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Unsaid - Teaser

Getou Suguru x Reader

A/N:// i just wanted to test out an angst prompt I had in my head and wanted to see if you guys have interest in it! I am currently working on Pretend as well but I'm not happy with the writing already and the trajectory of the story so I will be rewriting the story! Tags: Angst, unrequited love, best friend to ?, drabble

“I missed you for a while but then I started to feel different.” The way he spoke to you was gentle and cruel as sweet nothings. He leans back against the brick wall, holding onto your drink for you as you hold an unlit cigarette. Your body unintentionally leans into his warmth, a habit you always had with him. You always searched for his warmth and he always gave it to you with open arms. 

“Different?” You asked softly. You two were in your own world, separate from the night life around. You know not to get your hopes up, you learnt your lesson with that and even learnt it from the man himself. But you couldn’t help it, you’ve been cursed with a romantic heart. You begged your heart not to hope, it’ll crush you, it’ll break you in a way that you couldn’t begin to put back. But your heart did as it pleased, evident in the way you fell in love with your best friend.

“I missed you… then I hated you. We can’t go back to how we used to be and the person I blamed was you.” Silence lingered in the air. Just you and him standing in each other’s presence, was it as friends or as strangers? You felt his eyes on you again as you lit your cigarette. You let the smoke slowly pour out of your mouth, hoping that it carries your emotions away with it. 

“I blame myself too Suguru...”

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I am highkey invested in your pretend series; IT’S AWESOMEEEEE 🫶🫶🫶

🥹🥹🥹 THANK YOUUU to be honest I am kinda nervous writing this fic cause I suck at dialogue but knowing people like it MAKES ME FUFNRJDD 💙🩷💙🩷

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McTavish

Its 2am and I can't sleep so im just thinking. Imagine marrying Soap and taking his last name. Soap has talked the guys ears off about his wife but always got shy of showing them a picture of you, not wanting them to steal his woman. They're all convinced Soap has lost his mind. You both are in the military, just different squads that rarely interact before one day you are all bought together.

Soap was bored last night and a little tipsy from drinking with Gaz when he came upon Ghost's skeleton gloves. Conveniently (or unfortunately more like) there were some colourful markers. Johnny sat there and coloured the white bone pattern in a wonderful rainbow pattern and left the gloves facing with their palms up. No-one knew of his crime till the next morning... When Ghost practically kicked down his dorm room door with rainbow gloves on. He was on a mission to find the culprit and give him a peace of mind.

"MCTAVISH." His deep voice booms out and Soap could feel his heart in his ass. He ducks behind the kitchen island so that Ghost couldn't find him. Interrupting the morning banter between him and Gaz (more like Soap talking his ear off...)

"Yes? How may I help you, Lieutenant?" Your soft voice rings out from the doorway. You were blindsided by the sudden aggressive attack. Ghost looks at you with his usual blank look as if he didn't come storming out like a bull. He stuffs his gloved hands in his pockets and turns to the beautiful lady in the doorway.

"Sorry. I was lookin' for another McTavish. A shorter. More irritating one." His eyes narrow as he emphasises the irritating.

"Has Johnny been causing you issues again? I told him not to annoy his superiors." Just as Soap couldn't keep quiet to the 141 about you, he couldn't keep quiet to you about the 141. They were his family as well as you. He would always loudly boast about how he annoyed his Lt or whine when Gaz and Price never laughed at 'the funniest joke to come out the great north'.

"You know Soap?" Gaz asks, glancing down at the guilty man. He looks up with a shit eating grin and stars in his eyes

"Yeah," you sigh. "That's my husband."

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Enduring Heart - Gojo

A/N: Enjoy this rushed fic i wrote about Gojo, This was meant to be a smut but turned out soft so might be adding the smut part in a 2nd part :D This might become a series, who knows oJo

W/C: 1879

Tags:// enemies to lovers, fluff, angst, hurt/comfort

“You’ve always hated me.” He breaks the comfortable silence that surrounds you both. Your eyes widen but you keep your head down, staring at the soda can in your hand. He came over earlier, uninvited - as he usually is, with a bag of snacks and cans.

“Who wouldn’t.” You respond playfully, but his usual boisterous laughter doesn’t ring annoyingly loud in your ears. Something felt off. His body was relaxed but the slight furrow between his brows told you there was something weighing on his mind. You could always tell what mood he was in just from the way his body tenses or the subtle changes in his facial expressions. Since when did you watch him so intensely to notice those things? Was it because he was your rival… or perhaps more?

“Bunny,” There was that annoying nickname he called you. “You’ve hated me even before you met me, surely my existence wasn’t that unbearable from your birth.” There was that mask he always put on, the confident smirk knowing he got his opponent right where he wanted them. 

“And if I say you were, what then?” You finally meet his eyes and there is no shock on his face. It was like he was expecting it. Afterall he was used to people hating him for the mere fact that he was born with these gifts. (Though his personality didn’t help him much either…) He was hoping that you would have been different, that you hated him for any other reason than him being born, he held onto that hope every day as he teased you. Loving the way your ears turned red when he flirted or how smoke seemed to come out of your nose as you scolded him. He told himself that all he did was to give you a different reason to hate him but he couldn’t lie any longer. Death is inevitable for your line of work… He didn’t want to spend his whole life lying to himself and only realising the truth of it all when the reaper has already taken you. 

“I’d ask you how?” He leans in close, his tall frame towering over you. You could feel the way his chest rises and falls with every breath he takes and it sends tingles around your body. Your heart felt like it was heavy, you could feel every single beat and the anxious feeling did not let up. You hated the feeling so you try to lean away but his arm comes up and holds your shoulder. 

“Don’t run away.” His touch burns you even through the fabric of your shirt. 

“Hey cut it out- This isn’t funny.” You try to laugh it off, wanting to run away but you know better than anyone, no-one can run from Gojo Satoru.

“This isn’t a joke, answer me.” This wasn’t a joke, it was an order.

“Jeez! You’re asking me why I hate you whilst you corner me like this. Tempting me with snacks and my favourite drinks!” He finally cracks a smile at that and the dull beating of your heart feels lighter. Gojo can feel your body relax so he lets go of your shoulder and moves back to his old position, knowing you won’t run away. 

“This will probably be so pitiful to you, just try not to tease me so much after this.” There’s a sad smile on your face as you look up to the blue moon. It’s colour and shine felt pathetic compared to his eyes. 

“I don’t tease you much in the first place.” You scoff and hit his shoulder. He chuckles and rests his head on his hand as he watches you throw your head back, to down the rest of your soda. You crush the can and take a deep breath to calm yourself. Normally Gojo would have said something, but he waited patiently. He would wait as long as it took.

“From the moment you were born, Gojo, you were precious to this world. Your values and expectations were set as soon as they heard the news. ‘The balance of the world was shifted with the birth of the Six eyes.’ or something dramatic along those lines.” Gojo couldn’t argue against that, he became his clan’s treasure and was told constantly that he would be the greatest sorcerer. 

“Those old guys sure are dramatic but they weren’t wrong.” He really never misses the chance to praise himself. 

“They were right about your strength but it isn’t your strength that makes me hate you, in fact sometimes I could respect you for it. I can’t say if you were loved back there but you were treasured by them as long as they possibly could.” You could practically hear Gojo’s head gears turn as you speak. Just as he opens his mouth to comment, you cut him off. “I’m not jealous of your power! And why would I want to be powerful like you? Just look at that ego of yours!” You stand up, pointing at him as you stomp your foot. His smile grows even more as the words tumble from your mouth.

“I didn’t say anything! So mean bunny, putting words into my mouth!” He tries to pull a cute face with a pout and the look of utter disgust on your face is more freezing the night air. 

“So where were we…” He coughs after a moment of awkward silence. 

“I’m not jealous of your power, but of your ability to receive love. Gojo, I used to wonder why you were always so overbearing. Then I realised, no-one has ever said no to you and you never had to sacrifice anything for anyone. It sounds childish doesn’t it? To hate someone who had no part in what kind of life he was born into?” You sat back down next to him, this time making sure to put some distance between the two of you. There is a breeze that ruffles your hair and a strand falls out of place. 

“It is childish.” You knew it but your heart still throbbed hearing him admit it too. His hand comes up to delicately tuck the strand behind your ear. “But did you ever have a chance to be a child (Y/N).” 

In the world of sorcerers, being a cursed user was important but even the weakest sorcerer can become a powerful member. It was how your great-grandfather rose through society, leading your family name into the comfortable life you were living currently. But your family was traditional, they only cared for their sons, the ones who can keep the family name. You watched as your sisters ran around trying to be perfect for the elders but they couldn’t compare to the only son born into your generation. You swore to yourself you would never be like your sisters but who could support you as you stand on your own two feet? 

Only your nanny was around as you took your first steps or spoke your first words, but she never cared for you. It was her responsibility to look after ‘that’ child. All around you, you had to hear how your parents were there as he took his first steps, they held his hands as he walked. They kept him close to them, like the prized existence he was. Their eyes never searched for you so you simply remained in the shadows of your siblings. Living life quietly and out of sight, it was better that way…

One day your elders had called you to the study, the room where all the important family meetings happen. You couldn’t hide your excitement, maybe they noticed your improvement in your cursed abilities or maybe they heard you graduated at the top of your middle school! Your hopes were soaring high that day, like the summer kites that your brother was flying outside that day. It was the last time you expected anything from anyone, it was the day you accepted your position in the shadow of your brother and squashed the longing to be more than a 2nd choice. 

