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I'm really thankful he's not the vice-leader of the RFA or something. I'd be really sad if he stopped Jaehee just out of spite.

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YESSS, THEY WOULD BE BESTIES FRIENDS WITHOUT DOUBTS. MY LOVERS!!!

GIRLFRIENDS!!!! GIRLFRIENDS I TELL YOU

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something something, twitter trend

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trend on twitter :P

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Eric: You have an impressive pain tolerance. MC: Thanks, it's the trauma.

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Three meals a day just for them

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some fun lil charts I did with RFA (they're genuinely so fun :333)

I love doing these and I might continue it soon lololol

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refreshment before back to work~

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MC: Being smart has never stopped me from being a complete fucking idiot.

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Damn, that was so cute I almost freaked out like him

"You DON'T UNDERSTAND!"

(Part 1)

The walls of the apartment shook with the sheer force of Saeyoung’s scream.

Vanderwood winced.

They had dealt with many things in their life—dangerous missions, undercover operations, criminals, explosions, Saeyoung—but this?

This was unbearable.

With an exasperated sigh, Vanderwood turned to face the source of the absolute chaos unfolding in front of them.

Saeyoung was rolling on the couch, hands clutching at his face as if he had just witnessed *the single greatest thing* to ever exist. His legs kicked at the air like an overstimulated toddler, his whole body vibrating with so much uncontained energy that the cushions threatened to betray him and send him tumbling onto the floor.

Vanderwood pinched the bridge of their nose.

"Seriously?" they deadpanned.

Saeyoung's head snapped up at the accusation.

His face was red, his eyes wild, his expression that of a man on the brink of absolute hysteria.

"You DON'T UNDERSTAND!" he shouted, voice cracking with sheer emotion.

Vanderwood stared.

And immediately regretted not leaving the moment they walked in.

Saeyoung sat up abruptly, leaning forward as if this was a life-or-death situation, as if he needed desperately to make Vanderwood see the truth.

"Vanderwood, listen. Listen to me."

Vanderwood really didn’t want to listen.

"Saeran is—" Saeyoung clutched his chest, as if just saying his name was enough to render him physically weak. "So. Damn. Cute."

Vanderwood blinked, unimpressed. "And?"

Saeyoung gasped.

Genuinely gasped.

"As if that’s not the most important thing in the universe right now?! As if this isn’t a crisis?!"

Vanderwood looked at him blankly.

Saeyoung, unfazed, launched himself off the couch, pacing the room with wild gestures.

"Do you even understand what I just witnessed?! Do you understand the magnitude of this moment?!"

"I’m gonna assume it’s not actually important."

"YOU’D BE WRONG!" Saeyoung whirled around dramatically. "SO WRONG!"

Vanderwood sighed.

They were not getting out of this conversation, were they?

"Fine," they muttered, arms crossed. "What happened?"

Saeyoung immediately clasped his hands together, a dreamy look overtaking his face.

"He looked at me, Vanderwood."

Vanderwood's brow twitched.

Saeyoung continued, completely oblivious to the irritation radiating from his unwilling audience.

"He looked up at me, all sleepy, with these soft, adorable green eyes, and his cheeks—oh my God, Vanderwood, his cheeks were PINK!"

Vanderwood groaned.

"You dragged me into this because your brother had a slightly different facial expression?!"

"Not just slightly different!" Saeyoung clutched his head as if the magnitude of it all was too much to bear. "He was BLUSHING!"

Vanderwood was seconds away from walking out of the apartment.

"So?"

"So?!" Saeyoung gaped at them, looking personally offended at their lack of enthusiasm. "DO YOU EVEN KNOW SAERAN?! HE DOESN’T BLUSH! That’s like—like seeing a unicorn! Or finding a cat that actually listens to you! Or—or discovering a second mint chocolate chip ice cream hidden in the freezer when you thought you finished the last one!"

Vanderwood just stared.

Saeyoung grabbed them by the shoulders, shaking them slightly.

"DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THIS MEANS?!"

"It means you have too much free time?"

"NO!" Saeyoung groaned, throwing his head back dramatically. "It means he’s finally opening up to me! It means he’s comfortable enough to show vulnerability! It means my baby brother loves me so much that he can't even hide it anymore!"

