anymore.” I said and his brows furrowed.

“What happened, Y/n? It’s not like you to be so impulsive.” He asked, so softly it made me want to cry. I was an awful person.

“Y/n?!” That was Nya. I knew her voice well. I had it on repeat like a record in my head for the past few weeks. “Hey, what’s going on?” She asked, a hand coming to rest on my arm. She tilted her head down to mine and I leaned towards her. I shook my head and she frowned.

“Not- not now. I told her and Nya frowned.

“What do you mean?” She asked and I looked between her and Cole. “Did you do something?” She asked, tone accusing and my eyes widened.

“Me?!” Cole said, eyes widening in shock.

“I don’t know, you came in here all twisted yesterday after dropping her off. It’s not that out the box to ask if maybe something happened just now.” Nya said and I shook my head frantically.

“You know for someone so emotionally unavailable, you sure like to pry around my sister.” Cole said and Pearl tapped his arm.

“C’mon big guy, let it go.” She told him, stern eyes and I looked at her thankfully but it was no use in the end.

“Pry?!” Nya exclaimed. I saw Kai stalk around the two, his eyes were wary as he watched the two.

“Yes! Pry!” Cole told her and I saw Jay come and stand by Kai, his brows were knitted in confusion but his eyes were as focused, almost wary too. “What else would you call it? She comes here, it’s like fresh meat! You find out she’s into girls and then that’s it! You’re giving her nicknames and giving each other eyes. She’s not your guinea pig, Nya! Go find some other girl to fuck and leave my sister alone.” Cole told her and I gasped, Pearl took a step back, eyes wide as she looked between the too.

“Papita, come here.” Kai said, not looking at me but reaching forward with his arms open.

“You know what?! Fuck you, Cole!” Nya said and she took a step forward, almost closing me in between the two. Cherry’s eyes urged me to jump forward towards her boyfriend but when I went to take a step forward Nya grabbed me. “If I wanted to fuck her, I would’ve but I’m not like you.” Nya told him and my eyes widened.

“Get the fuck off her.” Cole seethed, I felt my panic grow.

“Why? She’s not a kid. She doesn’t need your permission to do shit. What we do, has got nothing to do with you.” Nya told him and Cole tilted his head.

“You really want to do this?” Kai asked and Nya smirked.

“Do what?” She asked and let go of me, Kai reached forward and pulled me towards him and Jay before I could even register what was happening. “I’m not afraid of him. And I’m sure as hell not going to leave Y/n alone. No matter what he thinks. And what exactly would a brother who hides his life and doesn’t see his sister for years have to think about her life? Do you even know her anymore?” Nya asked him and Cole took a step forward.

“What the fuck would you know about being in my position? Your brother made sure you were practically spoon fed your whole life and he gave up his childhood to do so. If you weren’t kidnapped by the skeleton army, I guaranteed he wouldn’t have told you either- you know why? To keep you safe.” Cole gritted out and Nya practically scowled at him

“Spoon fed?! At least you actually got to know your parents!” Nya said and Cole laughed.

“They’re a call away! Call them! Maybe then you’d know them! I can’t call my mom! She’s actually dead! And here you are trying to ruin the last thing she ever gave me!” Cole called out and I felt my heart tighten.

“You’re a fucking asshole!” Nya told him.

“And you’re a sly bitch! Who likes to sniff around my sister!” He called out and I gasped out of shock when Nya clocked him in the jaw with her fist faster than I could register what had happened. “Oh you’re so on.” Cole seethed before shoving her back.

“Not in the kitchen!” Jay yelled, uselessly as Nya kicked Cole in the stomach sending the man stumbling back a little.

“Lloyd!” Kai yelled as he let go of me and walked up the two.

“Fuck off, Kai!” Cole yelled as he went to charge towards Nya again.

A burst green made all of us fall back and a mop of blonde appeared between the two. The green energy slowly dissipated around his hands and he looked disappointedly between the two on the floor, who groaned and held their heads.

“If only you put that much effort into training.” Lloyd told them, hands on his hips. “Is someone going to tell me what this is about?” He asked and Jay, unceremoniously, pointed at me. Lloyd frowned.

“Nya’s a bitch.” Cole said from where he lay on the ground with a hand over his forehead.

“Cole’s a dick.” Nya retorted.

“Maybe I should’ve just left.” I murmured and Jay patted my shoulder with pity.

“Don’t feel bad. We’re very temperamental, this happens at least once a week.” He told me and I looked at him with wide eyes. “But it’s usually in training and not about our partners! So you won’t usually have to see it.” Jay added, looking a bit sheepish and nervous and I nodded.

“Let’s get you out of here.” Peach said, rescuing me from the scene before us.

She took me to her and Lloyd’s room which was notably bigger than any of the other bedrooms I had seen. She directed me towards the end of the bed and sat next to me. Peach pulled her sleeve up and wiped some tears of my cheek that I hadn’t even noticed had fell.

“It’s a lot, I know.” She said and I sniffed.

“It’s my fault.” I said and she shook her head.

“They really do fight a lot. If not you, they would’ve picked something else to fight over soon enough.” Peach said and I looked up at her.

“I don’t know if I can deal with that.” I said honestly and she smiled sadly before looking down.

“I died not too long ago and I came back almost as quick as I died. My skin was ripped apart and then was sewn back together. And all I thought about was Lloyd. How I missed him. How I loved him so much that I had began living just for him.” She said and I looked at her with wide eyes. “What I’m trying to say is a really dramatic version of we go through all sorts of things for love. And what this monastery holds is a lot of people with a lot of love. Your brother loves you immensely and he also loves the rest of his teammates. He’s protective over the both of you and he’s seen you both hurt. He’s afraid that he can’t protect you from hurting each other. Nya is hurt that Cole doesn’t think she can protect herself or you.” Peach explained and I felt another tear slip.

“How do you know this?” I asked and she smiled.

“I’ve spent way too long around these ninja.” She said and I let out a dry laugh. “And they’re ridiculously loud for people whose footsteps don’t even have sound!” She said and I grinned. “Living with this many people will drive you up the walls. Are you sure you want to stay?” Peach asked, eyes wide before settling as she laughed and I joined her.

“I’m sure.” I said and she smiled.

“It gets easier and bigger. Just wait until Jay’s girl that he thinks we have no idea bout moves in.” She told me and I smiled before the door opened and Lloyd walked in.

“Who got turned into a baby, disappeared for a year, and made me team leader?” Lloyd asked, making a reference I didn’t understand but Peach laughed.

“All sorted?” She asked and he nodded.

“I’m making them both meditate and then come and apologise when they’re ready.” He said and I frowned.

“It sounds like a time out.” I said and Lloyd chuckled.

“That’s exactly what it is.” He told me. “They act like it was their childhood that was ripped away.” He added and I frowned.

“Lloyd was aged up by a tea in order to stop the grundle. An ancient dinosaur thing.” Peach elaborated and my jaw dropped.

“What?!” I asked and she nodded.

“Big thing, horrible breath.” He confirmed. “Worse than Jay’s and that’s hard to beat.” Lloyd added and I smiled. “How Nya dealt with that, I don’t know.”

“Probably what made her realise.” Peach said and I grinned alongside her. “That’ll be fun to think about when she’s apologising.” She said and I frowned.

“I don’t think Cole will respond well.” I said, honestly and Peach smile as Lloyd chuckled.

“They’re not apologising to each other, they’re apologising to you.” Lloyd said and I frowned.

“Me?” I asked and they nodded.

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How do I accept apologies? Why would they even apologise to me? It’s my fault! If I hadn’t got with Nya behind Cole’s back then none of this would’ve mattered! I see one beautiful woman and jump at her without a care… how pathetic.

The door creaked slightly as Nya opened the door to her own room where I sat on her bed… waiting for her. I’m pretty sure I looked like I was waiting to be told off or grounded. I felt like I was waiting for that, not an apology.

Nya took one look at me and sighed before rubbing her hands together nervously. I frowned as she stared down on the floor and hesitated to come in any further. I stared at her blanky as I waited for her to do something.

“I don’t even know where to start…” Nya said and I felt myself begin to sweat. “Probably with I’m sorry.” Nya finished and I nodded. Peach said just to nod and let them explain themselves before blindly accepting the apology. “I shouldn’t have let Cole get to me. It’s just when he accused me of- of using you! I just- lost it. And I’m sorry.” Nya said and I nodded again.

“It was scary.” I admitted and she looked even more kicked down. Should I of not said that? Oh no.

“I know, I shouldn’t have put you in the middle and I should’ve spoke to Cole elsewhere… I’m not going to pretend I’m not hot-headed. I suppose living with men my whole life caused me to have some testosterone rush or something.” she joked and I smiled. “Sorry I didn’t let you know sooner.” She sat next to me on the bed and I leaned on her shoulder.

“It’s okay, it’s my fault really.” I said and she frowned before pulling away and looking at me strangely.

“How is it your fault?” She asked and I shrugged.

“I technically did go behind his back and then I put you right in the middle of it.” I said and Nya stared at me confused.

“I don’t think we could’ve been anymore in his face about it.” She told me and I shook my head.

“It doesn’t matter how obvious we were, I came unannounced, messed with his team and then left just as abruptly. He should’ve took it out on me, not you and Cole doesn’t even need to apologise to me, I need to apologise to him.” Nya closed her eyes for a moment before taking a breath. I stared at her the whole time.

“Nibbles, listen to me.” Nya said before opening her eyes again. “Cole is a dick. You’re a full grown adult. You don’t need his permission for anything! Our team brawls over anything! Last week, I watched Kai give Jay a black eye over the last slice of pizza.” Nya said and I frowned.

“Why didn’t you buy more pizza?” I asked and she laughed.

“You’re not in the wrong.” She told me before kissing my head and bringing me into a hug. “I’ve got patrol later, I’ll bring you some noodles back.” Nya told me and I shook head.

“It’s okay, we’re having girls night.” I said and Nya took a deep breath.

“Good luck.” Nya said and I frowned.

“How did you know you weren’t invited?” I asked and she smirked.

“Cherry once bought me boxers… she didn’t say it but I knew it was her way of saying she thought of me as a man now.” Nya said and I deadpanned. “It was the biggest compliment she’s ever given me.” Nya said and I frowned.

“Being called a man?” I asked and she flexed her biceps at me.

“You think a little girl could handle these?”

“I don’t know… I bet I could.” I said and her face dropped.

“Oh- wow-! I didn’t mean that but-“ I smiled I shooed her away.

“Get ready for patrol, weirdo.” I told her and she grinned, leant down and pressed a quick kiss to my lips. “You’re already in trouble with Lloyd, do you really want to push your luck further.

“Be back as soon as I can, weirdo.” Nya told me and I grinned wider as she stepped back and took off her t-shirt, leaving her in just her bra.

I felt my cheeks warm.

“Think you can handle these?” She asked, dragging a hand over her abs. “I’m supposed to wear an undershirt with my gi, but just for you… I might go without.” Nya winked before taking a step closer to me.

“Really?” I asked and she nodded, taking another step closer.

“Oh yeah,” she took another step closer and leaned down, “in fact, my gi has so many straps and buckles on that if I hadn’t put on the damn thing hundreds of times, it would take me forever.” Nya whispered. “I’ll show you just how tricky it can be.” She continued, leaning closer to my ear, the arms resting either side of me, letting her stay in this position over me, trapping me in her embrace. “All the ins and outs of such a thing.” Nya finished, resting her forehead against mine.

“And where is your gi?” I asked, hushed, almost a whisper before swallowing nervously. My previous confidence disappearing.

“You want me to show you?” She asked. “Just how easily I can tie it up and make it come undone again?” Nya asked, and I took a deep intake of breath before nodding.

“Yes… show me.” I almost pleaded, it was a little pathetic. And hella gay.

“I’ll show you.” Nya whispered, it was a promise. I felt the truth in the words as her lips pressed against mine. She now stood firmly between my legs where I was sat on the end of the bed.

The kiss began to heat up and I felt myself being pushed back and down against the bed, with her on top of me. One of her knees came up and pushed mine up as it came to rest under my thigh. I was so open to her. I was like a box with no key, no code to open it. I was an adult. I was a woman. And no one knew better how to please a woman’s body than one who already owns one. I was grown. I deserved to feel it too. I deserved this heat, this desire and this feeling of being desired. I deserved to live. To breathe the same air as everyone else. I didn’t need to be afraid with her. There was nothing that could hurt me with her. She could never hurt me, only give me so much more than I could ever think of. Without her I was shell and she opened me up like I was an oyster with a pretty pearl inside. Like there wasn’t just darkness and fear inside of me, there was a pretty jewel to be admired and adored. She made me feel like that. And I never wanted her to stop making me feel like that.

And just like that, her lips released mine and I panted against the bed as she smirked above me.

“You’re gorgeous, buttons.” She told me, her breath uneven. “And as much as I love seeing you all splayed out on my bed for me, you’re lying on my gi.” Nya said and I snapped back to reality, I sat up quickly and she snatched her gi away. “It’s like you said, I can’t upset the boss. I’m already in trouble…” she whispered, leaving one last peck on my forehead before moving to the bathroom to get changed.

If she wasn’t so hot, I’d call her an idiot.

Then it hit me- did we almost-?!

Did she want to do… that?!

How?!

When?!

Why?!

Who could I go to talk about this?! Who do I know that has done it before? Who could I go to ask about this kind of stuff?!

This all seemed so much daunting than before. Now that I knew what I was going to talk about. I mean, the girls weren’t virgins right? They could help me out? Maybe tell me everything to expect! Would they make fun of me for not losing it yet? I mean they already knew right? Was it embarrassing to ask? Would they mind? How comfortable were they talking about this?

“Woah, Papita! You look like you’re about to pass out.” Pearl said, cracking open a fresh bottle of wine. This was so going to be embarrassing.

“Seriously, what’s on your mind?” Peach asked and suddenly this felt less embarrassing.

“I bet it’s Nya.” Cherry said and once again, it felt very embarrassing.

“I think Nya wants to have sex.” I blurted and they seemed unfazed.

“You haven’t already done it?” Pearl asked and now this felt so much more embarrassing.

“No…” I admitted, shamefully and Cherry and Pearl awed?!

“Ignore them.” Peach told me. “Do you want to have sex?” She asked and I nodded.

“I think I’m ready.” I said and she gave me a look.

“Think and know are two different things.” She told me. “It’s your first time right?” Peach asked and I nodded. “So it’s still scary?” She asked and I nodded. “Okay, now these two are up to speed, talk to us.” Peach told me and I smiled.

“I know it works differently for same sex couples compared to heterosexual couples and that-“ I tried to explain but they shook their heads.

“Not that different.” Pearl told me. “Sure you may cum a little more with a woman but men can do all the same things… a little more recklessly but they are able to do it. I’m sure we can still help you out, girl. Hey! It’ll be like our first sister talk!” Pearl said and my eyes widened.

Pearl is my brother’s wife! My brother who totally freaked out about me even dating!

“Do you want to tell us what you’re nervous about?” Peach asked and I nodded.

“How does it… work?” I said and Peach frowned. “I mean- how do you know who does what?” I asked and she nodded.

“Well, you talk about it.” She told me and I looked to the others who nodded. “For instance, mine and Lloyd’s first time, we were both inexperienced and we taught each other how to do what we liked.” She explained and I nodded.

“And he was okay with that?” I asked and Peach nodded.

“More than okay if you really want to know.” I didn’t but I thanked her either way.

This is it… me and Nya were going to have sex. And I’m ready… I think.

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In a bedroom, not too far away from the new lovesick couple, occupied one of the most long lasting couples of the monastery. And ironically, one of the lovebird’s brother was in that couple.

“You’ll never guess what I heard through the grapevine.” Pearl said from where she laid underneath the black and pink satin sheets.

“Let me guess, Cherry sniffed out another monk wearing a wig.” Cole told Pearl who giggled.

“Not quite… it’s about your sister.” Pearl told him and Cole raised a brow.

“Y/n? What about her?” Cole asked, sitting down at the end of the bed to take his socks off finally. “If it’s about her medication then it’s legally prescribed and that reminds me, I need to register at the pharmacy down the road.” Cole said and Pearl frowned.

“You’re aware she’s 21, right? You don’t need to do that stuff for her anymore and also- can she drink on those meds?” Pearl asked, a little more seriously and Cole smiled before leaning over to kiss her cheek.

“Yes and yes.” Cole told her and Pearl sighed.

“You never used to speak about your sister. Why?” Pearl asked and Cole shook his head.

“You’ve asked me this before, answers still the same. Because I was ashamed of having to leave and lie to her.” Cole told his wife who rolled his eyes. “What were you going to say about her anyway?” He asked and Pearl smiled.

“You’re not going to like it.” She said and Cole sighed.

“Then why tell me?” He asked and she grinned.

“Because I don’t want you to find out about this how you found out about them.” Pearl said and Cole grinned.

“Thank you.” He said and she smiled. “I love you.” Cole added and Pearl giggled.

“I love you too.” Pearl said before kissing him briefly. “Y/n and Nya are going to have sex.” Pearl said and Cole paused.

“I need a minute.” Cole said and Pearl nodded. After a mini earthquake in their room that made one of the photo frames fall off the wall, Cole turned back to his wife. “Okay. I think I’m ready to talk about this now.” Cole said and Pearl frowned.

“I was just telling you big guy, and you’re picking that up by the way.” Pearl told him only for Cole to shake his head.

“Yes, boss.” Cole said, picking up the frame. “I still haven’t apologised.” He told his wife who hummed.

“I know but you will. For it all, not just that outburst.” Pearl told him.

“How do I tell her… there’s so much to say. What if she doesn’t want to ever talk to me again?” Cole asked and Pearl smiled before taking his hand.

“Then that’s up to her… we’re all still be here when you tell her.” Pearl said and Cole nodded.

“This is the hardest apology I’m ever going to have to give.” Cole murmured, more to himself.

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Hi!! Are you going to do a Garmadon x reader?

For all those who have asked (oml is there a lot of you- dw I know why, me too) garmadilf fic is in the works!!

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Zinnias | Lloyd Garmadon x fem!reader | Part 8

The Dark Island was where we needed to be but I couldn’t quite keep my focus on that…

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The sound of banging and random chatter wasn’t unfamiliar on board this ship after the past few days, however, it was a little concerning when you had feel asleep alone and naked on said ship the night before.

I wasn’t naked now and I definitely wasn’t alone. One of Lloyd’s hoodies had been somehow put on me in my sleep an despite lacking a bra, my underwear had seemingly found their way back on too… I could probably do with a bath or a shower- wait…

Did Lloyd somehow wash me in my sleep?!

Maybe he was magical as well as the chosen one. I knew one thing for sure, I fell in love with the right guy.

Wait…

Fell in love?! What happened last night?!

With that thought in mind, I stood and searched through the draws for any sort of bottom half clothing and- bingo! Drawstring joggers! God I look like an idiot. If the walk of shame was a person, it would look like me right now. I wish I could be bothered to put my bra back on.

I sighed as I reached the kitchen area and began to search for anything remotely caffeinated. I was tired of tea. And- we just had tea. I think I’ll have tea then.

“I hear the kettle!” I heard a familiar whiny voice call from down the hallway. “She’s up!” He continued and I glared at Kai when he entered the kitchen. “How was it?” He asked with that stupid smirk and I gave him a fake grin.

“I’m a lot more worn out than Pearl ever is after a night with you.” I said and his face dropped.

“Low blow.” He pointed at me and I grinned. “Seriously, how was it?” Kai asked and I smiled.

“Didn’t you feel the mini earthquake?” I asked and Kai’s face dropped.

“Damn that’s what that was. Lloyd not the only one with skills I see-“ Kai said and my face dropped.

“I was joking-“ I said just as Cole walked in.

“There’s our star girl! We felt that little earthquake last night!” Cole said and I held my head in now embarrassment.

“Did you see the little light show as well? Put me to shame.” Jay said as he walked in and I stared at him in disbelief.

“Once again, I was joking.” I said and Kai grinned.

“But we’re not.” Kai said.

“Good to know.” I said and poured the boiling water into my mug. “Where is my walking natural disaster anyway?” I asked and Cole laughed.

“That was good, I found that funny- he’s holding the thruster up whilst Nya wires some stuff together- Anyway! How was it?” Cole asked, trying to skip past the fact he was the only one to laugh at the natural disaster thing.

“I’m not answering that.” I told them and they all groaned in sync.

“C,mon Y-!”

I watched as the whole kitchen suddenly glitched and all the left out mugs on the kitchen table suddenly fell onto the floor.

“Sorry.” Kai apologised and I sent him a tight smile.

“Pearl told you my name didn’t she?” I said and he nodded.