‘It’ll be troublesome for our family if Gojo Satoru grows stronger. (Y/N), it is your chance to show your value for our family. Kill him and we will give you the love you so strongly desire.’

“When I met you, I knew it would have been like a suicide mission. Even as first years, your power was overwhelming. I hated you before I met you because you were all that stood between me and the family love I craved and then I hated you after I met because your power was proof that I never mattered to them. I was simply a means to an end in their eyes!” You didn’t know when the tears started to pour out of your eyes or when your voice began to shout. You clasp your hand over your mouth as the emotions you tried holding back for all those years came pouring out. You tried curling up into yourself, hiding your face. It was silent again with only your sniffles filling the air, Gojo for once remained quiet. You couldn’t stand the silence, you needed to run away even for just a moment. Just as you stood up to leave, he caught your wrist. He pulled you back down with one tug, instead of tumbling into the cold ground, you fell into his lap. 

“What are you doing?”

“What does it look like I’m doing? I am trapping you so you don’t run away.” He says as if it’s the most obvious thing. Whilst his excuse was he was trapping you, this position was… He had you pressed against his chest with one arm wrapped around your waist and his other hand holding your head against his shoulder. You could never understand him! You just told him the real reason why you had hated him so much and the truth as to why you became friends in the first place.

“Why are you doing this?” you couldn’t help the way your voice trembles as it so desperately tries to hold back your tears. 

“Because you’re my friend.” His embrace feels warm.

“I hate you, I really hate you.” You finally let your tears fall freely, hiding your tears in the fabric of his shirt. 

“Cry all you want, I’ll ignore it this time.” His hand pats your head. You were so exhausted from it all that you didn’t notice Gojo’s face, as you drifted off to sleep. You could pick up on Gojo’s emotions from the subtlest expressions but you didn’t see at that moment the look he wore on his face. 

“We were born into such different lives but our hearts bear similar scars. We could never rest because of the pressure we felt to be enough and even when we could rest… who could we trust?” He was treasured and never once hated that he was born, but seeing the burden he made you carry all alone for that long. He really hated the fact that he existed. He looks down towards your face, brushing the hair out of the way to see your tear stained face. 

“I’ll end them all, so please come to love my existence.”

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Dating Zhongli

A/N:// I did this one very quickly since I’m in my Guili feels but i got a lil carried away with it as I usually do. I’m just testing out this kinda formatting since I have all these ideas and 0 time to write fully fledged fics!!

’Now that you’re mortal, will you be divulging into their way of life completely?’ - Zhongli knew the question hidden underneath the traveller’s words. Will he be dating or in this world, court someone? 

He would be an amazing lover, he would shift the world for you if he still could. Just as much as he speaks a lot, he listens well. He would brush his finger through your hair as you rant about your commissions. 

He is more of a direct person so when it comes to courting, he will make it very clear to you. He would be formal and you keep the letter he wrote you safely tucked under your bed. You caught his eye and he won’t beat around the bush to win your heart over. Luckily for him, your heart was already his.

The endeared look on his face as you try to explain the new ruins you found. He plays along with your dramatic pauses as you describe surprise traps that spring on you as if he wasn’t there for the very creation of the building you speak of. 

There is an easy routine you both fall into but he always finds a way to sweep you off your feet, sometimes it’s simple bouquets that are awaiting you when you come home and other’s he takes you to breathtaking views of liyue. Ones that were tucked away so he can tenderly kiss you and take your breath away with his words. 

He laughs with you and holds you when you cry, his strong shoulders would be your safety against the motions of life. You always tell him that he can lean on you too, he always responds with ‘I fear my burdens may crush your small frame, my love.’ It takes a while before Zhongli opens his full heart to you. He always deflects with a teasing remark about your height differences. 

He loves teasing you about your short height, it wasn’t hard being taller than everyone else but he loved holding it over your head… literally. Whilst Zhongli might be a very serious man, I feel like his playful side would come out a lot with you. He would always smugly ask if you need help reaching something after he PUT IT UP THERE ON PURPOSE. The smile on his face makes it impossible to be mad at him. 

He would try to steal bites of food whilst you are preparing dinner, an excuse to hold onto you a little longer when he comes home from work. 

He makes the relationship all about you, his actions and decisions are decided with you in mind. It sounds perfect to have an attentive lover, but it being all one sided feels horrible for you. You first assumed that it was because his love language is acts of service but… 

Is it truly love when you’ve never seen him cry? He is so close to you but so distant, his walls are still kept high in heart. You feel his tenderness and sincerity and you wonder if he could feel yours. 

‘Forgive me, my love. I had no intention in making you feel like this. I love you so dearly, yet the tears I wish to shed are being held back. The thought of being so open again paralyses me with fear but I yearn to hold you and make you mine.’ Why? Why is it so hard to open up again… He didn’t understand his own mind for once and it scared him. 

For a man with so much wisdom, he never quite understood how love works… His only glimpse of the word love was her. Guizhong. 

‘You love the first person who ever touched you and you never love anyone quite that way again.’ You say softly, wrapping your arms around him. Of course he could never understand his heart if it still lingers on a time gone by. A body that has lost it’s memories still remembers the hold of their sword, like a heart beats for the one you loved. You couldn’t blame him for that. 

He remembers that night so vividly, through his choked sobs you never once let go of him. Letting himself lean on you for the first time was a huge turning point for the two of you. You never hated him for shedding tears for his first love, he suppressed it all to that point and deserved to let it all out. It would be unfair to leave him stranded. 

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‘You love the first person who ever touched you and you never love anyone quite that way again…’ He says as looks out towards the night sky, the sun has set and there is a cool breeze. You stare at his back, confused. ‘There is some truth in those words you told me but there is one thing I would like to add. Your first love does not lessen the love you feel for all anyone else but…’ Zhongli turns around to face you, the amber glow of his eyes take your breath away. They shine brighter than the lanterns that begin to float up from the harbour behind him. 

‘Your final love will be the most different of them all.’ 

In his hand is a ring, a simple band made from the finest ore he selected himself.

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HEH ALSO IF U CAN “My only regret is not telling you I loved you sooner.” with Xiao :0000

THIS TOOK ME SO LONG IM SORRY T^T I couldn't help but make it into a full blown fic and here it is!!

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My only regret - Xiao

A/N: PHEW it’s been a while huh? this one is a big one that i spent over 3 months writing so if there are some inconsistencies im sorry T^T 

Word count: 5255

Great spears of rock rained down across the blood soaked plains, the sky turned red from the burning embers. The colours of war tainted the white petals of the flowers that once bloomed across those plains. 

It was after a rather gruesome battle that Xiao met you, you had been in the center of a busy medical tent. You had your hair pushed back and an intense look on your face as you began to run the medicinal herbs into a soldier’s wound. All the while instructing fellow healers around you to prepare the supplies for the next wave of injured. Xiao helped the team carry in fellow soldiers, laying his comrade down gently on the bed as the healers swarmed him instantly. The blood made him feel sick to his stomach but he couldn’t let it show. As an adeptus he must embrace this pain and become stronger, so nothing like this can happen ever again. He stood on the side, losing himself in his thoughts to strengthen his resolve again. He was broken out of his thoughts when he felt a soft warm hand touch his cold arm. Xiao jumped at the touch, not expecting or used to the touch of another person. When his head snapped to the culprit you sheepishly smiled and held up the bandages whilst gesturing to the cut on his arm. 

“I don’t need your-” 

“Everyone deserves treatment in this tent so let me just put this bandage on.” You cut him off, the smile on your face instantly turning into a serious one. In this war you had had your fair share of soldiers that lost hope and gave up on the second chance you gave them. You could never forget the overwhelming guilt when soldiers wake up and sob at the thought of going back out into the front lines. Sensing your sincerity, Xiao let his arm up to allow you to delicately wrap the bandages around his wound. His gaze lingered on you for a few seconds until he turned his head away, the tips of his ears were red. Around you he saw a warm yellow glow, it soothed his tense muscles and he felt the unfamiliar feeling of relief. You were too bright. 

On your end you so desperately wanted to speak to him, knowing he was an adeptus piqued your curiosity and there were so many questions brewing in your mind. Do you just ask how his day has been? NO because we’re in a war, the answer is kinda obvious! Do you ask about how it is being an adeptus? You’ve been told your questions are too awkward to answer but this curiosity was burning inside of you. Just as you found the right way to start your conversation you already patched him up. You stared at the perfectly tied bandage with wide eyes. How’s this happening? Xiao felt you freeze up and looked back at you, the look on your face caused a frown to form on his face. Did he do something wrong? Or is this mortal broken? The two of you sat in silence for a few seconds till he just sighed and stood up. He took his polearm in one hand and his mask in the other. Once he reached the exit of the tent he turned around sharply to face you, who was still by where you treated him. You were in a deep conversation with the captain of the unit that just came in, the aura around was different to the one he felt moments ago. It felt less childish and more composed like the colour blue. He drank in the sight of you knowing it’ll most likely be the last time he saw you due to the chaos of battle and just because of who he was.

 If there was ever anything human he knew to stay away from, he knew it was you. A mystery in mundane life was much more daunting than any demon to Xiao. 

