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I always get super sad when I realize I can’t fit all the stuff I want in my story. Like yes, I KNOW you’ve gotta kill your darlings and if you give in every time it’ll turn into unorganized fan service mush but also have you ever considered-

GIMMMEEEE. You actually DO need my random cute scenario that doesn’t move the plot forward and acts as pure brain candy. It can’t just be a headcannon. It doesn’t hit the sameeee. I need more time with my characters. I don’t care if this book is as long as the damn BIBLE. Yes, you WILL sit through eight chapters of my main love interests figuring out how to make banana bread as stupid silly teenagers AND THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT

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i’m surprised by how much i *love* writing in third person considering how much i used to dislike reading in third person.

finding my love for writing again has made me appreciate third person writing so much more!!!

third person chapters have become like an exclusive, special pov in my series since 90% of the chapters i write are in the first person pov.

what can i say, i love playing with/switching up pov’s mid story😄 whether it’s including multiple character pov’s in one book or surprising the readers by randomly jumping into a third person pov.

like you know it’s serious if you stumble across a third person pov in one of my books😭 shit is about to go down fr

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literally me 75% of the time i write

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is this a safe space? i hate writing sex scenes.

that’s like the one thing i try my hardest to include very little of. but it’s hard bc i know some people enjoy reading those scenes when it comes to romance stories specifically, (which is completely fine! no judgement whatsoever!) i just hate writing them😭

i much prefer alluding to it or transitioning into a scene break/cut. but like i said, i know some readers enjoy reading those moments so i force myself to include some crumbs of it. which is fine, i guess. i’ll survive how awkward i feel, no big deal

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*knocks on wood* is it weird that i’ve never seriously suffered from writer’s block….

i just feel like i’m constantly seeing other writers talk about how much of a struggle it is for them to even write a sentence, and i’ve just… never had that problem? like i have TOO much to write about to never not know what to write, if that makes sense.

i blame all the premature life experiences i’ve had. maybe that’s what it is since i tend to draw inspiration from personal experiences. all my trauma is finally coming in handy for something omg😭

this is why writing is literally the most *perfect* thing for me. you’re telling me i get to have fun creating characters, romance, and storylines, *and* i get to pour my own personal experiences into my characters and stories in the most therapeutic way???? sign me up for life please!!!!

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do any other writers try their hardest to convince themselves they don’t have a favorite character to write or am i the only one burdened by the anchors of denialism

(but if anyone asks, i love all my children equally)

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is it bad that one of my favorite characters i’ve written so far just so happens to be one of the most “villainous”?

i use quotations because she’s not necessarily a bad person, she’s just made a lot of awful choices that have led to awful circumstances for her and those around her.

she’s also someone who’s been through a lot. she has a good heart through and through, but i can definitely see some readers disliking her, which is fine!

it’s exactly what i want, actually. i want her to be a character people have mixed feelings about. i want her to be a character you either hate to love, love to hate, or somewhere in between.

funniest part is she was only supposed to be a side character aka the mother of one of my character’s😭

now she’s become my little phoenix rising from the ashes as the catalyst for the biggest scandal in my book series.

the main character before my current main character was the main character. she paved the way fr i cannot wait to write her prologue book one day!

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i’ve been rotting in bed with a fever for four days now which means it’s been four days since i’ve felt the cold, smooth touch of my keyboard and mouse💔

on one end, i’ve been meaning to let what i last wrote marinate for a bit, but on the other miserable end, i miss entering the makeshift portal i’ve created into my characters’ world (‘:

i have had plenty of time to conjure up a million potential storyline ideas that might not ever even come to fruition anyway, so there’s that!

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yk what’s crazy is before i found my love for writing again, i used to read books (romance books specifically) and think to myself:

“wow, authors/writers are some of the most creative people out there. to create an entire ensemble of characters and give them such distinct personalities/backgrounds/upbringings, and to create an entire world of storylines for them is truly something magical.”

i used to wish i could do that. i never thought myself capable of such creativity. i used to wish i could be capable of creating an ensemble of characters i could write and have fun with. a fictional world i could create and find some escape in, and now i do.

i love the little world of characters i’ve created so much. can confirm: it is truly magical✨

oh and happy late new year💛☺️☀️

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thinking about the time when i re-read the first draft of the first piece of work i’d ever written for my characters (there are eight total main characters) and i completely forgot to include one of them in the first half of the story.

and just like that, his archetype was discovered.

he’s the person who’s often overlooked, leading him to feel a bit lonely and unimportant at times. the “forgotten friend” if you will.

and it’s so true because i really did forget he existed when i first created my characters omg😭 i swear i love him it was just an accident

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anyone else have to remind themselves from time to time that they’re in charge of their characters and the plot line? meaning you can quite literally make them do *whatever* you want?

idk why i tend to forget that sometimes. i’ll often find myself pondering certain ideas i get and think to myself “hm, no. i couldn’t possibly do that.”

when i quite literally can???

like i just had the craziest storyline idea for three of my characters and thought to myself “no, i can’t do that. that’s too big of a game changer.”

the thing is, i could do it. and i probably will😭 god this is too much fun. i feel like a mad scientist who’s been given too much power

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just accidentally stumbled upon so many prologue story ideas for the parents of my characters in the current book series i’m writing.

and it ties in so well UGH i’m gonna have a writing orga*m!!!!!

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as discouraging as it can be writing to an audience of zero, i’m so locked in atp, idec anymore😭 delusion is my feul

i LOVE my characters and the little universe i created in my head sm, each of their books WILL be written and finished even if i’m the only one who knows of their existence!

i feel like i not only owe it to myself to see it through, but to my characters and their stories. they’re like my children, i can’t just abandon them because no one else is seeing their potential like i do?????

what kind of mother would that make me

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i’ve never trusted my heart and ~gone with the flow~ more than i do with writing.

idk if this makes me an unhinged or ~irresponsible writer~ but i have never enjoyed the idea of outlining my work. something about it makes my writing feel so caged and limited and i HATE it!!!

obviously you can always simply go off script and change whatever the hell u want, but i still refuse to completely plan out every. single. thing. in some overly detailed outline. (and that’s just me, i’m not knocking anyone who does!!!)

of course i write down important plot points and key notes to incorporate and remember but other than that, i’m a big believer in “sharing” control with my characters.

sure i have solid ideas of how i want a story to pan out, but if the story just so happens to take me elsewhere in a spur of the moment manner, i’m all for it!

shameless chaotic writer here👋🏼

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just stared at my computer screen for 30 mins trying to think of a name for the fictional coffee shop in my characters’ universe

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“She’s looking around the blanket in disbelief, and I’m a little in disbelief myself for a second.

Mother nature seems to love her just as much as I do because the sky is now the prettiest shade of pink and orange, like she’s the sun the sky is choosing to set behind.”

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sometimes i wish it didn’t take me so long to rediscover my love for writing. it’s something i LOVED as a kid. i loved books and was so mesmerized by the fictional world. then that love got lost as i grew older and i only just started rediscovering it almost two years ago.

can’t help but wonder how much closer i’d be to my writing dreams had i rediscovered my love for it sooner or never lost it to begin with.