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Observation: I'm high and just saw a dumbass commercial for Viagra.

What happens when you're a product aka a child of the "high self esteem movement of the 70's", and your free love parents high esteemed dreams weren't fulfilled? Fucking viagra is what happens. I wonder this while smoking a joint and angrily watching viagra ads on Hulu...it's the future, 2017, and your married parents are resentful and angry, but have no ambitions to change any of their mental state, its continued false optimism of everything is fine: "I have a pension". But then when the feel good feeling wears off, you gain a few pounds, the mirror shows you the reality of life, and you ache when you wake up in the morning...who the fuck is gonna continue with the positive optimism bullshit? So the years pass, the kids move out, and ITS JUST THEM, alone...in their house, hating life just a little bit. So they go on vacation and drink, or gets high on some fitness kick to look 30 or they invest in a small, annoying, yapping barking dog and makes her spouse push the fucking large rat with a personality around in a goddamn baby carriage because she doesn't like him and doesn't want to suck his dick under his stomach. The obsession with eternal youth and feeling good, turns into resentment and blissful ignorance: I can get a pill to make my dick hard, I can get a new hip, pussy, untie my tubes, I CAN LIVE FORFUCKINGEVER WITH MODERN MEDICINE...despite my age. Fucking hate those fucking viagra commercials.

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Weed babe.

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Observation: ...

I guess people don't get in bad moods...ever. They are just so happy with life and everything it has to offer anytime: "Got dumped. Still happy!" "Got fired. Still happy!" "______ died. Still happy!" I stepped in cat shit this morning. I broke up with my boyfriend 2 days before Christmas. I still have shampoo in my hair. I hate my job. I'm gonna be 37 in February. Oh and my roommate insists on having sex with the door open. I'm not happy. I haven't had decent sex in a while, it's starting to get to me. I've read a thousand self-help books and put their words into action. I go to yoga and cry after every session. I'm starting a vision board for next year. I want to fall in love with myself and someone else. I want a car. I want my own place and I also want to stop bartending. But honestly if you were to ask me "how's it going and how are you": "I'm not fucking happy. And I do not think I am going to be "happy" for a very long time. Grateful...but salty as fuck."

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Observation...the actual fuck...

...am I doing wrong. Didn't even bother to ask 'what's wrong'. Next the courthouse to start finalizing my divorce. Another failure. Bills and debt and rent and money money money I don't have. Birthday present, why did I buy that fucking thing? Do I bother giving the damn thing? Children getting older. I'm getting older. I'm fucking old. Motherfucking crap shit fuck FUCK FUCK fuckkkkkk. I don't want to adult today I really don't want to deal with anything. F U C K. This. Day. 😡😡😡😡😡 Sigh...I need coffee and food. And a hug. And someone to listen and not judge...just listen to me.

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Wrote two articles about punk music in a local weekly circulation. The teenager in me is jumping for joy, the adult me is laying down. Keep dreaming and #dowork. #metalmommalife #savannah912 #freelancewriter #dosavannah (at Savannah, Georgia)

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😘👌🏾#womancrushwedensday #blackgirlmagic #metalmommalife #savannah912 (at Savannah, Georgia)

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Brown skin💕💕💕💕💕. #metalmommalife #savannah912 #girlsruleboysdrool #blackgirlsrock #blackgirlmagic #afropunk

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Observation: be a human

There's a pressure to be something when all you have to be is nothing except what you already are. Even though we trick ourselves into thinking we have to put on an act or be what others want us to be so we don't feel alone or left out. Stop denying the awkward moments felt when you aren't sure you are doing something the right way, because there is no right way for anything. You are human, not a machine, not a robot. Machines are designed to make things easier, they are already designed to do things the right way. But. You aren't a machine. You're a human being and humans are fucking weird. We have a range of emotions that vary, we get scared, we get angry, we get happy and the emotional fuckery list goes on. But the moment you stop trying to make things right, forcing situations and learn to shut the fuck up, you actually take the pressure off to be right. Or to have these insane expectations to live your life the right way. You take the pressure off to be doing what's considered the best thing. Because you're alive and that's THE BEST THING. You are already where you're supposed to be. You exist. You breathe. You love. You hate. You smile. You cry. You're human. And that's right enough.

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Feelin light and free today. ☀️👌🏾💕 (at Savannah, Georgia)

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Meet The Ladies Behind The PEN15 Club, Our New Favorite Dick-Themed Coloring Book

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#NowPlaying Low Key by Tweedy

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Observation: I give up...

...I work hard, take care of my kids, take care of myself, financially independent, intelligent, funny, witty, attractive and down to earth. WHAT THE FUCK AM I MISSING FOR A GUY TO SIMPLY BE NICE TO ME. That's all I fucking want. Be nice to me and hang out sometimes. I'm done. The fuckboys have worn me down to the point of I just simply don't care to be excited if someone likes me texts me hangs out etc. they have won, they have beaten me to a pulp of not caring or wanting to care. They won. Fuckboys of Savannah have made the last normal chick just exhausted and comfortable never getting laid or having the courage to talk to another guy ever again. Hope they enjoy their winners party and talking shit about the girls they have broken. 🤘🏽😑🔫

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It's really not that difficult to understand fellas...am I right ladies? #NowPlaying Give It To Me Right by Melanie Fiona

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You’ll eat the whole thing and learn your lesson