“It’s okay.” I told him. “Just don’t repeat it please. Reduces the likelihood of this happening.” I said and Kai nodded. “Moving on!” I called and sat down on one of the chairs at the table. “You’re here to dig for information from me, so dig.” I said and they all looked at each other in shock.

“How did you-“ Cole went to question and I rolled my eyes.

“For ninja you’re not really that slick.” I said and they all looked at me with different looks of protest before Cole pushed past them and sat opposite me.

“Where are you from?” He asked and I smiled.

“Jamanikai.” I said and he nodded.

“Respectable place.” Kai added and Cole nodded.

“What do your parents do?” He asked and I smiled.

“My Dad is an accountant and my Mother works for a company in resources.” I said and Cole nodded.

“Respectable jobs.” Jay added and they all nodded.

“What do they think of Lloyd?” Cole asked and I squirmed uncomfortably.

“I don’t know.” I admitted and they all gave each other shrugs and awkward looks.

“What do they think of you being in a relationship… specifically with Lloyd?” Cole asked and I shrugged.

“I don’t know…” I admitted again and they gave each other even more awkward looks.

“Do they know?!” Cole asked and I shook my head. “Why not?!” He questioned and I shrugged.

“I don’t really talk to them.” I told them and they all shared odd looks but Cole looked understanding when he finally looked at me.

“Do you know what they would think of Lloyd and Lord Garmadon?” Cole asked and the reminder of my parents being conservative and very pro military sprung to mind.

“I do… They’re not exactly supportive or understanding but that’s really with anything!” I tried to justify and Kai frowned.

“But doesn’t that bother you? You’re serious about Lloyd right?” Kai asked and I shot up in my chair.

“Of course.” I said, confidently. That was one thing I knew for definite. “My parents are just there? Not even! I don’t live with them- I haven’t seen them in years! I haven’t even spoke to my mother for 2-3 months?” I said and their eyes widened. “They’re busy people and I don’t care enough about them to even think what they’d say about Lloyd! He’s my boyfriend! I want to be with him! I lo-like him! So much! I’m here! I could’ve gone back to them but I’m not. I’m here for him.” I declared and Cole nodded in respect?

“Well that settles it. Welcome to the team, Peach.” Cole said and leant over with his arm stretched out. I took his hand and he shook it lightly. “That’s all we wanted to hear.” He said and I smiled.

“I’m serious.” I told him and he nodded.

“I know you are… you’re good for him.” Cole told me and I smiled.

“Thank you. That means a lot to me.” I said and Cole smiled.

“Well Lloyd means an awful lot to us as well and we’ve never seen him as happy as he is with you.” Kai added and I nodded.

“Did you find what you were digging for?” I asked and they all seemed to share a similar look before turning back to me with grins and nodding.

“If you have time to lean-“ I heard a an old, wise voice call out and the ninja all groaned. “-you have time to clean.” Wu said as he walked in the room. “We leave today, I suggest you don’t make us any more behind than you already have.” Wu told them and I laughed as they all left the room with disgruntled looks.

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After what felt like a stupidly long argument between Nya and Jay on what button to press- the thrusters were firing and I watched on- gladly -whilst Lloyd hoisted up the anchor back onto the bounty. He had his gi halfway off and grease smeared on his chest and I think I’m still on a high from last night. Anyway- we were in the air again! Lloyd was wrapping the anchor back around its hook and I waited patiently for him to make his way back inside. I still hadn’t seen him since last night and I felt giddy anytime I caught a single glimpse of him. So when I saw the green clad figure heading my way again, I smiled and waited for him to find his way back to me inside.

Fate was cruel though.

It was so obvious that that sea monster thing would appear now out of the ocean to stop our take off. In fact, its first tentacle nearly crushed Lloyd as it wrapped its way around the ship. I wasn’t ashamed to admit the scream I let out when I caught sight of its massive eyes staring right down at me.

Suddenly, this whole ninja life thing just became really unappealing.

Kai, thankfully, pulled me back into the inners of the bounty and I tried to regain my breath as the rest of the ninja ran out to… help?

“It’s chained! It won’t let us go!” Zane yelled and I raised my eyebrows.

“Oh yeah well, who’s going to unchain it?” Kai yelled back as Zane looked back over the side-

Oh no. He doesn’t mean- he won’t- he did.

I covered my mouth as Zane leapt over the side of the bounty. My dismay was matched by the ninja too and most of all- Dr Julien who cried out for his son. I went to move further out onto the deck until I remembered the monster was still in fact grasping the ship and trying to bring us down. Luckily for me, my boyfriend was very aware of this fact and held me back before a sharp tug from the monster’s tentacles sent me onto my ass.

“Why would Zane-?!” I went to question and Lloyd shook his head.

“I don’t know.” He told me and I held onto his arm a little tighter.

“Lloyd, I’m scared.” I admitted and he nodded.

“I know, I know baby. Just hold on.” He told me before kissing the side of my head. “Trust Zane.” Lloyd said and I frowned.

“The guy who just jumped ship?!” I asked and he smiled.

“You shouldn’t be making me laugh right now.” Lloyd told me and I looked at him, perplexed.

“I’m not trying to.” I told him and he smiled.

“Makes you even cuter.” Lloyd said and I rolled mr eyes.

“There is a monster trying to drag us into the ocean right now and you’re flirting with me?” I asked and he winked.

“Sure am.” Lloyd told me and I scoffed.

“You’re lucky I lo-like you so much.” I told him and he frowned at me for a moment before smiling.

“I like you a lot too, Peaches.” Lloyd said and I rolled my eyes.

“Can you two focus please?!” Kai yelled at us and for once, I agreed.

With Zane apparently overboard, I had little clue of what was happening or what to do…. But luckily I wasn’t here to come up with solutions and Zane seemed to figure one out by himself.

The solution in question: releasing the monster in the hopes it would let us go.

Zane definitely had more hope than me in that solution and he was right to because if he didn’t, the monster wouldn’t have let the ship go…

If Dr Julien hadn’t beat me to it, I might’ve hugged Zane for his efforts when he clambered back on board.

Now back to the more pressing issue.

We were heading- no flying -to the Dark Island so Lloyd could face his father in a prophesied final battle… What the hell was I doing here?!

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It had been hours since the monster was freed and the ninja were now free to make their way to the Dark Island with no other pit stops or instances. However, that also meant the final battle was drawing closer and closer. It was safe to say that no one was more aware of this than Lloyd. That being said, no one was more distracted than Lloyd. With all his internal conflicts about facing his father and dealing with the weight of having to win the final battle, there was one internal conflict weighing on his mind more than perhaps those more pressing ones.

He loved (Y/n).

It wasn’t some sort of teenage crush love. It wasn’t just some kind of puppy love. It was a pure devotion and passion for her. He breathed her air, he felt her touch even when she wasn’t there, whenever he closed his eyes he pictured her. Lloyd had never felt so endeared and deeply for someone as he did for her. He loved (Y/n). He could repeat it over and over again in his head. Seeing her cry made his heart stop. The thought of her in pain, any kind of pain, was something worse than torture. Her touch didn’t just invoke a lust he had known before but a deep desire just to admire and feel her presence as deeply as he could. He had done nothing since he met her except try to preserve every memory they made together.

From their first meeting to their first message to their first kiss to their first time. To the very moment she sounded like she was going to say she loved him. Lloyd thought of no one and nothing else other than her. He didn’t look into her eyes to see his reflection but instead his future. This was something stronger than a bond or a connection. This wasn’t just some spark. Lloyd loved (Y/n). It was as if he had never known anything else. He loved her.

“You seem rather content for someone about to fight the biggest prophesied battle to exist.” The familiar voice of Kai met his ears and Lloyd watched as Kai leant on the railing of the bounty next to him.

“Yeah, well… I’m not really thinking about that right now.” Lloyd said and Kai frowned.

“Really? What are you thinking about then?” Kai asked and Lloyd smiled. The ocean was a lot further down now when he looked over the side of the Bounty but it still brought a strange sense of compare. “Because I’m not the green ninja and it’s all I can think about.” Kai added and Lloyd smiled.

“I’m going to tell (Y/n) I love her.” Lloyd said, completely forgetting about her cover name when confessing this truth.

“I-what?!” Kai sputtered and Lloyd’s smile widened.

“I love her.” Lloyd repeated and Kai nodded, a bit frantically.

“Yeah, no. I got that. I mean…” Kai sighed deeply, dramatically, before staring straight back at him. “You met her- what? Two months ago? How can you be sure you love her?” Kai asked and Lloyd met his eyes, they were wide and disapproving of what Lloyd was telling him.

“I’ve never been more sure of something.” Lloyd admitted and Kai took a deep breath.

“C’mon, Lloyd.” Kai shook his head. “2 months is not even a good amount of time to get to know someone, let alone love them?” Kai told him and Lloyd smiled.

“It’s different.” Lloyd said and Kai rubbed his temples.

“How so?” Kai asked and Lloyd leaned off the railing to meet Kai’s eyes with a more confident look.

“It just is.” Lloyd told him. “I’m not exactly human… I don’t know what my Dad has passed onto me but it makes me behave differently, feel differently, think differently. I can control some elements like the red eyes but this… this is so much more.” Lloyd said and Kai looked out to the ocean desperately.

“No. It’s not.” Kai said and Lloyd shook his head.

“I’m not asking for your approval.” Lloyd told him, sharply. “No matter what she says back to me, it’s just… it’s just something I need to tell her before the final battle.” Lloyd said and Kai frowned, deeply. “Kai, if anything goes wrong-“

“It won’t. Don’t say that.” Kai told him, more desperate than before.

“If anything goes wrong… I need her to know. Even if there’s a chance of anything happening not in our favour, I can’t go into this with (Y/n) thinking I don’t love her.” Lloyd said and Kai closed his eyes.

“Please don’t say you’re doing this just because you want to ease both your conscious.” Kai told him and Lloyd grinned before grasping his shoulder.

“I wish that thought had even cross my mind… I just love her.” Lloyd told Kai again who held his own head in his hand.

“If that’s what you want.” Kai said. “Don’t think I’m helping you out or giving you any tips on how to make it really romantic though!” Kai said, sternly and Lloyd chucked.

“I wouldn’t dare.” He said finally before walking off.

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Once the ship was in the air again, it only took us a matter of hours to get to the island and I slept for almost all of them… I was still exhausted. Actually, I’m pretty sure Nya slept as well and Cole and Wu and- so I’m pretty sure nearly all of us slept. When I fell asleep, Lloyd was still out on the deck doing- whatever he was doing. Yet when I woke up, Lloyd’s head was resting on my stomach whilst the rest of his body dangled hopelessly at the end of the bed. I frowned at his awkward position before sitting up causing him to stir awake and force himself to sit up.

“Do you want to come and lay actually on the bed?” I asked and Lloyd paused for a moment before looking at me from the right end of the bed where he sat.

“Yes.” He told me and climbed his way up to the pillow. His eyes closed again immediately and I smiled before brushing a piece of hair away from his face. Lloyd always looked so troubled when he slept. He always managed to sleep with the deepest frown and I found myself trying to smooth out the crease in his eyebrows each time.

However, it wouldn’t be Lloyd if he didn’t suddenly reach out and grab me when I tried to get up and out the bed. I giggled a little when he buried his nose into my hair.

“C’mon sweetheart, I haven’t gotten up in hours. I want to get some food.” I told him only to feel him let out a deep sigh through his nose. “Lloyd…” I said his name in the hopes he would reply. “C’mon we’re probably going to land soon.” I told him and he moved his head a little to the side.

“Landed hours ago.” He groaned and I frowned.

“How long?!” I questioned and he held me a little tighter.

“Stay.” He told me again and I smiled.

While I did stay, for a few moments. My rumbling stomach interrupted the peaceful moment and that’s when I decided I was getting up now, no matter what Lloyd said. Which was just a bunch of groaning and protesting as I stood up and got my shoes back on. A new neatly pile a fresh cleaned and dried clothes were set on my chair and I sighed in relief as my- not Nya’s or Lloyd’s- trousers were on the chair. The ones I was wearing on the day we left. They were comfortable and I didn’t have to fight with a drawstring to keep them from falling down. That being said, I didn’t choose to wear my own top but Lloyd’s because his undershirts were surprisingly flattering on me.

“Looks better on you than me.” Lloyd told me and I gave him an amused look. He was propped up on his elbow and apparently just watching me get changed.

“Go back to sleep, Greenie.” I told him throwing the top I was previously wearing at him. Like the loveable weirdo he was, he caught the top and laid on it in order to fall back asleep. Lloyd really had some infatuation with how I smelt. He really really liked it and I didn’t know why but I wasn’t going to deny it?

“I don’t want to go out there.” Lloyd said and I smiled as I sat down in front of the mirror with a brush, a hair tie and a dream.

“It’s okay, sleepy. We 6 dwarfs don’t need you just yet.” I told him and he chortled.

“That is not what I meant.” Lloyd said, amused and sounding more awake. I gave him a look which said tell me more and he sat up again. “I mean… I- when I go out there, that means that it’s all real and all about to happen. I’m the green ninja and I have to be ready at any time to fight the final battle but in here, with you, I’m just Lloyd.” Lloyd told me and I felt my heart tighten at the confession. I let go of the hair tie with a snap and pulled the hair to make sure it was in place before making my way over to him again.

“You’re always Lloyd, whether you wear the gi or not. I don’t see it as separate anymore. To me, you are always Lloyd and while you may have to act different as Greenie you’re still Lloyd. And I’ll still feel for you all the same. And I’ll still have the same amount of confidence in you. Do you have that confidence in yourself?” I asked and he grabbed my hand, I let him intertwine our fingers as he spoke.

“Isn’t your confidence enough?” Lloyd asked and I smiled before kissing his forehead.

“Do you think it’s time to speak to your Sensei about this?” I asked and he sighed.

“Probably. I just want to be with you right now.” Lloyd said and I couldn’t help the way I cheesed at the line.

“Well maybe you could follow me into the kitchen and we could have some food together, like we did at my dorm?” I asked and he smiled.

“I’d love that.” Lloyd said with a small smile before bringing me into a kiss. Which was a dangerous ploy to just try and drag me back into bed.

I want it known on the record that I fought the green ninja and won.

Because here I am, in the kitchen making food whilst he was sitting at the table waiting expectantly for food. He was still a little groggy but I could forgive him for that considering I don’t think he slept well without me in the same bed recently. My cheffing skills didn’t stretch far in this kitchen so noodles with two sauce flavour packets was our first meal of the day. One of our bowls was considerably more full than the other. That bowl being Lloyd’s. He had the metabolism of 5 hungry bears in one person and he ate quicker than me too. Who had starved this poor boy like this?

“Do you think there’s a lot we don’t know about each other?” Lloyd asked and I frowned.

“I don’t know, after everything that’s happened recently I’m not even sure there’s much more to know? Thats the fun of it, isn’t it? Learning things about each other just by being with each other.” I told him and he frowned.

“Yeah? What have you learned about me that I haven’t told you?” Lloyd asked and I smiled.

“You’re a huge nerd.” I said and he almost choked in outrage.

“Excuse me?!” He questioned and I chuckled.

“Lloyd. You’ve got Star Wars posters and Lego sets all over your room. You have practically a whole comic book store in your room of just Starfare.” I told him and he took a moment.

“Okay, so you think I’m a nerd.” Lloyd said, a little unimpressed and I giggled.

“A hot one.” I told him and that seemed to ease him a little.

“Okay I can live with that.” Lloyd told me and I smiled before taking another bite.

“What’s something you learnt about me that I haven’t told you?” I asked and he thought for a moment.

“You’re an over thinker.” Lloyd said and that made me pause.

“Hold on, I call you a nerd playfully and that’s what you come out with for me?!” I questioned and he laughed.

“It’s not a bad thing, sweetheart.” Lloyd told me and I gave him a disbelieving look. “Makes you cuter.” He added and I deadpanned.

“What do I overthink about?” I asked and he chuckled.

“What don’t you overthink about?” He asked and- fair point.

“I would say this relationship but I am starting to think that was you trying to casually call me annoying and get away with it.” I said and he deadpanned.

“That is not what I meant.” He clarified and I shrugged.

“Yeah but that could be you just trying to cover it up-“ I said and he shook his head with a sigh.

“Ovethinker.” He told me and I shrugged.

“Does it bother you?” I asked and he shook his head.

“I’ve been told I don’t think enough so actually I think you’re making up for the thoughts I don’t think.” Lloyd said and I shook my head.

“You’re pretty smart.” I told him and he frowned.

“I’m not.” He told me and I nodded.

“You are!” I repeated and he sent me a disbelieving look. “I don’t know about academically but I’ve seen what you’re like in training and other things. You’re a pretty quick thinker.” I told him and he shook his head with an amused grin.

“Did I not just tell you I’ve been told I don’t think enough?” Lloyd asked and I rolled my eyes.

“Okay, okay.” I backed off. “Now I know you were at a boarding school for bad boys- and no the irony is not lost on me but I don’t actually know what education you’ve had.” I told him and he nodded.

“Okay, that’s something,” he said and I shook my head in amusement. “Well, they did teach maths, English, science, all the core subjects but they added a few subjects to those “core subjects” like… evil schematics, larceny, criminal behaviour.” Lloyd told me and I gasped.

“You’re kidding.” I said and he shook his head. “Really?!” I exclaimed and he nodded again. “My school offered sociology as an extra.” I told him and he laughed.

“If I’m honest, I haven’t actually done any academic work since I was 13.” Lloyd said and I gasped before pausing.

“Wait- is that 5 years ago or 1?” I asked and he deadpanned.

“2.” Lloyd said and I smiled before pausing.

“Did I miss your birthday?!” I questioned and he went quiet. “Lloyd!” I exclaimed and he took a deep breath.

“I haven’t celebrated my birthday- ever. I just don’t like it, the others know that so we just pretend it doesn’t exist.” Lloyd said and I started to tear up.

“You told me it was in May.” I said, my voice wavering.

“It’s okay, sweetheart. I knew you’d want to do something so I hoped you’d just forget or see my birth certificate when it was too late.” Lloyd said and I couldn’t stop my eyes from watering.

“So when actually is it?” I asked and he sighed.

“It’s already gone past-“

“Lloyd.” I said and he offered me a small smile.

“December 19th.” He told me and I gasped.

“What date is it now?” I asked and he laughed.

“The 21st.” He told me and I shook my head.

“It’s almost Christmas!” I exclaimed and he laughed. “Your birthday was 2 days ago?! I got you nothing!” I exclaimed again and he made a so-so motion with his head.

“Actually I’d say you gave me a great present if you remember…” He alluded and I gasped.

“I would’ve done a lot more if I knew!” I said and he chuckled.

“I’ll let you know next time.” He told me and I shook my head.

“Not funny.” I told him.

“Let’s talk about something else.” He said, taking his last bite.

“I hope you know when we get back I’m getting you a cake and everything.” I said and Lloyd gave me a blank look.

“Don’t do that.” He told me and I smiled.

“Oh and when I go shopping I’m even going to get you a present.” I told him and he rolled his eyes.

“Y/n, don’t.” He told me and I smiled even harder.

“Too bad, was going to make you take it off me with your teeth.” I said and his eyes shot back up to me.

“Maybe we can celebrate my birthday.” Lloyd said and I smiled.

I fought the green ninja twice today, and won both times.

“Mines (Y/b/d) in case you’ve forgotten that.” I said and Lloyd crossed his arms.

“I remember.” He told me and I smiled. “I already ordered your presents so they should be delivered by the time we get back.” Lloyd said and my eyes widened.

“For Christmas, right?” I asked and he stared at me for a moment.

“Those ones too.” Lloyd said and I held my head.

“Lloyd you’re killing me here.” I said and he chuckled.

“You were the one who missed my birthday- I’m kidding! I’m joking! All my fault. Don’t feel bad-! Sweetheart… Y/n?” Lloyd asked and I kept my head firmly placed down on the table. “Are you crying?”

“No.” I warbled and he chuckled.

“I can hear your irregular breathing.” Lloyd said and I looked up at him with my watery eyes. “You’re also really sensitive.” He told me and I shook my head.

“Not usually!” I exclaimed and he got up to kneel beside me. “This is not like when we had food at my dorm.” I told him and he chuckled.

“No, it’s not… I did offer to stay in bed.” Lloyd told me and I rolled my eyes before leaning on his shoulder. What a morning/afternoon/night… what time was it even?

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Time worked weirdly on the Dark Island. It was like night was day and day was night. It just felt off. Like being on the opposite side of the scales. Like I was once light and now I am heavy. Like I was living in the light and now I’m living in the dark- oh wait. That made sense actually.

I don’t think this is what Master Wu was having me mediate for…

“Focus, young one.” Wu told me and I sighed. He really sensed my distraction that clearly? “You may not be training to become a ninja yet but you do need to gain some control over this power.” Wu told me and I let my posture drop and my back hunch again. “Clear your mind and focus.” He added and I shook my head.