He spun away, clutching at his chest again, overwhelmed by his own emotions.

"Vanderwood," he breathed, voice trembling. "He even pulled me into his room and cuddled me!"

Vanderwood gave him a blank stare.

"So what you’re saying is… your brother likes you?"

"NO—" Saeyoung paused.

Then slowly blinked.

Then frowned.

Then blinked again.

"...Wait."

Vanderwood rubbed their temples.

"You’re telling me," they began, voice dangerously close to snapping, "that the whole reason for this ridiculous outburst is because your twin brother—who literally grew up with you, spent years fighting to be with you, and has nowhere else to go—actually likes you?"

Saeyoung opened his mouth.

Closed it.

Opened it again.

"...Yes?"

Vanderwood inhaled slowly.

Then exhaled through their nose.

Then turned immediately toward the door.

"Alright, I’m leaving."

"WAIT—"

"Nope."

"NO, NO, NO, DON’T GO! I NEED YOU TO UNDERSTAND!"

"I don’t care!"

"Vanderwood, please! You’re my only witness! I have to tell someone!"

"You have literally all of RFA for that."

"But you’re here right now!"

"Unfortunately!"

"Vanderwood, just listen—"

"Saeyoung, I swear to everything holy, if you try to tell me one more thing about your brother’s facial expressions, I will—"

"—HE LET ME HOLD HIM FOR A REALLY LONG TIME!"

Vanderwood slammed the door behind them.

Saeyoung blinked.

Stared.

Then slumped against the wall, pouting.

"Man…" he sighed, crossing his arms. "No appreciation for brotherly love…"

He flopped back onto the couch, staring at the ceiling.

A slow grin crept onto his face.

He covered it with his hands, kicking his legs giddily.

"Still…" he whispered to himself, cheeks warm. "He was so cute…"

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It's been a month (?) that I've been trying to do Bad Ending 3 of Ray's route and I ended up noticing some silly details that opened my eyes to some possibilities. When Saeran is "crowned" savior, Saeyoung has also been kidnapped by the agency he works for, so would there be any real chance of Rika getting him somehow and bringing him to Mint Eyes? Now that thought is bubbling in my head like soda bubbles.

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So I'm replaying Ray's After ending rn, and it got me thinking that what I adore so much about Rika as an antagonist is just how damn scary she can be. I always found those who cause harm with good intentions (at least in their point of view) much scarier than those who hurt you with pure intention on hurting you. I think the best example of it is this CG in particular:

Look at that. Such a loving, gentle expression on her face. Probably kissing his forehead. Because she loves him. Heck, without any context, this CG looks even sweet, if you think about it. And yet, all that is while Saeyoung is forcefully sedated on a powerful concoction of drugs even a trained agent like him can't do anything about (and Saeyoung WAS definitely trained to deal with this sort of thing, hence it's mentioned that this is a 'special' kind of drugs). He looks miserable. Bags under his eyes, his expression pained and troubled, even his hair is paler than usual. All that as a direct result of her actions. But she's utterly blind to it. What's scarier, is that she knowingly shuts off her understanding of what's really happening. She's not oblivious to it at all. She just chooses not to see it that way. Simply because she doesn't want to.

Rika is the type of antagonist that will cup your cheek into her warm hand with the most loving of smiles on her face, all while you are getting elixir poured down your throat. Even whispering to you that you're doing great, that the pain will soon pass, and that she can't wait to see you reach the happiness she knows you deserve. I won't be surprised if she even cried genuine tears of compassion during some ceremonies for her believers. All while being the sole reason behind their suffering.

And that's... God, that's terrifying to me. I love that about her.

Rika Kim, they could never make me hate you

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I wanted to use Tumblr again... My new obsession is purely Mystic Messenger with a little Duskwood.

I should find somewhere teaching how to customize Tumblr, my profile is so boring..

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After I read AFTG, this trilogy simply consumed my brain and took over my life, that's all I can think about.

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Seriously, Everbyte. WHERE ARE MOONVALE???? They haven't even released a single trailer, I'm not sure if they will release anything this year.