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@askjedandoctnatm

Okay! So I have made a separate blog for jedtavius content! I am really excited to get started! Head over and ask a question if you’d like!

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Okay. So I want to continue to draw more. I saw the @blondieandtogaboy a while back and I was like !!!! I think it's such a cool idea. I would want to do a separate blog with fanart/a bit of writing for NATM but specifically Jedtavius themed. Hopefully this makes sense???

Anyway, I would like to make more NATM content and think this would be a fun way to do it. Would you be interested in seeing something like this?

Let me know if you have any questions or suggestions! Thank you!

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https://archiveofourown.org/works/64554127

Hello! I have finally started to post my Lazytown Fic to A03. I hope you enjoy and let me know what you think! This is my first fic, so hopefully it’s okay. Thank you!

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..... It's been a while.

So heyo people of the internet, I realize I have not posted or done much on Tumblr for a while. I really missed it, so I am back! Hopefully I won't feel super overwhelmed with life stuff again, but life happens sometimes, which includes getting sick again. As soon as I got better from being sick, BAM just gross sicky icky vibes. This makes it harder for me to write, draw, or do anything. But I am finally feeling better.... Again.

I have not given up on my fanfiction stories, hell I really feel better about the idea of posting them when they are ready. Currently still working on my Lazytown fic and an analogical one shot fic. I am hoping to sometime write a Jedtavius fic, but I am a bit hesitant with how Jedidiah would speak, I want to make it sound like him but had no idea where to start with researching how he talks. Writing a Spirk one shot might be on the plan too, but who knows when inspiration will strike? I also watched season one of Good Omens and ihdjdnxjdkdbdb I love it so much. I heard things about season 2 being soul crushing, so I am holding off on watching it for now.... But someday.

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I am going to be creating some fandom content and I can't wait to see what I have missed. You guys are great!

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So true..... 😭

The struggle is real, people...

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Feeling a lot better than before. So now I can write again without sounding insane! I also got a graphics tablet and hdjsjdbdbdbd, I love it so much!

I think about my current hyper fixations and it's wild to me how all these ships make me feel so happy and motivated to create. Whether it's Sportacus and Robbie Rotten, Jedidiah and Octavius, and recently, Spock and Kirk, it brings me such joy to see others work relating to those ships. I have been feeling burnout slowly creeping in for a while now, but having these fandoms and ships really keeps me happy and motivated. It may sound a bit silly, but I enjoy these ships and they make me believe in love, as cheesy as that sounds.

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Okay. So my roommate of a few years has been a fan of Star Trek and has brought it up on occasion. I finally have watched a few episodes of the original series.

I find myself relating a lot to Spock and Data. As a person who wasn't diagnosed with ADHD until later in life (and also shows quite a few characteristics of autism but jdnhdbdb) I find myself relating to the android and half Vulcan.

Both seem to have very logical ways of acting and speaking but also, in their own way, have feelings and care about things important to them . As a child I often found myself relating to the "alien" and "robot" characters.

So I want to know.... If you are neurodivergent, do you find yourself relating to the "alien" and/or "robot" characters more often then other types of characters?

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Just re-watched Megamind. It had been a while and I needed it for a paper for class. Honestly I love this movie so much. I remember fondly watching it as a kid and quoting lines with my dad. I also remember relating a lot to Megamind as a kid. So I tried to reflect on why, why did my younger self relates to this character so much as a child and I think I have some ideas.

He feels like a stranger on a planet that he has lived on for (almost) his entire life.

- Almost my whole life, I have felt like an outsider in many ways. To see this as a child, it really helped me feel not so isolated.

He tries so hard to be this certain person as a child, in hopes that people will like and accept him.

- In the beginning of the movie, he "adapts" and tries to be someone different so he is praised, adjusting himself so others will like him. I have found myself doing the same thing.

He is unfamiliar with a lot of "normal" social interactions due to being mostly isolated besides minion. Ex. Answering the phone or getting a hug.

- He isn't familiar with social interactions that others would have happened to them a lot. So he is navigating a world where he is still trying to figure out things much later than other people. I often feel behind compared to my peers with social related goals.

Had a strong belief in destiny and fate for a majority of the movie.