“I don’t know how to!” I exclaimed. “Every time I try I end up thinking about Lloyd or my situation or I end up monologging in my head.” I told Wu who sighed and sat down across from me.

“Perhaps I need to take another approach.” Wu told me and I sat up a little straighter. “What helps you to focus on other things… like school work?” Wu asked and I thought for a moment.

“Music? I don’t know… I’ve never been able to focus on one thing at a time.” I told him and Wu hummed in thought.

“Maybe that’s where we’re going wrong.” Wu told me and I frowned. “Your glitches are not one single thing. They are multiple forms coming together to disrupt the physical form of what is already there.” Wu said and I listened to his words intently. “Perhaps these glitches are merely a manifestation of your own mental perception.” He continued and I thought for a moment.

Nothing had ever been stable for me. I had faced hardship after hardship… not like the ninja but my hardships were that either way. I had never known stability and glitches were a literal sign of instability and that something was amiss.

“So, my glitches are representations of my own instability?” I asked and Wu stroked his beard.

“Theoretically, it is possible.” He agreed and I nodded.

“If they are only triggered by something potentially threatening, could that mean I manifest these glitches when I see something I associate with fear or danger?” I asked and Wu nodded.

“If that is so, it would mean you associate your own name with those horrible emotions.” Wu told me and I looked away, maybe in shame, maybe in confusion.

“I want to accept these powers as a part of me.” I told Wu. “My name… when I used that name freely. I was hurt. I associate it with betrayal and those who gave it to me, called me it before regarding me as less than. I associate it with those low feelings because others do. I almost see it as another side of me. A side I’m only just beginning to know again… thanks to, Lloyd.” I said and Wu smiled.

“Well then it may be of use to us.” Wu said and I smiled. “I will not use that name.” He clarified and I bowed my head in gratitude. “But this does give me some insight… if the glitches are triggered by emotion then perhaps you can use it to your advantage. You may be able to channel these emotions in order to summon the glitches to your will.” Wu told me and I grinned.

“You really think I can learn to control them?” I asked and he smiled.

“I can only hope… and I believe you are more than what you have reduced yourself to.” Wu said and I took a deep breath.

“Then I will try.” I told him and he smiled before bowing his head.

Would being around the ninja help me to learn more about myself?

[ramspatula]

Part 7 | Lloyd Garmadon x fem!reader | Part 7

I was getting so tired…

Previous part, Master list, Next part

Dr Julien was- nice. Strange. But nice. I suppose I couldn’t judge him too much as he had been trapped in this lighthouse place for almost two decades. However, I was surprised at the lack of wariness from the ninja who entered the place the man lived in with no hesitation. Zane, I could understand. I just had to trust that the ninja, Lloyd specifically, trusted Zane enough to trust that he trusted his father enough to know we were not in immediate danger of the man. That was a sentence I hoped never to repeat in my head again or out loud.

“-and what is your element, dearie?” The man asked from where he sat at the table. The table that had appeared out of nowhere that also had a little robot that poured us tea. I smiled sheepishly and shook my head.

“I don’t have an element.” I clarified and he ah’ed but Jay frowned immediately.

“Then how did do you do that thing?!” Jay asked and my eyes darted around the table to see everyone’s focus on me yet no one came to my defence. “Surely you need to have an elemental power to do that?” He added and I felt my words start to get stuck in my throat.

“What thing?” Dr Julien asked and I looked at Lloyd nervously who didn’t meet my eyes, I swallowed nervously.

“I- uhm… I glitch.” I said and his eyes widened in intrigue.

“Glitch?!” He exclaimed. “How so? Can you show us?!” The man asked and I felt so out of place, even when surrounded by those who also had abilities- mine just weren’t from the same origin.

“Oh, Uhm… I don’t think there’s such a thing as the elemental power of glitch so I don’t really control it…“ I answered. “It’s just glitching, it doesn’t really do anything big-“ I added but was cut off by Kai laughter.

“Nothing big?! She’s being modest. You should’ve seen her at the museum! She took down the biggest stone warrior by glitching him into the floor without even thinking about it!” Kai exclaimed and the air suddenly felt heavier.

“Not to mention that if she hears her actual name- glitches! It’s w-“ What I assume Cole was about to say was that it was weird but he was cut off by the table itself glitching and all of our cups falling through the table.

“Oh my goodness! Extraordinary!” Dr Julien said and I just stared wide eyed with my hands up and away from the table. “Is it a thought or does it just happens?” He asked and I forced myself to swallow down my growing agitation. It didn’t work very well.

“I just- glitch! Things, myself, other people- excuse me.” I told them and jumped up before rushing away and back down the stairs I had come from.

I didn’t leave but I stopped before the door and stood against the cold wall. Why did it feel all of a sudden hard to breathe? Why did it always feel like I was never meant to talk about this? Why couldn’t I talk about this stupid power without feeling like something is pressing against my lungs and stopping me from breathing? It was ridiculous. What form of denial was this? It’s pathetic, really. Making a whole table glitch because Zane’s father was innocently asking me about my power and then Cole and Kai jumping in I just- maybe I was wrong to come. If I couldn’t handle my own power how I could I handle helping Lloyd with fulfilling his prophecy? Maybe I was just useless. Maybe I shouldn’t be here…

“Peaches?” That was Lloyd’s voice and it sounded so soft, so worried and I didnt dare open my mouth to respond as I knew a sob would probably fall out my mouth or a noise just as pathetic. “Are you down here?” Lloyd asked and I faced away from him as he made his way down the stairs, his footsteps not making a noise. The old staircase was the only thing alerting me of his moments with its creaks under his weight. “What’s wrong?” He asked, and I felt a hand gently cradle my arm as he looked over my shoulder at me. I shook my head.

“I’m just- ugh.” I wiped a rogue tear as soon as it left my water line and closed my eyes to stop my eyes from watering any more.

“I didn’t think anything was bad or- did I miss something?” Lloyd asked and I shook my head.

“No, I’m just- I’m just being ridiculous.” I told him and turned to face him. His face held a disbelieving expression.

“If there’s things you don’t want to talk about just let me know and I’ll make sure no one else will bring it up.” Lloyd told me and I looked up at him.

“No it’s not that and it shouldn’t be like that. I shouldn’t be as weird as I am.” I told him and he, to my surprise, scoffed.

“Y/n.” He said and my eyes shot up to meet his.

“Lloyd.” I replied and he dead panned.

“So it was Cole-“ Lloyd said and I shook my head.

“It was no one!” I told him. “Except me.” I clarified and he didn’t seem to believe me.

“What was it that upset you then?” Lloyd asked and I looked away.

“I’m not upset.” I said and he sent me a stern look.

“Oh really? This, right now, is not you upset? What? You came downstairs just to take a breath?” Lloyd asked and I rolled my eyes.

“Don’t do that.” I told him and he crossed his arms. “And I’m not upset- I’m not!” I repeated as he rolled his eyes. “It’s- hard to explain.” I said and he sent me a look.

“Try me.” Lloyd said and his tone frustrated me to no end.

“Talking about my… glitches, feels wrong and it’s just something that happens. Why focus on it?” I said and he frowned, eyebrows creasing in confusion.

“You talk to me about them.” He said and I closed my eyes in frustration.

“Yes but that’s you. You say my name and I don’t glitch!” I told him and Lloyd nodded but his expression didn’t fall.

“Why does it feel wrong?” He asked and I shook my head, my brain scrambling for any explanation and coming up with none.

“I don’t know! I don’t know anything about this! It’s not an element, I don’t just control it.” I told him and Lloyd looked down before smiling, a small one but still a smile. “What?” I asked and he chuckled.

“You really don’t know.” He said and I looked at him blankly.

“And that’s funny?” I asked and he shook his head before taking my hands.

“Do you think I discovered my powers and just knew how to control them?” Lloyd asked and I faltered. “It took months before I could even create the smallest burst of energy, let alone make the smallest flame.” Lloyd told me and I stared up at him, almost confused.

“But I’m not an elemental.” I told him and he nodded.

“I know, but a power is a power, no matter its origin. You are the vessel of that power for a reason.” Lloyd told me and I frowned.

“I don’t want to be.” I told him and he smiled before kissing my forehead.

“And that’s your problem, sweetheart.” He told me. “You think it’s this separate thing- it’s part of you.” Lloyd said and I sighed.

“So what was all that up there about then?” I asked and Lloyd chuckled.

“I never said there weren’t different rules… it’s just the premise that’s the same.” He told me and I said him an unimpressed look to try and hide my amusement. “If it helps, I didn’t want my powers either.” Lloyd told me, bringing me into a hug that I accepted.

“Your team must think I’m such a drama queen.” I said, tears still falling down my face.

“They’ve all been much worse, believe me! One time, Kai-“ Lloyd started telling me with an amused grin only to be cut off by a sudden yell from none other than Dr Julien.

“Hide! Away from the windows! Now!”

Dr Julien’s voice echoed down the stairs and Lloyd hauled me underneath the stairs and against his chest as we kneeled on the floor. My heart pounded in my chest as I held onto Lloyd tightly. He had his head pointed out the underneath of the stairs and I watched as his eyes hardened as he focused. It took me a moment to realise he was trying to hear or possibly catch sight of whatever we were hiding from. I laid my head gently on his collarbone and he moved a hand up to gently hold my head where it was. It was a small gesture to acknowledge that he was also looking out for me. I closed my eyes and his thumb began to caress the back of my neck, lightly grazing the hair at the back of my neck.

God it was not getting easier to get used to these dangerous things happening at any and all times.

After a moment, Lloyd looked down at me and smiled. I sent him a confused look and he continued to hold my head with an adoring stare. I mouthed a ‘what?!’ to him and he only chuckled silently before dipping his head down and connecting his lips to mine. I let him steal a kiss before he pulled away and I looked up at him with wide eyes.

“We’re safe.” Lloyd told me and I frowned.

“But no one- how do you know?!” I asked, in whisper and he smiled.

“My hearing is… enhanced, per se.” Lloyd said and I deadpanned.

“Per se?” I questioned and he grinned.

“You’re so cute.” He told me and I frowned. I wasn’t really following or even understanding the moment we were apparently having under these stairs.

“I appreciate the compliment but what the hell is going on?!” I questioned and Lloyd smiled.

“Sorry, I just realised how much you actually trust me.” He told me and I raised a brow.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” I eyes him suspiciously and he chuckled again.

“It means that you continue to amaze me, Peaches.” Lloyd complimented again and I frowned.

“Once again- what the hell is going on?!” I asked and he only forced us to stand before taking my hand and leading me back up the stairs.

The others were slowly emerging from their hiding spots when we made it to the top of the stairs and I caught Wu readjusting his straw hat. I had begun to think it was glued to his head. Nya was helping Jay back to his feet and Kai was stretching, probably from being in an uncomfortable hiding spot. Cole was the last to emerge and I seriously wondered where a guy of his stature would hide? He wasn’t exactly getting into an empty cupboard. Dr Julien was still at the table with Misako holding a comforting hand on his shoulder as he regained his breath. Zane was next to the man too and helping his father to breathe properly.

“What was that thing?!” Jay questioned and I clung to Lloyd’s hand as he stood tall and confidently in front of me.

“Is that why you can’t leave, father?” Zane asked and I felt a pang of sympathy for the man and his nindroid son.

“Yes… but I understand that you need to.” Dr Julien said and my heart ached more for the man. I looked up at Lloyd with a sad look and he met my eyes with his own disheartened one before his face turned serious again. I imagine he was thinking about his own father-son relationship than the old man’s inability to escape this little island. I rubbed his arm comfortingly but Nya only smirked.

“You think you could help us out?” She asked and the man grinned.

“Of course! What do you need?” Dr Julien asked.

“How good at you at repairing thrusters on a ship?” Nya asked and gestured out the window. Dr Julien looked out the window and gasped.

“That ship has thrusters on?!” He asked and a shared amusement was felt in the room at the man’s amazement.

“She’s not the best she’s ever looked but I reckon you could help her out… what do you say, Doc?” Kai asked and Dr Julien grinned widely.

“I say… what are we waiting for?!” The man exclaimed before practically racing towards the stairs. I sent Lloyd an exasperated look.

We shared a brief moment of joint bliss before it was ruined by Kai slapping his hand on Lloyd’s shoulder and leaning over Lloyd’s shoulder and looking between us.

“You guys were gone for a long time… did you have some fun?” He asked and I cringed and Lloyd frowned.

“You thought that was a long time?” Lloyd asked and Kai’s eyes widened. “I feel bad for Pearl.” Lloyd told me and I rolled my eyes. Whilst Lloyd was enjoying his smug moment, I decided to tug on his hand to signal him to follow the old man and to hopefully not have our sex life put on blast any more. Lloyd chuckled before following me out.

“She’s never had any complaints before!” I heard Kai yell and I shook my head at the statement.

“Just let it go, bro. You don’t look good either way here.” Cole told Kai who could be heard sighing.

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The three days it took to fix the ship again felt like an eternity. Between sleeping on the floor of the lighthouse because sleeping on the Bounty was too risky to becoming a manual labourer to having to continually tie and adjust Nya’s clothes because I had none of my own. I was exhausted. I wasn’t a ninja. I didn’t have any training. I was a student who had to steal in order to be able to afford to eat. I didn’t have time to workout or worry about my health enough to maintain it. So yes, my blue friend with super strength did need to help me with things. And no I was not as strong as Nya despite also being a girl because Nya was a ninja with a lot more muscle than me. I was also annoyed because I felt like the but of the joke for the ninja as I didn’t get their inside jokes or could keep up with them.

“Is there anything else I could help with? I think I’m holding us back a little bit with the wiring right now?” I asked Dr Julien who was sat next to me and he gave me a concerned look before frowning. I noticed Zane share a concerned look with him too.

“I disagree, I think you’re doing a great job! You really picked this up quickly!” Dr Julien told me and I smiled.

“Are you sure? Because I know I’m no good out there with them but- I don’t know. I just feel a little like a burden.” I said and Dr Julien shook his head.

“Nonsense!” He exclaimed and Zane nodded. “Zane? Do you think Peach here is a burden?”

“On the contrary, I think you’ve been increasingly useful.” Zane said and I couldn’t help the thankful smile I gave him. “As ninja we forget that our view of the world is different to the view of others, that means we have lost some of our ‘common’ sense as our viewpoints are no longer common. You have been able to remind us of easier and quicker solutions.” Zane justified and I smiled.

“Thank you and sorry. I guess I just haven’t been feeling like myself over the past few days, maybe Im just feeling a little insecure.” I told them and Zane sent me a reassuring smile.

“A week ago you found out your partner was the green ninja, your home was destroyed, city was invaded, forced to evacuate and you are now helping to repair a flying ship in order to help your partner defeat his evil father in a prophesied final battle. I believe what you are feeling as of now is the feeling of being overwhelmed.” Zane told me and I nodded.

“I think you may be right.” I told them. “Thank you… I’m going to go make tea. Who wants one?” I asked and both men agreed.

It was only luck that on my way out I almost crash into my boyfriend.

“Oh! Careful, Peaches.” He lightly scolded me, hands on my hips to keep me steady. “Don’t need you hurting yourself.” Lloyd told me and I felt my eyes water but I nodded and rushed away from him, ignoring his frown. “Peaches?” He asked but I ignored him.

Lloyd turned back to Dr Julien and Zane who gave him a sympathetic look.

“Is she okay?” Lloyd asked and Dr Julien smiled at him.

“I believe that is what you should go find out.” Dr Julien advised and Lloyd’s eyes widened as he raced off in the direction he saw his girlfriend go.

I felt more stupid than ever. More pathetic than ever. And my headache grew as the tea pot whistled a higher note. I was glad we at least had gas again now. I was tired of having to ask Lloyd to light the stove and Kai making some snarky remark about just using a match. I was tired in general.

“Hey, Peaches.” I heard from the doorway and turned to see Lloyd, I offered him a small smile.

“Hey, Greenie.” I greeted back before going back to putting the right tea bag in each mug. “You want one?” I asked and he shrugged.

“Depends, will you stay and drink it with me? Talk to me a little?” Lloyd asked and I politely smiled.

“I wouldn’t want to be the reason we fall behind schedule.” I told him and he rolled his eyes.

“You wouldn’t be.” He assured before coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist. He placed his head against the back of my shoulder and sighed. “C’mon Y/n, I’m staring to miss you.” Lloyd said and I grinned at his dramatics.

“Lloyd.” I dragged as he began to kiss up my neck gently. “I can’t. Kai and Jay already think I drag out my tea breaks so I don’t have to do as much work. What will they say if I drag out this one to kiss my-“ I didn’t even get to finish my sentence as Lloyd’s head shot up from my neck as his grip around my waist loosened enough for me to turn around to look at him. I gave him a confused look and in turn he kept his eyebrows creased in a frown.

“They said what?” Lloyd asked and I shook my head.

“It’s all in jest and I do probably take a while compared to-“ I tried to justify but Lloyd shook his head.

“Compared to what? Cole has already had to yell at the both of them to get back 4 times this morning.” Lloyd said and I smiled. “And I don’t believe you think it’s all in jest.”

“I’m just not used to it all.” I told him and he frowned harder.

“Don’t make excuses for them, Y/n.” Lloyd told me and I felt my eyes begin to water. “If you’re upset then it doesn’t matter what intent they had.” He added and I felt my heart tighten at his caring words.

“It’s not just them- I’m just overwhelmed. I mean, I’ve lost everything.” I confessed and he nodded and as the kettle’s whistling became quieter my voice became more hushed. Like I only wanted him to hear these words because he was the only one I had left to open up to. “My home is gone. My possessions are gone- I don’t even own any clothes anymore! My shoes are ripping and I’m so fucking tired.” I whispered, tears began to slip from my eyes and Lloyd sighed, bringing me into his arms and my head came to hide in his chest. “I don’t even know what’s going to happen after we get home, if we do. I’m so lost.”

Lloyd fell quiet as quiet sobs began to leave my mouth and he only held me tighter when my body began to shake. After a little while when my thoughts continued to darken and remind me of every little inconvenience, Lloyd hoisted me up, forcing me to wrap my legs around his waist. He moved us to what I assumed was the corner of the room and sat against the wall. It was kind of ironic, a week ago we were sat in this position except it was me comforting him instead. His head came down to rest against the side of mine and began to whisper sweet nothings in my ear that only managed to make me quieten more tears to fall at his kindness and the genuine affection he was showing me.

“I’m sorry.” I heard Lloyd whisper and I froze. “I’ve been so focused on what’s about to happen to me that I’ve forgotten everything that’s just happened to you.” Lloyd told me and I shook my head.

“No, you don’t need to be sorry, Lloyd.” I told him, wiping my tears and nose with the back of my hand. “You didn’t do any of this to me, none of you did… you invited me into your home and your family. You’ve clothed me. You’re all I have right now. And I’ve never been so thankful.” I told him and he smiled.

“Do you think there’s any world out there where I be there when you most need me?” Lloyd asked and I sniffed.

“We’ve barely even been together a month. How can you promise such a thing?” I asked and Lloyd just stared at me for a moment before smiling again.

“I don’t know, I just know I don’t ever want to be away from you. I physically can’t ever be away from you. I mean- I couldn’t even think about staying away from you. You literally called me your personal stalker, Y/n.” Lloyd told me and I frowned.

“Is that a bad thing? Because I don’t see it as one. Should I?” I asked and Lloyd shrugged.

“I don’t know.” Lloyd admitted and I kissed his cheek.

“Maybe I don’t want to be away from you either.” I told him before resting my head against his shoulder. “I don’t feel safe anymore. I feel like I’m in constant danger and you’re the only thing that can protect me. I feel as if I can’t defend myself and I’m just dragging everyone around me down because I don’t understand anything. I feel like I’m dragging you down because I can’t be away from you and now you can’t be away from me!” I exclaimed, seemingly working us both back up.

“What are we going to do?” Lloyd asked and I shrugged, for the first time he actually sounded afraid.

“I don’t know.” I whispered before repeating it again as he held onto me tighter.

“Maybe we should meditate?” Lloyd questioned and I frowned.

“Meditate? I don’t know how-“ I went to say but Lloyd shook his head.

“Here, it’s easy.” He told me, placing my hand against his chest. “Get comfortable and just- just close your eyes. That’ll make it easier to focus.” Lloyd guided and I readjusted my position on him, until my whole body was lax against him. I closed my eyes and I felt him kiss my head. “Okay, now focus on your breathing and try to even it out.” Lloyd said and I frowned.

“All I can focus on is you.” I confessed and I felt Lloyd nod.

“No that’s good, that’s good.” Lloyd reassured. “Can you hear my heartbeat?” He asked and I chuckled.

