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I’m thinking about travelling again. I’m thinking about getting my adrenaline going. About jumping out of planes and jumping off of cliffs. I need that excitement back. That rush. Because god I crave it, like some sort of sex drive for life. 

I’m nearly finished my first semester in college. Doing a degree that does interest me but doesn’t excite me. It doesn’t give me the rush I know it should. I look around me and see people with the same problem, the only difference is I’m aware of it. 

I’ve always had this dream of being part of a goverment body one day. Always had a huge interest in politics and (I know this sounds cliche) but making a difference. It’s too bad that the process of getting there is time consuming and exhausting. I understand that hard work is required for such an outcome. I just know that I could be using my time a lot more efficently and this point in time in my life. 

I’ve also come to realise that nothing in this life is handed to you in a plate. You got to go out there and make it happen, and no body  can do it for you. 

Hopefully I’ll put my plans into action and a big change is going to happen very soon. 

Peace & Love Brothers and Sisters 

X 

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I have never left the country without the watchful eye of my parents. This was my first time away from home for four weeks.One month. On the other side of the world. Thailand. Even typing the very word sends shivers down my spine of sheer excitement and warms my heart with love and admiration. And that may seem like an exaggeration but I can assure you that it’s not. 

My boyfriend and I journeyed to five places in total whilst in Thailand. Bangkok, Chang Mai, Koh Samui, Koh Tao and Krabi. Each and every place so very special in their own way. I couldn’t possibly single out just one, because there were no comparisons, each place so unique to the other, and the most  unforgettable memories in all five. 

In Thailand, we ate in sky-bars from unbelievable heights overlooking crazy landscapes of monstrosities of buildings. We rid tuk-tuk’s  and bike taxi’s that brought us close to death on several occasions. We trained with professional fighters whilst going to many Muay-Thai classes and meeting the most fascinating and passionate souls. We visited historical temples that made me speechless with how beautiful the architecture was. We walked many streets of craziness, with stalls selling anything you could possibly wish for. We got lost in shopping malls that were seven stories high. We ate lots of  food such as Pad Thai, Mango sticky Rice, Chicken-cashew-nut and bread, cheeses, pizza, pasta and much, much more. We also ate the most incredible desserts, food that we have never seen before or even heard of that tasted better than good. We visited parks - such as Lumpini, and saw the most incredible wildlife. We took a boat ride and saw both the poverty and rich of Thailand, living side by side. We went to see a Muay Thai fight and all the excitement it entailed. We saw the most incredible 360 degree skyline. We had amazing massages by truly gifted women. We saw the most magical waterfalls. We fed rescued elephants. We stayed in the most beautiful hotels. We fell in love with the world whilst watching sunsets that took your breath away. We went to see lady-boy shows. We had the most delicious breakfasts (Coffee Club). We went to a Ping-Pong show. We went to impressive gyms. We Paddle-boarded for the first time. We drank from coco-nuts. We had an incredible encounter with a very special woman whilst doing a cooking-class. We snorkeled in emerald oceans.  We saw incredible scenes from view-points all around Thailand. We had many conversations with Thai taxi drivers.

One of the most special parts of Thailand was the souls we met along the way. Which consisted of Murray McLaughlin, a 60 something year old that had been travelling and still is for the last 39 years of his life, he told us a lot and taught us a lot, we had an amazingthree hour conversation about life, religion, sexuality, existence, politics and so on. We hope to meet him again someday, I don’t don’t doubt that our paths will cross again.                                                    

We met a Jew by the name of Erin next, we met him whilst on the elephant trip, he was a lawyer from New York, still rather young, he told us a little about himself and met up with us on two occasions. He was somewhat vegan but still had a thirst for a steak and a red wine when at home. He was an interesting character to our story to say the least. 

On our first day in Chang Mai we met a fascinating young woman by the name of Orathai. She was our taxi driver, she treated us like we were her kids, playing 70s music and singing along to Ed Sheeran. Her energy was contagious and her soul renewed my faith in humanity for a little while. She took us to hidden temples. I miss her even now. 

We met a young man by the name of Jacob Woodcock in Koh Tao. He had just finished his high-school part of the military and was now moving on to the Academy to become a fighter pilot at theyoung age of 22. We met him on the ferry and kept in touch. He was intrigued by us, as we were with him. We had deep conversations about life over great food and drink, we even took him to a lady-boy show, we met him a couple of times, even watched the world-cup together. I think it’s  true to say that we made a friend for life and even made arrangements to see each other in the near future. 

We then met a very special little lady by the name of Aye. She was our teacher during the cooking course. She took us into her home, just the two of us and taught us passionately and lovingly. She had a smile that could light up the room and a inspiring attitude towards both food and life. It was an unforgettable experience and she was an unforgettable person. 

Last but not least, the Muay Thai crew. The people we met in Muay Thai  are a dying breed. They are people with such passion, respect, integrity and discipline that it is almost too good to be true. I have never in my life come across people which such self-determination and gratitude towards their sport and life itself. Truly inspiring people - bursting with various personalities. They didn’t have much, they didn’t need much -  but still were smiling so brightly. Probably the most genuine, real, authentic people I have ever met. Again, training by them and along side them, will forever be an incredible experience that I, we, will never forget. 

My heart fully belongs to the country that is Thailand. 

PeAce & LOve  

     ~ Ailbhe 

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My Euphoria. P1

I’m looking out the window, I’m sitting at my  desk. 

The clouds are painting the most beautiful picture across the sky. 

Maybe Monet was God. 

 The sun is a strong orange colour. 

Slowly setting.

 The only thing lighting up the scene. 

The only true light in the world, except the stars of course. 

To the left of it I see a small hill, probably gigantic up close.

 Looks like its on the edge of the world - from where I’m sitting. 

I’ve suddenly, uninentionally, come to the realisation  that this may be my chair, my room, my house.

 But this is not my home.

 I don’t feel a sense of belonging here. 

I am grateful for my surroundings, my privilages. 

The only nest I’ve ever known, since the day I was born. 

But I don’t believe any one person should stay in the same place, especially if they are unhappy here. 

The people around me, feel like aliens. 

I am so unable to communicate with them - even on the most basic of levels. 

No awareness of freedom, they don’t even want for it. 

They don’t even want to understand what it is. 

There is nothing wrong with scratching the surface and not venturing any further.

 I just know, that scratching the surface is not enough for me.

 And maybe that’s greedy, to want for a greater freedom.

 But I do not see freedom as a privilage, I see freedom as a neccessity. 

Maybe I will never find my home.

 Maybe it doesn’t exist.

 But It can’t hurt to try searching for it, right? 

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Yes, they are tan lines

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Slow and Steady Wins the Race.

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Strength over Aesthetic

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January Blues 🤖

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I dont know. I think I might be loosing myself. But then again that would mean that once I was found. I don’t think so. I love the world. I refuse to be sad. I refuse for anything to have that power over me. My power is mine and I would be rather stupid to give it away to anything or anyone dont you think? I love this world,I love flowers, and the mere smell of nature  and all it has to offer. I love brown skin and arabic writing. I love different countries and different cultures. I love airports I dont why. I love intelligent conversations about life and existence. I love love. I am a hopeless romantic. I 

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 i love you and i mean it even though you have never believed me. i want to see you everyday and wake up and fall asleep to the sound of your voice and the taste of your lips. i want to make you breakfast and take long showers with you. i want to kiss you in front of strangers so everyone knows that you are mine and that i am yours. how did this happen. what did i do? How did i get this lucky to find someone so beautiful so inspiring so incredible.