pininginthegroves
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This hidden grove is a place for my thoughts, musings, journals, and otherwise personal writings to gather. It is also a place to explore, learn to cope with, and eventually heal from my potential NPD. Please do not bring hatred into this space.
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Most days, I’m happy
But I still miss you
I’m not brave enough to put in the work to bring you back into my life
But I miss you
I hope you’re doing well
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Sometimes Hozier comes on, and it gets a little harder to breathe for a moment.
Most days I think I’m at peace with the change,
That I’ve come to find a new place for myself amongst life’s ever-shifting sands.
But some days, I grieve a life that was mine for such a brief moment-
A candle in the wind, compared to the future before me, and the whole of the past left behind.
I miss the light you gave me
Learning how to shine on my own feels hollow without you
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You don't understand, you should never know, how easy you are to need.
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I’m boiling inside
I want to light myself aflame again
But all it will do
Is estrange me from you
So I hope that you hear me when I say
I’m sorry
I want to do better
But I have so little understanding of what that means
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Fuck, man, I can’t make up my mind
They’re here, and I’m home, but it feels like all the windows are open
I’m so cold
And I don’t know how to find the warmth again
Sometimes I wish you hadn’t called, that night
I was so close
And you pulled me right back into life’s harsh light
I don’t know how to look at you without seeing what I’ve lost
I don’t know how to say goodbye
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I am going to be. So normal about this
#I swear to god I keep getting hot flashes about it#I keep falling into the ‘he knows you’re a bad person now’ spirals#they all do#and they should but god it’s so terrifying#that everyone knows that I’m manipulative now#and it doesn’t matter that I don’t want to be because I am#and it doesn’t matter that I don’t want to hurt people because I do#I’m *so* fucking scared to be alone#but the more time I spend with myself#the more I realize I don’t think I should be around anybody else#at least not until I can figure out how to get my act together#and I don’t even know if that’s possible but I have to believe that it is#otherwise I’m stuck like this forever#and I don’t want this#questioning npd#potential npd#npd safe
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The fact that the answer to subconsciously paying way too much attention to yourself is to…consciously pay more attention to yourself feels like the most sus bullshit ever. This shit feels like a trap
#mental health#emotion journaling#questioning npd#potential npd#npd safe#kinda shitpost#but also kinda not
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Of course you lost yourself in me.
How could you not?
I lost myself in me.
The vortex in my chest is vast and dark.
You called me sunshine,
But I was a supernova.
And we’re all left in the darkness again.
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@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks
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It’s what I do, [name]. I build mansions with my bare hands for the people I love to spend our futures together in. And one morning, I’ll wake up to find I’m sleeping on a park bench, my keys missing, and someone else sleeping on my side of the bed.
I just let you both in, this time. It’s easier. And it means I get to spend more time with you both
#mental health#emotion journaling#posts that aged…both well and poorly at the same time#abandonment issues#end of relationship#grief
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My skin feels like it’s peeling from my bones
And my chest feels hollow in a way that I have never experienced before
I’m just
Lost
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What the fuck am I supposed to do
Bruce brought his schedule home today to plan the move
He’s asking me about final details and I can’t breathe
Fuck
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