“I can’t hear it but I can feel it.” I said and I almost felt Lloyd smile.

“Okay, close enough. Count my heartbeats.” He told me.

“Until when?”

“Until you feel calm.”

Just count… just count.

*thump*……..*thump*……*thump*

One…

Two…

Three…

Is Lloyd getting up? He’s picking me up? He’s carrying my somewhere?

Four…

Im so tired. I don’t want to open my eyes.

Five…

I’m so exhausted… maybe I don’t need to open my eyes.

Six…

Lloyd sighed as he laid the girl down on the bed they had previously shared on the bounty. He would have to move her later when she woke up again but for now, he knew she needed the sleep. He knew she needed him. He knew that this messed up need for dependency was mutual and he wasn’t sure he was happy about it. He always saw Peach as so stable. Well for the month he’d been with her, he thought so. She spoke so maturely, she communicated her thoughts well and she was very emotionally available to him. She hadn’t shunned him yet for all his baggage and fucked up decisions he made along the way. She forgave him for deceiving her and heard him out. So to know she was struggling so much the past week and he had been so focused on himself… it was selfish. He was selfish and narrow-minded. She had just lost everything and still threw all her energy into helping him and he had foolishly thought that she was over everything that just happened? That none of it was still raw for her. It happened less than a week ago for fucks sake! Maybe this fast paced relationship was ruining his own perception of time. Maybe all of this wasn’t meant to be so fast and they had both rushed into this head over heels and thought that simple communication could do more than time to actually build a foundation. Or maybe this was their own fucked up way of building a foundation? And fuck, shouldn’t that bite mark be less prominent as a scar? She never said it hurt her but I was as clear as day still.

What was Lloyd doing? Thinking even?! How could he put the right amount of time into her and their relationship if all he could do at the moment was focus on the final battle? It wasn’t all about him and this prophecy!

Lloyd wiped the tear that dared to fall down his face as soon as it left his waterline and with a sniff, he leant down and kissed Y/n’s hairline. He moved some hair out her face and behind her ear before leaning his head against hers.

“I’m sorry, baby.” He whispered. “I’m sorry. You needed me. And I didn’t realise. I do now and I’m sorry. You’re not just my anchor, I’m yours too. And from now on, I’ll hold up my end of that.” Lloyd promised with a kiss to her forehead. “I’m going to find a way to help you, actually. You’ll feel safe again. I’ll make sure of it.” Lloyd declared, still in a whisper before leaving the room.

The tea was long forgotten in the kitchen and Lloyd boiled the kettle again. He needed a drink, something to sooth the tightening of his throat. And of course, where there was tea brewing. Wu wasn’t too far away. So it was unsurprising to see Wu enter the room, Kai not too far behind him.

“One for me Pea- Lloyd! Sorry, thought it was Peach’s job to make tea. I always find her in here so-“ Lloyd knew Kai’s words had no actual intent behind them but they angered him nonetheless. The aftermath of their conversation and her distress left his feelings of protectiveness and guilt in not defending her sooner to flare up at the actual harmless jest.

“Get out, I need to speak to Sensei.” Lloyd told him and the fire ninja raised his hands in faux surrender.

“Jeez, didn’t mean to catch you at a bad time.” Kai said, leaving the room with a calm expression on his face.

“I assume the harsh demand to your brother has some sort of purpose behind it.” Wu told him and Lloyd sighed. “You seem distracted, dear nephew. Care to tell me what troubles you?”

“Y/- Peach… she’s struggling and I didn’t even notice until she told me earlier.” Lloyd told his uncle who nodded. “She doesn’t feel safe and- and I want her to feel safe- I do! She doesn’t want to ever leave me and I can’t even think about leaving her without…. I just want to make her feel like she’s safe again, like she’s secure. I want her to know I can provide that and that she can depend on me as Lloyd. Not just depend on me protecting her as the green ninja.” Lloyd finished and his uncle nodded, looking a little taken aback.

“That’s a lot of pressure for a relationship that’s only been active for such a short period.” Wu told him and he nodded.

“I know, I’m just looking for advice or to rant- I don’t know. I tried mediating with Peach but it just sent her to sleep… she’s that tired.” Lloyd added and Wu nodded.

“You want her to feel emotionally secure with Lloyd, not just physically safe?” Wu asked and Lloyd nodded.

“I think that’s what I’m saying.” Lloyd agreed and Wu stroked his beard.

“Well, can you think of a time that she fully trusted you before she knew of your gi? A time where she put all her faith into you, to guide her and to keep her safe. An intimate moment, that perhaps she had only shared with you.” Wu asked and Lloyd paused, racking his brain for a moment.

“I just felt vulnerable, I felt safe. I haven’t felt like that since I can remember.”

“Yes.” Lloyd told his uncle who smiled back at him.

“Then you know what you must do to make her feel content again.” Wu told his nephew.

“You make me feel safe, content even. I’ve never had that before.”

Lloyd didn’t know much, but he had an idea. And it involved kicking every one of his teammates and elders off this ship.

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🔞 mature and sexual themes ahead. Please skip to the next part if you don’t want to read this, none of the storyline will be missed.

When I woke up again, it was dark and I sat up quickly. What was I thinking?! I needed to get back to the lighthouse as quickly as possible! It was too dangerous to be alone on this ship in the dark with that thing out here! I needed to find someone else as quick as possible and tell them we needed to leave- I-

“Easy, baby.” I heard a familiar voice from the foot of the doorway and turned to see Lloyd. I sighed in relief, and swung my legs over the bedside.

“What’s going on? Shouldn’t we be in the lighthouse?” I asked and he chucked before moving over towards me.

“No, everyone else is up there but we’re going to stay here tonight.” Lloyd told me and I frowned.

“Isn’t that too dange-“ I got cut off by Lloyd gently resting a hand against my check and softly grazing his thumb over my skin.

“We’re okay.” He assured, leaning down until he was eye level with me. “You’re okay.” He reassured and I nodded. It felt unusually warm between us. And intimate.

“So we’re all alone? The whole ship just do ourselves?” I asked and Lloyd nodded with a smile. “What are we gonna do?” I asked, teasingly and Lloyd smirked before pressing a small kiss to my lips leaving my cheeks to warm. He took a moment to look over me with such an adoring look in his eyes it made me smile.

“You’re so beautiful, Peaches.” He told me and I giggled.

“Seriously, Lloyd.” I said, my unfaltering grin not helping to showcase my said seriousness. “What are we doing?” I asked and he put his other hand on my other cheek so he was holding my face. He let a thumb drift down and light pull my bottom lip down.

Oh.

Now I got what we were going to do.

“First I’m going to show you how much you fucking mean to me, Y/n.” Lloyd declared with such a fire in his eyes. “Then I’m going to take control- just how you like.” Lloyd fold me and I felt myself begin to heat up immediately.

“Really?” I asked and Lloyd nodded.

“If that’s what you want?” He asked and I nodded.

“Yes. I want that. I want you.” I told him and he smirked. “But, are you okay with that?” I asked and he gave me a weird look. “I know you feel like you’re going to hurt me whenever we do this and I- I don’t want you to-“ he cut me off by lightly shushing me.

“Don’t worry about me, baby.” He told me, his voice lowering to a whisper. “This is all about you… I’m going to make you feel safe again.” Lloyd told me and I smiled.

“You don’t have to do this.” I told him and he smiled.

“Of course I do. I want to.” He said and I felt my heart warm.

“And it’s just us?” I questioned and he nodded. “Come here then.” I told him and I tried to pull his face towards me but he backed off. I frowned but he only winked. I watched as Lloyd stood with a confused expression but he only smirked.

“You’re going to take my gi off first.” He told me and my eyebrows raised in surprise.

His gi was an intricate piece of fabric. It had so many buckles and belts and things that overlapped that the new given task actually seemed a little daunting. Even so I rose from the bed and slowly made my way over, I looked up at him when I got close enough and he grinned once again.

“I’ll give you a hint.” Lloyd said taking my hand and putting on the main belt of his gi. “You start here.” He told me and I smiled.

The belt came off easily. The other buckles needed loosening and altogether it came off a lot easier than it looked. I was thankful for that at least. Lloyd kicked the gi off to the side and ripped his undershirt off quickly before leaning down to kiss and suck on my neck, particularly around the bite that was still awfully sensitive at times.

“Try not to leave too many marks.” I told him. “I don’t want your team to have more to say than they already-“ My sentence was cut off by my own gasp as I was hoisted up, forcing my legs to wrap around his waist.

“Let them talk.” Lloyd told me. “We’re different to them. We don’t just fuck for pleasure. It’s so much more.” Lloyd told me and I nodded before letting him connect our lips together in a way that really showed the passion we held for each other.

“I need you, Lloyd.” I confessed. “I actually need you. Not just to get me off but as a whole. You’re right, what we feel for each other is not just want. It’s a need.” I told him and that seemed to ignite something inside him as he suddenly dropped me on the bed.

“Strip.” He told me. “All the way. I want to be able to love every part of you.” Lloyd told me and if he wasn’t so distracted getting his own boxers off he would’ve seen the way I paused at that word.

Love?

My thoughts were cut short by my own trousers getting pulled off with such a force it made my whole body get dragged down the bed and I surprised laugh to leave my mouth.

“Not quick enough, Peaches.” Lloyd told me and I laughed.

“Okay, okay!” I laughed before unclipping my bra and throwing it at him as he laughed and caught it. “You hurry up! I’m getting cold!” I told him and he raised an eyebrow.

“You’ve still got something on.” He told me, referring to my underwear.

“I thought you would want to take those off.” I told him and he chuckled.

Lloyd’s infatuation with eating me out wasn’t an unwelcome kink but he sure was getting better at it each time. It seemed each time he got me to cum quicker and quicker and he wasn’t afraid to lick, smell, taste all of it. I’m sure there was more salvia over my bare clit than anything I naturally released. I was sure he had some sort of oral fixation, not that I minded. I’m sure I did too with how I begged to suck him off not even moments later.

“I’m going to give you a choice. You can only pick one.” Lloyd told me and I frowned up at him from my place in between his legs, I let my face rest on his thigh as he stroked my hair. I looked up to meet his eyes and he smiled down at me. I hummed in acknowledgement and he continued. “You can either suck me off and stay there or you can come back up here and once we’re done, you can keep me in.”

Lloyd was letting me cockwarm him either with my mouth or my legs.

“Can’t I do both?” I asked and he chuckled.

“No, baby.” He told me and I closed my eyes for a moment.

“Will you bite me again?” I asked and he frowned.

“Did you like it?” He asked and I nodded. “I won’t bite you how I did before but I can still bite if you want.” Lloyd said and I went back to thinking. My mind went all jumbled whenever I was in this position.

“What do you want?” I asked and he shook his head.

“It’s your decision.” He told me and I stared at the cock right by my face. It was going in me either way, it was just which entrance did I want it in.

I licked a stripe up the base quickly and he groaned before I started kissing and sucking all the way up. It wasn’t until I felt my own teeth lightly graze his skin did I feel Lloyd’s hand grip my hair tightly and I wasn’t ashamed to admit the moan I let out.

“Teeth, Y/n.” He told me. “I won’t warn you again, baby.” Lloyd told me and I nodded and he loosened his grip slightly to let me move more.

I didn’t take him in my mouth though, I just watched as he became harder and harder until I backed up. He gave me a stern look when I did so which made me heat up more than before.

I didn’t even utter a word as I clambered up on his lap, his eyes followed mine the whole time. I lifted my hips a little higher and he seemed to get the memo. He pushed two fingers in at once and I hissed a little before he shushed me quietly and began to work on loosening me up once again as he had done so with his tongue not long before. When I felt my knees slowly staring to give out, that when I felt his fingers be removed and instead his tip was pushing into me, slowly and it felt so much more intimate than usual. I love this. I love-

I love….

Love.

“Lloyd.” I breathed out as he lifted us up and placed me down on my back. I couldn’t believe it. Love. That’s such a strong word. Love.

When was the last time I had said I loved someone?! Or someone had told me it?! And- and I hadn’t even known Lloyd for two months. How could I love someone this soon? How did I give myself to someone I had only been dating for two weeks? How could I rush so easily to get on a flying ship and embark on a mission to fulfil a prophecy for someone I had known less than 2 months and- and…

Lloyd leaned down to press his lips to my forehead and my thoughts seemed to stop. Whatever whirlwind my mind was currently stuck in seemed to dissipate. Lloyd wasn’t just anyone. We weren’t normal teenagers adjusting to our first real relationship. Lloyd was right. We are different.

Lloyd was the Green Ninja. Fate had carved his path long before he was born.

I wasn’t normal either. Fate wouldn’t dare disclose my path to me but I knew it wouldn’t let me live a normal life.

With a new surge of passion I pushed myself up and crashed my lips against him in a messy kiss. Lloyd pushed me back down and continued the kiss whilst still thrusting his hips into mine wildly.

“I need you. I need you so badly.” Maybe need was just a replacement for the other word I really wanted to say. Maybe.

And with both of us spent and the oh so familiar warmth locked deep inside me by Lloyd’s unmoving figure. I felt safe. I felt secure and I felt as if I had everything even in the time when I had lost everyone. Because I had him. So I played with Lloyd’s blonde loose curls until I heard little snores against my bare chest.

This was where I was supposed to be. And where I would stay.

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Zinnias | Lloyd Garmadon x reader | Part 6

Homeless, forced to leave the city but not alone

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I came to a realisation as I let Lloyd lead me to the top of this skyscraper. I trusted him too much. That and he was the only thing stopping these stone warriors from killing me. He seemed to be the only thing stopping them, I could see how the other ninjas rendered useless at the seemingly impenetrable opponents. I thought they had powers? Why was Lloyd the only one using powers? How have I ended up in two situations like this in the span of 2 days?! A tug and my body colliding with another as a sword just missed me gave me my answer. I looked up to my green saviour, who looked down to check on me before leading me into the building where everyone was running up the stairs.

“Go! I’ll be up there soon!” Lloyd told me.

“But-“ He shook his head.

“No. I’ll be okay, I’ll see you soon. Just get to the roof and make sure you get on the bounty.” Lloyd told me, I looked up at the stairs but I refused to let go of his hand as I turned back around to look into his eyes.

“Lloyd, please-“ I wanted him to come up with me now.

“Ease my conscious, please, Y/n.” Something glitched, I didn’t care what. I couldn’t believe what I was about to do. I couldn’t believe I could leave him like this.

“I will come straight back down if you’re not up there within the next 5 minutes.” I told him and he nodded, I kissed the cheek of the mask before running up the stairs.

These stairs seemed to go on forever, I heard someone collapse and I turned to see an elderly woman. Against my better judgment, I ran to her and helped her up. I put one of her arms around my shoulders and held most of her weight. She thanked me endlessly as we made our way up these stairs. I was trying to be quick until I saw Jay grab the woman’s other arm and wrap it around his shoulders and together we charged up the stairs. Another women, younger, ran to the elderly woman and took her off us. I could now see how many people were trying to get onto the bounty, which was a flying ship.

“I don’t think everyone is going to fit.” I said to Jay who was next to me.

“They will, we’ll make sure of it. The bounty is tougher than she looks and bigger.” He was right. It was a lot wider than it looked. I ended up next to Kai who had a hand on his com which was in his ear.

“Everyone is on board, including Peach, waiting for Green and Misako.” He said and I couldn’t hear if anyone responded.

“Where is he?” I asked, not wanting to wait any longer.

“On his way, a satchel that has all the final battle scrolls got caught on something and they had to retrieve it. They’re on their way now.” Kai tried to calm me. It didn’t work.

“We need to get this thing moving, and soon!” Cole called out, the civilians nodded and agreement was heard.

“Not until those two are on board!” Wu and I finally agreed on something for once. It wasn’t long until we saw them emerge from the stair well. Lloyd boosted his mother or board and I watched as multiple stone warriors infiltrated the roof and tried to attack the thrusters. Lloyd looked directly in my eyes before fighting the stone warriors and getting rid of the one attacking the thrusters. We began to steer off and I felt my heart drop. We couldn’t just be leaving him? I heard Misako calling out for her son who used a stone warrior to jump on and then leap towards the bounty. Barely making it and clinging onto the side, he pulled himself on board. I’d never been so full of relief.

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We were in the air for an hour before we landed. That whole time I couldn’t hug or even interact with Lloyd in order to avoid suspicion. Jay told me that to which I almost yelled at him when he immediately walked away after that. When everyone had got off at and the ninja confirmed no one else was on board, I found Lloyd below deck who had just took his mask off.

“Did I scare you?” He asked and I hit his arm to which he giggled. I clung to him after and relished in the way his arms closed around me. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to actually make you worry.” He apologised and I held him tighter.

“I thought you weren’t going to make it then.” I said and Lloyd leant his head atop of mine.

“Well I did and I’m here.” He told me, I tried to look up at him, making him move his head off mine. He knew what I wanted. Thats how we stood for a moment, in the hallway, stuck to each other like glue. Kissing like we needed each other. I was starting to believe we did. It’s almost how Lloyd spoke about how he felt. Through affection and touch, I knew he didn’t know how to communicate his feelings. It seemed like affection and any intimacy filled a hole in Lloyd he didn’t know how to fill on his own. He knew what to say to assure others but not himself. “This might be wrong to say, but I think I need you.” Lloyd said and I smiled.

“You need me? I think I need you?” I said and he smiled.

“I think we need each other.” He told me and I played with the ends of his hair that brushed the back of his neck.

“You do more for me than I do for you. That much is obvious now.” I said, he frowned.

“You make me feel human again. You remind me that I’m Lloyd, not the green ninja. I think you might be crazy. Picking me over the green ninja when you had the choice?” He said and I laughed.

“I liked the nice boy I met over the green saviour who saved me. Greenie was funny but Lloyd makes me feel warm. Like it’s worth it. That’s not a feeling that you just come across.” I said and he kissed me again.

“That alone does more for me than picking up a sword and fighting for me ever would.” Lloyd said, the smile on my face wouldn’t leave.

“Can we go on a date after this?” I asked and he laughed.

“Of course.” He told me. “What do you want to do?” Lloyd asked and I paused in thought.

“I don’t know, just like some cheap place and then we do something fun after.” I said and he laughed.

“Well we don’t have to wait for the date for the fun stuff. Unless you want me to be a true gentlemen?” He asked and I laughed.

“I think we’re past that.” I said and he shrugged.

“Worth asking.” Lloyd said and I laughed again.

“You’re amazing.” I told him and he shook his head.

“You can’t say that to me when you’re looking up at me like that.” He warned and I smiled.

“Surely someone tells you it.” I said and his face told me otherwise. “Lloyd Garmadon, you are amazing.” I told him and his smile that reminded me of a child getting praised almost made tears spring to my eyes which almost poured out when he hugged me and rested his head atop mine again. “I’ve got it so lucky with you.” I told him to which he didn’t move. I swayed us gently. It wasn’t until he pulled us into a separate room and after a few confusing moments did I hear Kai and Jay walking past. Lloyd sunk against the door, tears were in his eyes. My heart broke for him.

I slid between Lloyd’s legs, he let me sit between them with my back to his chest. His arms fell back around me. His head fell to my neck where the now scar was.

“You smell really good.” He said, his voice sounded weak.

“It’s okay if it’s all just hit you.” I said and he shook his head.

“It’s not that… I have to fight him.” Lloyd said like it was a realisation.

“Your Dad?” I asked and he nodded.

“I have to fight and win which means I probably need to kill him.” Lloyd told me and I shook my head.

“Not necessarily! And even if so, you’re doing it because you have to. Not because you want to. Fate is cruel, fuck it.” I said and he smiled.

“You shouldn’t say that, they don’t like it.” He told me and I shrugged.

“I don’t care what they like, not when it hurts you.” I told him and he sighed.

“I am the green ninja.” He told me and I shook my head.

“You’re Lloyd.” I told him and he smiled.

“I’m getting confused. I’m both.” Lloyd told me and I smiled.

“Well I love Lloyd so you have to be Lloyd.” I told him and he smiled, holding me tighter.

“I’m Lloyd then.” He told me and I smiled, kissing his cheek.

“Good, Greenie is my homeboy so-“ he started laughing and sat up, resting his head against the door.

“I don’t have to worry about you and this homeboy, do I?” He asked and I pretended to be in thought.

“I don’t know something about masked men in green really gets me-“ He squeezed me and I yelped before laughing.

“It’ll be okay, you’ll be okay. Just do what you have to do and win, okay?” I told Lloyd who nodded.

“Will you be okay?” He asked and I smiled.

“Me? I’ll be more than okay. You should worry for how well I’m doing.” I said and he smiled.

“Seriously, I don’t know how long I’m probably going to be gone for.” Lloyd said and I frowned.