That was meant to be the last time Xiao saw you but it seems the stars had different plans for the two of you. During a face off, Xiao lost control of his guard and released some of the negative energy that built up inside of him. The energy instantly gravitated to his wounds and corrupted them, making it almost impossible to heal in time for the final battle. He insisted that he could

fight in the final battle however his wounds made his usual speed slower and his trusty polearm felt heavier and heavier to carry. The other yakshas, noticing his stubbornness, had to inform Morax who had more control over the adeptus and his decisions. Not wanting to see his friend go down a path of self destruction, he advised Xiao to take a healer and purify the wound. The quicker he got it healed, the quicker he could recover and support on the battlefield. Morax reassured Xiao that they could hold off without him and sent Xiao off to the medical camps to find a healer that was willing to travel across the destroyed landscape in search of qingxing untouched by the darkness or blood. He knew that it was a tall order to ask for since many healers chose their job to help out in war whilst avoiding the violence. He didn’t want to force anyone into danger just for him but he had a duty to help Morax and build the nation of Liyue. He could go alone but he knew he couldn’t act recklessly. If you rush you’ll make mistakes that can never be undone and Xiao couldn’t allow that. Just as he was about to give in to going alone, you came running out of the medical tent with a bag slung over your shoulder and clothes different to your usual medical garments. 

“Xiao!” You call after him, your hair wildly bounced as you ran up to him which resembled the flower petals that bopped in the wind. You tried reading his face as you walked up but were unable to do so.

“What is it?” His brows slightly furrowed, feeling an odd pit in his stomach. 

“I heard you were looking for a healer to accompany you! I didn’t hear until now but I’m lucky to have caught you!” Your words fell out of your mouth like a waterfall, he had difficulty keeping up. 

“Very well then, come along.” He said after a few moments, no doubt trying to piece together everything you said. You weren’t expecting him to say yes so quickly and easily but that just shows how desperate he was to join the battlefield again. 

“So… what are we doing again?” You say after a few hours of endless walking, you turn to look at Xiao, tilting your head in curiosity. Xiao keeps his head forward but sighs and shakes his head. 

“You mean to tell me you accepted without knowing what was going to happen?”

“Yes?” You answered instantly, like it was an obvious answer. “You are fighting hard to protect Liyue, the least I could do was assist you in this.” He was used to being surrounded by temporary allies and demons. The gratitude and pure reasoning stunned him into a deeper silence, he was an adeptus, it was his duty. He should not receive any thanks for merely doing his duty. He grunted in response and that marked the end of their small talk. It became quiet again, the only noise you could hear were your footsteps, not even a bird flew by in this barren wasteland. 

The two of you settled down in your camp for the night, deciding it was too dangerous to traverse the mountain in the dark. Xiao would've had no problem if not for the injury and you were unused to this kind of terrain. You were sitting by the campfire, making some soup for the two of you as Xiao took a perimeter to check if there was any danger. It was agreed that he could stay up to watch but not physically patrol, you insisted that he needed to sleep but he was quite stubborn. He kept repeating the point that adeptus did not sleep as often as humans but you kept reminding him of his injury. It was a heated argument, not in the way of raised voices but harsh tones and passive aggressive marks. He picked up that there was a switch in you that turned you from your odd clumsy side to a serious healer. And that healer was not to argue against, every point raised by him was instantly shot down by you. Eventually that agreement was made for the sake of the mission at hand, but the air around the two of you became more awkward and filled with unspoken apologies. You sit and stare into the fire, thinking about a way to word your apology without offending Xiao anymore than you have already done. You couldn’t stand the silence anymore and needed one way to fill it, even if it was mainly only your voice. Xiao was kind enough to show that he listens to you with small sounds of acknowledgement but you feared with this fight you may have lost that.

You’re so lost in your thoughts that you don’t hear the said man come back till he sits on the ground with some force, unusual for a man with his kind of grace. Your head snaps up to scan his face, just in time to see the wince he had on his face and how he held his wound. 

“Can I take a look?” You softly ask, looking into his eyes.

“There’s nothing you can do about it right now.” He instantly shot you down, it left a sting in your heart but the healer in you wouldn’t let you back down.

“Please?” You tried your best not to be pushy like before so you didn’t spark another argument. He sees the earnesty in you shine and knows it would sit heavy on his conscience to reject you. He simply nods, lifting the hand to show the blood soaked bandage. You gasp, grabbing your bag to fish out some supplies. You say nothing as you begin to redress his wounds, rubbing in some seeds to coagulate the blood around the wound to stop the bleeding as much as you could. Xiao’s body was tense, no doubt the pain was excruciating. After the wound was redressed, you looked up at Xiao. You didn’t even need to say it, he knew you were mad at him for not telling you or atleast changing it himself. 

“I’m sorry.” The angry look on your face slipped instantly to one of shock, you weren’t expecting Xiao to apologise. You decided that this was a step in the right direction for the two of you and left the lecture for another time. You gave him his food and watched the stars with him. It was a comfortable silence, you felt as though the awkwardness of new companions had finally dissipated. Just that thought alone bought a smile on your face as the night tucked you away into bed. Xiao watched as you fell asleep, shaking his head at how odd humans were. No matter how much he would push, you would keep on coming back, on the outside that made Xiao think about how bothersome. Under the surface his heart felt warm but this was not the time to face such emotions. There was nothing left to explore with those emotions so that’s where he left them. Under the surface. 

Though there are moments where they bubble to the surface. 

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First was two days after the campfire incident. There was a shortcut through the ruins instead of hiking another mountain for an extra day. There was an unexpected trap that closed all the exits and the floor began to crumble beneath your very feet. Xiao was close to the edge, he was able to grab onto the pillar and swing himself to the door frame. You, however, were in a more precarious situation. You were standing in the center of the room when it began, you sprinted as fast as you could to gain a running jump onto a steady platform however your foot got caught in the cracked ground. Your heart was pounding in your ears as you fell down into the dark abyss, the edge was inches away from your outstretched arm. You wanted to fight it, but you couldn’t. All you could do was watch as your life slipped away and close your eyes for the impact. When you closed your eyes, you missed the black mist that was coming in closer. All of a sudden you feel an arm wrap around your waist, your arms naturally come up to hold onto the person holding you but even then your eyes dare not open. With a burst of wind everything stops moving. Did you land? But your feet didn’t even touch the ground… your eyes finally snap open to see Xiao’s usual cold face. 

“I-...” You look down and realise that you were clinging onto him like a koala and instantly pushed off of him, almost stumbling back into the pit. Xiao simply sighs, wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you close to his chest again. You let out a squeak and hid your face in his chest, unable to see the slight quirk in Xiao’s lips as he shook his head. Too distracted by your near death, you failed to see Xiao during that rush. When Xiao saw you fall, it was like the world turned into slow motion. His body was paralyzed and unwilling to move. He was tired, but something in him snapped when he saw the terrified look on your face. It didn’t suit you. Before he knew it, his body was moving along with his vision to catch you. He felt ashamed to admit that when he pulled you close and felt you hold onto him caused his heart to soar. He hated this feeling but at the same time thrived off of it, it was confusing. The two of you stay like that for a moment, him holding you close to his body as you calm down from the adrenaline. It didn’t feel too bad, Xiao thinks to himself. 

The second time was when you saw him smile for the first time. You were trying to climb a tree to retrieve the map that kept on flying away from you. 

“Listen Xiao, I got this.” You say seriously, rolling up your sleeves to prepare for the climb. Normally he would just help anyways but after one too many lectures from you he learnt it’s better to let you do your thing. He stood back, watching with his arm crossed. You approached the tree, gulping at the unexpected height, 

“It’s a big tree huh?” You laugh nervously, turning back to Xiao to smile at him nervously.

“Indeed.” He nods, holding his chin in his hand to look up at it. “Be careful, you do have a habit of… falling.” You let out an offended scoff and decided to prove him wrong, you put your full focus in climbing this damn tree. The sun was setting by the time you reached the highest branch, you let out a happy cheer when you pulled yourself up onto the peak. 

“Look Xiao, look!” You shout down to him, raising your hands in a cheer. The victory was short lived when you saw what was in his hand. The map. The map you spent hours climbing a tree for, was in his hand. 

“How long.”

“When you fell out of the tree the first time.” He says, voice trailing off at the end to hold off the laughter. He coughs and brings his hand to cover his mouth, trying to hide his smile but from your height you could see his lips curl upwards. You gasp, about to call him out but a large gust of wind knocked down your stability. Once again you were awaiting the impact but you felt his comforting arms catch you. 

“You have a habit of falling.” Xiao simply states, letting your feet touch the solid ground again. 

“Luckily I have you to catch me if I do.” You smile up at him. It made Xiao dizzy how you could say such cheesy things so freely. He shakes his head and walks away from you, looking down to follow the map. At first you would’ve taken it as a rejection but from your time with him, you knew that your presence affects him. The red ears were a dead give away. 

The final time was when you finally reached the qingxin and finally healed him. When you began to break the qingxin down into a paste, the time left for Xiao was running thin. He could barely make out the words you were saying with your trembling voice and your hands could barely hold the mortar still. He was propped up against the rock, his limbs feeling too heavy to hold himself up but still he found some strength to cup your cheek. Tear stains covered your cheeks as you begged him to hold on, your face was haggard from the travels. You tried to pretend you didn’t notice the colour in Xiao’s cheeks fade as your travels went on but it got so hard pretending. It all reached a peak seeing him collapse face first into the snow, unmoving with his blood turning the white crystals red. You dragged his body up to the peak of the mountain by yourself and got to work. 

