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just saw someone describe neil’s sexuality as “im not hungry, but I could eat if you’re paying” and that’s sending me so bad rn

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I think nothing really speaks to Neil's complex character the way Nora's answer to someone asking what's Neil's favorite memories are in the EC does where she said that both coming home from a run to find Andrew napping with their cats and Riko being shot in the head are some of his top favorites.

That's Neil/Nathaniels favorite thing: domestic bliss and the violent death of his enemies

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Andrew pov Kevin pov GIVE ME NICKY POV I wanna see reliable footage of Aaron's whitest dancing ever all tipsy in the gay bar

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Aaron goes into neurosurgery. Every time he cracks opens someone’s skull to heal it, fix it, find what’s broken, do you think he thinks of the time he splattered a different brain all over the bedroom floor of a house he once lived in? Do you think he remembers the first skull he cracked open, this time in protection of his twin, his mirror image? Do you think the one time he was faster than Neil Josten is the first thing that crossed his mind?

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And Kevin has two hands. One for Exy racquet and one for whatever situationship is happening in the moment, just choose for him because he has no time or means to chose anything for himself.

JEAN HAS TWO HANDS! ONE FOR JEREMY AND ONE FOR RENEE. AND JEREMY HAS TWO HANDS. ONE FOR JEAN AND ONE FOR KEVIN. AND RENEE HAD TWO HANDS ONE FOR JEAN AND ONE FOR ALLISON

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Viktor has spent his life accepting that he’s gonna die at a young age, but in a world where everyone dies Viktor stays alive and gets old.

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Why is this the first time I’m noticing Viktor still has a brace on the leg?

Happy Jayvik week!

Day 3: Evolution

Evolution and Progress go hand in hand, today's prompt concerns evolution as a plot point from the series, or the evolution of a relationship and dynamics.

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It haven’t work out for Neil with Ravens, because he’s a ginger.

As soon as they’ve started considering not-brunette people into the Perfect Court it all went sideways.

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Nicky and twinyards

Nicky never thought he could become a savior. Or anything at all, if he`s being honest.

It`s almost laughable to imagine him as anything but an inconvenience. His parents, schoolmates, and church members always gave him that consoling smile when he talked too much or laughed too loudly.

He didn`t really know that he was suffocating until he landed in Germany. It was the first clean and hopeful breath he had ever had. It lasted not for long, but it changed everything.

One messy call and many chaotic discussions later, he found himself on the plane to Columbia. He felt confident enough to hold his breath for a while. But Aaron and Andrew had no such luxury.

He’s met with icy stares, snarky comments, and aggression. Nicky`s bed is cold and empty, nothing like what he had in Germany. But he can tolerate it. Years of living with his parents taught him how to hide his emotions and real feelings. And what was there to hide? It’s teenagers, he expected it. He should have. 

At least they’re not with Luther. At least they have their own space and no fear of retaliation. At least he can give them their own rooms. 

Sometimes, he wonders if they care at all about him. Maybe they’d put their foot down with Luther. Or they would just accept it all and see no problems with his worldviews, they’re straight after all. 

Then comes an attack. His mother once told him that he’d diè like that - in some filthy alley with other sinners. Maybe she’d laugh about it, mocked him for not listening, doubting her advice.

But he’d say that she was wrong.

Because Andrew did come and protect him. In the following weeks, Aaron frequently pulled him aside for cleansing and took meticulous care of his wounds. When everyone else pressured them, they stood united, even if it was just for a fleeting moment.

So that’s enough. Nicky can get up for another day, make breakfast, clean the bathroom, go to work, leave cacao on the lower shelf, talk with Erik, breathe chill night air after the shift, lock the front door, accept the hugs from a way too big bed, and keep moving forward. 

Just one step after another. 

Till he can fully breathe into his lungs.

Till they all can feel the hope and fresh whiff.

Till they need still him.

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My “favourite” thing to see - annoyed creators that made incredible queer coded couples of “friends, partners, colleagues”, but don’t want to admit them as gay because of their stubbornness and “it was not where they were going”.

Meanwhile the fandom is creating the most heart wrenching arts, edits, fics about them. And even non-shippers are raising their brows and joining the chat.

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writing is the most insane hobby it's like,

is it easy? no

is it fast? also no

but is it fun? well,

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was this not the actual dialogue?? 🤔

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I was reading a fic and there was a line how Andrew’s expression was excruciatingly bored, and how good he was at hiding his emotions.

And suddenly I’ve remembered it’s in the USA. And I’m Slavic, so I’ve been going around my life just like Andrew. Maybe it’s also an autistic trade.

But yeah, Andrew would feel super comfortable around Slavic people, we get him more than anyone who wears a fake smile.