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where there is smoke.... || jenna / open

Does anyone else smell that?  What is it..... is that smoke?

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Not so much as everybody around here seems to think.  I might not be all sold my soul to hell, but my life -- lives -- haven't exactly been a walk in the park and stopping to smell the damn roses.  

And I'm really.... really, not in the mood to deal with this crap, okay?  I've got a life, my life back, and the only plan or picture I care about is the one in my head, and it sure as hell -- no pun intended -- doesn't have you in it.  

may flowers || moriarty / jenna

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Yeah, well.  It's not exactly a competition, you know.  And... 

Besides, I have the added benefit of dying in my repertoire to give me all these extra layers and pretense of wisdom.  I'd say you should try it sometime, but it really isn't all it's cracked up to be.

So.  Cheers.

you did what to who? || damon / jenna

You’re awful forgiving for a baby vamp… A great deal more than I was…

Good for you.

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Really.  So now I've warranted a psychopathic, and demonic stalker of my very own, is it?  Well, that's a personal first.

What, exactly, is it about me that makes you so very interested in my comings and goings?  Should I be honored, or simply annoyed -- because I'll be honest, I'm leaning towards the latter.

may flowers || moriarty / jenna

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He's fine, Elena, he's just worried about you.  God, we all are.  He knows, he's just glad -- glad that you're here.  Losing ... everyone, it -- it's been hard on him but he's, he's strong, and god knows he loves you.

You're you, sweetheart, just as much as I am me.  We change, sure, who goes through the things we have and doesn't.... God, it wasn't even dying that was the hardest.  It was knowing... knowing that I couldn't save you, that I couldn't protect you --- and then just... being trapped, in that ... that never ending white, and watching you and .... not being able to help you, not being able to tell you all the things that I never had the chance to.  And then losing you, all over again.... 

God, of course we aren't the same, Elena.  I can't.... imagine, what it's been like for you, all this time, alone -- I couldn't have made it, I couldn't have survived without Damon, and Jeremy.  You are ... you are so strong, you always have been.  You are just, you are so much like your mother. 

A ROUGH NIGHT || ELENA & JENNA

Jer’s okay? Does he know.. did Ric tell him how I’m even here? What is going to do? I can’t even be around him right now. That’s why I haven’t been here at all. 

I’m not me though. The old me died in the water that night, I don’t know what I am anymore. 

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Elena, and Jeremy, they were innocents in this -- in all of this.  They didn't know a damn thing about the supernatural or about what their ancestors may have done.  Your brother did this, tore about their world for his own selfish devices.  

And if you want to blame anyone for the losses you've suffered you should take into consideration just who it was that set those wheels in motion.  

You know what, I don't want to hear this.  Not from you.  Just do me a favor and stay clear of what family I've got left and I'll return the favor.

long time coming || bekah / jenna

No they were all just victims of everything, like hell they were. Your family has been around just as long as I have, you just can’t make claims to your ancestors.

Last time I checked, we were here first Jenna. You are the ones who couldn’t keep your noses out of the supernatural, you’re the ones who decided it would be clever to try and take on beings that you had no chance against. I do not care for your comfort Jenna, nor your family’s. Let’s be honest we’re both clinging on to a fantasy when it comes to the idea of a family. I will never leave this town whilst my family is here, this is my home and you’d do well to remember that. Your family has torn mine apart but shockingly yours all keep coming back to life, mine does not.

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The woman that had replied to Jenna's summary interruption was pretty -- beautiful, really, Jenna noted in those first few seconds as they exchanged glances.  Beautiful enough that once upon a time the strawberry blonde might have had cause to feel envy, but such things seemed... small and petty now, with everything that her world encompassed.  It was something of a relief, she realized, in that moment, to simply be able to acknowledge the fact of the woman's appearance and move on.  It brought another slightly wider, slightly more genuine smile to her lips that lingered as the blonde spoke in return.  "Good," Jenna reflected, genuinely.  "I'm...."  Her voice fell quiet for a few seconds, her brows furrowing together as she took the time to evaluate her reply. "I'm good, actually," she spoke, a hint of mingled amusement and almost surprise coating her words.  "I'm sorry for interrupting, it just seemed a day for conversation, I guess."

solitary seance || jenna / iofiel

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I don't know -- the last one I had drinks with was a fair bit more sociable than you. Definitely better looking, too, but then, what can you do, meatsuits and all.

I've got places to be so, unless you've actually got a point to any of your dry wit and scathing commentary....

may flowers || moriarty / jenna

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"Don't worry about it, really, Caroline," Jenna insisted as she shrugged away any residual tension, shaking her head and shooing the young woman into the house more fully. It was good to see people around, even if it wasn't the full house she had become accustomed to during her brief tenure as guardian of Jeremy and Elena. "And good, cause otherwise I'll end up ordering enough to feed an army and eat it all myself," she spoke ruefully.

"I'll order a little bit of everything, and we'll go from there, yeah?" She suggested, picking up the home phone and scanning through the drawer that held the takeout menus to find the one in question. "God, I don't een know where to start," the strawberry blonde admitted. "I was thinking the Walking Dead, but after last month, I just don't know, it seems... improper somehow -- or is that just me?"

silver linings || jenna / caroline

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But you know the difference, Rebekah?

My family didn't start this war.

Why the hell are you still here? You, your brothers. Haven't you caused enough trouble in this place? Why can't you just leave us in peace? Leave us to pick up the pieces of what you've left us with and go.  That's the greatest comfort me and mine could have.

long time coming || bekah / jenna

You make yourself out to be this great puzzle, some sort of mysterious being, when you really are not that complicated to work out i’m sure of it. Well they can be when it isn’t actually the siblings arguing. When a complete and irrelevant person tries to use said rivalry as an advantage, then it makes sense to be specific, otherwise you look foolish.