Everything started to muffle; the howling winds, the grinding of the mortar and pestle all faded away but the only thing that rang clear in his ears were you.

“Please, please, please- stay awake.” Your voice cracked as sobs broke through your words. You hovered over him, rubbing the paste into his wound whilst repeatedly muttering prayers. With all the strength he had in him he lifted his arm to cup your cheek. Even when he was on the brink of death, all he cared about was comforting you. You looked so beautiful, even when you cried. You held onto his wrist with your hand, leaning your head softly on his hand. Xiao didn’t understand these feelings. It all confused him, humans confused him. Yet he tried. He tried his best to force a smile as his lips parted to speak. ‘I love you.’ was stuck on the tip of his tongue. All he saw as his vision faded to black was your bright young eyes, the first thing he saw when he met you in that tent all those weeks ago. 

Xiao was floating, in the pitch black abyss. He wasn’t falling nor was he flying. It was all just still. He couldn’t hear anything or feel anything in his body, other than his burning side. Was this it? His karmic debt was an eternity of nothing but pain and leaving the one he loved stranded on top of a mountain. He could handle being in pain forever but dragging your suffering into this all was something he couldn’t escape. He gritted his teeth and begged whatever deity was out there to grant him this final wish. ‘I’ll do anything, so please…’ 

The first thing Xiao felt was the familiar weight of his mask in his left hand and the polearm in his right. He was an adeptus, his duty was to protect Liyue and their citizens. Especially you. With that strengthened resolve his mind broke free from the cold embrace of death, he was thrusted back into the noisy world where his love sat over his body alone. He didn’t know how long he was out for but your crying never stopped. 

“Y/N.” Before he could speak, you pounced on him. Holding him tightly, shouting quietly about how he shouldn’t have scared you like that. You pulled back after you snapped out of your excitement, scanning his injury to see if he’s okay. There was nothing there but a dark scar. 

“You’re okay…” You spoke after a moment of silence. Your mind couldn’t begin to comprehend what happened when Xiao rose up. He had a different aura than the man you travelled with, he stood taller and radiated strength. This was Xiao in his prime. One would think after all the prior crying you would have run out of tears but somehow a new wave overcame you. This was the Yaksha you heard stories about, the one you had the honour to heal. He looked out towards the sunset, taking a deep breath of the mountain air before turning to you.

“I have a duty.” He picked up his spear that laid between you two. Your heart started to sink, this was it. You had to return to reality again, the war isn’t done. You should’ve known Xiao would leave you as soon as he could, you were merely a mortal. He made that very clear from day one. Maybe you read the signs wrong and he simply tolerated you. 

“Will I be standing like this for the rest of my life?” His snarky tone broke you out of your stupor and that’s when you noticed his outstretched hand. His eyebrows were raised in amusement as your cheeks bloomed red. Quickly you took his hand and then all of a sudden it felt like you teleported. 

You were in your living quarters back in the camp. Familiar trinkets sat on the shelf and your medical bag sat on the bed. So this was the power of a Yaksha. You looked around for Xiao, wanting to praise him for his incredible feat to see him peeking out of the tent. That’s when you noticed the macabre sounds of war. He turned to you with determined eyes, the fire that burned inside of him spread to you. You simply nodded at him. You both had a duty, as a healer and as a fighter. 

“I’ll find you after this.” When all the dust settles, he will find you and finally say the words that plagued his heart. The last thing he saw was your encouraging smile as he joined his comrades in battle. From what he picked up from hushed whispers in the wind, this was the final battle. The last push to end the war. Then he could begin to build Liyue with Morax and other Adepti for the people. It wasn’t going to be an easy one, both sides knew that this was the battle to tip the scales therefore pulled out all the stops. It ends today, with or without regrets. 

“It is good to see you again Xiao.” Morax says in passing on the battlefield. Xiao noticed the darkness that loomed over the archon. He didn’t have the chance to comment as the new wave of enemies poured in. Xiao darted across the wasteland, exorcising demons that were born through the destruction of war. As the battle went on, they broke through the final line of enemy defence. Fires that spread across the land lit up the sky to the point Xiao couldn’t tell if it was day or night. The cheering of fellow soldiers rang in his ears, this was finally the tipping point. However the excitement was short lived as Xiao saw a burst of elemental energy tear through a whole regiment of men. The crowd of soldiers gave way to reveal the source of that energy. It was the enemy Archon. She laughed wickedly as she mowed over mortals, pulling out all the stops to regain the battle favour. Xiao landed in line with the other surviving Yakshas and adepti, in front of them stood Morax. That darkness that Xiao noticed before never left him, in fact it seemed to grow. 

“What a pitiful sight you are, Morax.” Her voice travelled across the land, her apathetic tone sent shivers down the mortal's spines. She laughs at the Geo archon’s silence, deciding to taunt him more. “If I knew her death would ruin you like this, I would have cut her down from the start.” Xiao’s heart dropped when he realised who she was speaking of. Guizhong. 

“Master do not liste-” Xiao went to stop Morax, if anger took hold it would lead to mistakes. However in that moment of rage and grief, Morax forgot that simple lesson. His cry shook the landscape as his tears watered the blooming flowers of war. If only Morax focused, if only he noticed that as he threw a large stone spear towards the enemy, she summoned a counter. Her attack didn’t completely destroy the weapon but it was enough force to change the course of the rock. Xiao didn’t have a chance to see where it landed as the final clash began. 

➸

“Do you have any regrets Xiao?” You sat down beside him, mixing the pot that boiled about the campfire. He looked at you with furrowed brows and you looked back with an innocent tilt of your head. 

“What kind of question is that?” You sigh as his response, standing up abruptly with your hands on your hips. The movement made him jump slightly, not expecting the sudden movement.

“What do you mean, what kind of question? It’s a simple one,” Xiao didn’t know if he was terrified that a lecture was incoming or the fact that he knew one was coming. “If we’re going to do this perilous journey I want to get to know you.” 

“But out of all the questions-” “I don’t understand what is so hard to answer about it!” You cut him off with a pout. You try to suppress your smile as a defeated sight leaves Xiao. Somehow you always found a way to win against him. 

“May I hear your regret first?” He looks up at you, the edges of his eyes felt softer in the campfire glow. You almost lost yourself in them when you realised what he asked. 

“Mine? That’s easy! I never got my mother’s recipe for tofu.” Xiao looked at you dumbfounded. Out of all the mortal regrets he had to deal with, you chose food. “Don’t look at me like that!” You stutter, hitting Xiao’s shoulder lightly with the spoon. Your mother used to cook you almond tofu whenever you felt sad about your father leaving for war. Whenever she set down the plate, she always kissed your forehead and tucked in with you. It was a warm memory that you will cherish forever but the bitter reminder that you would never eat almond tofu like that again. 

“You should make it sometime.” Xiao encouraged you.

“Were you not listening, I do not have the recipe.” 

“Almond tofu is made the same wherever you go. The only thing that is missing is your mother’s love.” For the third time on that journey, he made you speechless. The tips of Xiao’s ear turned red as you stared at him with a gaped open mouth. “You’ll burn holes into me. Ah- alright!” You threateningly raised up the cooking spoon at the adeptus to which he surrendered. You made him almond tofu a few days after you found out that he never had one since the war started. 

“So, what is your answer then?” You both settled down with your bowls of food, you speak with your mouth full to which Xiao tuts loudly at. You sheepishly apologise as he answers you. 

“I am a Yaksha, I carry many regrets. It is hard to name just a singular one, each one weighs equally heavily in my heart.” Your heart couldn’t handle how cold his words sounded, you mindlessly reached out to hold his hand. He jumped slightly at the unexpected touch but held your hand tighter when you tried pulling away. There always was that wordless communication between the two of you and tonight was no exception. You spent the rest of the night in each other's quiet company. 

➸

The dust settled and the Archon war was over. Mortals rejoice loudly as the endless bloodshed finally gave way to peace. Yet Morax couldn’t bring himself to cheer. There was work to be done. Morax looks around to gather up the Yakshas and forge the contract that would protect Liyue for the years to come. He notices the demon conquer standing beside one of the future mountains of the Liyue landscape. He holds a piece of cloth in his hand, it looks like a sign as Morax approaches. He stopped a few steps away from Xiao, it was silent between the two of them.

“This was the spear that she deflected.” Xiao states, Morax looks over the rock, confirming it to be true. This was by far the largest of the spears, it’s size fueled by the rage he felt in the moment. “I did not notice it landed here…” Morax saw the young man’s shoulder shake as his fist clenched. That was when Morax finally was able to read the sign in Xiao’s hand. Medical Camp. 

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“Do you have any regrets?” Aether choked on his mouthful of food, Paimon rushing to hand him a cup of water whilst patting his back. 

“Oi, you can’t just ask anyone that!” Paimon scolds Y/N. The travelling trio stopped by Wangshu Inn on the way back from an errand for the lantern rite. Verr Goldet insisted that the three of them sat down with Xiao to get him in the festive mood. Paimon and Y/N were more than happy to stop for food. Aether sighed, wanting to get back already but the thought of smiley yanxiao’s cooking even appealed to his peculiar taste buds. Y/N grew bored of the suffocating silence, they hated the silence sometimes. That’s why they and Paimon got along so well, always filling the air with their voices.

