nasttyxx

[nasttyxx]

after my b1ng1ng$, my b0dу began to look terrible. I have a huge b3llу but sk1nny @rms and l3gs. when I'm in an oversize, I look not that bad, but I know what's underneath... I hate that I can’t say I’m f@t but at the same time I can’t say I’m sk1nny 🫠

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"nothing feels as good as water on an empty stomach."

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ngl i'm scared of people who say that ⭐ving isn't healthy while they eat FUCKING PIZZA/HAMBURGER

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I despise the fact that I am a living person and I need to eat.⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

like, why is there no button to turn this shit off??(⁠눈⁠‸⁠눈⁠)

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jiraimaxxing (Overconsuming caffeine, chainsmoking, scrolling thru ed socials, vividly imagining how I'd relapse or kms in excruciating detail and dissociating to avoid real life responsibilities and the crushing weight of existing)

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Lost 4 lbs in 2 days & gained 5 back in ONE night….

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im not sure if anything has changed since my last b0dy check, BUT! I lost 1.3 kg!(⁠つ⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)⁠つ

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ngl im torn between wanting to kill myself and wanting to lose weight(⁠~⁠_⁠~⁠;⁠)

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"did you eat today?"

"yeah"

"what'd you eat?"

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I have like only three moods:

1) I’m god

2) I’m a failure

3) I’m horny

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god, i was ⭐ving only for 20 hours but im already so dizzy (⁠~⁠_⁠~⁠;⁠)

is it normal?

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I swear to god, if this shit doesn't go down I will kms.(⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)

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im pretty happy about how my stomach looks like, but my thighs is still so fucking fat:(

btw this is my first post and im not sure what to write here🫤

my current weight and height are 45kg, 159cm

(tbh i don't think im going to post often so :p)