priyal-d123

[priyal-d123]

My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

[priyal-d123]

A Dead Poet's Cry

I saw this girl the other day

And it felt like I had seen her before

As if I'd known her somewhere in some way

She smiled when she saw me

And I knew that's what she did for everyone

That was the thing about her,

She loved smiles; it reminded her of battles won

But there was something wrong

She knew I could see it too

So she wore that smile further

But just for a moment there, it faltered

And just for a moment then, I could see through

I saw it all in front of me then; laid bare

How far she'd loved and how bad shed lost

How much she'd had to suffer, when all she'd done was care

I felt broken then, as if I were the one who'd been betrayed

I felt hurt on her behalf

I couldn't understand who would do this to someone

Who didn't deserve to cry, but to laugh

I felt angered ar that someone

And I think I knew who

And I wanted to hold her, and tell her

'don't leave, I still love you'

Something told me that's what she wanted to hear too

Just once, not for me or anyone else, but for THAT person to care

To whisper, 'don't worry, I'm not going anywhere'

I reached out; to be that person for her, i tried

But the closer I got, the worse, for the loss, she cried

They say she wears her grief well

Or is it the other way around?

Cause that's what they'd taught her to do

To bear it all, and yet, not make a sound

She assured me; 'its fine' she said

Even though it was clearly not

My heart hurt to see her

Waiting for someone who'd succumbed her to this rot

And I wondered if that's what love was

I'd never believed in it; now I detested it even more so

Because it has killed her alive

And even still refused to let her let go

I pleaded her to forget; to somehow just live

But she just shook her head sadly

And I knew there was nothing left in her to give

I saw it slipping

Her facade giving away

And I saw what once was beautiful

Fading with people who didn't stay

What justice is this, I asked

I wondered why she so stubbornly held on

There came that smile again, full of pain and loss,

And something told me, she's never accept they're gone

Her eyes dimmed then

And her smile finally dropped

Tears rushed to fill her eyes to the brim

And my heart just stopped

And she stared back at me

The girl behind the glass

Her hope had been the end of her

Her innocence, her love, her smile, now gone

Lost somewhere in the blur

[priyal-d123]

Why would you?

Why? Why would you do this to me?

Why, when you said that you loved me too,

Did you kill that love so brutally

Why? Why would you do this to me?

When I had given you everything I had

Why then would you treat me like trash just tossed away carelessly

Why? Why would you do this to me?

When you could've stayed

The love of my life, the person in all my dreams,

Why then is this the person you chose to be

Why? Why would you do this to me?

Why would you be so cruel as to say

It's my fault for getting hurt by loving you one sidedly

Why? Why would you do this to me?

Why would you show me everything I could ever have hoped for

Just to snatch it away suddenly

Why? Why would you do this to me?

When you said you couldn't see life without me

Why then would you walk away so easily

Why? Why would you do this to me?

Why would you go ahead and stomp all over my heart?

I wonder,

Did that set you free?

**original poem**

[priyal-d123]

Why did you have to??

Why did you have to hurt me like this

Why did you have to walk away

Why did you have to push me off the cliff

When it could've been us at the end of the day

Why did you have to sharp your words so

And pierce that dagger into my heart

Why did you have to push me down so bad

And leave me bleeding and torn apart

Why did you have to break me like this

Why did you choose to

Why did you have to punish me like this

When all I had done was love you

Why did you have to go

And cripple my crumpled hope

Why did you have to leave me

Now willing to hang on the other side of the rope

Why did you have to-

Why did you have to do any of it AT ALL??

Why. when I would've stayed

When I'm stilling waiting for you in empty halls

**original poem**

[priyal-d123]

Tennyson was so wrong when he said,

"'Tis Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"

dude no.

Would've been better to never have loved at all than to have lost-!

[priyal-d123]

It's You

You say, " Tell me who is he? Maybe I can help you out! " While all i can do is stare at you Knowing you're the one I was talking about

And maybe you'll say, "I'll tell him exactly how sweet you are-"

While I'll smile in all of my misery, knowing I'll always be admiring from afar.

Oh-oh-oh love is twisted that way

Oh-oh-oh I wish I knew how to sayy

THATS ITS YOU

Who's got my heart blue

And Who knew?

That you'd be my best view!

No, you don't have a clue

The one breaking my heart into two

Oh it's you.

The only one I wish to pursue

But I guess I'll just be waiting in a queue.

With you, in my mind, like a tattoo

Never thought it could be true

But yes, it's you.

And I'm here seeing this through

Hoping against hope that you'll say you love me too.

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Right Person, Wrong Time

I guess, it was the wrong time, the wrong age

The right intentions, but the wrong place

The moment you left

Nay! were forced to leave

My breath died and

My heart slipped down my sleeve

Then it came

The sickening grief

Pushing me closer to death

And further away from relief

They told me to try

To live and survive

But the pain consumed me

When I had no reason to stay alive

Others hurt me first

Then you killed me more

I didn't want to believe it

But you left me crying on the floor

But when you love someone

There's this thing I suppose

Where for their own good

You can't always hold them close

I understood then

What you were trying to do

Pushing me away to leave

By making me hate you

But there was one thing you forgot

That a love like ours

Couldn't possibly vanish this way

When our forever is written in the stars

They say, "all's fair in love and war"

So these storms and battles now

We'll tide over them too

To you, that is my vow

I will make it right, our love that was wronged

For it's always been you, who my heart has longed

*original poem*

[priyal-d123]

(Just One) Last Time

Just one last time

Just one last look

Before I have to pretend that I'm fine;

Before you tear off your page from my book

Just one last word

Just one last caress

Before you leave me unheard;

Before you ask me to love you less

Just one last touch

Just one last contact of eyes

Before you decide I was too much;

Before the final goodbyes

Just one last time, tell me that you love me

Just one last time, tell me that you still care

Before you ignore my plea;

Before you leave me hurting everywhere

*original poem*

[priyal-d123]

“you’re so pretty,” okay write poetry about me then.

[priyal-d123]

The feminine urge to recreate every scene from your favourite books

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I had lived, but, in fear...

Of what would happen if I stepped on the wrong stone, if I stumble.

If I fall

*orignal lines*

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My life will forever remain a blank sheet,

For I have said no words, expressed no emotions and felt nothing real.

**original**

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And she smiled to herself

For after all this time,

She was finally whole

Finally complete.

*orignal lines and pics*

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When there was light, I wasn't afraid

When there was no such fear as I now face

And my borders crumbled

And the the tears I couldn't contain.

But the masks never stumbled

They've been in place.

No one sees the horror more than I

For it lies behind the lies

I'd rather have it die.

*orignal lines*