“Why not! It’s a simple question.” You argue back and forth with them, swinging around your spoon as you defend yourself. Xiao watched with wide eyes, he couldn’t believe it. After almost a thousand years, there you were. It was unmistakably you. 

“Like someone as cold as Xiao would answer!” Paimon, quite loudly, whispered. Even if they whispered Xiao would still be able to hear it. 

“Your companion is correct. I have no answer for you.” Xiao states, he thinks that would finish the argument but it sparks another one as Paimon rubs it in your face. Aether laughs, not helping either of them to settle it, choosing instead to enjoy the show. In the mess of the fight, the three of you fail to notice Xiao leaving the table. 

He stands on the balcony, his plate of untouched almond tofu is on the table. He looks out towards the marshes, losing himself in his thoughts when you sneak up on him. 

“Xiao?” His body breaks out in goosebumps, he misses hearing his new name come from your lips. “I wanted to apologise to you, my question was quite insensitive…” The silence after was deafening, you waited for him to respond. You were speechless at the raw grief in Xiao’s eyes as he forced a grim smile. 

‘My only regret is not telling you I loved you sooner.’

[nootgi]

Irony - Kaeya

A/N:// This is kinda piece to get my thoughts out. It’s been a tough couple of days but I hope y’all enjoy! Someone take kaeya away from me, poor bubs keeps getting hurt

All of the memories between you and him flashed through his mind as he walked away from you. He left you standing on the bridge and never looked back. If he did, would he come running back into your arms? Or would the terrifying truth that he truly was over the two of you sink in? You silently begged in your mind for him to answer but there was nothing. Bennett was there to catch you as you fell onto your knees, the sudden sadness crashing down onto you. All he could do was hold you in his arms as you sobbed, eyes never leaving the place where Kaeya once stood. 

He heard your sobs and wanted to turn back and wipe your tears away but he knew he couldn’t. It was over, he was closing the door to your heart. He didn’t belong there anymore, he prayed you will be able to lock the door so he couldn’t come back in. You deserved more than this fading love. People heard about the break up the next day and were confused at how Kaeya was perfectly okay. He was back on his feet, doing his duties as a captain and in fact he still went to his usual tavern nights. He waved off everyone’s words, anyone that came to check up on him were shot down. Recycled answers of “I’m fine” or “I’ll be okay” were wearing Kaeya thin. Kaeya didn’t see you around much, he heard you took a small break. Even when you passed each other in Mondstad, there were no lingering glances shared. You two pass as though you were complete strangers. It pained the two of you to be like this but that was life, you have to stride through hardship and pain to reach the other side. The cruelty in it was that he wasn’t there beside you to help you through it. Your paths are diverging, fate is leading you down two different roads. Alone.

Everyone thought that Kaeya was over it so quickly because he was ready for this ending. But no-one saw how he’d leave earlier from the tavern, how his laughter felt forced. No-one saw how he went home and broke behind closed doors. When the curtains fall and he is alone with his memories, the irony sits heavy on his heart. Love is cruel. Love is twisted. Love is dangerous. Love… love was the best feeling he ever felt. 

“I love you.” 

“I love you more.”

“I love you mostest!” you laughed cheerfully, proud you got to win this round of who loves the other the most. It was a silly concept but it warmed his cheeks and heart to no end.

“Oh do you now? What makes you so confident about that?” Kaeya raised his eyebrows, not wanting to lose this competition but also not wanting to take away from your victory. 

“Well I know you and I know me, I’m pretty confident.” Kaeya just shook his head, walking ahead of you. He changed the topic to what you should eat today, ignoring your offended ‘Hey!’. That was a regular sight of the two of you, him taking the lead and you following along, going back and forth from your teasing. Often the talks could start from what food shall we eat today to height differences and even about the secret society of slimes. You could go on for hours about how despite being this blob, they probably have a language and secrets if their own. Kaeya listened with a smile, hearing you detail an infiltration mission that involved your future children with him. Passerbys listened in with confusion but Kaeya couldn’t care. The grin on your face and the laughter in your voice made everything melt away. 

“Listen it’s a pinkie promise! You break it and I get your pinkie.” He states plainly, walking up to you as you arrived late to the mission.

“It’s good I have 3 other pinkies then huh?” You offer up a cheeky smile and he can’t find it in him to argue against that. 

“(Y/N) our children will have us as parents, I don’t think they’re lucky-”

“HEY! We’d make awesome parents…” You move to slap his shoulder but as you do the basket of eggs you were transporting decided to swing. The eggs poured out until there were only 2 left in the basket and a massacre on the streets. “On second thought you right.” 

He never questioned what you meant by you knew him. Until one day, when the two of you were relaxing at home on a lazy day. 

“What did you mean by that?” 

“Well if you think about it, if we ever break up.. You’d be the one to do it.” 

“I-”

“Not that I'm saying that we will! But I know I couldn’t walk away from us.” Kaeya looked into your eyes and saw the 100% certainty in them. He did love you, he couldn’t imagine him breaking up with you. Did it not come across enough? He wasn’t the best at showing his love without teasing or speaking in riddles. Is that what made you think that? 

“Well it’s good that it’s you and me forever then~?” You look up at him with a bright smile and lunge up to kiss him. In the rush to kiss him your teeths clash together, making you both wince and pull away. Your hand comes up to your mouth as you look at Kaeya then you both burst out laughing. He does his usual shake of his head and thinks to himself. 

‘I could never walk away from us either.’  

He slumps his head on the table, looking up towards Diluc who was keeping his brother company as he drank the night away. 

“Ain’t that funny Luc?” The strangled noise that leaves Kaeya feels more like a sob than a chuckle. 

“What is funny?” He walks over to take Kaeya’s cup from him, deciding it's time to cut him off. Kaeya doesn’t protest. 

“They know me.” 

[nootgi]

part 2?

To anyone who read my Kaeya post called “love?” How does a part two sound, I’m wanting to write it but knowing people want it makes me a lot more motivated 

[nootgi]

Hello it's me haha ehm, do you do imagines? I wanna request for Albedo; if it's ok, just a small fic of Klee catching her big brother kissing his S/O and Albebe is stumbling in his words trying to reason with Klee 😂 if it's ok-- *scurries awayy*

A little help please? - Albedo

A/N:// SORRY FOR THE WAIT, it was taking longer than expected to do other requests but, here ya go ^-^ one embarrassed and mortified Albedo comin your way

You couldn’t breathe. 

It was impossible, every intake seemed to be cut off with a harsh exhale. Your lungs began to burn, sides started to ache and tears rolled down your face. Albedo watched in dismay as you keeled over, laughing your ass off at him. He couldn’t believe you still had it in you to laugh for 20 MINUTES after what happened. Every moment you feel as though you calmed down you look at his flushed cheeks and it sends you back down into a flurry of giggles.

What happened 20 minutes earlier? Well it begins with Albedo sneaking into the library during his lunch break to visit you. He catches you off guard as he presses you between the bookshelf and his sturdy chest. He had you pinned between his two arms. The book you were holding falls out of your hand, landing on the floor with a thud but you two don’t pay any attention to it. Both of you are looking into each other’s eyes, one hand came down to intertwine his fingers in yours.

“What brings Mr Alchemist here?” You whisper, bringing up his hand to kiss it softly. 

“I missed seeing my precious dove.” The press of your lips against his hand bought that colour you loved seeing on his cheeks but that didn’t stop Albedo and that smoulder of his. It did turn your gears how easily he slipped into his flirt mode, how his body seemed more imposing with his relaxed posture. The small quirk of his lip brings it up into a barely visible smirk, only noticeable with how close he drew his face to yours. 

“Ah did you now? It didn’t seem like you did the way you left today.” You smile, playing along with his mood, leaning up to bump your foreheads together. Today morning when you awoke, Albedo was already leaving out of the door mumbling something to himself. He took his portion of breakfast along with your morning kiss.

“Forgive me dove.” His eyes slightly darkened at your words, as if taking offence to your doubt, you were his world and stars and he wouldn’t let you doubt that even as a joke. You raise your eyebrows at his change in mood, about to question what he is doing when the hand that was holding yours so delicately, came up to hold the back of your hair in a firm grip. The kiss started out soft, his lips parted to draw your tongue in and dance along with his. Gradually the passion increased, causing you to lose yourself in the kiss. You felt your balance leaving you so you wrapped your arms around his neck, his arm that rested on the bookshelf moved to band around your waist. You let out a whine when Albedo pulled back to move his head down your neck and move his wet lips to drag lightly over your collarbone.

“You see dove I had something,” between each word was a swipe of his tongue against your most sensitive spot, every puff of his hot breath sent tingles down your spine and goosebumps to flourish everywhere, “To attend to for-”

“ALBEDO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO (Y/N)!?”

“KLEE!?” 

Klee had escaped from solitary confinement with the secret help of Kaeya! She had a secret mission of infiltrating the library to recover her story book that Lisa confiscated from her. It was very important that she got it back, it had all her survival tips and treasure maps! She made sure that Miss Lisa was gone to lunch with Miss Jean before sneaking into the library, the knights that stood guard turned a blind eye to the small girl since they knew she had no explosives. Upon entering she heard a small thud, her active imagination put her on high alert so she ran over to see what was wrong. As she was about to rush over, she remembered that Kaeya said stealth was key in these types of situations. It took Klee a while and a few bumps to quietly sneak down the stairs and cross the squeaky floorboards in the library. When she turned the corner she wasn’t expecting to see big brother Albedo and (Y/N). The two of you instantly separated, you turning away from Klee to recompose yourself. Redoing the buttons that got undone in that rush and fixing your hair as Albedo was silent. Klee stared Albedo down with her arms crossed and an unusual angry look, Albedo just stared back. It was like that for a few seconds before you cleared your throat and turned back around, stifling a laugh at the scene in front of you.