Now you see, yes I did do just that, but suppose I hadn’t and my brother had died instead, pretty sure you wouldn’t see me calling you out or the person responsible and saying that nobody wants them…because as a matter of fact that would be someone rather close to you wouldn’t it? Or maybe those responsible for the death of my other siblings? I’ve lost family in this battle too, so don’t you think for a minute that I haven’t had to grow up and deal with the pain, maybe you should do the same and set an example for those who might look to you for comfort.

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He was -- he had to be here to let you in, Ric took him out, just - just for a little while, just until you... It's okay, Elena.  He's just glad you're here, that you're safe.  He's missed you so much.... 

We all have.  

And yeah.  It's me.  And you're you, and we're here, for better or worse, together.  Despite all the odds.  

A ROUGH NIGHT || ELENA & JENNA

…I saw Ric. He- he wanted me to come home, but I can’t. I can’t be home because.. Jer, god.. he’s not.. he can’t be here right now. Why did you bring me here? I can’t be here… I’ll-

My bike? It-..And then that rainstorm came a few days after and I um.. I forgot to take in in the garage and I was so mad that I ruined all the streamers.

..You’re.. you. It is you.

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Can't forget about those.

Yeah.  I might have the right to but... hell, Damon.  I'm going to be at this for -- hopefully -- a really long time.  I don't really want to get angry, or stay angry, or whatever, over something that happened a lifetime ago that I never even knew about until now so... And, the asshole really did kinda have it coming.  

Not that I'm advocating murder of the annoying. 

And I know.  And I know what you did, what you tried to do -- what Stefan tried to do, all of you, you did everything you could to save me, to save Ric.  Those are things I'd rather remember a hundred years from now.  

you did what to who? || damon / jenna

Oh yeah, those.

Urgh, God, no, please don’t apologise - you have every right to be angry, regardless of how things may have gone down. It’s easy to pretend sometimes, but I wouldn’t let yourself forget… And I will continue to cross those lines so you don’t have to. You didn’t want this, I didn’t want this for you… Or Ric…

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I suspect there's plenty of things about me that you can't even begin to guess.  And I don't think the specifics are much the point of the epitome of sibling rivalry, hm?  

You killed someone that was as close to a daughter as I could have imagined, as I ever will have had, and you want to call my anger petty?  For someone who's as old as they get, Bekah, you seriously need to grow up.

long time coming || bekah / jenna

So you do read beyond gossip magazines, I wouldn’t have pegged you for a greek literature type.

I suppose you think you’re all high and mighty now that you’ve returned, but I doubt you could stomach some of the things that I have seen over the years. Thank you I’ll take that as a compliment, at least I’m not boring. Why I stick around is none of your concern, all you should be worried about is watching your back and those of your family’s whilst I am here. It also wasn’t a stake darling, get your facts right before you try and insult me with my own brother.

Is that so? Well then I guess I should just go and cry in a corner because nobody wants me……honestly you are all so petty around here.

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I'm sure you do.  You seem the type to fit the Narcissus role quite well.  

And you might be surprised as to what it is that this sweetheart can stomach.  You know, you're a real piece of work.  Why you stick around this place is beyond me.  Near everybody wants a piece of you to themselves, and not in the warm and fuzzy way, and your own brother has put a stake through your heart than deal with you ... how many times now?

When are you going to get the hint? You're not wanted, Rebekah.

long time coming || bekah / jenna

I do look in the mirror, quite often actually and a smile at the girl who looks back. I actually don’t keep count, I’m not that full of regret unlike some who like to keep record of every kill. Not to mention do you really want to know those numbers, I mean can you stomach those numbers?

I don’t drain a person every day, and not mention it gets a little messy trying to find a place to bury or burn all the bodies. Also I have been around for a thousand years but not entirely awake for all of them.

Not sure really, maybe we should go and ask him, or better yet why don’t I go and ask him after I rip your heart out of your chest? Sweetheart.

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Must be those devilish good looks of yours.

Listen, Damon I'm -- I'm sorry for charging in here all guns blazing I just... It's just easier lately for me to forget, you know.  What we are.  What we do.  I've just been... lucky, so far.  There's lines I haven't had to cross yet and that's something I owe to you so.  I'm sorry. 

you did what to who? || damon / jenna

Or old enough to not care - you decide.

Oh, you did, huh? Why in the hell are you still tolerating me then?

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Mmm.  Old enough to know better?

Obviously, excluding Ric.  I wizened up a little in my adult years, I guess, or something like that, right?

you did what to who? || damon / jenna

Gee, thanks… Friendly reminder: I’m not that old. I’m just roughly… A century and a half older than you.

You take that back right now - I know Ric can be a dick sometimes, but he’s not a scumbag.

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Elena... God, you have no idea how long it took me to believe it myself, when it was just me, and then Ric and when he said you --- you were here... 

It's me, sweetheart.  It's really, honestly me.  I -- When you were seven, your mom got you that little pink bike for your birthday you cried because it was a little girl's bike and you didn't want a girl's bike, you wanted a pirate bike.  Do you remember?  And we wrapped it up in little black streamers and we put cards in the spokes so it would make noises and... and we hung pennies from the handlebars to look like gold coins.  Remember?

A ROUGH NIGHT || ELENA & JENNA

N-no..no.

It’s hard to believe because it’s not real. You’re not here.. Ric’s not here.. nobody is.. I just.. It’s all some kind of dream and I’m no-

I can’t look at you because you’re not here. You’re not real. S-someone’s just screwing with my head.