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i’m not very active on here recently but ummm im really close to eating rn which sucks so im gonna write a bunch of random stuff on my mind to distract me

i like the feeling of hunger 

i want th1nner arms sooo bad

i wore one of those early 2000s women’s shirts and lose rise pants today and looked so fucking good i couldn’t stop looking at myself in the mirror all day because i can see myself getting smaller

my ‘diet’ recently has been; waking up whatever time i wake up and if it’s before 9 am then i eat something (i try not to eat a too much but it’s usually something unhealthy sadly because we don’t really ever have healthy stuff that i like), and if it’s past 9 am then i wait until 10 am and take my adhd meds (make me lose my appetite like fucking LIFE SAVERS i love them sm), then i survive on drinks for the rest of the day and go to sleep hungry. wake up and repeat !!

it’s night rn so i’m just about to go to sleep but i’m like thinking if i should eat or not, i hope i don’t lose my self control because i know it’s really bad to eat before bed or after 7 or whatever

i want those stupid fucking cheese puffs oh my GODDD

i wish i knew how to pvrge fr it would be so helpful

i wanna weigh myself tomorrow morning. it was my birthday a few days ago and i let myself eat like a normal person and i accidentally binged so i had been scared to weigh myself for a while now but i think i’ve gotten back on track now so i’ll try and weigh myself tmr and maybe i’ll update here if i don’t forget

really into low rise recently (actually fucking despise high rise at all tbh) so i think i might try to sell my high rise shit on depop or something and use the money to buy stuff i’ll actually wear but i might wanna wait till i’m lighter

okay i think that’s it so far !!!! i will try not to eat tonight so we’ll see how that goes !!!!!

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day 3 logging

vanilla with caramel drumsticks ice cream - 310 cal

chocolate drumsticks ice cream - 290

slice of banana bread - 190

total: 790 cal

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my favorite runway thinspo <3

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i’m a girl but i wish i was like those “slutty waisted” men so that girls would drool over me like they do them...... i truly believe i can fit the role of a slutty waisted man when i lose some more weight like i know my waist can be slutty too

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sorry i left for like 2 months i was at camp for 2 weeks without my phone and other than that i just forgot lmao anyways day 2 of tracking my food

a bunch of cheese rice cakes i didnt count how many but im assuming it would be like 500 calories

3 jello cups - 80 each

rn also drinking a monster but i usually dont count liquid calories

total: 740 cal

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gonna start tracking my food on here because it motivates me and I’ve been doing kinda bad lately

so okay day 1

toast with butter x2 - 232 cal

honey nut cheerios with milk - 180 cal

half a blueberry muffin - like 200 cal ? (yikes)

piece of cheddar - 110 cal

smoothie - 70 cal

total: 792 cal

I binged yesterday so I kinda had trouble getting back on track today, hopefully will do better tomorrow. the day isn’t fully over either but I don’t think I’m gonna eat anymore. I might go out and get a monster and maybe go on a run idk, even if not it’s fine because liquid calories don’t matter to me too much. but um yea wish me luck tomorrow lmfao

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i wanna do one of those like month long diets but i go to punk shows regularly (like multiple times a month) where i am in the mosh pit for basically the whole duration of the concert so i always have to eat a lot before i go because fainting or even falling in a mosh pit is a nightmare

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nah because my body is the perfect shape it just needs to be like 2x thinner

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EMO AND GRUNGE SP0

omfg i cannot tell yall how much i love emo and grunge th1nsp0 (grunge as in like courtney love type shit omfg with the smudged lipstick and cigarettes MMM) and i love the emo stuff because it just looks so right like thats so me yk, like i just know all those skinny emos had eds and sh add!ctions like yesss same AND we both like The Used and BMTH 😩😩😩😩 

if yall have any good pics that fit this stuff pls send asap tysm

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the urge to buy size S tripp nyc pants (I’m an M) so i am forced to lose weight if i want to wear them

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ALRIGHT heres my low cal pizza recipe once again

LOW CAL PIZZA- 155 cal for the whole thing!! (each slice is 19 cal)

Ingredients:

low cal tortilla (45 cal)

low cal cheese (40 cal)

whatever toppings u want (pictured is chicken (60 cal)

low cal red sauce (like 10 cal i just use a spoon and scoop a spoonful and a half!)

your favorite seasonings: i use oregano, parsley, onion powder, garlic powder, salt, and pepper.

Instructions:

Preheat oven to 400 and prepare baking sheet.

Spray baking sheet w/ low cal cooking spray/ butter (i use 0 cal avocado spray) around the area your tortilla will lay. set down your tortilla and spray a little bit around the sides of the tortilla as well.

Place the baking sheet with the tortilla in the oven for 3 mins/ until the sides start lifting. 3 mins is usually enough!

Pull the baking sheet out and FLIP THE TORTILLA OVER (this is important) then start adding all your toppings and seasonings.

Put your dressed tortilla back into the oven for another 8-10 mins or until the cheese is melted.

Pull it out and cut it into 8 slices and BOOM there u go! You now have a full pizza thats the same amount of calories as ONE SLICE of regular pizza. and you cant even tell the difference 😛

its sososo yummy and i can eat a few slices and save some for the next day! so many topping options that can increase/decrease the amount of cals! i put some pics of the slices to get a better ID of the size! let me know if u make it!! 🤍🍄 x

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i was gonna put my weight stats but i realized i haven’t weighed myself in months because i was literally terrified of what i’d see LMAOO

i’m trying a new diet tomorrow though, i think i’m gonna finally weigh myself before i start so i know how much it makes me lose yk

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hiiii

im not new here i just made a new account :)))