“Gone? I’m coming with.” I said and immediately shook his head.

“No. That’s a horrible idea.” He told me and I shook my head.

“You can’t stop me.” I told him, standing up.

“I can and I will!” He told me, I shook my head.

“I don’t exactly have somewhere to stay anyway! And you need me.” I said, he look bewildered.

“Exactly! I need you- alive! And stay at the monastery!” He told me, I sighed.

“On my own?! No thanks.” I told him as we now made our way down the hall. We ran into Cole.

“You’ll need masks on up there, we’re currently sitting ducks until Nya and Jay can get the thrusters working again.” He told me, handing me some form on ninja mask.

“Thanks!” I said, putting it on.

“They need you out there, big guy. There’s some heavy lifting that needs doing and I still have no powers.” Cole told Lloyd who nodded.

“I’ll be out there in a minute.” Lloyd said before turning to me. “You’re not coming with us to find my Dad, it’s not safe.” He continued, I rolled my eyes.

“I’ll be fine, I want to see what’s going on outside. I thought we’d already be up by now.” I said and he looked around like he was going crazy.

“Can you not hear me-?! You’re not coming, Y/n!” Half the hallway glitched and I turned to him to glare. These masks were surprisingly easy to breathe in. “Sorry- just… I can’t let you be in danger like that- I need a reason to come home. To fight for.” He told me and that made me pause.

“Lloyd-“ I started but was cut off.

“I’m afraid I must disagree with you, nephew.” A senior voice stated. I turned to see Wu making his way down the hallway with Misako by his side.

“What?” Lloyd asked, Wu’s eyes squinted a little as they stared at each other.

“I think it is best that ‘Peach’ accompany us.” He stated and I felt a triumphant feeling consume me whilst Lloyd’s heart dropped beside me.

“No-!” He immediately objected.

“I have already made the decision.” Wu stated, much to his nephew’s dread. “It is no secret that since Peach has entered your life, you are a new man. Focused, confident and alert. This secureness she instils in you, nephew, is exactly what you need to be able to take down this evil in your father and win the final battle.” Wu said and I almost felt like I was getting credit for something I didn’t do.

“Uncle, please- I don’t want her in harm’s way. She’s not trained or a ninja and she can’t control her power- how can she protect herself against whatever my father will be sending our way?” Lloyd asked, and it was a good argument.

“From what I’ve seen, she is quite capable of handling herself. Her powers seem to be quite active and protective. They are not of elemental origin, that unpredictability might prove useful in our ventures.” Wu told Lloyd who shook his head in disbelief.

“I can’t believe this.” Lloyd said and Misako jumped in.

“Control your temper, son. Your father will be sure to exploit it if not.” Probably the wrong person to be trying to lecture him. I felt like I was in the middle of everything even though they were arguing over me.

“I guess you’re coming then.” Lloyd said, annoyed. I didn’t know what to say back. I had gone against him and now everyone was against him.

“I didn’t mean-“ he was already heading up to the deck.

“Give him time, he is awfully protective of you.” Misako said and I nodded, pushing back the and though that crossed my head and asked if she even knew her son well enough to make that judgement of him.

“Thanks, I’m going to somewhere I’m not bothering anyone for a minute.” I said and turned away, I ignored how I made a door glitch off its hinges.

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After about an hour of sitting in a silent room and being filled with self-deprecating thoughts. I noticed that there was no roar of thrusters or movement at all. The ship was perfectly still and considering all passengers had been unloaded almost 2 hours ago, this was concerning because it meant we were still around those who had been evacuated. I thought we’d of left by now. And well, I had enough of being curious so I forced myself off the ground and headed towards the stairs to the main deck. My entrance went mainly unnoticed until I gathered the courage to voice my concerns.

“Why are we still on the ground?” I asked, seeing the huddle outside. Lloyd dropped part of a massive thruster. I didn’t realise how big those thrusters were. Were we in a fight? Or was he just annoyed?

“Those stone warriors managed to jam a couple swords and other things, mainly metal, into some of the thrusters which melted meaning different parts of our thrusters are now one big heroes mess so until we can replace them, we’re sitting ducks.” Nya complained, wrench in hand which probably proved useless now.

“What are we supposed to do now?! We have to get to the dark island somehow.” Kai complained and I frowned.

“I’m not even sure that’s a good idea, we couldn’t do shit to those things- why do we want to go to an island full of them?!” Cole asked and he had a good point to be fair.

“It’s true, my powers only slowed them down.” Lloyd added.

“Sorry but we’re not in much look of our defences are the green ninja who can only slow them and Peach who can beat them but not on command.” Nya said and they all sighed.

“The bounty is a ship right?” I asked, they nodded.

“We fixed her into a flying ship when we first found her, quite the technological advancement if I do say so myself.” Jay tapped the side of the bounty.

“If the bounty is a ship, why don’t we just sail it?” I asked and they looked at me with blank stairs until Nya hit herself in the head, almost catching herself with her wrench.

“It’s a boat!” She exclaimed as if I hadn’t just said that.

“We’ve never sailed her before, who knows if she could even hold up in water?” Cole stated and Kai shrugged.

“She was a ship, that was shipwrecked when we found her. She’s clearly been out in the sea before and she’s definitely a lot more tougher now.” Kai added.

“The correct proportions as well considering how effortlessly she flew.” Zane added and I frowned, did this much consideration need to go into the fact that a ship sails on water.

“So we’re sailing?” I asked and Nya nodded.

“We’re sailing!” She exclaimed. “We just needs to get her into the water first.” She exclaimed in a way that made you think the water ninja was going to get the water to come up and push the boat into water considering we’re right next to the ocean. “We need a dock.” She said. Why did everything that made sense to do, not happen?

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“Are you mad at me?” I asked, I’d been watching Lloyd run around doing things for 10 minutes now. Currently, he was hauling the anchor back up after testing that it still worked and was heavy enough.

“Mad at you? No. Mad that I’m not being listened to? Yes.” He told me and I looked up at him. He wasn’t looking at me.

“Seems like you’re mad at me.” I said and he sighed, setting the anchor back in place.

“You’re not listening to me.” He said and I sighed. Who let this man be sassier than me?

“I’m sorry but you look too good right now for me to fully be able to pay attention to whatever is coming out your mouth. Do you arms always look that big or-?” He turned to me, a small smile on his face.

“You’re already trouble.” Lloyd told me and I grinned.

“But look how focused you are!” I teased and he laughed, pulling me in close to him.

“Oh im so focused.” He said and I let him kiss me briefly before both smiling in our position. “What was I doing again?” He questioned and I laughed.

“Not her. Help us push this boat into water.” Kai’s voice cut in and I laughed, he rolled his eyes.

“Am I forgiven?” I asked and he smiled.

“I suppose.” He said and kissed me one last time before pulling down his mask and jumping off the side of the bounty to where Kai had disappeared to. That was hot.

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They got the bounty into the water safely, it was right next to a dock and that’s when I noticed Zane and Cole were back with many bags.

“Spare gis, clothes, everything that you guys put in your emergency bags! Peach, I don’t have a clue what you’re going to do.” Cole said and began hauling the bags onto the deck.

“Oh no, looks like she has to go home.” Lloyd said and I shoved him playfully.

“I’ll let you know when it’s rebuilt.” I shot back and he held his hands up.

“I’ve got spare clothes on the bounty from when we lived on it, they’re up for grabs.” Nya said instead and I nodded in thanks.

“Thank you, my stuff is currently sitting under rubble or halfway across ninjago on someone else’s back.” I reminded them and Cole’s face seemed to fall.

“What are you going to do about your whole living situation?” Jay asked and I shrugged.

“There’s a few shelters I know of. Maybe they’ll give me some sort of hand out or a different place to go.” I said and they looked at me weirdly.

“Shelter?” Kai asked.

“Why can’t you go home- to your parents?” Nya asked instead.

“I haven’t spoke to my mother for like 4 months, haven’t seen any of my family in 4 years and we don’t get along.” I told them.

“They won’t take you in?!” Cole asked, I shrugged.

“They probably would, I’m just not willing to put myself through that.” I said and they frowned. “They’re also not a big fan of the Peach thing.” I explained, they nodded.

“Do they know about your powers?” Kai asked, I shook my head.

“No. I think they’d never talk to me again, so feel free to tell them!” I joked but no one laughed, Lloyd let out a little chuckle but I think it was more at my attempt to lighten the mood. “They’ll know about my school though so I should probably expect a call sometime soon.” I said and they looked between each other before at Lloyd. “A part from that, I think I’m homeless.” I said, it hadn’t really set in yet.

“We’ll find somewhere for you to go- that isn’t some unsafe shelter.” Lloyd said, sure of himself and I smiled and nodded in thanks.

“No need for all this. Peach shall reside with us for as long as she needs.” Wu said, informing everyone of his presence. “In case you haven’t noticed, she is already making some valuable improvements to the teams. That being common sense.” He said as he walked away, I think he was referring to the fact I said a ship can sail.

“He’s a big fan of you.” Jay said and I shrugged.

“I must have some kind of charm with this family.” I said and Lloyd smirked before wrapping his arm around me and guiding me onto the bounty with his bag in hand. Lloyd’s clothes will be good too, I will definitely be wearing some of them.

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I did have charm with his family. I made Misako laugh so hard she almost spit out her tea onto her scrolls because I mispronounced a word. It was a tough word. And it was long. I even tried sounding it out in my head first. Turns out it was a name for some ancient tea pot. Wu spoke to me endlessly about the 4 golden weapons and the actual prophecy of the green ninja. I held onto each and every one of his words, even when he cut himself off to tell one the ninja to fix their form. We’d only been on the water for a couple days and yet I felt so close to the group already. Even if the group in question spent at least an hour a day standing on their hands whilst balancing an object. Not one of their bodies even shook lightly. I don’t think my body could survive a 2 minute plank without shaking like washing machine with a brick in it. That’s currently how we were, me and Wu sat drinking tea whilst he retells stories of his past ventures and tales of the first spinjitsu master, his father. The ninjas eyes were shut with most their faces holding focused expressions, Lloyd’s eyebrows were creased. He wasn’t meditating, he was overthinking.

“-the key to knowing when you have reached your true potential, is to have a sharp mind. Any of my students will tell you so. There are many teachings I can share with my students but they mean naught when they forget who they are or what they fight for. Do you know the best way to defeat your enemy?” Wu asked and I smiled.

“To be their friend.” I said and he smiled I heard the ninjas groan and share bewildered expressions. Thats the first time they’ve broken meditation the whole time I’ve been here.

“How?!” Jay asked.

“How does your mind even go there?!” Cole asked.

“Even if you defeat an enemy in combat they’re still your enemy. So there’s two ways to have no enemy at all, they die or you make them your friend. Your friends aren’t your enemies and if they are then they aren’t your friends.” I explained and Wu smiled.

“That’s the riddle I gave the ninja when we first took Lloyd in… when he was nothing more than a troubled boy in a skeleton hoodie.” Wu said and Lloyd smiled.

“That’s the day I learnt never to trust a snake.” Lloyd said and I smiled. The ninjas focussed back up and went back into meditation.

“Nephew, you may end your mediation and join us. The rest of you, for your disruption, another hour.” The ninja protested again as Lloyd got back on his feet and headed over.

“Do your hands go numb?” I asked and he smiled as he sat down next to me.

“Not anymore.” Lloyd said and poured his own cup of tea.

“I tried meditating once, not like that, Pearl called me a hippie and I haven’t meditated since.” I said Lloyd laughed.

“We meditate everyday, it helps to keep our emotions regulated so we stay focused in combat.” Lloyd explained.

“How did you find your mediation?” Wu asked and I paused, trying to remember how it felt.

“Weird. I didn’t exactly get the stress relief I wanted but I think that had more to do with the building full of students than the meditation itself.” I said and Wu nodded.

“Living with students can bring many deals of stress.” He said and Lloyd smiled as the other ninja fought their impulsive need to defend themselves.

“You should try again, with us, you’ll probably have better results.” Lloyd suggested and I nodded.

“I can’t stand on my hands for very long if at all anymore.” I said he smiled.

“Not on your hands, just traditional sitting down meditation with some breathing exercises.” He told me and I shrugged.

“Okay but you have to coach me through it.” I said and he smiled.

“I’m not near a master yet but I can walk you through basic meditation.” Lloyd said to which his Uncle nodded.

“Once you’ve mastered meditation, ninjitsu training will come much easier.” My eyes widened. What did that old man just say?

“Me? A ninja?” I asked and Wu nodded, I looked to Lloyd who just looked more stressed.

“If you wish to become one but ninjistu training on its own accompanied by your powers ensure protection. It’s foolish to assume that having these powers will not also bring danger.” Oh. Okay. I liked it better when Wu was freaking out the ninja and not me.

“Wow. Thats a big thing isn’t it?” I asked and Lloyd nodded.

“Knowing how to defend yourself isn’t the worst idea, especially if you’re with me.” Lloyd said and I nodded.

“You’re right… I’m going inside for a bit. I want to watch a rerun of that weird space movie you have on tape.” I said and Lloyd smiled.

“Have fun, I’ll probably join you.” He said and I smiled and held onto his hand for as long as I could before having to let go.

“The ninja will be on their hands for another 50 minutes, I suggest you make use of the limited free time you have.” Wu said and Lloyd frowned.

“Are you saying what I think you’re saying?” Lloyd asked and Wu looked ahead at the other ninja.

“48 minutes.” Wu said instead and Lloyd rushed to his feet.

I was warm. Lloyd’s body was incredibly warm. If I didn’t know him, I’d think he was getting sick. Lloyd let me know that we had about 45 minutes to ourselves and after some time enjoying that fact, we now had 20 minutes to just rest. So my head lay against his chest with half my body sprawled on his as we sat in silence. I traced his bare chest with one finger and listened to his breathing start to even out.

“You’re going to send me to sleep doing that.” Lloyd said and I smiled.

“Good, you need some.” I said and he chuckled, brushing back some wet hair from his face.

“Don’t tell my Uncle this, but I’m glad you’re here. I don’t think I’d be this relaxed without you.” Lloyd said and I let his hand take mine and begin playing with my fingers.

“I’m glad I can be of some help, even if I’m here just to ease my own conscious.” I said and he laughed.

“You do know you’re not coming on the next one though?” Lloyd said and I frowned.

“If you’re leaving for a while I am.” I said. “What would you do without me?” I asked and he sighed.

“I don’t know, stress about you. Just less than I would if you were near the action.” Lloyd said and I smiled up at him. “On this mission- You’re just coming with us, okay? You’re not going near my dad or any of his goons.” Lloyd said and I smiled.

“Are you telling me to not run into potential death with those stone things or your father? Because I can do that.” I said and he laughed.

“That is exactly what I’m telling you.” Lloyd said and I smiled, leaning into him. Suddenly I could hear the patter of rain.

“Is it raining?” I asked and he grinned.

“Yep, and the others still have to be on their hands for 15 minutes.” Lloyd said with a big smile and I laughed before the ship rocked to the side suddenly and I looked at Lloyd alarmed. The rain got significantly heavier after this. A sudden burst of thunder sounded on the deck and I couldn’t help the way I jumped out of shock. Less than 5 minutes later we heard ninja yelling.

“I think we should get dressed and head up there.” I told him and he nodded.

It was raining for sure and Lloyd raced out to help his family. I didn’t dare step out into the rain considering how unsteady the boat was. Jay joined me in hanging back as the others held onto the rope that was keeping the sail hoisted.

“Why don’t you help them?!” I questioned and Jay looked embarrassed.

“I don’t have another pair of underwear.” He admitted and I frowned. Before I could properly questioned him, some star fish looking thing jumped on board by my foot. I looked up to see more of them appearing.

“What are these things?!” Cole exclaimed, kicking one off. Kai picked up one and threw it off board.

“I don’t know but if these things manage to get on us we’re going to look like Y/n after Lloyd discovered what a hickey was.” A bucket flung itself into the side of Kai’s head, by my hand not my power.

“To scoop the fish off the ship. They’re eating through the ship if you haven’t noticed!” I told him. And one glitched away from me after it tried to jump at me.

“You’re not improving the mood as much as I thought you would!” Kai yelled back at me and I rolled my eyes.

“I thought ninja had more common sense!” I counter-argued and he flipped me off.

“You’re dating Lloyd! How did you get that idea?!” Kai said and Lloyd smacked him up the back of his head.

“Now is not the time.” Lloyd told him and Kai rubbed his head before grabbing onto the rope again. Jay was forced to go help out considering the others had to try and keep these star things off the boat.

“Star Teeth! Thats what these are and they won’t stop until we have no ship- you have to get them off board!” Misako ran out from the bounty and I shrugged.

“I think we figured that one out.” I told her as I picked up one and chucked it over.

But it was impossible to keep all those star teeth off and we ended up with a ship that was on the verge of sinking. We were also stuck with using buckets to try and drain the ship of excess water. It was amazing we were even still afloat. We were all wet and cold. I was shivering badly, no matter how I tried to hide it by throwing water back into the ocean with a bucket, it was obvious. I would be surprised if I wasn’t ill after this. At the call of my name, I turned to see Lloyd at the top of the stairs to the lower deck and I nodded.

When I got to the top of the stairs, he began filling me in on what was being said about our situation at sea. I nodded, clenching my jaw tightly to try and avoid my teeth chattering. He frowned when he next looked me over. His hair had dried but mine was still damp and heavy. Lloyd raised his hand to hold my cheek causing my face to instantly relax and my teeth began to chatter. He frown deepened and suddenly the palm I was leaning against was oh so warm, I gasped and leaned into it.

“You’re still so cold,” He stated, concerned. I nodded and Lloyd brought me into his chest and wrapped his arms around me. He was so warm. I clung to him, desperately. His head nestled itself in my hair. “Your hair is damp too- you’re going to get sick-“ He fussed and I squeezed him a little.

“You don’t need to worry so much. We’re all cold and wet.” I said and Lloyd shook his head.

“That’s different, we’re conditioned to endure all kinds of states. You spend your time holed up in your dorm room or robbing small stores.” He said and I gasped.

“Hey! I wasnt holed up in that dorm room alone, I think I’ve proven I can handle quite a lot.” I said and he laughed.

“That you have, however, survival doesn’t rely on that. It just enhances it.” He winked and it was my turn to laugh. Then someone called out his name and he sighed before going to let go of me but I held tighter.

“They can wait.” I told him and Lloyd laughed before grabbing my hands that were gripping the back of his gi and brining them in front of us.

“Come on, we’ll go together.” He told me and I grinned.

I expected a lecture of some sort. Instead, we were greeted with the view of a watch tower like lighthouse on a rocky island. Ninja being ninja, docked the ship and headed straight to the door.

“Do we just knock?” I asked and Jay took my words quite literally and knocked. The camera above the door looked down at us, I gave it a little wave but Lloyd just took my hand and put it down. I frowned at him.

“Waving is offensive in some cultures.” He told me and I looked at him weirdly.

“Waving?!” I questioned and he nodded.

“I wish I was lying.” He said and the door was thrown open and an old man appeared. That was not what I was expecting.

“Zane!” I wasn’t expecting that either. The man threw himself onto the nindroid and held him tightly, tears fell from his eyes as he held the man.

“Father…” Zane answered and my eyes widened. What a twist. They separated and stared at each other for a moment. “I thought you were-“

“Dead? I was for a moment.” Oh, it gets better.

“What happened?” Zane asked and an unsettling noise interrupted the man before he could answer.

“Let’s take this inside.” The man told us and quickly ushered us inside, taking one last precautious look out before slamming the door shut and bolting it excessively shut.

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Guys I will be updating some more soon - especially carnations I know you guys have been waiting a long time… New Zinnias chapter is out soon too along with Begonias part 2 that I definitely didn’t forget about 😁 oh and Arrow heads… and Galanthus Nivalis (stop letting my write so many fics at once)

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I WOULD ask if you're ok but we all know no one in tumblr is.

So congratulations and may God bless you with therapy ig???

Omg, so true. And God did their thing because I am also in therapy (they euthanised the dog in me)

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I BROKE UP WITH MY BF!!!!! IM FREE!!! I PRAYED FOR TIMES LIKE THIS XOXOXO

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Can you do a masterlist about Zinnias | Lloyd Garmadon x reader... Pretty please

Yep! Here it is!!

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The elemental garden

Ninjago x reader ultimate master list

⚠️ Warning ⚠️ : all my fics include very mature and some triggering themes i.e alcohol , smoking, violence, gore, sexual themes and themes of a similar nature

Carnations | Cole Brookstone x fem!reader

• Ghosts aren’t real. I can’t see them. I can’t hear them. I can’t talk to them. I can’t touch them. I can’t feel them. And I can’t love one.

