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recently, im so invested with shui qian cheng's novels. ive become part of the 188 scum gongs fanclub lol.

anyways, my beloved fool and my beloved enemy was my starter pack. sqc really made sure her gongs are scum and toxic men bec she really got me with that.

just a heads up for those interested, her novels are huge red flags since his MLs are red flags too. if you are not into these types of novels, don't even touch it.

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Weird sure, but how bad are you down for someone that you have to search everywhere to find someone who resembles your crush in any way but still ends up liking the original person and cant find anyone like him bec he's the only one for him? That's Kwon Jaekyoung for you lol

He tried looking for anyone who resembles Jiheon yet he realizes no one can really replace the original.

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Jiheon realizing he has been recently finding Jaekyoung small actions "cute" and feeling flustered just by thinking about it, and Jaekyoung obviously showing everyone that Jiheon belongs only to him, even their coworkers are starting to find their closeness somewhat different as if something's really going on between them 🥹

your honor, they're so into each other (the other one fails to realize it and ignores the signs lmao yes im talking about you Jeong Jiheon)

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I have a thing for dark-themed BL Korean novels and danmeis. Even though I know what I'm getting myself into, I still can't stop reading them. I don't usually like dark fiction, but when I picked up danmeis and Korean novels with such heavy themes, it changed the trajectory of my life. I don't tolerate the wrongdoings in these novels of course, but the challenges faced by the characters keep me going. Curiosity definitely kills the cat, but I want to see how things will unfold. How will the author pull the strings? How will the characters face their dilemmas? What will the end be for them?

You might call me a masochist for liking them, but BL stories like these are so thrilling and bone-chilling to read. I know how to separate fiction from reality, so it doesn't become a problem for me (though it might be for some who don't find it appealing). If you want to consume this type of media, please read the warnings first. THEY ARE SO IMPORTANT. No one is responsible for your consumption but YOU.

To be honest, I’ve never felt so human while reading a novel, even with its dark scenes (basically transitioning from being a Wattpad reader to a mature BL Korean and Chinese novel reader, lol). After reading them, I felt more human and mature enough to handle such themes. I was able to understand and analyze the characters' behavior and the story progression, exploring how and why it turned out that way. I’m not shitting on Wattpad readers or authors, but there are significant differences in how stories and their aftermaths are portrayed. Perhaps what draws me to these BL Korean novels and danmeis is the well-written plots and unique characters compared to other forms of media.

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“I’ll fix it. Go back to sleep, Raymond. You’ll feel a bit better when you wake up.”

— Jerome White, 불우한 삶 (Campsite Arc)

Jerome’s efforts to fix things weren’t just out of pity. He was doing it because he didn’t want to see the current Raymond become like the <Bluebell> Raymond, lost and lifeless almost surrendering to the likes of Hugh and George (even though we all know it was just Raymond's bait to act so he could escape Bluebell).

Trigger warnings: SA, drug abuse, violence

When he whispered to him that Raymond shouldn’t be their pet during <Bluebell>, he was genuinely trying to save him. Jerome wants to see the fiery, strong, and a revenge maniac Raymond who has the guts to burn them alive, instead of a surrendering Raymond (and that's what made him like Raymond even more in the next volumes).

read the novel on ridibooks.

But what happened on the <Campsite> was different. Raymond was slowly drifting away from reality after being SA-ed, beaten up, and drugged many times. When Jerome noticed such changes in Raymond as he hallucinated of the younger Jerome White during their <Bluebell> days, he has to do something and pull Raymond back to reality or else it'll be the last time he will meet the Raymond he always liked.

So, he rehabilitated him in the cabin, fed him, clothed and helped him bathe, and went on a few walks with him outside the cabin for once to make Raymond see the outside world he should've belonged in the first place if it weren't for the top-floor boys.

manhwa (KR) here.

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"Tell me what you really want. What do you want, Raymond?"

— Jerome White to Raymond Goodman (불우한 삶 vol.2)

Jerome genuinely tried to help Raymond break free from Hugh and George’s control in his own small ways during the <Bluebell> arc. Just by asking him what he wants, even giving him the leeway to escape <Bluebell>, he was really giving Raymond the chance to flee away from them.

That’s why it was shocking to see Jerome’s reaction to Raymond appearing lifeless, as if he’d surrendered to Hugh and George entirely. If Jerome had been able to leverage his royal influence, he might have saved Raymond and freed himself from the Donwell family’s leash attached to his neck, but he lacked the power for revenge at that time.

“It’s okay. Don’t apologize. It’s not something you need to apologize for.”

— Jerome White (불우한 삶 vol.2)

This line from Jerome now makes sense. Raymond obviously did nothing wrong, it was them who did him wrong, so Raymond doesn't need to apologize for what happened to himself. Jerome knows it all too well and it pains me that he is trapped under the Donwells' trick and can't do anything about it.

Saw Nara-nim's Q&A about the "what-if" if Raymond never walked to the top-floor boys' life. Hugh has plans to take George, Simon, and Jerome together at Cambridge. But then, if that happens, Jerome will never be freed from the Donwells. He will never find freedom, he will always be one of their prized stallion they can play around with.

