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I don't know what love should be like. I know that being obsessed and revolving so much of my life around them isn't normal but, then why do I feel the need to do it?

I've never been picked before, no ones ever wanted me before and now that they even slightly smile at me I feel like I have to work harder to earn their love.

I just want a kiss, a hug, maybe even just a smile would makee feel better. I want love from someone, not the same way my family or friends love me, I want love in a way that I could cry in their arms bleeding without feeling disgusting.

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sh culture is wanting to be called cutspo or scarspo

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I got to leave school early cause my mama picked me up. I called her to pick me up cause when I ate some lunch food I actually started feeling sick, and I couldn't stop crying. I had to lie a bit so she wouldn't know I didn't wanna eat on purpose but it's went well.👌

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All my other friends have people they've know for basically forever, while I've never had a best friend in my life. Ever friendship I have, I will never even be close to being a main friend. I just wanna be the friend they always wanna talk to and go to school just to see😞I wanna be someone's main friend but I've never had a person who likes me that much or even at all.

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I hate when I see food, it's like the world is trying to make me fatter when I'm trying my best to become the way I wanna be😞

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Bro, tell me why I'll cvt a basically just have a scratch but my dramatic a$$ leg just leaks out a gallon of blood 💀I'm exaggerating obviously but still, my leg is low key a pu$$y

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Me after any minor inconvenience

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Opening Tumblr in public is legit a battlefield, like why is the first picture I see a mfs arm basically torn off but in private I see cat pictures

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"I'm gonna report you to the counselor because I care about you" is code for "I'm gonna report you to people that won't actually help you and only call your parents so they'll think about you like that for the rest of your life"

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The only meal I ate today was dinner and I have gym tomorrow so I'm probably gonna end up doing a cvt sesh..... I AM ON THAT GRIND

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"Eat"

....no! 💜

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I did a sesh in the bathroom today.The reason for the season:I have this friend who literally so annoying. She never keeps my business a secret, she tells stuff out loud when she knows I don't like people starring at me, she never takes me seriously when I tell her not to do something cause it makes me uncomfortable and if I do she acts all sad so I end up feeling bad even though I should be able to be comfortable with my friends

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I'm at lunch right now lol. We're not allowed to use our phones but whateva I just wanna cvt cause I can... Lol

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The urge to send certain ppl pictures of my cvts so they can care for once

(I just found out bout this photo edit thing on tumblr so I made the lil dude under the water:3)

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Sh culture is being tired and not having the energy to cut but still really wanting to so you do it and end up feeling like you didn't even cut deep enough and just decide to stop for the night because you're too tired to make more cuts and then clean up everything.

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"I'm so bad at cutting for my age :(" people your age don't usually cut themselves actually

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Do y'all ever do stuff that's normal on $#blur but weird irl? Like I bring Bandages to school and I accidentally say terms like styro while my friends are like "bro, you good? 🤨" and I just have to make excuses so I don't get my a$$ reported 💀..