“Albedo what were you doing to them!?” She stomped her little legs over to take your hand and drag you away from Albedo. Putting herself between the two of you as to protect you from him and his mouth. Albedo’s eyes, comically wide, glance to yours to plead for help but you just shrug with a face splitting smile. 

“Y-you’re misunderstanding Klee.” The confident Albedo you knew a few minutes ago was gone and in his place was his blubbering embarrassed self. It wasn’t often you saw this side with Albedo so you savoured every second of it. You knew you could help but why waste such a good opportunity. 

“You always told me seeing is believing! I should trust what I saw and not your words!” You swear you were gonna have jaws of steel with how hard you're clenching them right now. 

“Well- uh you see Klee, me and (Y/N) were…” Albedo never thought his science tips would bite him in the ass this hard. “Kissing.” Honesty is the best policy? 

“I saw kisses in my story books! That was not kissing!!” Right, Albedo forgot Klee had some picture story books about love stories and all kinds of fluff. You could see the blood draining from Albedo’s face as his hands flapped about trying to make up an excuse. And honestly…

“When two people love each other…” It became harder to listen to. 

“Big brother Albedo deserves to be in solitary confinement! Klee goes there when she hurts people so Albedo goes there too.” She reaches her final verdict, her hat bouncing as she does a satisfied nod. By this moment, Albedo’s puffy hair is flattened from how many times he nervously ran his fingers through it and you were holding onto a bookshelf for support to hold in your laughter. 

“How will you be getting Albedo in there Klee?” You ask after composing yourself a little with some deep breaths, ignoring Albedo’s betrayed look. 

“Miss Jean will after I tell her!” Albedo has never been more at loss in his life, he was so used to being able to find an answer to everything or at least be on the right path. But with this, where was he to go. Every route was a dead end and his precious dove, his lifeline, left him stranded. Well there was one thing he could do.

“A little help ple-” His voice cracked. As did the dam holding back your laughter.

You sent Klee off, reassuring her that you were okay and could punish Albedo yourself. The two of you stood in by the table, listening to her grab her book and leave the library before turning to each other. Albedo looked worse than he did after a long night in the lab, hair messy, eyes bloodshot and dry from how wide and unblinking they were moments before. He made sure to clear his throat before speaking to you however when he caught your eye, you were back into your fit of giggles. 

All he wanted was to get his missing morning kiss and instead got a lifetime of embarrassment and a suspicious pat on the back from Kaeya.

[nootgi]

The AUDACITY...Who in all of TEYVAT AND BEYOND said that your writing could be so heckin SUPERB?!

I mean seriously!! The reading is smooth and engaging, and the FLUFF. Don’t even get me started.

WAIT THIS MADE ME BLUSH SO MUCH NFHJVBFEDOF AHHH THIS MADE MY DAY- 

[nootgi]

Hello,do you have a masterlist?

Hi! i dont currently have one, i wasn’t expecting writing this much so i wasn’t ready :’D but it’s in the work! in the meantime ill just tag my stories with nootieml to help!!

[nootgi]

I JUST REALISED ONE OF THE PARAGRAPHS WAS IN THE WRONG ORDER AND WANNA CRY- 

Love? - Kaeya

A/N:// I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS FIC WHILST I WORK ON MY OTHER REQS, I MAY HAVE CRIED A LIL WRITING THIS! I apologise for this story too T^T

Word count: 3k

“What’s love?” Kaeya paused at the question, his paperwork left forgotten on the table.

“Isn’t that a big question~!” He teases Annette, ruffling her hair. She puffs out her reddened cheeks and tries to move away from his hand, pressing Kaeya for an answer.

Keep reading

[nootgi]

Love? - Kaeya

A/N:// I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS FIC WHILST I WORK ON MY OTHER REQS, I MAY HAVE CRIED A LIL WRITING THIS! I apologise for this story too T^T

Word count: 3k

“What’s love?” Kaeya paused at the question, his paperwork left forgotten on the table.

“Isn’t that a big question~!” He teases Annette, ruffling her hair. She puffs out her reddened cheeks and tries to move away from his hand, pressing Kaeya for an answer.

“Have you ever heard the phrase curiosity killed the cat? Though I suppose a baby like you wouldn’t know at such a young age.” He laughs, picking up the glass of grape juice to sip from. No alcohol around the children is what you strictly ordered when Kaeya decided to take Annette to work. For something like take your daughter to work day.

“I’m 6! I’m not a baby and mother says it’s good to be curious.” He couldn’t help the grin that spread across his face at her words. That sounds very like you. The apple doesn’t fall too far from the tree he muses as he looks into Annie’s eyes, they hold the same wild innocence yours do. She has her mother’s eyes.

“Very well then, let me tell you a story.”

It was early April and the Windblume festival was coming to a close. The celebrations, despite coming to an ending, still kept the streets lively. Most of the people of Mondstadt were recovering from a hangover from last night’s heavy drinking but still had smiles on their faces. Kaeya was going for a stroll, to distract himself from the thoughts building in the back of his mind. He looked down at the plaza from where he stood, watching the clean up. It always felt bittersweet, taking down the flower garlands that hung from the buildings or rolling up the green carpets that lined the steps. He didn’t know how but he came to love Mondstadt so much... Well actually he did know. They accepted him for who he is, with all of his flaws and lies, Mondstadt and its people held a part of him he didn’t know he had. His family. And in that moment as windwheel aester petals blew from above, Mondstadt gave him something he’ll always be thankful for. 

“Here’s a flower for our cavalry captain!” You cheered, holding a cecilia flower in front of Kaeya’s face, snapping him out of his thoughts. You snuck up on him, attacking him at his weakest moment with a smile. Even though Windblume was coming to a close, you kept the festive cheer. You were handing out a variety of flowers to everyone in Mondstadt to spread the joy and love to everyone. 

“Such beauty handing me a flower, what did I do to deserve this.” He smirks at your momentary panic, ducking down slightly to be face to face. He takes the flower and smells it, hiding his smile in it’s petals. You scold him for saying such cheesy things to someone he just met. It was funny how even though it was your first meeting, your personalities fit perfectly as one. 

“Don’t you ever feel embarrassed by saying those things?” You adjust the flower that was tucked behind your ear.

“The only embarrassment I feel is that I have nothing in return for this lovely gift.” His hand comes up to fix the flower, tucking it perfectly behind your ear. The white petals glowing against your skin. That one encounter set the tradition of Kaeya and you giving presents back and forth every year during Windblume. Even as the years went on, the present stayed as a simple cecilia flower as an ode to that first meeting. 

“He didn’t believe in love at first sight. You could say it was only something that existed in fairy tales for plot convenience. It takes a lot more than first sight to fall in love but he swore that moment could’ve been it.” He looks back at the child who now climbed into his lap, she placed the red blanket over the two of them to make sure they were both comfortable. Her eyes were fixed on Kaeya, watching with eager eyes to hear more. He holds her close so she doesn’t fall off his lap as he continues his story. 

“Love can be the best feeling in the whole world but it can also be the worst.”

Kaeya stood in front of the crowd of kids with an odd look on his face. It wasn’t one you were used to seeing on his face, it was the look of utter confusion. You walked over to find out what was going on but decided to listen to the conversation first. 

“Sister Barbara said you’d be entertaining us! But this is boring!!” One of the kids said, the others around him nodding and some going far as to cheer. Kaeya didn’t know what to do. He was bad with kids, he couldn’t be mean otherwise Jean would have to deal with the complaints and he most definitely couldn’t use his usual lines. As he tried to think of something to do the kids started to chant ‘let’s play!’ and that’s when you finally decided to enter. 

“Hey there Captain! Need some help?” It was like an angel coming down from the heavens, he swore there was even a halo around your head. The kids, already knowing you, cheered at your entrance. Kaeya watched as you calmed the kids down, getting them to eat lunch and successfully buying time for the two of you to plan something to entertain them. 

“How’d you manage to get into this then Kaeya?” You approach him after giving the last child some apple juice. 

“Jean would normally do this but since it’s been a while since she spent time with her sister I decided to volunteer.” That stunned you for a moment, you heard stories from Amber about how Kaeya always seemed to avoid work and formed an unfair opinion of him in your head. You felt guilty because of those thoughts, you saw how he struggled with those kids but still put himself out there for the sake of Jean and Barbara. “But let’s not tell Jean that.” 

“Would it be so bad for Jean to know the truth?” You ask plainly, ignoring the way Kaeya said the last part of his sentence. 

“Well-” You didn’t even let him finish

“I think the problem you have Kaeya is that you’re too closed off, children are so open and trusting that the only way to get along with them is to do the same.” 

“That can’t be done overnight let alone in an hour (Y/N).” It was the first time Kaeya said your name and it sent shivers down your spine. The very thought of opening up felt dangerous to Kaeya, the last time he opened up the last of his family left him in the dust.

