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Burnout is so real, but these precious fur babies make everything better.

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Sometimes in this world I forget that people can be kind and thoughtful.

Then, when I'm on the receiving end of that kindness, I feel guilty for inconveniencing someone. What did I ever do to deserve such kindness?

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Me: *trying to write*

Nova: Look at me. I'm adorable.

Nimbus: *getting the good sleep* She'll learn...

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Always together

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Can we call them best friends/found family yet?

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Also just. as a personal update.

After the snow days, I was hit by the flu. So my priority has been getting better, helping the cats acclimate to each other, and getting back to work. So I will get to responding to people and updating at some point! I have not forgotten fandom! <3

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I was so afraid to adopt her because he might not like a kitten in his territory.

ARE YOU SEEING THIS?!

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Night 1: Success

Nimbus is accepting -insert name here-'s scent. One hiss, and then just intense curiosity at the bedroom door.

She's interested in his scent from the other side of the door too.

Maybe they will learn to tolerate each other. Best case scenario, they will be best friends. If only!!!

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I already have a gray and white cat, Nimbus.

Both Nimbus and Nebula are scientific names, related to clouds (even if Nebula is a bit of a stretch, with interstellar clouds).

Nova is short and sweet, space-themed, and she is a new, bright little star. Her eyes can also be related to stars?

Please help a girl out.

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It is amazing how peaceful and inspired I feel when I don't spend the majority of my day pulled in 20 million different directions, managing dysregulated mini-humans.

There is space for me to do what I want. I have felt inspired to write twice in the past week. TWICE. @_@

This is unheard of.

I still miss my mini-humans though.

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All I want is to

cuddle my cat

drink coffee

eat comfort chocolate

sleep

read

daydream soft moments of my OTP

outline ideas for aforementioned fluff fanfic

be actively involved in fandom

binge-watch shows

reflect on myself and everything else

easily pay for basic necessities

get organized

feel safe in my home

juggle ALL THE THINGS

conquer the feeling of Constant Overwhelm

ask questions without judgment

understand the world

make a difference

model inclusivity and kindness

teach kids to read

write gay porn

Is that too much to ask?

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I'm hearing that I should look into working at McDonalds instead.

I'm struggling to pay my bills September-June too (despite basically living in my classroom during the school year) because teacher pay is so low. And not to mention admin coming for you on top of parents and politicians.

Everything is ALWAYS the teacher's fault. ALWAYS.

ALSO you must be a miracle-worker and solve every kid's every problem in every subject area AND teach kids how to behave respectfully and be kind to others and care about the world, in a world that sure as fuck doesn't actually care about them.

“National teacher shortage” is a fun way of saying that the USA has made a passion driven job so ungodly inhospitable that even people who “just care about teaching, not the money” don’t even care about teaching anymore.

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We are barely back from winter break. Why is the burnout SO BAD?

(Rhetorical question.)

Catch me avoiding responsibility.

Sleep/mindless scrolling/daydreaming CG > putting in grades (and facing how badly I've failed my kiddos because I'm not a miracle worker, despite my very best efforts)

The entire public education system is in jeopardy now anyway. Literally what is even the point. :/

...Someone seriously tell me to go do grades.

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Can’t believe Adam literally just did this meme

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Does this fanfiction make sense? Hold water? Not an ounce! Does that mean I’m going to stop writing it? Not an ounce! I’m a moron with a keyboard and half an idea and that’s your problem now. God couldn’t stop me and neither could my dad, and now I’m on your screen with another thousand words of whatever the fuck this is. Bon appetite bitch!

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DID 👏 HE 👏 STUTTER 👏 CHARLIE 👏

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I really thought Frostpaw was going to skip straight to Froststar. Her whole arc seemed to mirror Firestar's journey. Frostpaw at the beginning? Overwhelmed at the immense responsibility thrust upon her to serve her Clan. Frostpaw at the end? Could've handled leadership, no problem. I see the point in letting the poor cat rest, but... She's grown. She's got what it takes. Let her do her thing.

-Frostpaw has the most well-rounded training (besides Mothwing), being both a medicine cat and a warrior apprentice -- not to mention her journey with Nightheart as a loner and her experiences with the Park Cats. She has quite a lot to bring to the table as leader.

-Riverstar himself said she was never meant to be a medicine cat. So Frostpaw tried being both a medicine cat apprentice and a warrior apprentice, and neither role really suited her. HMMMMM.

-when she commits to rebuilding RiverClan after learning meditation, she's the only one who understands the vision she has in mind for her Clan's new future. She's the only logical choice to steer the Clan in the direction she knows it has to go.

-Frostpaw interacts with other leaders -- Tigerstar II, Squirrelstar, and Harestar -- as their equal. They acknowledge her in the same light in return, despite her youth

-Icewing/Icestar was predictable from the very beginning. Froststar would've been the twist (if not for us readers, then for RiverClan as a whole)

-when she earns her full name of Frostdawn, the text states in the dialogue, "Frostdawn. May you LEAD RiverClan into the bright dawn of a new day!" Sus choice of words, Erins. (It works for Frostdawn as a medicine cat too, don't get me wrong. BUT. BUT!!!)

-Icestar's leadership ceremony could've easily been swapped out for a potential Froststar's leadership ceremony. Icestar's ceremony should have had cats more unique to her background giving her nine lives instead.

-it would've been cool to see a medicine cat apprentice grow into a Clan leader. That definitely would have been a unique journey!

-it would've been cool to see Frostpaw emerge as the leader of RiverClan, gaining the position both Curlfeather and Splashtail literally killed to obtain (as opposed to the idea of "Her mother started her off as a false medicine cat, and she became a true medicine cat". I guess take that, Riverstar?). But Froststar would have earned the leadership position the right way, in a way both Curlfeather and Splashtail never could.

I honestly thought Frostpaw would die -- like in Icewing's vision -- but then come back as leader a la Tigerstar II with nine lives.

If any cat deserved to go straight from apprentice to leader, it's this one.

I think the Erins planned for Froststar and then cowardly backtracked on that decision at the last second. In this essay, I will--

I'm consoling myself with the idea that it'll be easier now for Frostdawn and Whistlebreeze to be medicine cat girlfriends