myheartmysoulmyself

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Mindless connections, dangerous grounds

No man's land, between two realities

4am, the bliss of day and night

Silence. Quiet, for once.

Not on my mind,

The search for answers never ends

I am a reckless scientist,

Carrying so much

The sample of madness: my thoughts.

A beautiful entropy

Never below zero, I'm always giving

Contributing to the captivating chaos

So attractive,

The perfect place, the paradise of a writer's mind

The blurred lines between insanity and something else

Boundless, infinite space of our existence

-GhostWriter

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Ruler of the world

I am a ruler of a ghost town

Habitated by my thoughts only

Ghost and memories share houses

And I'm left to wander through the village

Safe.

I am in control

Because there's nothing but myself to be in control over

Whispers in my ears,

Left by the wind

Telling me there's someone in the entry

No.

This town doesn't have tourists or visitors

I answer the distant pleads to enter

I answer, yelling, "Nobody is here for you"

Which isn't true

I am here, ruler of this nothingness

Followed by fears and shackled by thoughts

Surounded by own feelings, trapping me.

Its natural

I am here, ruler of anything around me

But what do i rule if everything around is just this ghost town?

What do i do besides wandering,

Reminiscing about moments I never had...

Regret.

I run to the entry of my kingdom

Slowed down by all the chains and the weight of fear and the illusion of disapointment

I don't give up, I reach to the dark tall metal door.

I am ruler of this kingdom, king of the city,

Owner of all keys

I open it and stare

Hopeful.

In between breaths, my eyes focus

I see nothing but infinite desert

No signs of the person who wanted to visit

Guilt.

As I keep making the same mistake

The door sadly closes once again

I am the prisioner of a ghost town

-GhostWriter

[myheartmysoulmyself]

- Depression/ is one of the most common mental illnesses in the world, and it’s also one of the most easily missed. While most people would describe it as a prolonged period of sadness, it’s much more than that, and it’s definitely not one you can “snap out of” as many people erroneously think. It causes severe symptoms that affect how you feel, think, and handle daily activities, such as sleeping, eating, or working. To be diagnosed with depression, the symptoms must be present for at least two weeks. Depression can happen at any age, but often begins in adulthood. Depression is now recognized as occurring in children and adolescents, although it sometimes presents with more prominent irritability than low mood. Many chronic mood and anxiety disorders in adults begin as high levels of anxiety in children.

Here are 20 Unexpected Symptoms of Mental Illnesses You Probably Never Knew

- Meditation/ is a practice where an individual uses a technique – such as mindfulness, or focusing their mind on a particular object, thought or activity – to train attention and awareness, and achieve a mentally clear and emotionally calm and stable state.

Meditation offers time for relaxation and heightened awareness in a stressful world where our senses are often dulled. Research suggests that meditation has the potential for more than just temporary stress relief.

Educators, spiritual leaders, and mental health experts have developed dozens of forms of meditation. The variety suggests there is a form of meditation to suit most people, regardless of personality or lifestyle.

Here are a Few Guides to Meditation

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Ruler of the world

I am a ruler of a ghost town

Habitated by my thoughts only

Ghost and memories share houses

And I'm left to wander through the village

Safe.

I am in control

Because there's nothing but myself to be in control over

Whispers in my ears,

Left by the wind

Telling me there's someone in the entry

No.

This town doesn't have tourists or visitors

I answer the distant pleads to enter

I answer, yelling, "Nobody is here for you"

Which isn't true

I am here, ruler of this nothingness

Followed by fears and shackled by thoughts

Surounded by own feelings, trapping me.

Its natural

I am here, ruler of anything around me

But what do i rule if everything around is just this ghost town?

What do i do besides wandering,

Reminiscing about moments I never had...

Regret.

I run to the entry of my kingdom

Slowed down by all the chains and the weight of fear and the illusion of disapointment

I don't give up, I reach to the dark tall metal door.

I am ruler of this kingdom, king of the city,

Owner of all keys

I open it and stare

Hopeful.

In between breaths, my eyes focus

I see nothing but infinite desert

No signs of the person who wanted to visit

Guilt.

As I keep making the same mistake

The door sadly closes once again

I am the prisioner of a ghost town

-GhostWriter

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Ruler of the world

I am a ruler of a ghost town

Habitated by my thoughts only

Ghost and memories share houses

And I'm left to wander through the village

Safe.

I am in control

Because there's nothing but myself to be in control over

Whispers in my ears,

Left by the wind

Telling me there's someone in the entry

No.

This town doesn't have tourists or visitors

I answer the distant pleads to enter

I answer, yelling, "Nobody is here for you"

Which isn't true

I am here, ruler of this nothingness

Followed by fears and shackled by thoughts

Surounded by own feelings, trapping me.

Its natural

I am here, ruler of anything around me

But what do i rule if everything around is just this ghost town?

What do i do besides wandering,

Reminiscing about moments I never had...

Regret.

I run to the entry of my kingdom

Slowed down by all the chains and the weight of fear and the illusion of disapointment

I don't give up, I reach to the dark tall metal door.

I am ruler of this kingdom, king of the city,

Owner of all keys

I open it and stare

Hopeful.

