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I want to live where soul meets body

this is super cool! a continuation of this post I made:

Digital Biomimicry.

“Replicating a human consciousness with emotions, memories, thoughts and senses while encompassing their soul and allowing them to be part of the experience even capable of recalling their outside lives takes trillions apon trillions of lesions of code. Thousands of Terrabites.

The simple reality is that this can never be done to the precision anyone can hope for. It is inevitable you lose part of yourself travelling between worlds.

Then it begs the question, what does it mean to die outside of reality after your consciousness and body are transferred?

To simply abstract? Cease to exist at all? Not even remains, bones, not a corpse present where a consciousness once inhabited? Our only mark left In a database never to be looked at or comprehended?”

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like looking in the mirror!

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how boutcha draw joe and quinn as juppets.. a juppet and quppet?? I am not aware of the correct terminology

the people need more Quinn art.

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I desperately needed a reason to draw Quinn as a puppet and finally i have one!

@joehills and @quinnhills as puppets! Inspired by the Welcome Home style kinda :D

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Hey Quinn! could i have a copy or some sort of download of your minecraft skin? 😋

tyyyy

I think you can download my Minecraft skin from here.

Still in good condition. Only used once.

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🤐 top secret 🕵️‍♀️

in part because I knew I was going to release my own solo music under the name Quinn Hills soon, and I wanted that to be a fresh start

and also I didn’t want people feeling like they had to navigate around my deadname to talk about those albums I made with Joe

so when I was redesigning the album covers (which I had designed the first go-round), I decided to style them as being redacted with hastily-placed labels and photos

coming out as trans when you’re already somewhat known on the internet is a strange experience. but two years in, most people have been amazing about it. I’m grateful for that :)

love that, when faced with the problem of having Quinn hill's dead name on the albums, the first thought was to make it into a top secret file

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I’m scared of what I am

Stranger in a stranger land

Don’t try to take my hand

I’m too fucked up to understand

I wrote those words in 2021 when I knew who I am but my partner at the time didn’t want to accept that I’m a woman. So I hid. I gaslit myself. I let other people tell me who I’m supposed to be. I didn’t have any trans friends at the time (that I was aware of). I felt very alienated and alone. I wanted to disappear.

Community is so so important. Mental health is paramount. None of us are alone. We have each other.

that final bit in Melting from Ignore All Previous Instructions is doing stuff to my brain

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happy birthday! i love your music, first time i listened to ignore all previous instructions from start to finish was on a plane, so over time your album became my go-to flying music. its a travesty they dont have it in those on board playlists yet, i have to get by with it downloaded on my phone :D

awww

you may hold the record for highest elevation listening to IAPI

thank you for taking me and my music to such great heights :)

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Happy birthday to my sister @quinnhills!

In the last year, she put out a new album and single at https://quinnhills.bandcamp.com and I’m excited to see what she makes next!

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kroger brand tortilla chips on deck

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> ultimately the server made me too ill

they don’t teach you in school what traveling between worlds does to a body

when I go out, I have to cover myself from head to toe to hide the lesions of code

“freak”

that’s the nicest thing they call me

> it’s funny..the world that gave me this sickness was the one where I felt most free

where I could sing my songs above the treetops

where I could stop to gaze at every sunset

> they say I could patch in any time I

like

but I’ll never be whitelisted

death by a thousand lines of code

and so I have no choice but to remain here and craft a world where that feels a little closer to free, where my songs are heard and the passing of each day does not go unnoticed

- Q

Experimenting with different art styles

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“no one who i can call”

live at the east room, nashville

february 13, 2025

📹: preston eggert

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Story time inspired by the “What’s Left of Sam McGee” post by @a-cipher

In late 2019/early 2020, Joe and I knew we wanted to set some kind of preexisting poem to music for the second album. An early idea from Joe was to set Robert W. Service’s “The Cremation of Sam McGee” to “The Luckiest” by Ben Folds.

Joe recorded an a cappella voice message to demonstrate. I took that and started singing it over piano.

