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Wade "Deadpool" Wilson™

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I don't think wade is built for this kind of weather...

Still image ^

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rpf 👍

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oh look! a curious link! i wonder where it leads

i think i saw another link around here too

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I'm talkin' nativities and sweet baby Jeez, Fat honey hams, Mariah Carey jams, Feliz Navidad, and the birth of our God!

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is this anything

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Wade got himself not a wolverine, but a huge adamantium cat

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Ryan Reynold as Agent Richard Messner in Smokin' Aces (2006) dir Joe Carnahan

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Night terrors

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Happy Halloween!!

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Kitten boop

Gif from @wildcard-wolverine

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my favorite Ryan characters/performances in no particular order:

Paul Conroy in Buried (2010)

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okay i guess we're figuring out how tumblr works now wowza

he had a nightmare :((

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thinking once again about how wade's endless rambles, mostly coming from the mess of voices inside his gooped-up head, are able to drown out the screaming voices inside logan's head.

thinking about how cassandra offered to silence those voices for logan, but logan probably doesn't want that in the first place. those are voices of his friends. his tether to his horrible decisions but also: the people in his past. just like the suit he kept on his skin.

however much of a relief it was to not hear them, silencing them is the last thing logan wants.

but wade is able to give him something louder than those voices. a noisy reminder that life goes on. a new annoying tether to the present and the future. pushing him to stop walking in circles and keep going.

"it's like an armadillo fucked a gremlin! angrily!"

stupid. stupid stupid stupid. words really just fall out of his mouth with the velocity of shooting stars.

and as wrong as this may sound, as much as wade hates himself for it, logan is forever grateful for whatever made wade such a loud, stupid, blabbering mess.

crossposted from twt with some edits

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logan, watch out!

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wade has been filling every single second of silence with "apateu apateu" for weeks now and it's taken everything in logan to not get a chalkboard to scrape his claws on instead

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I keep thinking about the line "You're not welcome here, you're not welcome anywhere" because that means that Logan was driven away everywhere he went, that he was unwelcome at every turn. I just can't help but wonder what Logan was doing to care for himself for all those years after the incident. Like did he always have a place to sleep at night? Did he manage to get a meal in him every day or did he go days without eating? When he eventually did get kicked out of a bar after drinking himself to the point of blacking out, was it normal for him to just wake up in an alley or on a bench somewhere? Logan didn't even try to fight back with the bartender, did he ever just let people beat him up because it's what he thought he deserved? Did he ever get dumped on the edge of town somewhere after he got jumped by some anti-mutant assholes for daring to step into a motel to get a place to sleep?

Can you imagine what he felt when Wade asked him to stay with him at his apartment? Someone actually thinking about his needs, his wellbeing for once instead of turning him away? The feeling of being able to take a shower, to be able to get regular meals, to have a real bed to sleep in at night? Do you think Logan feels overwhelmed by Wade's kindness because he was just surviving for so long he forgot what it was like to have a home? For Wade it's so easy to provide for Logan, it's as natural as breathing. "Of course we can order takeout, what do you want to eat? You pick tonight, peanut, my treat." And then he's so shocked when Logan breaks down at such a simple thing but to Logan it's more kindness than anyone has ever shown him for decades? Do you think Al ever senses that Logan is not used to being taken care of, so she holds his hand and tells him that he's okay? That he's safe now, he doesn't have to worry about a thing, and she has to rub his back when he starts crying because he's not used to such kind words?

Can you imagine how Wade feels when he wakes up at night to find Logan crying while he's holding him so tightly, and he finds out it's not because he had a nightmare but because he finally feels loved and safe and taken care of? And how that fucks Wade up because *he* finally felt loved and accepted regardless of what he looked like or what he did with his life? And then they lay there crying into each other because they're both so grateful that they have each other?