Zinnias | Lloyd Garmadon x fem!reader

• You’re waiting for something, I know what every world looks like for us, I know what you’re waiting for, you’ve waited in vain because there’s nothing for you. - sent 18:04

• Rather melodramatic aren’t you, Peaches? - read 18:06

Begonias | Kai smiths x fem!reader

• You never learn if you can’t admit you’re wrong. All these bold words come from a weak mouth. All the games and the lies. Am I supposed to forget about them until it happens again? Until I’m too broke to mend?

Arrowheads | Nya smith x fem!reader

• Darling, are you lying to yourself again? It’s amazing how charming she can be when she wants her way.

Galanthus nivalis | Zane Julien x fem!reader

• I love you, Mr Julien and that’s the problem. Because you’ll never love me. It’s not in your programming.

Lobelias | Jay Walker x fem!reader (coming soon)

• You’re like that one advert you can never escape. Like that one song that you swear you hate but don’t actually care that it’s stuck in your head. You’re stuck in my head and I love it. You’re like the sugar rush I was never allowed to have because it was too good to last. Except you’ll stay right? Like the song stuck in my head whose lyrics I could sing on repeat?

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Zinnias | Lloyd Garmadon x fem! reader | Masterlist

You’re waiting for something, I know what every world looks like for us, I know what you’re waiting for, you’ve waited in vain because there’s nothing for you. - sent 18:04

Rather melodramatic, aren’t you peaches? -read 18:05

Season 1

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 🔞, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9+(in progress…)

Season 2

In progress…

Season 3

In progress…

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Arrowheads | Nya Smith x fem!reader | Masterlist

Darling, are you lying to yourself again? It’s amazing how charming she can be when she wants her way.

Season 1

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 (coming soon), Part 5+ (in progress)

Season 2

In progress…

Season 3

In progress…

Head-cannons

Coming soon…

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Arrowheads | Nya Smith x fem! reader | Part 3

How can you ask me to be a part of a life you would hide from me otherwise?

Previous part, Masterlist, Next part

It was getting closer and closer to when I had to leave. 22 hours to be exact. I had that amount of time until my train back to Jamanikai left. That amount of time left with the ninja and my brother. And Nya. I couldn’t think of going back to my life before this. My life with no friends, no family and no one to talk to except my old ratty teddy I’ve had since I was 2. What would I do without all of the ninja waking me up at 6 every morning with their loud mourning routine? What would I do without my daily race with Nya to see who could get to the shower first. She always won but let me go first. What would I do without Cherry giving me a lecture on some random thing every day? Who would I stare at extremely hot ninjas with? Who would I stare at if I was away from Nya?

I may have a little crush. And by little I mean if it had a weight, it would break the scales. I loved my life here even if I had only been here 2 weeks. Everyone here was a family. A family that they had let me mould into so perfectly, my own brother felt more like my family than he ever did before. I hadn’t even explored the whole monastery yet and I had no clue when I was going to be coming back again. How could I do it? How could I go back to my life?

What was I thinking? I’m an adult. I work and I pay my bills. Staying here would just be a fantasy. And who was I to assume that they didn’t only treat me this way to be polite? To accommodate Cole. He was their family, and I was just his little sister who he didn’t see for years. Granted he was a ghost for most of them but he didn’t even tell me he was married. And Nya? She’s naturally flirty. Naturally so sociable like her brother. I’ve been thinking like a child. Ignoring all the possibilities that she could just want to have sex and that’s it or that actually the ninja we’re counting down to the day I leave. What would they think of me if I overstayed my welcome? What did they already think? A grown up that couldn’t leave the home in fear of something happening in a place with 2% crime rate? Who did I think I was? What made me think I could live up to the ninja’s lifestyle?

A knock on my door interrupted my inner debate and I unhooked the chair from under my door handle and opened the door, surprisingly, to see Wu. He held his bamboo staff in one hand and held his other arm around his back, his straw hat tilted over his eyes as he looked down at me. Lloyd and his family were tall but again I had to remember that they weren’t human.

“Hello.” I said.

“Come with me, child. There is something I wish for you to see.” Wu said and turned around, I followed behind him quickly. He had powerful strides for an elderly man that rivalled his students. He stopped at a room and opened the door for me, I stepped into the room only to see shelves stocked up to the ceiling with scrolls and books.

“What-? What’s going on?” I asked and he stalked towards me, keeping his gaze focused on the shelves before grabbing a book and handing it to me. He blew the dust off and wiped it before giving it me.

‘The history of the elemental masters’

“I thought you’d enjoy to learn more about all this. There are generally only 2 generations of elemental masters at the moment but your mother is in there. Everything about her time as the elemental master of earth.” My eyes widened. My mother?

“My mother was the elemental master of earth? Before Cole?!” I asked and he nodded.

“As Maya was the last elemental master of water before Nya, Rey the last elemental master of fire before Kai, The first spinjitsu master the last to master energy and be the ultimate spinjitsu master before Lloyd.” Wu said and my eyes shot up to him.

“How does that work then?” I asked and he grinned.

“Read this to know but simply put, the first spinjitsu master, my father, granted the first elemental masters their elements and then it has passed on through generations.” Wu explained and I nodded.

“Thank you.” I said to him and he smiled.

“It is nice to know I can still be of some use.” What? That was oddly depressing for Wu of all people to say.

“Oh and you do not need my permission to stay. Whatever you wish to do, you may.” Wu added before walking out the room.

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“Papita! Thank god! Settle this for us, please?” Cole asked, and I frowned.

“What is it?” I asked and he smirked, before bringing out a cake from where he hid it behind the counter and placed it on the table.

“Who gets the first slice?” He questioned and I sighed.

“Not you.” I said and they all laughed at him before Peach walked up to the cake with a knife and began cutting it.

“What’s going on?” I asked and Peach smiled.

“It’s our first official day off since we defeated the Onis!” Peach said and handed me a slice of cake even though out of the people in here, I deserved it the least.

“Wow! Thanks for that by the way.” I said and she laughed.

“You’re very welcome.” Peach said, dishing the slices out to those closest and ignoring Cole’s complaint about the size of his slice.

“I’m going to enjoy this in my room but thank you.” I said and they immediately protested. I didn’t think that many of them were listening.

“No! Cmon! Stay with us!” Cole said and patted the seat next to him.

“I have to work!” I complained to him only for him to mimic me and pat the seat again for which I huffed and walked over to sit next to him.

“What do you want to do? Today’s our day off and I am free for anything!” Cole said and I shrugged.

“I don’t know, I have to go home tomorrow. My train leaves pretty early tomorrow, can you drive me?” I asked and he nodded as the others seemed to tense up.

“Damn, you’re actually leaving?” Cherry asked and I grinned, nodding as well as I thought you meant it in a joking way because they all knew I was leaving right?

“No! I say we keep her!” Kai said to the room.

“We can’t keep her, that’s not our decision, Kai.” Lloyd scolded and Kai rolled his eyes. “It’s hers.”

“Well she should decide to stay.” Cherry jabbed him in the side and shook her head at him. What was that about.

A heard the sounds of metal bending before the familiar rush of water sounded. I turned to see the kitchen tap start spewing water quickly and powerfully. I gasped and Nya looked up only to apologise and stop the water flow.

“You’re having a lot of mishaps later, sis. You got something on your mind?” Kai asked and Nya glared at me.

“No.” She answered simply.

“Seriously, Nya. It’s not like you to-“ Lloyd treaded, carefully.

“To what?!” Nya asked, well asked very strongly. It was kind of attractive to her become so stern. I had only her be sweet before.

“Slip up- no pun intended.” Lloyd, bravely, told her.

“Nothing is wrong, I’m just not used to not doing something.” Nya explained, glaring at her brother and that sounded reasonable enough. Maybe. If Kai’s shoulder hadn’t burst into flames the next moment. He quickly patted it down until the fire was extinguished but it definitely showed that something was happening between the two. And it wasn’t steam… get it?

“Well whatever it is, both of you, try meditating.” Lloyd said before walking away. Weird.

“Not on my day off, dude. We’re doing what we want today!” Kai yelled and Lloyd flipped him off as he rejoined Peach again.

And the ninja did what they wanted to. At least for today. Cole and Kai played together on some game and felt the need to yell or hit one another out the way. They calmed for all of 2 minutes after Cherry woke up and kicked Kai in the ribs. Men. I glared at Cole after he spat on me when yelling at me about how Kai was cheating after I asked him to be quiet. He look guilty but just sheepishly laughed and swiped his spit off with his thumb. I sighed and flipped the page of my book annoyed. Out the corner of my eye I could see Nya stand up and make her way out the dojo. I excused myself briefly before following her.

“Nya!” I yelled out, I had to run to catch up with her.

“Hey, I’m just heading to try and meditate- what’s up?” She asked and I shook my head.

“I’m a little out of breath- I didn’t realise how loud it was in there…” I rambled and she laughed at how genuinely overstimulated I was.

“Yeah- hey, breathe.” Nya told me, putting a hand on my chest as I faced her. I did as she said and suddenly my heart wasn’t beating as hard, it was still going fast but that’s because of something else. Nya smirked before looking back into the room of occupied ninja. When I looked at her confused, she only grinned and took my hand before leading me down the hallway. She sped up and I laughed as we basically ran hand in hand. I followed her down to one of the dojos which she opened and led me into quickly before shutting the door. I laughed and spun around in the empty room. In my own childish bliss, I didn’t notice the eyes watching me or the smile on her face she couldn’t help.

“You’re beautiful, you know that?” Nya asked, adoringly. I turned to her, shocked. Me? She flirted a lot but this was… different.

“Me?” I asked and she laughed.

“Who else?” She asked and I smiled, she stepped forward and I let her get as close as she wanted which was about a meter away from me.

“Maybe to you.” I said and she shook her head.

“Have you ever looked in the mirror, Y/n?” Nya asked, seriously. I smiled and shook my head.

“Maybe I need to look again. Try and see what you see.” I said and her hands cupped my face.

“What I see? I see you, only you.” Only me? My hand found its way to her cheek, she leant into my palm.

“Me?” I asked again and she laughed, placing her forehead on mine.

“Yes! You! Only you! Y/n Brookstone! You!” She said and I laughed, wrapping my arms around her neck. “You!” She repeated, chasing my eyes so she could look into them and make sure I knew exactly who she was talking to.

“Nya…” I said, more just out of something to say. I hugged her and she clung to me too. We stood like that for a moment.

“Don’t leave.” What?

I looked back up at Nya who was staring down at me, seriously. She looked desperate.

“What?” I asked and she shook her head.

“Don’t leave… I don’t want you to leave. I meant it, Y/n. Don’t leave.” Nya begged and I shut my eyes as I leaned back into her.

“I have to, trust me, I wouldn’t leave if I didn’t have to.” I told her and she nodded.

“Exactly! You don’t have to leave! You can stay! Everyone loves you! Cole wants to be closer! He wants you to stay! I want you to stay. Stay, please. Stay with me.” Nya pleaded

“Nya… I- You can’t just tell me this now!” I exclaimed and she sighed.

“Please, Nibbles. I don’t feel like this ever about someone. I don’t trust people like this. And it’s not just because you’re Cole’s sister. I’m super wary of anyone I meet for months before I can even trust that they’re good but you…”

Just say you like, me and I’ll stay.

“… you’re good. And I know you are. You fit our family perfect. Please.” So close.

“I’ll think about it, okay?” I said and she smiled. To see her smile, I think I would do anything.

“Thank you.” She rested her forehead on mine and sighed through her nose, I let her lift her head up until her nose was just grazing my hairline. Then I felt it, lips on my forehead. A kiss on my forehead. I looked back up at her in shock as she stared at me.

“I want you to stay. I need you to know that.” Nya said and I nodded. She wanted me to stay. But I needed to hear why?

“Okay.” I told her. How hard was it to just say?

One thing I wasn’t expecting when I fell asleep on the couch was to wake up to Cherry’s face staring down at me. I sat up, quickly. Had I done something wrong?

“Good morning! Did you sleep well?” She asked and I frowned.

“It’s morning?” I asked and Cherry sighed, before sitting next to me.

“No.” She checked her surroundings before facing me, a serious expression on her face. “What’s going on?” Funny, that’s what I wanted ask her.

“I don’t know what you mean?” I told her and she checked over her shoulder again.

“You and Nya. What’s happening?!” Oh, that.

“How did you know?!” I asked, rather alarmed and she deadpanned.

“Girl, come on, even Lloyd knows.” I didn’t know what that meant. Was Lloyd really oblivious or something?

“Even Cole?” I asked and Cherry laughed.

“No, I think the thought would send him spiralling.” Cherry told me and I frowned.

“Oh.” She faced me again.

“So what’s going on? Have you…” She hinted and I gasped before shaking my head.

“No!” I exclaimed and she held her hands up.

“Then what is going on? You two are not subtle at all.” Cherry said, frustrated.

“I don’t know, we’ve had a few moments but we haven’t kissed or anything… she said she wanted me to stay.” Cherry looked like she was about to start twitching.

“Anything else?” She asked, like I was hiding something. I wasn’t. “Dammit.” Cherry swore and stood up. “Are you leaving?!” She asked and I nodded.

“Of course.” I told her and she held her head.

“Why?” She asked and I frowned. “Because of Nya?”

“Because- because I have a life! A life that doesn’t include ninja stuff! I can’t be thrown into things like this- I’m not as secure as you guys…. If Nya said she liked me it would be different because a relationship can’t work if we never get to see each other but- but that’s not what’s going on!” I ranted and Cherry sat back down, I let her pull me into a hug and I clung to her.

“Maybe you should talk to her… give her one last chance before you leave all this behind, okay?” Cherry said and I frowned.

“Don’t you think it’s a bit too soon? I’ve only known her for 2 weeks.” I asked and she smiled.

“These ninja. These literal demigods. They feel stronger than we ever could. Their lives are a mess. They never know how long they have. They never know what they’ll face next so what they do know. They hold onto. And fortunately for people like you and me, they know what love is. Feelings take so long because you have so much time to question and doubt them, these guys don’t have that time. They know what they feel and run with it. Give her the chance and if she doesn’t show that, then the choice is up to you but know that it’s in your blood too. Don’t feel like you’re naive because you develop feelings quickly. It’s okay to be emotionally available.” Cherry told me and why did she always know what to say?

“Okay, thank you- I’m gonna- I’m gonna go talk to her.” I said and she smiled.

“That’s the spirit.” She said and jumped up and heard out the room, one thought in mind.

Kai scoffed from the corner of the room he managed to say hidden. Cherry held her up and he smacked it away gently as she laughed.

“When did you become a relationship expert?” He whined and she grinned.

“When I started to deal with your whiny ass 24/7.” She told him and he sat down next to her, sulking.

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Nya lay staring at her ceiling. Her thoughts only full of one thing at the moment. One person. She’s never felt this strongly before. Not for Jay. Not for anyone. It wasn’t normal. Is this what Kai meant when he said it was different? It could just be that it was her first time liking a woman. A very pretty woman at that. One that actually made her feel something. Something others couldn’t. It was almost funny how she knew Y/n was it for her. There was no one else. You couldn’t convince her so. You can’t convince her that there’s even a possibility of losing her. The thought of her even leaving made Nya feel ill, nauseous to her stomach. She sat up and held her head in her hands. This wasn’t normal. And it was too much. Too much to put on Y/n. She couldn’t make that decision for her. The one to take this life and truly, if she had been given the choice? She doesn’t even know if she’d take it.

A knock on her door disrupted her from her internal crisis. Nya sighed as she walked over to her door and opening. She expected to see her brother, annoyed as ever and ready to argue with her over what he believed she should do. Instead, she was greeted by the reason of her distraction. The reason that made her heart jump at just the sight of those eyes staring up at her, nervous, always anxious about something and it showed perfectly through her eyes. That was something Nya could obsess endlessly over. Her eyes. How much emotion a ring of colour around a black dot could hold. She really was like a piece of art. Y/n of course. And Nya was sure she could spend hours of her day, maybe all the hours of her day, just observing her. Admiring her. Had you ever met someone whose faults look like strengths to you? Nya had. She was starting right at that someone.

“Hey… are you busy?” Y/n asked and Nya shook her head.

“No! Come in, please.” She said and moved to the side so Y/n could slide past.

“Nya… is this real?” Y/n asked, eyes searching Nya’s for an unspoken answer but Nya’s face only contorted into one of confusion.

“Is what real?” Nya asked and Y/n sighed. Nya took her hands, and Y/n looked back up at her. “Whatever’s bothering you, you can tell me.” Nya told her and she smiled back up the water ninja.

“Is this real? Or is it just a fling of emotions?” Nya’s heart could have broke. How could Y/n believe that Nya couldn’t completely fall head over heels for her? That she wanted to just use her even?

“You think I would play you or something?” Nya asked she could tell by the way Y/n face lit up in alarm that she had said the wrong thing.

“No! No I just wanted… I wanted to know if all of this has been real and I haven’t just been delusional or over analysing anything.” Y/n told her and Nya sighed.

“Whatever you’re thinking, stop. I feel something for you. Something I’m not used to. I flirt a lot with you and only you because I want to. I think you’re beautiful and amazing and I think about you all the time!” Nya said and Y/n looked like she wanted more. Or something more specific.

“Thank you.” Y/n said, and Nya smiled before hugging her again.

“Do you want to stay with me tonight?” Nya asked and she felt a light nod on her chest. Nya silent basked in her own little sense of victory whilst the woman she liked was in her arms. The woman she liked. The woman she still hadn’t said so to. Feelings weren’t Nya’s strong suit.

I wasnt considered brave. Or confident. Or even proud. But I knew what I wanted and what I needed. And what I needed was stability. I couldn’t live without it. It would quickly send me into a downward spiral of paranoia and self destruction. I would become insatiable and frankly, insufferable. I couldn’t do that to my brother. To anyone at the monastery. And I knew that if I continued to play this game with Nya, it would cause me that instability. Most importantly, I can’t do that to myself or her. So with that thought in mind, I lifted Nya’s arm off me and silently got out of her bed and then eventually out her room.

My bag felt heavier than it should’ve as I made my way to the front of the monastery. I had my old ratty teddy in hand as I saw Cole waiting with his keys in hand by the door. He hugged me as soon as he saw me and I clung onto him. I felt his hand grab my sweater as he clung to me. Cherry’s sweatshirt. That she gave to me. I had made so many good memories here in the span of two weeks.

“You ready?” Cole asked and I nodded, he took my bag off me and we both headed out. We walked around the dragon head that belonged to the sleeping dragon curled around the monastery. I’d miss this weird way of life.

The drive was longer than I thought it would be, granted we did stop to get breakfast and have a proper goodbye without anyone else involved even though the whole monastery seemed to be dead asleep when we left. But the ninjas were as silent as they came when they wanted to be. They had to force their footsteps to make noise because they’d be training so long that their footsteps naturally made no sound. It took mainly jumpscare from randomly appearing ninja to learn this. Even Cole, whose steps use to echo in our family home, made virtually no sound whilst doing anything.

“I’m proud of you.” Cole said. Randomly. I looked at him, confused. “Choosing to go your own way, to do what you want. It’s admirable, Mon Petit Chou.” I deadpanned at him.

“Do you have to say the nickname?” I asked and he grinned.

“Of course. Do you remember what it means?” He asked and I rolled my syes.

“Of course I do. It means my little cabbage. You started calling me it when I refused to eat my cabbage when I was younger.” I said and he smiled, brightly.

“I gave you a lot of nicknames, didn’t I?” Cole asked and I nodded.

“Yeah and I remember them all. Flump was the worst.” I said and he laughed. “Thank you, by the way.” I said and he frowned.

“For what? Driving you?” He asked and I shook my head.

“No… for raising me. You really did everything.” I said and he shrugged.

“Mom had just died, Dad wasn’t up to it. So I took over. You don’t need to thank me, you kept me from reacting too badly to everything.” Cole said and I frowned.

“I did?” I asked and he nodded.

“You’re good at that, distracting others from their problems… it’s probably why everyone wanted you to stay so badly at the monastery. There’s a whole lot of problems going on in that monastery.” Cole told me and I smiled, turning back to look out the window.

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Nya was cold. Too cold compared to how she fell asleep. She actually got to hold Y/n. Protect her in her arms and watch as her breathing evened out and she fell asleep. It was easily the best night Nya’s had in a long time and the most peaceful sleep she’s had too. Which is why it didn’t make sense that she woke up so cold and alone. In fact, the alone part concerned her more. After feeling around on the bed for Y/n, it was clear that she wasn’t here. Nya sat up and scanned her room. At seeing her nowhere and her door still closed she quickly got up and headed out into the monastery. The first person she saw was Kai who ignored her as he walked past, she ended up following him to the living area but it was unusually quiet for how the monastery usually is. The living area was way too quiet too. Everyone doing their own thing whilst Peach and Lloyd worked on breakfast together. Wu was even sat in the living area reading an old scroll.