In between breaths, my eyes focus

I see nothing but infinite desert

No signs of the person who wanted to visit

Guilt.

As I keep making the same mistake

The door sadly closes once again

I am the prisioner of a ghost town

-GhostWriter

[myheartmysoulmyself]

I think before I act which leads  to me not doing anything.  Wait; let me rephrase that.

I OVERthink before I do anything until the idea of the thing I should or want to do turns into a catastrophe. Like traffic on both sides of the street I wait until it’s safe to cross, but I can never get the right timing.

Red lights flash inside my mind like strobe lights in a nightclub watching over a group of  friends celebrating life.

Only I’m not celebrating life; I’m worrying about it.

The red lights are displays of negative “what if’s” and debilitating anxiety and the only safe exit is the one that’ll make me invisible 

So I hide away in my safe but lonely room staring at my phone with zero texts, staring at the empty side of my bed, and I start to think the only real catastrophe in all of this is me.

– Catastrophe // h.w

[myheartmysoulmyself]

once i get to the bottom of why i exist it’s over for u bitches

[myheartmysoulmyself]

“I want someone to remember I existed. I want someone to know I was here.”

— Fredrik Backman

[myheartmysoulmyself]

“And I’ve lived just long enough to realize just how much I don’t know.” He said thoughtfully, sipping the last of his cookies and cream milkshake.

“Well,” she said, as played with the little amount of fries she had left on her plate. “What are you sure of?”

He sat for a moment before smiling a little.

“It might be sad,” he said as he pushed his milkshake to the side and started stacking his empty dishes.

“But the thing about life, is that it’s only worth living when you have something to lose..

And if that’s not the most tragic yet beautiful thing about existence that I know so far I don’t know what is.”

- And maybe that’s why life feels so good when I’m with you…

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Rainy days are my favourite

I think rain is underrated

I like the soft drops,

I like the way they give somewhat a reality

To the feeling I have inside

Mellow drops hit my bare skin

An euphoric almost ironic feeling arises

I smile

I smile because its familiar for me

Cloudy skies and soft rain drops

Grey tones and lonely roads

Feel like home, they have always been

The cold embrace when rain falls on my hand

Reminds me of where I always have been

Even if I've travelled a lot

I've met different people, seen different countries

But everywhere I go I can't seem to escape

That cold familiar suffocating embrace

Always glued to my heart, to my mind

Rain drops feel like tears,

I cant lie, I know how it feels

Tears, silence and cloudy ways

Are a part of me and I'm a part of it

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Rainy days are my favourite

I think rain is underrated

I like the soft drops,

I like the way they give somewhat a reality

To the feeling I have inside

Mellow drops hit my bare skin

An euphoric almost ironic feeling arises

I smile

I smile because its familiar for me

Cloudy skies and soft rain drops

Grey tones and lonely roads

Feel like home, they have always been

The cold embrace when rain falls on my hand

Reminds me of where I always have been

Even if I've travelled a lot

I've met different people, seen different countries

But everywhere I go I can't seem to escape

That cold familiar suffocating embrace

Always glued to my heart, to my mind

Rain drops feel like tears,

I cant lie, I know how it feels

Tears, silence and cloudy ways

Are a part of me and I'm a part of it

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Rainy days are my favourite

I think rain is underrated

I like the soft drops,

I like the way they give somewhat a reality

To the feeling I have inside

Mellow drops hit my bare skin

An euphoric almost ironic feeling arises

I smile

I smile because its familiar for me

Cloudy skies and soft rain drops

Grey tones and lonely roads

Feel like home, they have always been

The cold embrace when rain falls on my hand

Reminds me of where I always have been

Even if I've travelled a lot

I've met different people, seen different countries

But everywhere I go I can't seem to escape

That cold familiar suffocating embrace

Always glued to my heart, to my mind

Rain drops feel like tears,

I cant lie, I know how it feels

Tears, silence and cloudy ways

Are a part of me and I'm a part of it

[myheartmysoulmyself]

Little things i don't yet understand

Life has a funny way of showing me things

My eyes still look for you when I pass that street

My heart still rejoices when I see you smile

I know i'm not in love with you anymore

By the way i get angry with things that made me fall for you

Am I angry at you or myself?

Free falling in my mind

I think my eyes don't look for you

They look for the person i knew

My heart doesn't get happy with your smile

Its only thrilled with the memories it brings

When I run as the wind on a storm

I feel overwhelmed with oxygen

A fear of loneliness takes over me

My eyes close, but my mind is well aware

I close my eyes in hopes the darkness

Comes and saves me from all that i know

My mind isn't here, etuck in the past

In adventures of a time i no longer live in

As realization hits, i know I'm crying

I'm bleeding from a wound that i choose to ignore

Billions of people in the world and i never felt so alone

I'm out of breath in the middle of a road

Loneliness never felt so dangerous

GhostWriter

[myheartmysoulmyself]

me: i am INSPIRED i want to WRITE

my brain, immediately: i have never once even seen a sentence

[myheartmysoulmyself]

[myheartmysoulmyself]

“The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven.”

—

[myheartmysoulmyself]