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misunderstandings incoming…

fanart for Existential Crisis Mode, an absolutely amazing fic written by @luciaintheskyainthi seriously this fic has me waiting on hands and knees for every update it’s so good

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so yall remember that ALNST x OLNF AU i had….

casey as till 😋

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hihi!! its ur secret santa🎉 excited to write for casey hes so cute i wanted to ask ifff i can know caseys relationship w ren and opal as well? thaaank u. I might ask more questions as i draft‼️ very excited

hi hi!! i’d like to think that casey and ren are decently good friends, not as close as casey and tamarack, but still good to the point where they can hang out together and not have it be awkward (if that makes any sense 😭)

as for opal and casey, they have a really good relationship! it’s a close mother-son bond, i guess you could say casey’s a bit of a mama’s boy too, theyre pretty chill but affectionate/loving with each other :)

sorry if this doesn’t make much sense, i just woke up lol 😭

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new omnistis/cult au art!! (cas's a lil anxious lol)

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soooo

would yall be interested in an “ask the omnistis(cult) au characters” series thing 😋

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im going to play olnf with a trans oc wish me luck (i am afraid of crying)

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retagging this LMAO

ALL OF THEM TOGETHER YIPPEEEEE

(I don’t like how Qiu’s sheet came out but it’s ok)

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TW CREEPY FACE/HORROR (this is about my cult au for olnf)‼️‼️

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the ‘guard dogs’ that roam the cult’s halls after lights out :)

sooo we’re finally actually getting into the horror parts of the AU! im experimenting with one or two things with this universe, and dw, more content is coming!! This was just a little test to see if it’d come out the way i wanted it to 🫶

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I wanted to make one more post about this, but otherwise I won't be talking about it anymore.

The most recent post by GBpatch pretty clearly shows why GB is not firing Rose. And I do NOT agree with this anonymous person's behaviour. While I think some of the messages are unprofessional in my eyes, it isn't my place to police how others talk to each other, and I would like to apologize for even making a comment on that in the first place.

While I do think the comment on Tamarack was strange, I don't think that was even the worst part, and I'm not going to focus on it anymore.

My problem is my conversation with Rose. To me, what he said felt transphobic. This is what I'm mainly focused on. Those screenshots of Rose's discord conversation? They should've never got out. And honestly I feel like me bringing up my conversation with Rose after this whole thing happened might've made it worse for them.

For that I want to apologize. But that doesn't change the fact that Rose did actually say things that were transphobic. I don't support people hating on them for no reason and saying racist things (at all. It's actually disgusting), but I dislike when someone brings up an actual criticism, and people call them racist. I also dislike the people who used this as an excuse to be racist for no reason, and just wanted a reason to make childish insults against Rose. I don't think Rose should be fired.

But I do think that this actually needs to be addressed. I don't appreciate the things they said about trans men's bodies, or the fact that they called me racist and transphobic for disagreeing with them. It's not about wanting them to feel bad about it. It's about how I feel this may affect the game. These close-minded (in my opinion) views on trans people's bodies are unacceptable.

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GB Patch Games: Sensitivity Reader Update

Okay, well I am able to make another statement before Rose does. I can now explain much more easily why I didn’t fire Rose. There’s been new developments with the leakers. The people behind this have doxed Rose’s discord account (please don’t go looking for it) and also shared a screenshot of an email that was sent to my support address months ago. They believe that incriminates us somehow, but really all it’s done is shown in broad daylight what they were doing and why I was defending Rose so much. If I had brought up that email as a connection to this myself people understandably would’ve thought I was making a conspiracy.

However, it is out now. Here is the story- a few months ago someone who wanted to remain anonymous sent me an email with a screenshot where Rose called me a cracker. And I told them I appreciated the concern but it’s alright, was there evidence of Rose being unkind to players? They had nothing. No response.

As an aside, yes, I have been aware for a long time that Rose uses crude language when talking about me. That doesn’t mean I’ve hidden how evil they were from players. It means I’m allowed to choose what I’m comfortable with. That original “reveal” didn’t shock or upset me in any way. Our Life is a sensitive, wholesome game, but I’m a full-grown adult. I’m not innocent or pure. The game I released before OL is XOXO Blood Droplets. Something I wrote and released to the public is full of crude jokes, curse words, and violence. It’s cartoonish and comical, but edgy. Rose themselves likes to BS with bad words and I’m not accepting abuse because I think getting called a pussy is funny. I know Rose doesn’t hate me or wish me any harm. Rose also isn’t causing “discourse” for me and my games on purpose, they were joking that bringing up serious topics is “discourse” to some people. Ironically, the leakers who did this are trying to make some “discourse” on purpose.