Here’s Joe’s demo followed by my demo:

I had a lot of concerns about the poem not really scanning on top of that particular song. And after my demo, we weren’t super enthused and went back to the drawing board. Other poems and songs were pitched.

Still, I really believed in finding something for this poem and kept singing it over different songs until one day (January 14th, 2020) I sang it over “What’s Left of the Flag” by Flogging Molly.

It was GOLD.

I quickly shared my find with Joe, and he loved it. He suggested maybe we do a medley of Flogging Molly songs to add some variety to what we knew would be a long song.

I selected “Drunken Lullabies,” and I also had a feeling “Shipping up to Boston” by Dropkick Murphys would work well.

Over the next two months, I arranged, produced, and recorded the song.

Joe debuted the finished eight and a half minute version on his 2020 St. Paddy’s Day stream.

And the rest is history ✨

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My only regret is not matching the original poem and singing

The Northern Lights have seen queer sights

But the queerest they ever did see

Obviously the word in the poem is being used to convey strangeness rather than what we think of as queerness today. But I didn’t publicly identify as queer in 2020 and didn’t want to offend anybody. Which is hilarious in retrospect 😉

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you want WHAT??? the thing that’s been on Bandcamp for nearly five years?! 😝

https://redactedhills.bandcamp.com/album/redacted-hills-sings-joe-hills-ii-the-secret-of-the-views?t=8

but I also uploaded it to SoundCloud tonight just because

joe hills is reading out the cremation of Sam McGee, trying so hard to read it without the melody of the song he made out of it

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I just got a notification from Tumblr that said it’s my birthday, which is weird because my birthday isn’t for a few more weeks.

This image appeared with a caption that says, “It's my 2 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳”

2 years ago I started this…

On February 9, 2023 I was 5 months on HRT, I had not come out to my immediate family other than my older brother, and I was still boymoding most days. By my birthday a few weeks later, I planned to be out to everyone and only be myself in the world.

That’s what I did.

It’s scary right now in 2025, but it always was. Authenticity requires vulnerability. Most of us aren’t taught how to harness the kind of strength we need to be unapologetically ourselves. I had to put in work. I’ve been in therapy for years. And even with all that, coming out is still a massive daunting series of hurdles.

Right now, I fear for myself and my community. A lot of good people are struggling. I don’t know what will happen. I don’t have a passport that reflects who I am. I feel trapped.

As hard as things are for me right now, they aren’t as hard as spending every waking moment hiding who I am. They aren’t as hard as the 10+ years of adulthood where I let friendships and relationships fade because I didn’t want to bother other people. I thought I didn’t matter. I thought I was a useless annoyance. Any people who did remain in my life were usually folks who I allowed to steamroll me completely.

I thought my original songs were a waste of time. Performing them in front of other people felt impossible. I stopped performing my music live in public in 2010. That was dysphoria. That was fear of failure. And it would be well over a decade before I found my power.

I don’t miss those challenges. I was born in 1989, but I never had a good year until 2023. My best year was 2024. I got back on stage. I put out an album. I learned a lot.

I don’t look at 2025 with much optimism, but I do know a few things:

I came out when I was ready

I don’t miss being in the closet

People have exited my life, but I am way better off without their toxicity and control

My friendships now are purer and more radiant then they ever had been

I love myself

I’m doing things I only dreamed of before

I forget sometimes how much I’ve endured and how much strength I have.

I’ve made it this far.

You have, too.

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psst

listen to this new track from my pal Amelia

it’s a vibe ✨

hello hello i am back i have a new song called "shot off the horse" that i wrote a while ago that suddenly became unfortunately more prescient!

enjoy get worse

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We received so many great questions for Allison Chapman that we didn't have time for her to answer them all in episode 50. Thanks, Alli, for taking some time to answer the rest on your blog!

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this is beautiful :)

'Lines'

Mixed media on paper

Inspired by @quinnhills song of the same title

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😭😭😭

we’ve made it this far

Now we all go cope with reality by blasting A Prayer For Nobody (from Quinn Hills' hit album Ignore All Previous Instructions) on repeat ✨✊😎✊✨