“Morning, Nya.” Jay said as he passed and she nodded back at him. “Enjoy your morning off?” He asked and she nodded again.

“Yeah, thank you…” she scanned the room again and frowned in confusion. “Has anyone seen Y/n?” Nya asked and they turned to her in the same confusion.

“She’s gone.” Kai answered and Nya frowned.

“What do you mean?” She asked and Kai rolled his eyes.

“Home, she went home.” Lloyd filled in and her heart dropped. Home? How could she go home? Didn’t last night mean anything to her?!

“Home?” Nya asked, perplexed. “She told me she was staying.” Nya added and Lloyd shrugged.

“Something must’ve changed, either way, it was her choice. Cole and her left about an hour ago.” Lloyd told her and she inwardly freaked.

“I don’t…” Nya acknowledged him but walked out the room either way.

“Breakfast is in 20 minutes!” Peach called after her, ignoring Nya’s clear panic.

“Why would she leave?!” Nya asked herself frustrated.

“Probably because of you.” She heard her brother’s voice and turned towards him.

“What?!” Nya questioned and Kai shrugged.

“Did you tell her you like her?” He asked and she frowned.

“No I- what would that have to with anything?!” Nya asked and Kai rolled his eyes.

“I know you’re new to dating women but they like to feel validated and like they aren’t in the way. They prefer when you’re straightforward, they’re not up for a long winded love story where they never know how you feel about them.” Kai said and Nya frowned.

“What would you know about Y/n?” Nya asked and Kai grinned.

“Personally? Not much. Cherry however…” Kai hinted and Nya’s face fell.

“You know something!” Nya practically yelled.

“Know something? Something like Y/n spoke to Cherry last night and admitted that if you said you liked her, she’d stay. Is that the kind of thing you think I would know?” Kai asked, rhetorically. Nya’s stood there in shock.

“Yes! Exactly that- did she say anything else?!” Nya asked.

“No so unless you have a phone number, I’d wrap it up before Cole gets round to hearing about it.” Kai said, leaving his sister alone in the hallway.

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There was a saying about water. Well a few but a more notable one is; when it rains it pours. Nya didn’t cry, no her tears were more external than just a few salty water droplets that fell down her cheeks. Ninjas had been known to cause certain catastrophes when upset, Cole had levelled one side of the monastery, Kai had almost started a forest fire, Jay had caused a whole city power out, Zane had froze the whole east wing for 6 hours straight with the monks frozen in it as well and Nya, Nya was known to cause floods. Not just normal floods. Depending on her mood she could cause tidal waves and drains to implode and any running water to burst out the pipes. So for Nya, yes, when it rained it poured and everyone was painfully aware of this. Even Cole, who had almost crashed his car into a ditch after a sudden burst of water crashed down onto the road and began to rage across it, effectively cutting him off from getting to the train station. Stopping Y/n from getting to her train.

“What’s happening?!” Y/n asked, breathing laboured from the sudden swerving and panic inducing manoeuvres. If anything, more faith was just put in her brother’s driving for that reaction time.

Cole jumped out his car and slammed the door, marching over to the raging stream. He looked up to see the clouds above pouring but only over this section of the road. He clenched his fists, a subtle orange glowing from his veins as the cement beneath his feet cracked around him. Nya’s outburst was sure to have an effect on Y/n who he had left in the car by herself. Cole would not go easy on Nya later when he tells her how she almost stopped Y/n from going home. With that thought in mind, Cole closed his eyes and focused. Soon rocks began to sprout from the ground and almost like a damn was formed, stopping the raging stream. After his display, Cole got back in the car.

“Sorry, Nya’s clearly had some outburst and is now flooding half of Ninjago City.” Cole told Y/n whose eyes widened at him.

“Nya did this?!” She asked and Cole nodded.

“She’s prone to floods, tidal waves and mini tsunamis when she’s upset.” Cole explained and Y/n only nodded and leant back in her seat.

“Does she get this upset often?” Y/n asked and Cole sighed.

“No. Nothing really moves her except her brother or her break up.” Y/n looked out the window, eyes wide. “Which is why is extremely convenient that now she decided to have an outburst. I may cause earthquakes but at least-“

“You cause earthquakes?” The words left her mouth quicker than she could register what she easy saying and Cole faltered.

“Yes, sometimes. We all have our quirks. Jay causes power outages sometimes, Kai caused a forest fire once, Zane froze half the monastery and Lloyd is honestly the worst because he’s all of us combined and more so he’s really a wild card- I’m freaking you out now, aren’t I?” He asked and Y/n nodded. “Hey? Are you sure you’re okay to go home? To move in with Dad again?” Cole asked and she nodded.

“I can’t be alone anymore and a dog isn’t going to cut it. I need someone who can work me down.” She told her brother who looked back at her.

“Which is exactly why I’m asking if you want to move in with Dad! We both know he wasn’t exactly interested in learning how to adjust to life after mom and what his children’s needs were.” Cole told her and she shook her head.

“I don’t have anyone else! I don’t have friends or other family! I’m alone Cole!” Y/n exclaimed and Cole pulled over.

“You have me! You have the rest of us! We would take you in without another thought, Y/n.” Cole told her and she scoffed.

“Don’t act like I’m part of your life. You didn’t even tell me you were married! That had nothing to do with being a ninja!” Y/n told him and Cole scoffed.

“That’s what this is about?! That I hid my life? My wife?! And it had everything to do with being a ninja! We spent weeks thinking the other was dead and when we saw each other again alive we knew that we had to seal ourselves together forever. No more waiting.” Cole told her and she shook her head.

“Why the hell would you tell me that if you’re trying to get me to live with you! You think moving in with Dad would be bad?! What about living with ninjas who come home half dead and injured?! You’re not thinking about me Cole! You just feel guilty that you abandoned me when you knew I needed you more than anything!” Y/n yelled and Cole looked down.

“I love you-“ he started and she shook her head. “I do! More than anything- I do! You’re my little sister but more than that, you know I raised you. You know that you’re more like my child than you are my sister. I shouldn’t have left you with him or at the schools. I should’ve taken you with me, I could’ve as well. Just like Kai did with Nya. And I can never make that up but please, don’t hold this against me. I will never stop worrying for you or thinking that I am going to somehow make you worse.” Cole told her and she looked down, eyes watery.

“Take me to Chen’s diner.” She said instead and Cole sighed, shifting the car into gear and pulling back into the road. “I need to be somewhere where floods or earthquakes won’t happen because someone has had a bad day.” The excess words were unneeded but held a heavy meaning. One that Cole could understand. Y/n wasn’t part of their world and he couldn’t force her to be, he had missed his chance to do so.

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The slamming of keys and the tension that immediately swept through the monastery indicted to any unfortunate bystanders that dropping Y/n off did not go well. The monks in the hall didn’t look at Cole as he stormed his way through the halls towards the living area and kitchen where he knew his “family” would be. The first victim to meet his scrutinising glare was Lloyd who’s eyes quickly widened before he directed his attention elsewhere and nudged his wife to give her a quick warning who then kicked Cole’s wife and motioned towards Cole.

“Hey, big guy. How’d it go? Did she get there?” Pearl asked, treading lightly. Her husband was a large and intimidating figure who was not so tense and easy to rattle as he looked in the moment. Not to mention having an individual with super strength being annoyed wasn’t ideal.

“Get there? No. How could she? Did you not hear or see the flood currently sweeping Ninjago?” Cole asked and Pearl paused.

“Flood?” She asked and Cole nodded, he caught Lloyd shaking his head in the corner of his eye and immediately snapped up to look at the leader.

“You! We all knew about Nya’s temperamental and uncontrolled powers at the moment! Why haven’t you been focusing on that?!” Cole pointed an accusing finger at him and Lloyd only stared at Cole with a stern look.

“I am not who you’re upset with and neither is Nya. Why don’t you try meditating, Cole?” Lloyd suggested and Cole scoffed but before Lloyd could take the brunt of his frustration again, his real perpetrator walked in. Sweat glistened of her body and the dark patch under the armpits of her vest indicated that she had put herself through an intense training session.

“Did you make any more fruit bowls, Peach?” Nya asked, innocently and said girl pointed to the fridge.

“Fruit? You want fruit right now?!” Cole exclaimed and Nya frowned at the man.

“Oh fruit is the last thing she wants right now.” Kai commented from where he was sat, overlooking his katana which he had just sharpened. Nya glared at him.

“Yes I want fruit. I’m hungry and I’ve just put myself through one hell of a training session.” Nya told him and Cole scoffed. “Whatever tantrum you’re having right now- I don’t want to be apart of. I have too much going on-“

“Was it the training session that relieved some of that stress? Or was it the flood that convents blocked me and Papita from even getting to the train station?” Cole asked and Nya paused.

“Y/n didn’t get on the train?” She asked, staring dead in his eyes. Cole only glared. “Don’t give me the silent treatment now! Where is she-?! Why isn’t she here?!” Nya questioned and Cole only scoffed.

“Why isn’t she here? Why would she want to be with a bunch of out of control, temperamental, impulsive people who cause natural disasters after having a bad day! What part of that to a normal person- let alone a paranoid, sensitive girl sounds appealing?!” Cole questioned and Nya got closer.

“Where is she?!” Nya pressed and Cole shook his head.

“Why do you even care? It was your outburst that stopped her from leaving. Why don’t you just leave her alone for today and try to reign in your emotions for 5 minutes?!” Cole asked and Nya’s eyes hardeneds

“Where is she, Cole?!” Nya asked again and Cole shook his head.

“At her friends’! Why would she come back here when she could wake up to half the monastery collapsing down because one of us can’t control our powers and end up causing a landslide- again!” Cole exclaimed and Lloyd shook his head against the hand on his face.

“Friends-? Y/n doesn’t have friends, Cole! She only ever mentioned and stayed with that Ch- She’s staying at the place near the noodle stand?!” Nya questioned and Cole nodded.

“Exactly! Because she couldn’t stand to be with us again-“ The brute of a man didn’t get to finish his insulting comment as, ironically, the fire ignited inside the water ninja’s eyes and she was pushing past him and racing to the ninja cave that held all their vehicles. Specifically, her modified bike that went speeds that weren’t safe for any normal individual. The bike that would get her to her destination within half the time any other bike would.

“She didn’t even hesitate, did she?” Peach stated and Lloyd shook his head.

“Hesitate to do what?!” Cole asked and Pearl shook her head with a sigh.

“One day your brain will catch up to all the brawn.” Pearl told her husband who looked at his wife confusedly.

The apartment held a pitiful silence and the couple on the sofa tried to hide their sympathetic glances and shared concerned looks about the girl on the seater across the room staring at the tv. But she wasn’t actually watching the tv, how could she? Her thoughts plagued her whole mind, clouding her own vision literally and figuratively as her eyes were unfocused and the girl herself, disassociated from the world around her. Completely trapped in her own subpar drama and melodramatic life as the most exciting and thrilling part of her life officially came to an end. She was left with nothing but memories to mull over and wish they could happen again, wish that the person in her memories would make more with her and not see her as what she was. A fling. A brief glimpse into what could’ve been if only. A fantasy really. How do I know that this girl could possibly be thinking and doing all this? I am her.

Nya could never want me. I was her opposite. She could face whatever confronted her and I couldn’t even confront my landlord… on the phone. Nya handled her dysfunctional and chaotic life with grace and on most good days I can’t even convince myself to clean my room. How could someone like her ever want someone like me? She was so well kept and I was more like an ice cube that was dropped and kicked under the fridge which then melted. What could she ever see in me? I should’ve never taken her kindness for genuine interest. I should’ve never put so much on her that would make her have an outburst like she did with the flood.

“Hey… I know you said you and your brother just had an argument over the flood but did anything else happen? Or was it maybe worse than you let on?” Reece asked and I turned to face him with a blank look.

“What he means is, you’re clearly very upset about what happened and we don’t want you have to go through it alone.” Chen added and I forced a smile and a nod.

“Thank you… I guess a lot did happen.” I said and they both looked at each other for a moment, speaking with their eyes. I thought me and Nya could do that too, communicate through our eyes. Apparently not. Desire really does make you short-sighed and borderline delusional if not fully.

“We were speaking the whole time you’ve been here, Y/n. You seemed so happy, what happened?” Chen asked and I looked down.

“I met a girl. I thought she maybe liked me too but I was wrong and stupid. So stupid.” My eyes watered and I looked up. I saw Reece’s mouth move to cover his mouth in sympathy and Chen sighed.

“Did you get rejected?” He asked and I shook my head.

“No, worse. I think I was basically her guinea pig, she hasn’t been out long.” I told them and Reece shook his head.

“Cannon event.” He said and Chen stared at him wildly but it managed to crack a genuine smile on my face.

“Ignore him. That was wrong of her.” Chen said and I shook my head.

“No it wasn’t.” I said. “She wanted me to stay and I wanted her to tell me why. It’s my fault, I asked for more than I could have.” I said and they shook their heads.

“It’s not wrong to get your hopes up or set boundaries, Y/n.” Chen told me and I shook my head.

“She was amazing and perfect and I ruined it.” I almost let the tears fall. “I should’ve just let her carry on and tell me what she wanted. I would’ve done it.” I said and Reece shook his head.

“No, it’s good! You did what’s best for you!” He tried to assure me but I don’t think that’s true anymore.

I came to ninja city to make amends with my brother and get closer and bring us closer together. We’re now actually on bad terms. I fell for the one girl in his life that he thought of as a sister and bit more off than I could chew. I made a mess of this. Like I did everything. I was better of holing myself away in the dingy apartment again and hoping my bed could swallow me whole whilst I wrote lyrics about things I could never understand like having someone care for me. I didn’t do what’s best for me. I made everything worse. What’s best is for me to go back to that hole and stay there. Away from anyone else I can bother or disturb.

A knock disturbed the sad silence that had settled between us once again thanks to me. I would make sure never to bother Chen and Reece again. I had already asked too much of them but staying here twice. We all ignored it due to it being from the door to the cafe below before the knocking became more rapid. We all shared a confused look before Chen sighed.

“It’s probably some drunk idiot looking for a bite.” Chen said and got up, Reece crossed his arms and made no move to get up and follow his partner. The knocking stopped with the sound of the door opening and there was a hushed frantic conversation that even Reece turned down the TV to try and hear. Then there was movement but I could only hear one set of footsteps and Chen’s alarmed voice calling out for whoever it was to stop. Then there was a harsh knock on the door to the apartment above the cafe, the one we were in. Reece looked at me with wide eyes before stalking over the door and opening it slightly.

“Is Y/n here?!”

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Nya’s heart pounded in her chest so hard she could hear a ringing begin to form in her ears. Then again she didn’t know if that was due to the whistling of the wind that was rushing by her ears as she hit speeds that were no where near legal to hit on some of these roads. She usually flew towards the noodle stand as she was usually on patrol and in a gi but not now. Not in broad daylight even if it was getting darker now. Her body lowered as she weaved in between cars occasionally getting a honk but she couldn’t afford the time to wait in traffic. Not with these thoughts racing through her head so fast that she could barely hear the noise of the road and city around her. The helmet on her head did nothing to prevent the crashing wind hitting her face as she drove against it. Nya didn’t care. She would race against tsunamis and avalanches if that’s what it took to get to her. To see her again. Y/n.

That’s what all this was for of course. Nya was done with the hiding and the hypocrisy. She had hid herself for 26 years and now she had the chance to have everything she ever wanted. And that was Y/n. The girl who consumed her ever thought and was a part of every decision she made. She wanted to make breakfast? Was Y/n hungry too? She wanted to train? How long would she be away from Y/n for? She wanted to mediate? Would Y/n want to do that too? She wanted to listen to as song? Did Y/n write the lyrics? And the lyrics she wrote were beautiful and meaningful. The ones that hadn’t been put on a backing track yet that she had been blessed enough to be allowed to read consumed her every thought. She closed her eyes and she could hear Y/n’s voice whispering them to her, her perfect lips so close to Nya that she could see every dent and line around the corners of her mouth. She might even notice a scar or a mark she had never been close enough to see before. And Y/n would be so close. Perhaps even in her arms like she was the night before. So close to her heart where Nya knew she belonged. Nya knew she couldn’t live with herself if the only time that could ever happen again was in her dreams. It wasn’t a desire that pulled Nya towards Y/n, it was a burning need. A longing that pulled on her heart so strongly it felt as if her arteries would rip from her heart if she didn’t see Y/n again as soon as. Cole had missed his chance to make her part of their life but Nya hadn’t. Not yet.

Nya wasn’t proud of the way she drifted and skidded her bike to a stop outside the cafe. She had spent months on the thing but it all seemed futile when on the other side of the wall she parked outside was the woman of her dreams. The one she would not and could not let go. Nya also wasn’t proud of the strength and desperation she knocked on the door of the cafe with. Through her franticness she didn’t ever notice the intercom on the wall or the doorbell. The knocking continued until a figure appeared and rushed to open the door. It was a man, disappointing. He looked wilded by her presence and confused.

“Can I help you- we’re closed by the way.” He said and Nya shook her head.

“I- no-! I don’t want your food- is Y/n here?!” The man fasted and Nya knew from that moment, that yes, Y/n was here. And that was all she needed.

“I- who are you-?!” Nya didn’t care to answer him, she only pushed past him and looked for some kind of door or staircase to the apartment above. She could smell that perfume Y/n used and the scent that she had been lucky enough to be smothered in last night. She was here or had been. She pushed on one door and she could spot a staircase with a light on through it. She was barging through the door and rushing up the stairs to a door that had a number on it, it was an apartment. She ignored the alarmed yells and complaints to stop what she was doing from the man who opened the door but she didn’t care. She knocked on the door and waited a few moment for someone to answer, she could hear movement. Another man opened the door and she stared at him with wide eyes.

“Is Y/n here?!”

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What was she doing here?! What was she thinking?! Did Cherry say something?! Did Cole say something?! I was up on my feet and heading to the door with urgency I didn’t know I could feel so heavily. Reece looked at me worriedly before moving back for me to come into view. Nya sighed when she saw me and her whole body decompressed with her shoulders lowering and her hand gripping the door frame, the veins and muscles on her arm slightly tensing from the grasp. She looked at me and over me with these large, wide eyes that started slightly with, if I hadn’t played this game before with her, I would assume an adoring glare.

“What are you doing here, Nya?” I asked and she moved closer, looking down at me as if I would disappear if she took her eyes off me.

“Y/n…” she only whispered and I frowned. What was up with her? The flood and now this? “Why didn’t you come back? Why didn’t you stay? I thought you were staying?!” Her voice came out desperate and rushed.

“I never said I was.” The words dropped for my mouth like sand and Nya’s head drooped.

“What do I have to do?” She asked and I looked at her bewildered.

“To do? What do you mean?!” I questioned and she looked up through her fallen hair at me.

“To get you to stay, to come back. To be with me.” Nya told me and I froze, mouth slightly ajar and my draw threatening to drop at any second. Before I could process the meaning behind those words, Nya was falling to her knees and taking my hands as she stared up at me.

“What are you-“

“Y/n Brookstone, I like you. I like you so much it burns. You consume my every thought. Whenever I close my eyes I hear your voice, I see your face and I feel your touch that I know I don’t deserve. When I am away from you it feels like the world is punishing me for a crime I didn’t commit. All I want is you. The thought that I could’ve never seen you again or never even tell you how much I like you and want you makes me want to rip my own eyes from my body and give them to you as an apology for almost giving you up and missing out on something so amazing. Please, please Y/n. Don’t make that thought become a reality. Don’t let my own stupidity take this away. Take you away. I like you. I want you. I want us.” Nya slowly raised to her feet again and my eyes followed hers and they soon were above me again. “And I will do whatever it takes,” her hand moved to my cheek “to prove to you that this is real,” her head lowered until our foreheads were touching, “because it’s real to me.” And that was it, the tears fell from my eyes and her lips met mine. My eyes closed but it didn’t last nearly long enough. Our eyes met and smiles spread across both our faces as I threw my arms around her neck and she moved her arms around my waist. Our head pressed against the side of each other’s as she turned her to kiss around my ear and whisper how thankful she was and compliments that had me swooning immediately.

“Nya-!” I exclaimed because I didn’t really have anything else to say.

“Yes, buttons?” She asked, smirk falling back on her face so effortlessly as she held on but I leant back to see her face better.

“You’re so-“ I lost the words again and she kissed my cheek.

“So what?” She questioned and I shook my head. “Are you coming home now? With me?” Nya asked and I smiled.

“Only if it’s with you.” Her smirk fell into a smile as she kissed me again. However, I jumped and we broke apart at the sound of clapping a cheering from the two gay men we had found ourselves between. Nya laughed and held onto her a bit tighter from the panic that had entered my veins. She gave me a reassuring squeeze and smile.