“You’re right in that area but we can take baby steps!” You weren’t deterred by the tall walls he built around himself. You used the word ‘we’. We can take baby steps. That’s all that lingered in Kaeya’s mind, it was like an informal promise from you to him that you’ll be beside him for that journey. 

“Then where do we start, captain cheerful?” You roll your eyes at the nickname but gesture towards the children. 

“We start with them.” That day was one of the best days Kaeya had since his childhood. He never thought hide and seek could be so thrilling or that duck duck goose could be so intense! The kids were more than happy to embrace Kaeya and his awkward aura, teaching him of super secret tactics that no-one would ever know. He found himself learning more about the children and about himself. At times when he feels his guard going back up, he glances over at you and sees you playing with some of the quieter children, bringing them out of their shells. Your smile blended in with the childish joy of the kids around the two of you. Sometimes your eyes caught each other's and you both just shyly laughed it off as kids pulled the two of you away in different directions. It was hard to catch a moment to talk to each other until you took the kids to watch the sunset by Cider lake. Most of the kids were settled on the grass, sitting crossed leg and talking about all the fun they had that day. One of the boys shyly tugged Kaeya’s leg, asking to be carried since his mother always did it for him. He looked towards you for help but you just gave two thumbs up, encouraging him. He carefully picked up the boy, letting him rest on his hip and one arm securing his waist. The boy rested his head on Kaeya's shoulder, using the fur on his shoulder as a pillow to slowly doze off. Kaeya stood still. He didn’t expect the day to go like this let alone carry a sleeping child too. You patted Kaeya’s shoulder to reassure him and the rest of the sunset was spent with whispered words exchanged between the two of you. After such a successful day, the two of you decided to take the kids once every week off of Jean’s hands. 

“Love didn’t make him become a better person magically but instead motivated him to strive for that. She inspired him to try and be a better version of himself. It wasn’t like she was perfect either, they both worked on themselves whilst inspiring each other. That’s the good side of love Annie, but there is a bad side too…” Annette saw Kaeya’s eyes darken a little and she moved her small hands to rest on top of his larger ones to comfort him. 

All Kaeya saw was red. It started off as a light hearted exchange between some treasure hunters that the two of you came across during an adventure. They used the typical story of their cart breaking down and needing help so they could lure adventurers into a trap before robbing them blind. Kaeya already knowing this tried to shut them down before anyone else could fall victim to them. He was going to only use his words since he didn’t want you getting hurt in the crossfire. He knew you could defend yourself but it was too risky with the amount of numbers they had on them, no doubt there were more of them hidden. However his words only seemed to provoke the treasure hunters more, they struck to attack him but the crossbow went astray and hit you in the shoulder instead. It could’ve been a simple flesh wound or a small cut but even the tiniest amount of blood from you sent him off. The area started dropping in temperature, the floor stable floor below the men started to turn into ice and there was a still moment as a singular snowflake drifted down onto the floor. Once it hit the ground, there was a flash and  its delicate crystals were stained with blood. Kaeya stood over the last one with his sword raised to crash down on him till you came from nowhere to hold back his arm.

“Kaeya! Stop this!!” You begged him, looking at his side profile and trying to avoid looking at the bodies that surrounded the two of you. He couldn’t hear you, all he could hear was your scream when you got hit and had tunnel vision. 

“Please stop, you’re scaring me.” You sobbed softly, finally catching his eye. The darkness that clouded his eyes faltered as he put down his sword and embraced you. The man that was on the floor scrambled up to his feet, apologising profusely before running off with a terrified shriek. Kaeya could care less about what he did, he could only think about you now. He felt your shoulders shake from the fear or maybe from the sobs that escaped your body. His heart felt as though it dropped to his stomach, he hurt you. He scared you. When his hand came up to pat your head, you flinched away. It still sticks with him to this day, your tear stained face and eyes filled with fear because of what he was. He hated himself after that day, he felt as though he was back to square one. 

“It can lead you to dangerous things. You could disregard everything and everyone around you and ironically hurt the one you were trying to protect. But you can control all these negatives by simply talking about it with whoever you love. Never run away from it.” 

“Did the lady leave him after that?” Annette asked with tears in her eyes, not wanting to see such a tragic ending for the love story. 

“No she didn’t. When he ran away, she chased after him. She was really stubborn and cornered the poor man!” 

After the incident, Kaeya was put on a suspension from his job. The people of Mondstadt didn’t know any better, thinking it was him taking a small break from his work. Kaeya doesn’t know why Jean kept it a secret but decided to roll with it. He took his suspension as a time to withdraw from you, it was scary how quickly he became so attached to you. It was dangerous for the two of you so he decided himself to end whatever went on between the two of you. When you woke up the next day, you found out about Kaeya’s suspension and tried looking for him to talk things out. It was an impossible task since Kaeya seemed to become air whenever he saw you approaching or when you ask people about his location they all gave different answers. It annoys you to no end. He saves your life and then decides to remove himself from your life. Like hell you’d allow that. So you hatch a plan with Rosaria. 

It was a Thursday night and normally Kaeya would be holed up at work but with his suspension he decided to go to the angel’s share. Rosaria said she would be there in the back corner on the second floor, she told him that she would drink with him since it was boring to drink alone. He arrives earlier than Rosaria and decides to start drinking before she gets there, ordering a bottle of dandelion wine and slowly sipping on it. Minutes turn into hours and before he realises it’s closing time and he isn’t nearly as drunk as he would like to be. Rosaria was a no show and the tavern was completely empty. That’s when Kaeya realised he was caught in a trap, he had nowhere to run as you slowly approached him. You had a really angry look on your face. It was one look, he hates to admit, that scared him. You say nothing as you seat yourself across from Kaeya.

“F-fancy seeing you here (Y/N).” He offers with a meek smile.

“It really is an odd coincidence huh? It feels like it’s been a while since we talked.” You smile, but it isn’t reaching your eyes. That night you both talked about your feelings and cried with each other. Kaeya tells you things he never imagined telling you, about his self-hatred and how he feels as though he doesn’t belong. How the guilt eats him up everyday. You in return comfort him through it all, you might not have much to say back to him but that’s okay because just having someone listen to him was more than enough. Especially if it was you.

He was walking away from your doorstep after dropping you off home when he was stopped by you.

“No matter what happens Kaeya, don’t make my decisions for me! I’m a grownup and I told you all those years ago, WE will take these baby steps together.” You say seriously, holding his gaze with your fiery eyes. As he looked up at you, he felt his heartbeat pick up and a terrible realisation came down on him. Oh.

“I promise.” He was in love. 

“When you love someone Annette, it isn’t all black and white. You have to work to keep your relationship going, when something bad happens you talk about it, celebrate the small wins alongside the big ones. At moments you can feel lost in love, know you aren’t alone in this world. And once you find that special person, never let them go.” He pats the girl’s head as she brings her hand up to rub at her sleepy eyes. 

“Would there ever be a moment you would let go of love?” She asked innocently. As Kaeya opened his mouth to respond, the sound of the door opening interrupted the two of them.

The two look towards who came in and suddenly all the sleepiness in Annette’s body seems to leave her.

“Mommy!” She shouted excitedly, jumping into your open arms. You lift her up and spin her around as she giggles happily. Kaeya watched the exchange with fond eyes, standing up to walk towards them.

“So what did you do today?” You ask, it seems like an innocent question but Kaeya knows it's you checking to see if the two of you got up to any devious acts. 

“I learnt about love!” Annette says proudly, she holds her hands against her hips and proudly puffs her chest out. Kaeya laughs softly, as you turn to him with a curious gaze. 

“Oh really? Who taught you?” Diluc walks in behind you, laughing softly at Annette. Annette notices his arrival, reaching out for him to take her off of you. She laughs when Diluc tickles her sides as he adjusts his grip on her.

“Uncle Kaeya!” Her red hair bounces as she turns to point to Kaeya who was standing a few steps away from the family. 

She had her mother’s eyes and her father’s hair.

‘There can be a moment Annie. Sometimes there can be a moment when you realise another person can make them happier than you ever could but I hope from the bottom of my heart that, you, my dearest niece will never experience that.’

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My Captain - Beidou

A/N:// AHHHH I WROTE THIS AFTER THE HORRIBLE GRAMMY RESULTS! SO TAKE THIS BEIDOU. I wrote this with no direction and nearly went into 18+ but I think I’ll save that for next time, i might just add it on to this post since this is pretty short. 

The wind blew softly, its blows being caught in the white sails of the incoming ship. You watched as the ship slowly floated over, your body was practically hanging off the railings so you could look closely at the ship. The people at the harbour paid no attention to you, already used to you being there at the end of every month to search for your love. When the Crux returned from their voyages, it tended to be around the end of the month. The fact was pointed out to you by Ningguang after noticing you longingly stare out of the window towards the harbour. She laughed and teased you, taking delight in the red flush on your ears. She supported you and Beidou but you were her assistant for the upcoming project and couldn’t let your eyes stray. Whenever you were left on shore you would spend the days in suffocating silence, used to Beidou’s voice filling the void. 

When you’re unable to spot the familiar mark of the Crux, your excited shoulders sag in disappointment. Not this month, again. It was getting harder to be away from her for so long. You normally would join her on the longer voyages however things in Liyue kept you chained to it’s land whilst your love sailed away. You stand there for a while, enjoying the smell of the ocean in the evening air in an attempt to pep yourself up again. It worked a little bit since your body relaxed and the weight of disappointment lessened slightly but there was still a pout on your lips. 