- I honestly think this logic based idea of why things turned out the way they did, was a coping mechanism for him. In some ways, I am sure he was frustrated as a child for what fate seemed to give him versus Metro Man. He ended up in prison while Metro Man had a rich family. I also have tried to cope with my life by using things like fate and destiny.

Has this external persona he tried to present as reality but it never seems to work the way he wants it to. Because it's not who he really is.

- Once again, trying to play a part for other people to like him, I relate to a lot.

He had "rules" in the movie that seemed to show he wanted people to "stick to a script" Ex. Getting frustrated when Hal didn't show up for the fight.

- It would be difficult socially when someone seemed to get off the script I had in my head. Since I was a more isolated child, it was easy to make scripts to try to make it easier to talk to people. It would become hard however because it is impossible to predict what people will say.

Lonely. I think despite Minion being around him, he can also feel very isolated in many ways. He may have felt like Minion is only there because it's his duty rather than actually caring about him. But he is pleasantly supposed when Minion comes to help him get out of the prison.

- I have often felt very isolated like Megamind did. While I didn't have a blue completion, I often felt like the weird kid. Most people seemed to avoid me when I was younger and it was hard on my self esteem

Despite being a very logical person, he seems to feel very deeply about things.

- This is something really important to me. A lot of people think those who are logical are unfeeling and don't care. This isn't true. I think in a very logical way, but I also feel emotional in a different way than others. Megamind tries to use his intellect but also cares about people so much, even at the possible harm of himself.

I look back at this movie fondly. I didn't have the words to explain why I loved this movie so much as a child, but now I think I can. Now after being diagnosed with ADHD, I look back on that undiagnosed kid I was before really saw themselves in Megamind and think about how there will be hardships but also some great people who will be there.

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Currently sick, which is bleh.

I plan on using this however for my Lazytown fanfiction. It had been a while since I had been sick, so it's a nice refresher of how much things feel gross when you're sick. So writing about being sick will seem a lot easier.

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POV: You are Octavius and see Jedidiah.

(A bit nervous about posting this art, but I am trying to get over the pressure I put on myself to make my art look "perfect")

I hope you enjoy!

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Sometimes I forget the "power" we artists have. Like I realized that if I want more fan art for Night at the Museum (Jedtavius to be specific), I can just draw it. Like that so crazy to think about??! Anyway I have been working on a Jedtavius piece for a while now.

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I eventually want to write something fan-fiction related for sander sides. But I would like to know….

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Still writing more of the fanfic for Lazytown. I figured I would put some of the tropes/ideas I have so far written. Let me know what you think!

- Robbie x Sportacus is definitely the main focus, but I want them to develop a friendship first then feelings are realized, so a bit of a slow burn, but (hopefully) not unbearable.

- Robbie self reflects and realizes things don't feel the same as they used to. He isn't feeling passionate about what he does and thinks "What have I done with my life?"

- Sportacus is concerned when he thinks about how Robbie hasn't created any inventions to get him to leave or to get the tokens people to be more lazy lately. It has been a while since Sportacus had actually seen Robbie.

- Robbie ends up in the rain. Sportacus finds him and insists on helping him when he gets sick from being in the rain for too long.

- Both of them realize they have more in common than they originally thought.

- I definitely want to make it so Sportacus doesn't really see himself as this perfect person. We all have flaws and insecurities. I think it would make sense that even heroes would have some things they are insecure about or they put too much pressure on themselves.

- Mental Health would be a pretty important part of the fic. Combining mental health and physical health is something that I think will make it better than just focusing on physical health.

- Considering a bit of angst, but honestly don't want it to be too depressing.

Hopefully this was interesting, I am still working on ideas and I will keep updating when I can. :)

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I started writing a Lazytown Fanfic. Will this ever be seen by others? I am not sure. So far it's in that kind of where is this going phase m, but if I bold enough (keyword if) I might post on AO3. That would technically be my first fanfic work but might as well start with Lazytown.

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Falling into the Night at the Museum fandom again. Specifically Jedidiah x Octavius ship. I love their relationship so much. I have been trying to draw them non stop.

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I have this idea to paint these white sneakers to have a sportacus theme to it. I think it would be cool and a simple enough design for one of the first shoes I paint. Plus I think it would be fun to have shoes sportacus themed.