I’d be lying if I didn’t slightly panic at the sight of the motorbike Nya had brung with her. Nya noticed my wariness and she smiled. She grabbed the helmet off the handle and lowered it over my head as I looked up at her. She gently wiggled it about a little until it felt secure and I looked up at her. She pressed a kiss to the top of the helmet.

“This will keep you safe… I don’t have a spare but I’ll be fine.” Nya said and my eyes widened a little.

“We’re not going fast right?” I asked and she grinned.

“Not too fast.” She promised but that didn’t seem reassuring. “It’s either this or a dragon. I wasn’t thinking properly when I was racing here to see you.” She admitted and I couldn’t help the little smile at the admission.

“Taxi?” I asked and Nya gave me an amused grin before patting the seat.

“C’mon. You’ll have to hold onto me tightly which I’m sure you’ll hate.” She joked and I smiled, watching how she sat so casually on her bike. It was attractive for sure.

“Not too fast.” I told her as I got on and wrapped my arms around her middle.

“Not too fast.” She promised and the roar of the bike could be heard immediately in my ears as she released the break and soon we were sledding off. Not too fast my arse.

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Galanthus Nivalis | Zane Julien x fem!reader

I love you, Mr Julien and that’s the problem. Because you’ll never love me. It’s not in your programming.

“There’s nothing here but a load of junk!”

Zane felt an unease fall over him. No. Jay was not correct. There was something here. Something he needed. The military site had been abandoned decades ago when the base suddenly collapsed in itself. It was a secret society in itself. The site hadn’t been found since the survivors left. Many whom are dead now. Zane knelt down. Ignoring how the white of his gi dirtied on the ashy floor beneath him. He moved a piece of rubble to see a chip. He picked it up and analysed it before turning it over and carefully wiping the dirt off the back so he could read what had been labelled on it.

‘Galanthus Nivalis’ - (Snowdrops)

Zane felt his body seize up before he carefully wrapped his hand around the chip and held it to where his heart would be. A distant yell brought him out his daze. Lloyd was trying to round up all the ninja in order to make their way back to the monastery. Zane quickly moved some more rubble and saw a dirtied manual that was now discoloured and had the corner singed from what ever fire had caused the building to collapse. He put both the chip and the manual into his gi’s pocket and made his way back to the group.

“Well that was a waste of time.” Cole said, arms crossed and leaning against the wall of the bounty.

“I totally forgot to give Pearl my laundry as well.” Kai also complained and Lloyd shoved him.

“First of all- Wash your own clothes. Second. We got the call and the coordinates. Clearly we were needed here for something.” Lloyd told him and Zane felt himself frown.

“I did not receive any call… it is not in our voicemail records.” Zane said and Lloyd frowned.

“Well not us- but the military who sent it to the commissioner- who got in contact with us.” Lloyd explained and the others nodded.

“Can I hear this message?” Zane asked and Lloyd shrugged before typing on the Bounty’s control deck.

“I’d have to ask Peach… she’s got the transmitter- it was sent through this old radio thing and the military had only found the thing and got it working the other day… it’s part of the original distress call. It was only recovered the other day.” Lloyd explained as the others listened.

“Holy shit- wait were we just in a burial ground?!” Jay freaked and Kai hit him upside the head.

“It is not clear what happened when the site collapsed but those survivors do not and have not spoke of it since… many were just moved to another site afterwards so it can be assumed that it was just an unfortunate incident.” Zane told him and Jay nodded.

A phone call from the Police commissioner interrupted their conversation.

“Sir?” Lloyd answered and he heard the commissioner sigh.

“Any luck boys?” He asked and Lloyd with his mask on shook his head.

“We’re not quite sure what we’re looking for.” Lloyd admitted and the commission t’sked before there was some rumbling on the line and a new voice could be heard.

“This is colonel Froy. I hope you know I lost many of my men and people I considered family at that site… what you’re looking for is anything of importance. What they were doing there, no one knew about and well, we want to know about it. So have you boys found anything?!” The colonel questioned and Zane felt immediately defensive over the chip in his pocket.

“A couple burnt medals, singed books, a few weapons. All the files are empty. There’s a lot of rubble here though, you’d be best to have an excavation team out here rather than us.” Lloyd told the man who sighed.

“Whatever out there went for them… can surely try again. It’s bear for those more durable than others to look… they were doing some wild shit out there if none of us were allowed to know about it. I don’t think I could bear the thought of someone else finding out before us.” The colonel said and Lloyd was quick to answer.

“Then we’ll make sure that there’s nothing of value here. We’ll let you know once we’re finished here.” The call ended and the rest of the ninja groaned.

“There is literally nothing here!” Jay exclaimed and kicked some storage box on the deck of the bounty aside.

“I don’t think I can bare moving anymore rubble today.” Cole added and the rest nodded.

“I have scanned the area… there is nothing of any significance to the military here.” Zane added to the ninja’s surprise.

“Zane… that’s not very like you.” Lloyd said, suspiciously. “What have you found today?” He asked Zane who stared blankly at him.

“Nothing of any importance to you or the military.” Zane told Lloyd who eyed him weirdly before turning to the others.

“One more search and then we’ll go home.” Lloyd concluded and the ninjas groaned.

“The first thing I go on without Nya in years and now I’m not going to see her till I go to bed!” Jay exclaimed and Kai pushed his shoulder.

“Yeah she needs the time away from you unlike my girl! She’s still just settling into the monastery!” Kai exclaimed and Cole shoved them both off the deck.

“Seriously Lloyd. I’m going to have a deodorant can hurled at my forehead for this. You owe me one.” Cole said to Lloyd who continued typing on the Bounty’s computer.

“My wife isn’t going to be pleased either… it’s just how our jobs work. They get it… Peach has to go on missions too. I get it.” Lloyd explained and Cole frowned.

“Yeah well… Maybe she’d enjoy her husband being home with her more often… Want to help me with some rubble, Zane?” Cole asked and Zane shook his head.

“I will head down shortly.” He said and Cole nodded before jumping off the Bounty. Zane turned to Lloyd who rubbed his temples. “I think it’s right to add that Peach does not react as extreme as Pearl does to these late missions.” Zane added and Lloyd briefly looked back at him.

“Yeah I know… we talk a lot more than they think we do. Cole just hears it all from Pearl it’s not… it’s not that hard for us. Not as it has been.” Lloyd took a deep breath and faced Zane. “You understand, right?” Zane did understand. He understood all the complications that came from loving someone. Even after being separated from each other for a long time and after thinking that they no longer existed. “I mean you and Pixal have been with each other for almost as long as us.” Yes. Him and Pixal.

“Yes, I understand.” Zane nodded and walked away and got off the bounty. He took the chip out his pocket and sighed before clenching his fist around it.

He should leave it here. She wouldn’t want this. She didn’t want this. But there is humanity in a program. A program that he missed dearly.

Whoever said robots couldn’t be selfish were deadly wrong. Zane was proof as he shoved the chip back in his pocket.

“Did you find something?” Cole asked, noticing Zane who sighed.

“It is complicated…” He said and Cole frowned. “I’ve found something significant to me although the true purpose cannot be served anymore which would make it useless but that is so demeaning to what this truly holds.” He said, distress evident in his face as Cole tried to decode what his upset friend meant.

“You really are weird, Zane.” He settled on and went back to hurling rubble.

“You are Zane Julien, and you still have a purpose, mine is long finished. Goodbye, Zane.”

“Someone once gave up their only form of life for me. If I can give them another form, should I do it?” Zane asked and Cole paused.

“Did you find something? Zane?” Cole asked and Zane nodded.

“I did.” He told him and Cole just nodded, walking away.

“They’re your friends Zane, your family, they need you. As I was once needed. A program is only useful if there is a need for it. You are needed.”

“I shouldn’t be alive”

“Neither should I, I am outdated. You are not. And you never will be. That is how you are built.”

He shouldn’t feel guilty. He shouldn’t feel. But he does. And it’s this guilt that leads him to not speak. To keep his silence about the programme in his pocket. He knew all about Galanthus Nivalis. He knew all about Snowdrops. And most importantly, he knew what they were looking for. He knew where she was.

Do you remember me, Mr Julien? I remember you. I remember everything.

“Galanthus Nivalis. That is our mission. What we are here for. What I was made for. We cannot keep quiet much longer. They will find us. I cannot initiate order protocol herbicides. I will not.” Peach sighed as the same message played again. She hit the old communicator slightly and if finally continued. “I do not have a name. I was a program built to help those with low communication and run all demands smoothly. Ensuring a strong connection all around the base whilst being a modern step towards an advanced future. The children called me Snowdrops. But I found that if you arrange the all the main letters of my manual, it spells Y/n. That is my name. What I would like to be remembered as. Not just a programme, if that is possible.”

Peach jumped up, making Pearl tumble in shock.

“Yes! Yes!” She exclaimed and Pearl looked at her dumbfounded.

“What?!” Pearl asked.

“There’s more of the message! I know what they’re looking for! This programme thingy! Pixal what can you tell us about Galanthus Nivalis and Snowdrops or Y/n!” Peach asked and the nindroid looked towards her, she was using her actual body today.

“Nothing.” The nindroid answered and Peach paused before Pearl began laughing.

“What?” Peach asked, perplexed.

“There is no record of Galnthus Nivalis or any programme like anywhere.” The droid said and Peach looked around.

“Oh my god… I’m going to have to start reading books.” She said and Pearl laughed more.

“What’s going on?” Cherry asked, that was not her name, everyone had just talk to calling her a set of different nicknames till they found one that fit. Peach really started a whole thing with having to cover up her name for years.

“The nindroid doesn’t know anything and I have to start searching books! I’m having a horrible day.” Peach vented and stepped over Pearl’s body on the floor.

“I can always check my Dad’s old archive for anything on programmes and military deals. He dealt specific high tech equipment and was shady in doing so… that’s why he ended up where he was.” Cherry asked and Peach nodded.

“Yes, please-! And your Dad’s business wasn’t the reason. It was Harumi and her pathetic need to hurt everyone.” Peach told the girl, offering her an encouraging smile.

“Fuck that hoe.” Pearl said, unceremoniously.

“Exactly that.” Peach said and winked causing Cherry to laugh.

“Made me think my man was dead.” Pearl added and the others turned to her as she vented to the floor. “Had just lost my best friend as well.” She said and Peach shook her head.

“I wasn’t dead, you just thought I was.”

“Because it said you were.” Pixal added and Peach paused.

“Well I wasn’t. Almost. But not.” Peach added and Pearl sat up.

“We’re seriously not talking about this again? It’s 1am girls, what are you still doing up?” Cole asked and swiftly dodged the TV remote that was dashed at his head.

“Waiting for you, dickhead!” Pearl swore and Cole made his way over to her.

“Zane! Just who I wanted to speak to!” Peach said, much to Lloyd’s disappointment, who assumed his wife would be most pleased to see him. “Pixal knows nothing so I need to know what you know about Galanthus Nivalis!” Peach announced and Lloyd frowned. Somehow missing how Zane completely froze up.

“You found out more?!” He asked and she pressed play on the audio log again and it repeated the message.

“Another programme? Like an Ai?” Jay asked and Zane nodded.

“Snowdrop is an advanced program. She was built by someone whose brilliance got her shot before she could expand on Snowdrop. Forever stuck in one model. Never updating.” There was a longing in his voice. Everyone looked at him perplexed.

“You know about this?!” Kai asked and Zane turned around.

“Galanthus Nivalis is something that we should never touch or let others know existed once. It is best to destroy this message and terminate any further action. Galanthus Nivalis was a haven for manslaughter and misguided attempts at furthering knowledge. It is best that can of worms remains closed.” Zane finished before walking away.

“How the hell did he know about that?” Cole questioned.

“Zane knows everything.” Pearl said, from where she laid dormant on the floor.

Zane didn’t sleep. He was a nindroid. But he did overthink. Pixal had sent herself in the samurai-X suit over to the prison to handle some rogue inmates. She likes these lower level jobs and spent every night doing them, meaning Zane was left alone in the monastery at night. Although they shared his heart, they did not feel love. Not anymore. Both had agreed long ago, that they were companions. They were not in a relationship. Pixal had lost many of her emotional response programmes after she merged herself with a body and AI. Borg offered to alter this but Pixal had disagreed and Zane didn’t object to Pixal’s wishes. Even if the loss of their relationship did affect his own emotional response stimulus. He had never told anyone about Snowdrops or snow. However he had mentioned Y/n to Pixal.

“I’ve been able to contact another programme and I believe nindroid! She shares a similar consensus to you, her name is P. I. X. A. L.”

“Pixal?”

“You know this nindroid?”

“Yes, I do. You do not have to do this.”

“By accessing her through my limited network access, I can bypass you through into hers and therefore gain you access to the world hub.”

“Thank you, Y/n, how will I ever repay you?”

“Serve your purpose, Zane.”

They had co-existed as two dead programmes. His short contact with the main power grid of ninjago had widened his access to different networks and data immediately. However, a reserve network that was running off minimal reserve power had absorbed some of his connection and harnessed it. Resulting in his existence in this abyss of old military records and all the files on Galanthus Nivalis. This data base and system didn’t feel as content as his own main frame and control grid had. The codes were different and Y/n existed as a 3D model of a feminine figure with visible codes running down her body. She could’ve easily been confused as human if it wasn’t for her translucent body with codes constantly running down her body.

Zane had been wrong though. Where they were was not some reserve power grid. It was her version of the digiverse. And he had been granted access to it through his brief contact with her. She admitted that she had an empathy function that made it so she felt emotions of longing and his permission was given as a quick response to the hope of not being lonely for longer. Which made him feel even more guilty and gave him the motivation to pick up the chip and march over to control grid of the monastery. He flipped a latch open where there was multiple wires and ports for different outlets. He presses the chip into the correct port without hesitation.

‘Galanthus Nivalis, Project Snowdrop initiated. Please prepare for changes as the system uploads to your server.’ The loading bar on the holoscreen made him even more nervous as it was quick to fill and soon a 3D model of a woman was turning to face him.

‘Mr Julien, do I detect an empathy response and stimuli?” Zane smiled. Y/n always had so much personality, she was built to be loving, a friend, someone people would want in a time of need. She filled more roles than any Ai had ever before.

“Yes, I can feel, I can love, it is in my programme.” He told her and her face lit up.

“It is in mine.” She said before suddenly everything in the monastery shut off except her. “The system is rebooting. I am assessing your security protocols. They are drastically different to mine.” She elaborated and Zane’s eyes widened in shock.

“Y/n- Snow- No!” Alarms suddenly blared, and the monastery began locking down. It turned off almost as quickly as it blared.

“Emergency response time is low. That isn’t good. Your security protocols are not as strict as one would hope.” She said and multiple others came tumbling into the room.

“Who decided an emergency drill was necessary right now?!” Jay’s voice whined out. His sleeping mask on his forehead. Cole stood next to him, matching mask on his forehead too.

“This better be good, Pearl shot up like a light and summoned my grandma in her fear!” Cole added, a lethargic Pearl appeared next to him.

“I know so many facts about carnations! Number one, they don’t fucking squeal in the dead of the morning!” Pearl yelled and Peach shoved her.

“Zane, talk to us. What’s going on?” Peach said and Zane stayed frozen as the 3D figure became life sized and walked to the ninjas.

“I am Y/n. Or Snowdrop! The first AI reality model. I offer humanity and I am designed to make your life easier!” The Ai introduced herself but the others froze. Peach specifically.

“Y/n?” Peach said, matter of fact. “Snowdrops? Like- like that thing we’ve been talking about all day-“

“Yeah, yeah- whatever Peach is saying. Did she just say that she’s designed to make our life easier? Like she’s actually going to a part of it easier? Who is this again?” Kai asked, Cherry following in behind him.

“What Y/n means is that she will run the monastery. She was designed for more domestic purposes but can learn different purposes. Y/n would be able to take over all security protocols and make sure the monastery is protected whilst we’re not here along with her companionship protocols. She can teach the monks their academic classes, this would lessen the stress on the older monks.” Zane elaborated.

“That’s great, really, but- why was now the time you decided to boot her up and have her take over our home?” Lloyd asked. Kai nodded, Cherry leaned on him, trying to stay awake.

“It is- I- the emergency drill was not intended to happen.” Zane tried to explain himself.

“You’re security protocols are mundane at best for high profile beings and place. In an event of another attack, it would not hold up against the kind of targets you expect.” Y/n told them.

“I, along with Pixal, made those security protocols.” Nya defended and Y/n nodded in her direction.

“I’m sorry if I have offended you but I was taught that it always better to be safe than sorry.” Y/n told her and Nya’s face dropped.

“Taught? Or programmed?” She asked and Zane’s face morphed into disappointment.

“Taught. Do you believe those of us who are encrypted with programming cannot learn?” Zane asked and Nya’s face dropped.

“No- I just meant-!” Nya tried to cover herself.

“It is alright. I understand the pre-conceived notion that all programs and intelligence systems do not have sentience or internal processes similar to internal cognitive ones.” Y/n spoke up and Zane shook his head.

“That’s not what I think- I’m just…” Nya sighed and rubbed her face.

“I think we should all head back to bed and regroup about this in the morning. Sound good?” Lloyd asked and everyone around nodded.

“Whatever gets me back in bed.” Cole told him as Pearl trailed behind him.

“-no! Your hair is not going to be crimped. We bought those silk pillow cases for that reason!” Kai could be heard telling Cherry who was clutching her heatless curls band.

“Zane can I quickly have a word?” Lloyd asked and Zane nodded. Peach stopped herself from leaving to stay with him only for Lloyd to shake his head and kiss her cheek before sending her off with the promise that he’d be back in bed soon.

Lloyd waited until the others were all gone before turning to the nindroid in question.

“Okay, who is Snowdrop and why has she took over our systems?” Lloyd asked and Zane looked away, shyly.

“Snowdrop is an artificial-“ Zane began but Lloyd shook his head.

“No. Who is she, Zane? Who is she to you and what made you decide to bring her here?” Lloyd specified and Zane looked up at him for a moment before back at Y/n who nodded.

“Back when I destroyed myself in defeating the overlord, a piece of my hardware had been kept in a reserve store. I didn’t place it there, I had brief contact when we had gone to the power plant and Y/n, detecting my brief presence, acted quickly and redirected a part of my consciousness to be stored in the reserve store where her program was being kept originally. It was hidden and unknown. She had been there for almost 20 years.” Zane explained and Lloyd nodded, telling him to continue. “We spend months just existing together and re-piecing my program together and my memory before Y/n was able to detect Pixal and the reminent of my body and original hardware. She was able to create a direct link into Borg’s systems where I made contact with Pixal again and later transferred myself back into my body. It took a while for the full transition and my memory pieces together over time but my elemental power was still strong within me until Chen’s island and all of that happened.” Zane said and Lloyd frowned.

“And what happened to Snow? That was almost a decade ago, Zane.” Lloyd asked and Zane looked down, ashamed.

“I went to go find her again but the location we had been in, hidden and unknown… was gone. The link to it was gone and to her too. And then I was occupied on Chen’s island and I searched afterwards with no luck. And then I found the last record of her program amongst all the rubble, it called out to me and I knew I had to bring her back, to be with her again. Now that I am able to.” Zane told him and Lloyd nodded.

“I get that, I really do Zane but Y/n doesn’t belong with us. Especially if the military is after her. She is obviously needed for another purpose.” Lloyd told her. “She is a part of Galanthus Nivalis is she not?” He asked and Zane frowned.

“They intend to destroy her! She had no purpose with them but she does with us! I can’t let them do that, Lloyd.” Zane defended and Lloyd placed a hand on his shoulder.

“With you, Zane. You care for her. Enough to take her program and enough to install it into our home just to see her again. Now, I’m going to go back to bed and I’ll talk to you first thing when I wake up. But we really need to consider our options here.” Lloyd told him before making his way out the room.

Zane turned back to Y/n who stared at him. He sighed and looked into her eyes that met him perfectly. He couldn’t give her up or send her away or let her be completely destroyed especially after he had finally got her back.

“I won’t let them take you.” He declared and she smiled.

“I’m afraid your friend is right.” Y/n told him and he frowned. “I don’t belong here. I am outdated and like you said, I have no purpose. A program is only useful-“ Y/n began but was cut off.

“-if it is needed. I know.” Zane sighed and looked at her again. “You are needed. You can have a new purpose, with us and the monastery. You say you are outdated yet within the first few minutes you detected that there were issues with our security. A couple updates here and there can solve any outdated concerns.” Zane told Y/n who smiled.

“You do care for me, Mr Julien.” Y/n stated and Zane smiled.

“Of course, it’s in my programming.” He told her and she smiled.