“Hey there sailor, why the long face?” A voice shouted at you from behind, you spun around quickly to see the one person you longed to see. She stood there with her arms open and the wide grin on her face grew with every step she took towards you. Unable to hold yourself back you ran towards her, the others on the harbour just shook their heads and laughed as you threw yourself into Beidou’s arm. She pulled you as close as possible, lifting you up with her hands under your thighs and letting you wrap them around her waist. She adores holding you like this, being able to carry the most important treasure in the world was all she wanted during her time away. Your arms came up to wrap around her neck, resting your forehead on hers. She begins to walk towards the storage area to get some much needed privacy.

“I missed you.” You say softly, chest still heaving from the short sprint. Your eyes looked into her red one and you both were silent for a second. She lets your breath recover before leaning up to kiss you softly. Your hands come up to cup her cheeks, tilting your head to the side to let her lips press harder onto yours. Losing yourself in the kiss you don’t notice being pressed up against the wall, being held up by Beidou’s weight. You couldn’t help the little whimper that leaves you when she moves one of her hands up from your waist to go under your shirt. Your heart rate began to to pick up in anticipation, you missed her warmth and needed her desperately. 

“Mmm I know my sailor missed me, but we can’t get too carried away now can we?” She broke the kiss, smiling at your chasing lips. She left a soft peck on your pouty lips before pulling herself away completely. With your feet back on the ground, you become more aware of your surroundings. Your cheeks burned as you realised that you got so carried away in somewhere so public. 

“Ah look at your cute face, it looks like someone’s been drinking without me!” Beidou’s signature laugh filled your ears and you jumped up to quickly silence her. She simply took the hand that tried to cover her mouth in hers and intertwined your fingers. Her amusement never stopped as she walked through Liyue holding your hand, telling you all about the new perils she encountered and how much she missed going to drink with her favourite first mate. You met up with Ningguang, who teamed up with Beidou to tease you even further,  you swore that your head was going to explode with how much blood was rushing through there. You had tea in the Jade Chamber, Beidou’s voice filling the halls once again and while Ningguang can pretend she didn’t miss it, you caught her hiding her smile behind her teacup. It felt like a huge veil was lifted off your eyes, the torch glow was brighter and usual chatter felt softer on your ears. That was just the effect Beidou had on you. 

You went to your usual bar, met with your usual friends but even then Beidou’s heart has never felt so fulfilled. You were her other half and not having you around felt wrong. She may not show it as much, but the voyage took a lot more out of her. She missed having your support on the seas, even as a captain it was nice to have someone to lean on especially if it’s you. When the burden of the captain became too much, you were there to support her through it all. When there was an unruly crewmate, you would reassure her that the choices she makes are just and accepted by the others, reducing her worries. The ocean breeze was nowhere near as refreshing as seeing you asleep in her bed, curled up and waiting for her to engulf you in her arms.“You’re being quiet. What’s wrong?” It was just like you, always being able to read her. You were so small but your impact was like a cannonball, leaving her all burning up and you with an easy entrance into her heart. “Nothing, I’m just thinking about this moment and what will come next.” she whispers softly back to you. You looked at her with your eyebrows raised, wanting her to go on further. “We still have to finish what we started on the harbour Sailor.” Soft plush lips pressed against your neck, promising you that the night is still very young and successfully distracting you from your own question.

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Crystal Kisses - Childe

A/N:// I wrote this for a friend last year and decided to spread it out, take gn!reader and Childe on their secret mission!

Word count: 1200

“How does that even stay on your head?” They asked, completely distracted from the task at hand. The duo stood on the edge of a cliff, hidden by a VERY out of the place bush, looking down at the target. 

“Magic. Now focus.” He kept his answer short, needing full concentration to line up the shot. It was crucial that he didn’t miss. The whole plan hinged on it. If he messed up now, neither of them would see the light of day again. Their target stood in the centre of a ruin, lost in thought as his assailant drew back the drawstring.

Just as Childe’s fingers released the bowstring, his partner decided to shout ‘BULLSHIT’ on the top of their lungs, causing their target to notice them. However it was far too late for him, his hat was pierced by a hydro arrow and the stream of water doused the 6th harbinger. Scaramouche’s murderous roar echoed in the gorge as the duo turned to each other. Without a word they took off sprinting down the cliff, away from the 5ft storm that was coming straight for them.

“You just had to shout.” Childe says with a low voice. All he hears in answer was a sheepish giggle and somehow the anger starts to soften around the edges. 

“Oops-? Hey wait!!!” They were lagging behind Childe and his stupidly long legs and the dark electric aura behind was gaining on them. Panicking, they reach out for his hand. He doesn’t hesitate to wrap his hand firmly around their’s and drag them along. By that point, Childe won’t lie but he forgot to be angry. The two ran across the open field with the biggest shit eating grin, holding hands. 

They came to a cave opening to an old mine shaft and decided to hide inside. There wasn’t much light inside the cave, the only source being the dim candles and the glowing crystals. Childe flopped down onto a rock, panting slightly to catch his breath but it proved to be difficult due the laughter constantly bubbling out of him. The other groaned in embarrassment, sliding down the wall to hide their face in their knees. Eventually the cave became silent as the laughter trailed off.

“Tartaglia! I’m so sorry-“ They rushed to say, unmoving from their shame cocoon. 

“Bullshit.” Childe says after a beat of silence and loses himself again in a fit of laughter. The shame proving too much for them, his partner stood up instantly and tried walking out of the cave with a pout. Before they could reach the exit, Childe had them trapped between the wall and his chest. His arms caged them against the wall, on either side of their head. They tried to move but Childe’s dark eyes had them fully paralysed. There was no escape other than maybe crawling between his legs? ‘No! That won’t work, he’ll just close his legs and crush me-‘ Noticing they were lost in thought, Childe moved one of his gloved hands to tilt their chin up. Only when his forehead came to rest on theirs did they snap out of it. 

“H-Hi.” They lamely squeaked out, the slight squirming below him bought satisfaction that no battle could. (Sadistic motherfu-) 

“Going somewhere Darling~?” His voice was barely above a whisper, whilst his voice sounded menacing his eyes told a different story. Childe’s eyes seemed to glow brighter than the crystals in the dim cave. Amusement swam wild in his blue eyes along with a hidden tendrils of tenderness. His eyes promised so much yet said so little, they could never understand the enigma that is Childe. However one thing was for sure, with him they never had anything to fear. Just as they were about to respond they couldn’t help but let their focus shift to his mask again. 

“Seriously how does that stay up there?” They unconsciously reached out to touch it, with a sigh he pressed his face closer to theirs. Even the smallest breath Childe let out was felt against their lips. The hand dropped midair, falling onto his shoulder and gripped onto his jacket tightly. 

“Even with me right in front of you like this, all you think of is my mask…” His other arm left the wall to slide around their waist. Their bodies pressed against each other like a moth to a flame, “What will it take for you to look at me darling?” By then his words are barely heard as their lips finally meet. His lips first touched their upper lip and his thumb moved from stroking circles on their cheeks to slowly pulling down their bottom lip. He moved his lips slowly, sliding over their mouth fully, letting his tongue enter their mouth. The kiss was slow but the passion behind it made their eyes shut and knees feel weak. They fell more into Childe’s embrace which he welcomed happily. Their hands moved up slowly up his chest, one resting on the base of his neck and the other tangled into his orange hair. Before they could get lost in each other’s embrace, they pulled away to catch their breath. They looked shyly away from him, cheeks flushed and softly breathless. They pressed their fingers against their own lips and suddenly alarm bells were ringing in their mind. They were too distracted to notice Childe’s intense stare, he watched intently as if to burn this image to memory. A sight he never wanted to forget. 

“Is that all you can take Dar-“ He was cut off as they jumped up to kiss him, the surprise sent Childe a step back but he caught himself. He found he couldn’t close his eyes with them this close, he watched their eyes that were screwed shut, the telling red blossoming on the tip of their ears and couldn’t help but smile into the kiss. They were too tense and doing it all wrong. He let them take the lead but let his hand on their cheek left to the back of their neck to tickle them slightly. It made them relax into the kiss and softly giggle into the kiss. With a shy grin they pushed him away again to cover their neck.

“Stop, you know I’m ticklish!” He smiled and waved his hands in the air to surrender.

“I’m sorry, I can’t help where my hands wander!” 

“Bullshit.” His lazy grin showed not even a drop of sincerity as he found his way back to holding them in his arms, the mood in the cave took a fun twist. In contrast to the deep passionate kisses from before they moved into small pecks as they joke around with each other. Small teasing remarks from Childe and snarky comebacks from them, shutting the other up with just a simple press of their lips. They moved from standing to being sat on the mine floor with them on his lap. Just as they try to get back into the mood, they run their fingers through his hair and the thump of Childe’s mask falling to the floor broke the mood. Childe started to laugh in the kiss, his laughter contagious as they started laughing with him. They both looked disheveled with messy hair and bright red lips. 

“Who would’ve thought magic would be such a cock blo-” A resonating slap sounded around the cave. 

(By this point if you’re wondering what is taking Scaramouche so long to catch up, well… he doesn’t have enough stamina left to climb the mountain and eventually relented as he realised his hat is still stuck on the pillar.)

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MOTHERFUCKWR IM CRUONH

AHHAHAHA WAIT TILL THE XIAO PROMPT THATS THE REAL TEARS