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Dean and Cas

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@curtwen-week day 3! The prompt was scars and I had an absolute blast drawing this!

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"You pulled me from the river. Why?" "I don't know." "Yes, you do."

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Stages of Decomposition, Embroidery by calicoranger

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nobody talk to me, I don't believe I was kinda right…will update later with further thoughts

I have a silly and indulgent Very Important People fan theory:

Very Important People!Vic Michaelis is extremely insecure and lonely as shown by their dialogue throughout many of the currently released episodes. They seem down on their luck and frustrated by their lot in life especially in their career and their personal connections. They seem like the perfect character to go through a classic “self growth through a journey of meeting crazy characters” plot. 

Each of the characters seem like out of this world caricatures of people they could meet out in the world, and some (like Denzel and Vic’s Grandma), seem like representations of those in her actual life (I also have a fun theory that the dolls were her childhood dolls). Many of the characters themselves point out that Vic seems to be down on their luck and unhappy, and in some way preventing themselves from happiness. Off the top of my head, Vic has referred to their father being murdered, a divorce from their husband, and struggling to get a “real reporting career.” 

If I had to construct a story of how they got to this point I would say the death of their father pushed VIP!Vic into grief induced isolation and loneliness, which inhibited their personal connections as they were stuck in survival mode. The murder of their father inspired them to become a reporter, as an attempt to help other victims of violent crime, but they are struggling to find a foothold. Their unbridled grief and obsession with retribution for their father has put a strain on their marriage and their partner asks for a divorce. Maybe in their exasperation and the chaos of life they are spurred to follow a lead they have no business or jurisdiction to follow and they end up injured. It is in this injury they are experiencing this hallucinogenic state.

The VIP set itself feels very cultivated and its “old-fashioned” eclectic style gives it a vibe of a surreal manufactured reality. Each episode starts with Vic idly messing with some aspect of the set, before realizing the camera is on and putting on the reporter mask. In my memory, none of the people “on set” ever say anything, besides Vic and the interviewee, even when Vic audibly asks them questions. Additionally the cutting off to infomercials gives an uncanny feeling of parody, someone concocting the stereotypical formula of a show. Finally, there are the moments where there is an abrupt cut to a transition card from a more intense scene, almost to redirect the emotional plot. Overall, it has given me a kinda WandaVision vibe of a dreamlike state manufactured in VIP!Vics head in order to address their loneliness and disillusionment with life.

The closing question especially points towards this specific idea of VIP!Vic being stuck in this fugue state looking for answers: “What is the meaning of life?” This is both impactful if we go with the idea she is injured and experiencing this all in an unconscious state (almost "deciding" whether to wake up) as well as just in them searching for the next direction to go in their frozen life. What is the meaning of life amidst grief, loneliness, fear, and unfair circumstances? How can Vic find meaning? In creating this dreamlike fabrication, VIP!Vic is trying to recover and find a version of themselves who can live a more fulfilling life as they let go of the past which has held them back. “Remember to always be yourself, unless you'd rather be somone else” 

TLDR: Vic Michalis is having some sort of surreal, unconscious dream where crazy characters are attempting to help them heal from their father's death, their fucked up social situations, and to find meaning and happiness in their life. Through the interviewees eccentricities they teach Vic their personal meanings of life so Vic can find their own.

(This is all just to be silly, I know a lot of it is just stylistic choices of the show and the nature of the type of show it is, but I just love the show a lot and this little theory came to me)

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the last stand

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Saint Applebees, champion of Cassandra, and Sir Applebees, Knight of Cassandra.

(please pick this future Bucky, it's the one with better friends and a sick mullet)

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animals

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There is something so upsetting to me about one of the first crushes Adaine had like never liking her?? The idea of Oisin pretending to miss shots to lead her on is literally so sinister. Like it makes me feels so icky!! How upsetting that would be as a teenager.

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There is something so upsetting to me about one of the first crushes Adaine had like never liking her?? The idea of Oisin pretending to miss shots to lead her on is literally so sinister. Like it makes me feels so icky!! How upsetting that would be as a teenager.

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I want the lore of Sandra Lynn and what exactly happened with Bobby/Pamela Dawn. Like I wanted that conversation between her and Fig and I don't know if we'll get that now with it not happening this episode with only a few episodes left?

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spiral

Am I dying? Am I dead? Maybe I have finally stumbled my way into something truly inconceivable to you. I am always tripping over roots. I am always hurling towards the dark ground. But I have learned how to catch myself. I have learned how to back track. I have learned how to scrape the dirt off my knees. I have learned to straighten up, to grin, to say no it's fine I got it. I have learned to learn to use the cedar tree for support. I have learned to change topics just at the minute you begin to lose interest, the moment you get uncomfortable. Do you want me to be honest? Look inside yourself, are you sure you want me to be honest?  Come on now, look at me, do you want me to be fucking honest? Even if it’s terrible. Even if it is horrible. Even if you can’t fucking stomach it? Even if you choke on it so long your lungs bleed? Now you’re drowning in it. Now you’re drowning in blood. And maybe it’s my blood or maybe it’s your blood or maybe it doesnt fucking matter whose blood it is because someone’s bleeding and maybe its time to slow down for a motherfucking second and figure out whose fucking blood it is so we can maybe treat the fucking wound or something jesus fucking christ. Maybe at this point you get bored. Right, maybe you’re bored now. Maybe anger was the right performance for the wrong audience. So maybe I will change the subject. I try a different act. How about pity? I bet you're reading this and going “oh, what a pity.” Or “god this is shameful.” I am surrounded by the consequences of what my words do. If I tell you the truth, if I sit here and truly tell you the truth, can you handle it? Can you hear me and keep your view of me intact. Can you hear me and not be harrowed? I swear there is a world where I am better. I swear there is a world in which I figure it out, where I stop waxing poetic about terrible things. Goodness slips away from me, I can never grasp it. It’s embarrassing.  It's humiliating. I don’t get how you go on loving me. How do you keep your faith? When does your devotion shatter? When are you free? When am I free? Where will the spiral end?

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'passion', robert wun | spring 2024

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i love you to the moon & by Chen Chen

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happy with his little feminine house

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FABIAN DON’T DO THAT. THAT’S SCARY.