Regardless, I initially thought that email was from someone earnestly worried for me and that they moved on when it was clear I was fine. But that’s not what happened. Them and at least one other person have been waiting for months to bring this up again. They went through almost a year’s worth of Rose’s private posts to collect as many unflattering screenshots as they could, and then they didn’t send them to me. They posted them publicly. I had a suspicion from the get go that it was the same person/people from before who couldn’t prove anything to me in private. And if true, how horrible is it that a bunch of the comments they shared were crude language towards me, something they already knew I’d brush off as nothing. They decided for me that it was wrong and they wanted the rest of the players to do the same. Or even less charitably, those extra posts were simply there to make Rose look as bad and untrustworthy as possible and they didn’t care that I was comfortable with it. I could not explain everything we were thinking/feeling at first, but behind the scenes we were discussing how this was personally motivated and not a knee-jerk act without forethought. And we do know for certain at least the main people involved now, and they do have personal issues with Rose.

Also, if you still believe that they just wanted to help the game at any length because Rose is that huge of a risk, showing that email and framing something innocuous about me (not fainting at the word “cracker” and politely being open to more proof) as serious “evidence of wrongdoing” at GB Patch Games makes me believe they want to smear Rose so bad they’ll try to turn players against me as well. Plus, the post is framed as “this email was anonymously sent to me”, but we know from account details that the people who could’ve gotten those screenshots of the discord and email are the same people who sent that email and started this situation, which is embarrassing. I’ve confirmed the screenshots shared in the email to me and the original public post came from the same private, “venting-safe” discord server. There’s very few people in there. We know it’s still you and not a separate source. I can’t prove they think I’m stupid or in their way, but I can’t see how anything they’re doing is trying to be beneficial to the creation of OL: NF. They told me in the email they’d give me more evidence if I requested it and I was ready to know, but instead they went silent for months and then did this.

I want it to be clear that this doesn’t mean players can’t wonder if Rose has enough experience to be a sensitivity reader right now, or to worry they’re so invested in the game that it’s going to effect how objective they are with their feedback, or to say that Rose is flawless and has never done anything hurtful. However, I hope you can understand why I was on Rose’s side and couldn’t just fire them over this. It felt so incredibly unfair. If another person tries to get their way by doing this in the future, I will not hail them as a hero and immediately fire at the target. And I don't tolerate any racial harassment of any kind to anyone on my team.

If those people want to continue to share Rose’s private posts in retaliation, you can fuck off. If you somehow reveal now that Rose is secretly a murderer, I’m not gonna apologize and say I was so wrong about you. If you had tons of evidence of Rose being horrible to players, you should’ve sent it all to me and with full context to begin with in the email like you offered to do. I just don’t understand.

Any players who like to see someone’s least flattering points portrayed in the worst possible way and continue flocking to the leaks as fandom drama, I don’t want you in this fandom. I don’t want you to enjoy my games.

Anyone who has been truly hurt by this and are left confused and angry, I do completely understand that. I didn’t know how to handle this, and it made a lot of people not know how to keep trusting me. I am still looking into getting a community manager to help me better communicate with players, especially when something serious happens. And I’ll always be around for you to reach out to if you have doubts about anything.

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Our Life fandom you good? Like on one hand ive got Olba doing an event and then on the other i got Olnf with me like

As much as i love participating in communities and fandoms and such like i can't handle online drama so i choose not to engage that much with them. Its just so confusing once it gets loud enough to finally reach my ears that im just nosy neighbor sweeping the porch watching stuff happen. Like do i really want context? How much do i care?

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New fic!! This idea has been stuck in my head for MONTHS and I just needed to feed yall as well 🙏

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forgot to share this cult au tammy redesign, oops!!

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sneak peak of renee in the cult au, plus her role in the whole story

renee was one of the townspeople who were kidnapped by the cult, she was taken and is one of the possible victims of the cults rituals :)

more to come soon!!

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1 Day - First Meet

\To feel that beautiful moment again, I replayed it again OwO\

My Luca's Shock Variations

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OLNF Week Day 7: Alternate Universe

i loveeee the alice in wonderland aesthetic. i like the wacky and whimsical vibe as well as the eeriness that it exudes. i considered many other au’s which i may eventually end up doing something with in the future but for now…. alice in wonderland au!!

their roles in this au weren’t decided with their personalities in mind. i just wanted to draw them in cool outfits!!

nadine as alice

cheyomi as time (not sure if they were a character in the book but the character exists in one of the disney movies)

qiu as the mad hatter and tamarack as the queen of hearts! @olnfweek2024

a little outfit reference i made before working on the final post. designing outfits is simultaneously fun and stressful. i take it too seriously </3

i know blue is the color most people associate alice with but i think purple suits nadine rlly well

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silly doodles of the gayest girls