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Okay for real this time, I'll say it as loud as I need to:

I AM LEGITIMATELY LOOKING FOR A TOXIC SUGAR PARENT/ ANA COACH. I DON'T CARE IF IT'S A FETISH FOR YOU. I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE GOING TO UPSET ME AND INTENTIONALLY MAKE ME OVER-RESTRICT.

I know myself. I know that this is the only thing that will work for me. I have extreme parental issues and I am very materially motivated. Call me a pig when I go over my limit, and pay me when I stay under it. I am BEGGING. I will send you body check pics, I will send you videos of me eating, I will send you food diaries.

PLEASE

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I believe with my whole being that if I was able to lock in and lose at least 30 pounds that my life would be a million times better

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am i the only one who feels like my ed isnt valid when i overeat like im some sort of ana poser

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i hate the assumption that i’m fatphobic because i ⭐️ve myself. Like this isn’t about you, it’s about ME and how I feel about MY body.

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i lost sum but not enough :(

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Well I started smoking. Wasn't as dramatic as I was expecting lol. And way easier than I'd been led to believe too, I thought I was gonna start hacking up a lung but nah

Should I start smoking??? I feel like I should start smoking 🚬

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Well the long and short of it is that the juice cleanse didn't do shit, and also the juices all spoiled because it's summer and we didn't have space for them in the fridge. But I did end up buying some fags, and I'm gonna start the low difficulty "get worse" diet starting tomorrow:

Hold your thumbs for me!! X

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Had the actual day from hell today. Don't think I can even tell the nice people in my phone about it. Maybe later.

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Should I start smoking??? I feel like I should start smoking 🚬

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Like fr. Idec if it's just 'cause you have a toxic "forced weightloss" kink. Just send me money every time I stay under the limit you set me 🥺🙏

Where the coaches thatll gimme money 🙏 I'm so desperate I'll do anything at this point

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Thank you to all the ana's making themed diets in the trenches. I salute you, queen.

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No-chill foodie mom

I'm the scientist teehee

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Update; my orlistat order fucking got cancelled. BUT my mumma and I have started the juice cleanse thing I mentioned

Definitely gonna focus on maintaining until the Orlistat arrives, probably gonna go offline in shame until then too. See everyone in about a week! 🙃

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Definitely gonna focus on maintaining until the Orlistat arrives, probably gonna go offline in shame until then too. See everyone in about a week! 🙃

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Do "treat days" get anyone else feeling like an engaged person who cheats on their fiancee on their hen/stag do by hooking up with a random stranger? Like, it didn't mean anything in the moment, but there's hell to pay the next morning and it might just ruin the entire relationship

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Mumma took me out for dinner tonight and encouraged me into a binge. But also, like, what else was I supposed to do?? I don't purge, it was too late at night to work it off, and we'd been together all day so she knew I hadn't eaten. Like??? Literally the only other option was to just flat out tell her that I'm trying to starve myself??? Whatever. The Orlistat will be here late this week/early next week. I'll just try to maintain 'til then ig