I'm not saying that Raymond's existence and suffering at their hands is a blessing in disguise. Raymond was the glitch in their matrix, he was revolutionary in that aspect.

This realization hits me so differently after reading Jerome’s backstory. It added a new layer of understanding towards his character and I feel so frustrated on myself that I failed to notice this. I’ll re-read the <Bluebell> arc once I finish the other volumes.

read the novel on ridibooks. manhwa (KR) here.

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"Kwon Jaekyoung was always like this. Even though he acted like the most cunning and clever person in the world, he would somehow become this clumsy, childlike man sometimes."

— Jiheon's perspective on Jaekyoung's personality (대쉬 vol.2)

I highly second this because Jaekyoung is such a simp for Jiheon. He might be blunt and too obvious about it, but I love how he's down bad for Jiheon that he'd do everything for him even if he'll be throwing away his career just to end their athlete-agent relationship and finally be more intimately as real lovers.

Though he sometimes pisses me off with his arrogant attitude, somehow it was kind of tolerable and I love to see how Jiheon tames this big bad wolf.

Its really rare to see semes that are simps to their ukes (even though I've seen several already but yeah my point still stands) so I'm adding 대쉬 as one of those BLs that has a possessive simp seme.

(almost done with volume 2 yay! cant wait to see their real progress and development towards romance bec i know both of them still has a long way to go, and so does for me reading all the volumes. btw this quote excerpt came from the smut chapter lol)

read it on ridibooks.

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[ masterlist ]

｛ list of all my posts related to the novels and manhwas I read. to be updated. ｝

Novels w/ Manhwa

불우한삶 / Bad Life

패션 / Passion

코드네임 아나스타샤 / Codename Anastasia

장미와 샴페인 / Roses and Champagne

미필적 고의에 의한 연애사 / Love History caused by Willful Negligence

대쉬 / Dash

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intro.

quinn。20+ 。𝐢 𝐞𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐭.

— not your cup of tea? ignore and move on

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© PSYCHOLIRIUM ー support creators on legal websites or platforms: ridibooks, tappytoon, lezhin, bomtoon, tapas, mr.blue, kakao

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love history caused by willful negligence / 미필고

bad life / 불우한삶

dash / 대쉬

FAQs.

：do you write fics? no, but instead, i have headcanons for the manhwas and/or novels that i read.

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：can i request you to read a series and ask your thoughts on it? yes, but please don't pressure me or rush me. i read things that fascinates me so it'll take time. besides, i also have a life outside social media and im not a professional critic either. reading is my hobby so this rambling blog is for fun.

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rules.

[about] / [intro]

𝐁𝐄𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐅𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖

this is not a spoiler-free account. i post thoughts on the bl novels/manhwas i like so read at your own risk if you don't want to be spoiled. its up to you to block me or what. just don't report me.

i post manhwa panels and novel excerpts from official reading sites. i don't post illegal links or whatsoever.

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i post my thoughts and reviews on the things I read. If you don't like my opinion, you can give your two cents through constructive criticism. You can voice out your thoughts but don't be an imbecile.

this is not a fic blog. i don't write fics related to the manhwa and novels i read.

if my interests in manhwas and novels isn't your cup of tea, don't engage. I'll respect your tastes so respect mine. I'm not responsible for your media consumption.

read warnings before proceeding. It's not my fault if you got spoiled or got triggered. This is not a spoiler free account so read past my post if you don't want to be spoiled. Feel free to block if my posts makes you feel uncomfortable.

the rules are meant to establish boundaries and order on things. this blog is for fun so let's not ruin things and just enjoy our interests without prejudice.

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about.

𝒒𝒖𝒊𝒏𝒏. 20+. intj. she/they.

likes: reading, drawing, writing, eating, watching movies and anime, yapping.

dislikes: rude people, unnecessary & nonsense discourse.

status: reading bl novels and manhwas; currently unemployed but wish me luck to all my job applications.

𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐬𝐲𝐥𝐮𝐦

ramblings blog:

this blog contains my thoughts on BL (boys' love) manhwas and/or korean novels that i read. if my bl taste doesn't suits you, you are free to go. ignore and move on.

i post my current and recently read novels/manhwas with proper credits and source where you can read them (legally).

masterlist: you can navigate to all my ramblings on a certain novel/manhwa you are looking for. if there is none, maybe i haven't read it yet.

reading list: i will update this every time i find new interesting things to read. i have a bunch of lists, so it would take me time to post them all. i will try my best to do so.

rules: this contains the do's-and-don'ts of this blog. i highly ask you to please refer to this before proceeding to my blog to avoid any conflicts with me in the future.

inbox: all the tumblr questions that i answered are compiled here. you can ask me anything related to bl using the ask button on my profile.

read at your own risk. read warnings before proceeding.

note: i dont usually associate myself with any fandoms. as long as i find something interesting to read, i'll definitely be a fan. you can check my masterlist and reading list for more.

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