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fishpun said: is it tumblr you’re tried of too? or…? sounds to me that you maybe just need to become a multifandom blog or smth :O

i have a sideblog for that stuff! it’s my personal and it has a mix of other stuff i like, and i’ll still be on that one! it’s hopelessaromantic! c:

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to be honest with you guys im getting really wore out trying to make myself care about he/talia lately. this happened last summer if anyone has been following me that long, and i temporarily moved to a hs blog before coming back a little while later in the school year. i’ve been into het/alia for god like three years now? and it’s been such a long time i feel like i never see anything new anymore. tra/nstalia was a refreshing thing for me and ive loved blogging about it, but now i feel like even those hcs are getting repetitive and i dont feel emotional invested in the characters anymore. before i could get excited but now i find myself reblogging stuff out of habit or forcing myself out of radio silence. im going into college in the fall, and i feel like i should be committing more time to getting ready for that and well.. growing up. i feel like one of the older members of this blogging circle and im not sure i like feeling like the creepy uncle sitting at the kid’s table. 

i still enjoy the quality of art i see produced and i love reading cute trans hcs and all of that. but with the characters it’s only nice because they’re familiar and when someone mentions a name i know who they’re talking about and everything about each of them. but there’s no emotional connection anymore. when i was younger i could get excited by seeing art of a favorite character or pairing i liked but now i feel so neutral on the whole thing. i cant draw any of them ive got zero motivation to create art of anyone even doodles. 

lately ive found a lot of new media i really like and i move from thing to thing really quickly i feel but it’s so nice to have something new and unexplored to talk about rather than something that’s been analyzed the same way fifteen times in the past week. not a critique or anything, i dont want to anger anyone, but it’s something you notice when you stay in the same fan base for too long i think, with just about anything. 

i dont know if i want to delete my blog and be done or keep it around in case i want to come back. i almost think leaving it up is gonna make me come back because of the nostalgia and a sense of duty tbh I feel like this is coming off bad. Seriously there’s no critique I don’t want anyone to think I’m asking things to change my point is that I have outstayed my welcome here I think. So this post is an announcement of maybe permanently leaving, maybe only for a while, maybe deleting this blog and maybe not. I think I’ll decide sometime soon. And I’ll let you guys know what happens. Thanks for sticking with me for as long as you all have!

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Commission for Transfinland [5/5] –

My commission info here

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he won’t smile

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They said I could live most anywhere--I think I have to legally change my gender before I live with dudes though--but I chose the all girls dorm because it's the ONLY dorm with a gender neutral shower, which seems kinda senseless in design... The school isn't so good with trans stuff but their pre-med program is spectacular so I thought it best to sacrifice being comfortable for the best education possible.

Oh yeah that’s pretty weird! But your decision makes sense, especially since you won’t have to live in the dorms for too long. Good luck with everything though! :o

Edit: this was not meant to be posted publicly and mobile tumblr sucks, sorry!!

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ah. this muffin

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May I get a Belgium in D1 please?

shes too good for this world

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June 5th & June 6th

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Happy Birthday, darling c:

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Okay but trans woman APH Denmark who gets ridiculously excited when APH Sealand calls her, “Auntie Denmark”

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Here’s Gil and his Bird! 

No, its not Big Bird – I have a slight obsession with fantasy archs, and I wanted to make one with all of the nation’s pets, shifting them into creatures or monsters-  for Gilbird, we made him.. a little larger, and capable of doing much more damage on the battlefield- 

sidenote, I kinda want Gilbert’s weapon to be a flute.. 

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Tulip siblings. My apologies for missing Luxembourg, he was not collaborating with me. 

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sometimes when i dont feel like doing homework i always draw Alfred

Alfred’s shirt design from this image by rokumaro1923-chan uhuehe ☆☆☆

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mY pri N CESS

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Trans woman America working with the military and police forces to establish trans inclusive laws and practices. Trans woman America then enforcing these laws and slam dunking transmisogynistic assholes into trashcans where they belong. 

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When they started spending a lot of time together, Marja (APH Finland) told Berwald in passing about how she wished to have been born a woman. Berwald–a trans man–told her that she was a woman if she saw herself as one but Marja just laughed him off because she didn’t realize that people could be any gender apart from the one they were assigned at birth. Marja had no idea that Berwald was transgender–only Einar (APH Norway) and Magnus (APH Denmark) and humans who were long dead ever knew him as a girl–so the idea went right over her head.

Berwald started calling her “wife” soon after, which really took her aback because she really didn’t get it. She told him to stop because it surprised her and brought up feelings of happiness at being given a female title that she couldn’t comprehend or make sense of.

After some time, Berwald found it a necessity to tell her about his status as a transgender person if they were to live in such close quarters. She was confused by the concept and by his body but she couldn’t just start calling him a girl because of it–he made it clear that she wasn’t to do that. She took time to process it and it suddenly dawned on her that maybe she too could be like Berwald.

She then hesitantly asked at a later time if Berwald would mind calling her a woman again. Berwald–who’d been expecting it from her at some point–told her it wouldn’t be a problem.

As she found herself and discovered the person she wanted to be, she decided to live stealth–not to let anyone know about her assigned gender–along with Berwald. With the time ever-changing around them, it became easier to live without fear of her being recognized from what she dubbed her previous life, which eased her worries and made life more comfortable.

In the present day, they’ve decided to come out together, just as they decided it best to live stealth, and have made their gender identities a big part of what they advocate for as a team, as their identities make up a large part of who they are and they helped deepen their understanding of the other. They’ve both decided to focus on helping others through similar journeys, while having the other there to get them through any hard times.

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imagine young prussia (dmab) meeting dfab hungary when they’re kids and hungary is telling prussia he’s a boy, but prussia is really. outwardly skeptical and joking about it, but inside, really curious. and she wants to know if the same thing hungary tells her about his designated gender not matching his real gender goes both ways, if she can be a girl even though everyone told her she was a boy. imagine her not telling anyone for years because she learned real quick that that kind of thinking was wrong to a lot of people. imagine her coming out in the modern day after there’s more advocacy for trans rights. trans girl prussia being really proud of herself for working past a lot of internalized transphobia and working with hungary to advocate for trans rights. trans girl prussia calling out transmisogyny when she notices how badly she’s treated compared to hungary even at trans pride events and in inclusive spaces. trans woman prussia who doesn’t “pass” in the stereotypical way, but loves every bit of herself, and will fight anyone who tries to question her because she has gone through so much to love herself like she does today and she wont let anyone ruin things for her.