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I don't know how to tell you whats on my mind without sounding crazy....

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Stop shaming people for doing what makes them happy if it doesn't cause you any harm.

Fall in love with the moon every night, listen to an overrated song on repeat, watch that one average movie with your favourite actor in it and then watch everything else that involves that actor, be obsessed with shitty art, take photos of the sky until your gallery is full, follow the trend everyone else is following, it will be different for you because you are a different person with different experiences and tastes and secrets and pains, follow that famous youtuber, love that stupid new tiktok trend, read cliché fanfictions and love those "for children" movies, play foreign music, get that hairstyle, start a meme page, put an overly used quote as your status, believe in magic, celebrate little victories that only you know about, don't let them shame you into not living your life. Fuck them.

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When twenty one pilots said, "homie just sued me".

When twenty one pilots said, "Keep your bliss. There's nothing wrong with this." and when twenty one pilots said, "Self-sabotage is a sweet romance." and when they said, "Keep your sunny days. Leave us in the rain." and when they said, "You shed your modesty."

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When Lorde said, "I thought I was a genius, but now I'm twenty-two." and when Lorde said, "I'm tryna get well from the inside." and when she said, "We had no idea the dreams we had were far too big." and when she said, "'Cause we are all broken and sad."

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When twenty one pilots said,

"Like a little splinter buried in your skin

Someone else can carve it out, but when you've got the pin

It hurts a little less and you can even push it further in

When your body's screamin' out, trust your mind's listenin'"

and when they wrote,

"I don't want to go on like this

At least let me clean my room

I don't want to leave like this

'Cause the last thing I want to do is

Make my people make decisions

Wondering what to do, oh

Should they keep it on display

Or redecorate?"

and when they sang,

"Ain't no sunny skies, 'til you finally realize

That everybody relies on synthetic highs

They find someone to prescribe

Keep your bliss

There's nothing wrong with this

We just wanna feel it all

Keep your pills, save your breath

And don't ever forget "

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When twenty one pilots said, "Keep your bliss. There's nothing wrong with this." and when twenty one pilots said, "Self-sabotage is a sweet romance." and when they said, "Keep your sunny days. Leave us in the rain." and when they said, "You shed your modesty."

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"I am falling to the floor crying"

joy by bastille // hope gangloff // richard siken // good grief by bastille // ruprecht von kaufmann // ruprecht von kaufmann // sylvia plath // get home by bastille

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And when Sylvia Plath described the essence of society by saying, '... because he thought all sickness was the sickness of the will.' and when she said 'she wants...to be everything' and when she wrote, 'What did I think was wrong? That made it sound as if nothing was really wrong, I only thought it was wrong.' and 'You'll never get anywhere like that...'

When Sylvia Plath wrote, 'I was supposed to be having the time of my life.' and when Sylvia Plath wrote, '... but here I was, sitting back and letting it run through my fingers like so much water.' and when she wrote, '... I wondered why I couldn't go the whole way doing what I should any more. This made me sad and tired. Then I wondered why I couldn't go the whole way doing what I shouldn't,... and this made me even sadder and more tired.' and when she wrote, 'what did I do but balk and balk like a dull cart horse?'

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When Sylvia Plath wrote, 'I was supposed to be having the time of my life.' and when Sylvia Plath wrote, '... but here I was, sitting back and letting it run through my fingers like so much water.' and when she wrote, '... I wondered why I couldn't go the whole way doing what I should any more. This made me sad and tired. Then I wondered why I couldn't go the whole way doing what I shouldn't,... and this made me even sadder and more tired.' and when she wrote, 'what did I do but balk and balk like a dull cart horse?'

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I'm glad I got to experience the experiences that I experienced. They left scars and heartaches behind but I am who I am because of it. All of the colours added to my life that is indeed a masterpiece. Pure flesh-tearing art. I suffer for the beauty. Art indeed.

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I spent the whole day today scrolling through social media and the general me would find this extremely unproductive and a waste of time, the current me is somehow feeling at peace. It was after a long time that I felt so good. I laughed out out a couple of times. I felt sane and understood by people out there who think like me. I spent today scrolling through memes and found peace.

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*sneakily shares a glance with the moon, fleabag style, as if we share a secret*

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I wish I could write down everything.

I mean literally EVERYTHING.

Every little overwhelming feeling and every memory and every thought. I wish I could find the perfect words to describe that one person who tears your heart apart but in a good way.

I wish I could sum up the blood-curdling feeling that the passage and transience of time brings me. I wish I could capture it all just like I see it through my so very tired eyes. I wish I could stop. I wish I could go on forever.

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https://youtu.be/5Yyqr1ERhJ4

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PUTIN DID WHAT

I JUST WOKE UP FROM A FLU AND DESTIEL IS CANON?

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I JUST WOKE UP FROM A FLU AND DESTIEL IS CANON?

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