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HELLO LET’S TALK JACKIESHAUNA GROCERY STORE SCENE

this scene is so fucking insane for a lot of reasons, and there’s so much to say about it, but here are the main two things i took away from it:

A) not only does this dream version jackie feel so much more like real-jackie, but B) it’s also the first time we see shauna envision jackie as anything but what she’d been in life.

shauna’s hallucinations are based on memory. (visually, not so much auditorily. hallucination-jackie says a lot of things real-jackie never would.) her mind can’t conjure any image of jackie she hasn’t already seen.

shauna always sees jackie as she exists in her mind: wearing her uniform, wearing the clothes she died in; as her fourteen-year-old self.

but then she dreams of jackie in the grocery store, and it’s nothing shauna remembers. because jackie never got to be this.

she never got to go to college, to get space from shauna and come back to find her with a clear head on her shoulders, to dye her hair brown and experiment with her sense of self.

yet, shauna dreams of a world in which she did.

she dreams of a life where she’s still paying penance for all the things she’s done, but where jackie appears to have moved on, changed, and is thriving; all while shauna bags groceries, drowing in her own misery.

and the only thing that can snap shauna out of this monotony, out of this prison of her own making, is jackie.

(this then parallels with shauna seeing melissa’s “perfect” life and calling her out on living a lie. shauna likes to think of herself as self aware—even though she’s anything but—and this dream reminds the audience that shauna, to some degree, knows she’s living a lie. she knows she’s not allowed to have a normal life; she’s done too many horrible things.)

(that’s what’s happening in the adult timeline: shauna’s letting go of the lie and embracing the violent truth.)

of course, dream-jackie acknowledges that she’s dead, so it’s not a true fantasy come to life. i don’t think shauna will ever be able to imagine a world where jackie lived, no matter how much she tries, or how much she wants to.

shauna’s never been capable of seeing jackie differently than how she appeared in life. but this jackie comes to her, different as can be, but still jackie, more jackie than any other version.

which makes me think this was *actually* jackie, not a figment of shauna’s imagination. this was the real, true jackie, looking mournfully at shauna, wishing things could be different. but hey, they should’ve known better than to expect anything different, don’t you think?

in conclusion: jackie taylor, you will ALWAYS haunt the narrative <3

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Now that s3 Yellowjackets is out, I keep thinking abt your fic with Jackie & Shauna & her baby in that hospital post-rescue

I love the dynamics within the plot, like Lottie and Nat going with the baby to be looked at, Nat still being in charge, knowing everything about everybody

Also love that Shauna asked abt Javi

It took me a million days to answer this ask, but THANK YOU SO MUCHHH!!! I love that people still love this fic enough to send me comments like this! It means the world to me, you have no idea <3

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You should be able to rot in bed for 2, maybe 3 hours after waking up before it starts affecting what time it is. If I wake up at 8:30 and lie in bed for 2hr it should still be 8:30 when I get up

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I will die on the hill that they grew up as best friends in the same trailer park.

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Celebrity AU doodle... They got invited to do The Couples Quiz interview

inspired by this clip below the cut:

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This bag of cats that live rent-free in my head is really starting to piss me off 🤬🤬

A brand spanking new AU just dropped in my head, and now I need to verbalise it.

So hear me out...

Modern Stranger Things Arcane AU.

Instead of the events taking place in the 80s, it would take place in 2024 and 2025.

Instead of following Stranger Things step by step, it would be heavily inspired by Stranger Things.

And the storyline would be Powder, who is recently attending college, would get snatched by a Demogordden (I think that's how you spell it) and would be trapped in the Upside-down for an entire year because before she gets abducted her, Ekko, and her siblings all have a falling out and the last message they have from her is that she's choosing to distance herself from them and work on herself and that she'll be going full no contact and asks them to not get in contact with her until she's ready.

And then naturally, after leaving this message, she disappears off the face of the earth, but nobody looks for her because everyone is respecting her choices.

Until one of her professors, four months later (because Powder goes missing at the start of summer), get in contact with them, concerned by Powder's lack of attendance and them being unable to contact her.

Which then sends everyone spiralling because Powder was missing this entire time, and nobody was looking.

After a year of ongoing searching and their hope dwindling, Powder appears again, completely different and with magenta eyes instead of blue as well as with a young mute child (Isha) who refuses to be separated from her, and now going by Jinx.

I don't know why, but this idea intrigues me.

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Each cast member of The Golden Girls winning the Outstanding Lead Actress in Comedy Series Emmy three years in a row (1986-1988)

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doodles

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practice

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Bobby: I don't talk about feelings, Luke. I don't have any, I've never seen one. I'm a night-stalking, crime-fighting vigilante and a rock star guitarist. I don't feel anything emotionally except for rage. 24/7, 365, at a million percent. And if you think that there's something behind that, then you're crazy. Good night, Luke.

Luke: Bobby, it's morning.

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Silco told her “Don’t cry. You’re perfect.”

That was toxic positivity. That was locking her in place as this static ideal that could never grow. But she wasn’t perfect. She was a fucked up mess, and she knew she was a fucked up mess. But by saying that she’s already perfect Silco basically told her there’s no way to get better. How can you improve, be better, if you’re already perfect?

Vi told her “Maybe we can rewrite your story.”

Oh Vi. She tries so hard to connect with her sister and say the right thing but she just doesn’t quite get it. That’s essentially saying “you were evil before, I need you to be good now. I need you to be what I want.” Vi really tried her best and she wasn’t really conscious of it but she was always trying to mold Powder/Jinx into her vision, opposite but equal of Silco.

Ekko told her “No matter what happened in the past, it’s never too late to build something new.”

Jackpot. That was it. That was what she needed to hear. Because that doesn’t sit in judgement of what she’s done, that doesn’t condemn her mistakes or try to push her to conform to a particular vision, and it doesn’t lock her into some static ideal. It doesn’t even say that she has to change. It simply says that she doesn’t have to be completely, ontologically defined by her past. New growth is possible.

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COURTNEY EATON as LOTTIE MATTHEWS Season 3, Episode 7: "Croak"

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buzz buzz buzz 🂱

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Ok I made a fun one for the fun side of tumblr! You’re propositioned by this person at the bar for a beautiful night of love making

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coach ben out here running through every single thing he could say to make natalie kill him and she’s just like. thank you, moving on.

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she lives in my mind ok. i dont wanna talk about it

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IM CUT TF UP LMAO