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will someone please tell me it’s okay

that i’m still not over it?

i feel like it’s been far too long

but the tears still sneak up on me sometimes.

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trying to live in my life in a way that doesn’t revolve around how else I can twist the knife

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I’m going to put my paws together and pray that you’re not serious!

JIJI in KIKI’S DELIVERY SERVICE 1989 | dir. hayao miyazaki.

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holy shit holy shit holy shit the lab I’ve been creeping on for a while, dreaming they would have a funded postdoc position POSTED A FUNDED POSTDOC POSITION

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my maternal grandmother: is incredibly racist, xenophobic, homophobic, narcissistic, etc. under a façade of a “nice grandma” who posts 27 inspirational quotes every day on Facebook

🥴

my paternal grandmother: “every night when I cover my parrot’s cage for bedtime I thank her because she adds so much to my life in a positive way”

😭

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…okay but how did Dylan O’Brien know that my Jake Gyllenhaal is indeed named Brandon

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new hobby: writing little blurbs inspired by Trump tweets to release pent-up frustration about coworkers, etc.

Crybaby Brandon can’t come talk to me when he needs help. Haters and losers like him are always intimidated by my high IQ. Sad!

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me: *doesn’t get yet another graduate fellowship I applied for, and everyone who got it is a MAN* my brain: flawlessly recalls Kurt from Glee singing Rose’s Turn and just plays that on repeat in the old noggin for a while

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you didn’t want a partner, you wanted a liminal space

to spoon-feed you some self esteem

as you found yourself proverbially couch surfing

between more permanent arrangements

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me 24 hours ago:

our summer sun set that night in july

and here in november, i’m still asking why why why

me now: HAHAHA WOW you suck like, a lot and you are SO weird why did I like you so much? yikes.

we’ll continue to report on this story as it develops. now to Marshall for the weather report.

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BREAKING NEWS: men (one man in particular) continue(s) to have the Audacity (TM)

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Zen Beach, Tom Kristensen

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not sure where this came from originally but I ran across it on another platform and OH NO THE ALGORITHM KNOWS TOO MUCH

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new moon in Scorpio - tarot affirmations

these six cards shot out of my deck in two neat piles of three:

Father of Arrows (King of Swords) - The Emperor - 8 of Feathers (Wands)

I stand my ground. I trust my intellect and remain calm, yet swift and decisive. I reclaim the power I have left dormant for so long.

6 of Arrows (Swords) - The Empress - 7 of Feathers (Wands) reversed

I am letting go of the battle to prove myself worthy to others, in order to turn inward and nurture my highest and truest self.

deck: The Brady Tarot by Emi Brady

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update: they weren’t even just Facebook posts, they were Instagram posts that got cross-posted to Twitter and Facebook

(had him muted on all of them but my curiosity got the best of me)

will someone tell this man that

a) the pictures he takes of himself are uh, not good and

b) no amount of selfies and toxic positivity about cats (that I named!) and vegan babka will fix his attachment issues

ah and just like that it’s been a month since i last saw the crumpled man, he who shall not be named, that pathetic motherfucker, my sworn nemesis, whatever the hell we are calling him

I’m feeding myself better than I have in years and I dyed my hair and I got a kick-ass tattoo and in theory I am thriving

he uhhh *checks notes* has started posting truly horrifying and mega cringe selfies on Facebook

seems like i’m winning the split but i don’t feel like i’m winning??? somebody pls advise

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