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I really thought Frostpaw was going to skip straight to Froststar. Her whole arc seemed to mirror Firestar's journey. Frostpaw at the beginning? Overwhelmed at the immense responsibility thrust upon her to serve her Clan. Frostpaw at the end? Could've handled leadership, no problem. I see the point in letting the poor cat rest, but... She's grown. She's got what it takes. Let her do her thing.

-Frostpaw has the most well-rounded training (besides Mothwing), being both a medicine cat and a warrior apprentice -- not to mention her journey with Nightheart as a loner and her experiences with the Park Cats. She has quite a lot to bring to the table as leader.

-Riverstar himself said she was never meant to be a medicine cat. So Frostpaw tried being both a medicine cat apprentice and a warrior apprentice, and neither role really suited her. HMMMMM.

-when she commits to rebuilding RiverClan after learning meditation, she's the only one who understands the vision she has in mind for her Clan's new future. She's the only logical choice to steer the Clan in the direction she knows it has to go.

-Frostpaw interacts with other leaders -- Tigerstar II, Squirrelstar, and Harestar -- as their equal. They acknowledge her in the same light in return, despite her youth

-Icewing/Icestar was predictable from the very beginning. Froststar would've been the twist (if not for us readers, then for RiverClan as a whole)

-when she earns her full name of Frostdawn, the text states in the dialogue, "Frostdawn. May you LEAD RiverClan into the bright dawn of a new day!" Sus choice of words, Erins. (It works for Frostdawn as a medicine cat too, don't get me wrong. BUT. BUT!!!)

-Icestar's leadership ceremony could've easily been swapped out for a potential Froststar's leadership ceremony. Icestar's ceremony should have had cats more unique to her background giving her nine lives instead.

-it would've been cool to see a medicine cat apprentice grow into a Clan leader. That definitely would have been a unique journey!

-it would've been cool to see Frostpaw emerge as the leader of RiverClan, gaining the position both Curlfeather and Splashtail literally killed to obtain (as opposed to the idea of "Her mother started her off as a false medicine cat, and she became a true medicine cat". I guess take that, Riverstar?). But Froststar would have earned the leadership position the right way, in a way both Curlfeather and Splashtail never could.

I honestly thought Frostpaw would die -- like in Icewing's vision -- but then come back as leader a la Tigerstar II with nine lives.

If any cat deserved to go straight from apprentice to leader, it's this one.

I think the Erins planned for Froststar and then cowardly backtracked on that decision at the last second. In this essay, I will--

I'm consoling myself with the idea that it'll be easier now for Frostdawn and Whistlebreeze to be medicine cat girlfriends

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Miracle - SuzaLulu Fic

Lelouch was looking forward to spending quality time alone with his boyfriend on Christmas.

Being trapped with Suzaku in a cave, as Zero, is not quite what he had in mind.

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“What do you want most for Christmas? A real and selfish wish, Kururugi—none of your typical self-sacrificing nonsense.”

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Shout out to my crazy furball

Character: The Cat

Setting: Fridge in Winter

Mood: Desperate

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I had a rough day. Bartender, one glass of the characters kissing, please

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to anyone missing my writing please know i am also missing my writing

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oh, my porn is unrealistic?

it's not supposed to be realistic. it's supposed to be fun.

call it suspension of dickbelief.

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I feel like a child. I just want my mom.

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Therapist: And what do we do with hurt feelings?

Me: give them to a character?

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I received the most thoughtful and personal gift from one of my kids' families. I am still stunned thinking about it. The time, attention, and energy that went into personally painting my beloved cat (AND making sure it matched my existing home decor, which Nimbus is posing with in that last picture)...

I have never had a family show they care and appreciate me that much. I'm getting misty-eyed just thinking about it again.

And it is a BEAUTIFUL rendition of Nimbus!!!!!!! Look at him next to his portrait. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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look, fandom as a whole certainly has its own built-in biases and problems that need to be addressed 

but like

every so often i think about all of the deep, nurturing lifelong friendships that only ever happened because one day two internet strangers were like ‘oh hey, we agree on which fictional characters should kiss!’

people who are right now helping each other survive via connections they initially forged by liking the same sailor moon girl or something

the internet is a goddamn garbage pit but it is also a goddamn miracle

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people who let me wake up to this get a special place in heaven. firefly_fox how does it feel to hold my life in ur hands....

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Can I just. Take a moment. To gush about my kids. Past and present.

I've always been open and honest with them about my personal life, the caregiving role, etc. I had to miss a fair amount of school for my mom's hospital visits, doctor's appointments, if her condition deteriorated enough that both my sister and I needed to be there together for that particular slump...

So yeah, my kids have witnessed the impact it's all had on me.

So the first morning I went back, I shared with them what had happened. They ran to get me tissues. Some of THEM cried. They started sharing about the people (and animals) THEY had lost. It was a very sweet class meeting full of connections.

And ever since, they have been bombarding me with drawings and notes:

"Your mom is still watching over you."

"I love you. You're the best teacher ever! It's okay to miss your mom."

"Your mom is in heaven with my pop-pop." (And a picture of two gravestones side-by-side.)

And my favorite:

"Your mom still loves you even though she is dead now."

And then I got letters from a few of my kids from last year, writing along those same lines. My favorite excerpt: "Remember how you were always there for us? We're here for you too!" There are quite a few who come give me hugs still even though their classrooms this year are on a different hallway.

I just. Really. Love my kids.

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I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. If it brings you any comfort, they say touch and hearing are the last things to go, so even if she couldn't respond, it's very very probable that she knew her loved ones were with her. It's very hard to lose someone to long illness. You think you've grieved beforehand, but then the moment comes and it's somehow both easier and harder than you thought it would be. Caregiving is extremely demanding and caregiver burnout is very real, so please don't feel guilty about any relief you feel for a break in those responsibilities. Take comfort in knowing your mother is at least also free from her pain, and from knowing you were there for her during that final time. Be as kind to yourself as you possibly can. You're in my thoughts and I am wishing for healing for you going forward.

Thank you so, so, SO much for your kind and thoughtful words. It does bring me comfort to know it is likely that my mom knew we were there with her in the hospital, at least on some level. You nailed the situation exactly -- nothing can truly prepare you for a loved one's actual passing. It is nice to not constantly be on alert and needing to rush to the hospital, but sometimes I feel like I would trade it back just to have her here to talk to. (And other times, I am glad she has passed on so she is not in pain and so I can relax more into my own life.) I really appreciate your understanding and support. <3

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Oh my dear lord. I'm so sorry for sending the ask about being friends. May she rest in peace and sorry for what happened. She must've been a great person.

Anon, dear sweet anon. You are absolutely fine. <3

I am honored that you want to be my friend. I like friends. I will admit that I am not a good friend, particularly when it comes to maintaining contact (as several people here can attest to). I still enjoy the time I spend talking with friends though!

My mom was an amazing person. She had an enormous heart and cared about treating people right. I miss her a lot, but it is better that she is not in pain anymore. Thank you for your condolences!

I can be sad about my mom and still be happy about making a potential new friend.

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My mom died yesterday.

My siblings, dad, and I were able to be with her in the hospital. I was holding her hand as she passed. I don't even know if she was aware.

I've been grieving for months, knowing this was coming, and it is still a blow. I don't know how to function. I'm also relieved. She was in such pain for months, and she didn't have any quality of life. My life was also very stressful with the caregiving role. I wanted the stress to end. I didn't want to lose her.

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