mygeniesbiggestfan

[mygeniesbiggestfan]

I was once in a relationship with someone who didn't appreciate me. Mind you, this was for 7 frkin years lol. Everytime he cheated, I was always ready to take him back. Every. Single. Time. My friends, family, everyone i loved Always asked me what i saw in him. I always told them he was 'the one'. Remember that saying that goes something like 'each time you forgive him you lose a bit of your love for him' or something like that? Well, i kinda felt it, but was never brave enough to let them go.

It was when i was in freshman year at college and he was back home that stories began to surface. And you know, the town i grew up in was pretty small meaning every one knew what the other was up to. For the first few months, I decided to ignore the rumors, because as much as I wanted to believe it was true, I decided it'd be better if I heard it from him. And for those who did the whole long distance relationship thing, you know it's not that easy. Especially if your S/O was someone with a roaming eye lol.

Then we sort of got distant with each other. Months passed by and what used to be late night phone calls became a once or twice a week call and we started slacking off on talking to each other. It wasn't that much of a big deal at first because i tried to understand that he had work and i had school to attend to, but deep down, my gut feeling told me we were nearing an end of a chapter in our lives.

The final straw was when my mom called me up one night, wanting to know if he and i were still together. I replied yes without hesitation, and there was silence at the other end. She told me. 'Baby, you know i love you and i got your back... I just wish you were here right now because my heart is aching for you.'

I knew what she was referring to but i didn't wanna do anything just yet. Later that year when i went home, i sat in silence while listening to what my friends and family had to say about him. I told them it was my business and that I would take care of it. I felt like an idiot, curving multiple guys for him, hoping there was a chance we could still work. Turned out there wasnt.

And what i had hoped was the candle in the dark for our romance was nothing but the fear of having to be alone. Even more, i felt like if i left him, i was leaving a piece of my young self, a piece of my soul.

But i knew i had to do it, for me. For the countless nights i spent crying and thinking of a future with him that I would never have; of the kids we dreamed we'd have. The love we promised we'd keep. No more of that.

I broke it off with him the day i got on the plane and flew back to college; the toxicity, i decided, is too much for me.

Fast forward a year after and i meet this great guy on Call of Duty: Mobile because hey, what do I do to keep my mind off him? I play online games and binge memes lol. Its my coping mechanism, shh dont judge me!

At first, i told him i wasn't ready for a relationship, especially after what happened and he said the same thing. However, I think fate had other ideas. The more we played together, the more i grew into being comfortable with him. Things my ex never said or did, this gorgeous man would. And it went on for five months, just us harmlessly flirting and joking about being married.

Until....

It's been 9 amazing months and we are happily in a relationship which is weird considering the fact that distance was a factor in my previous relationship, but here we are, in two different places, making time to be with each other and still being our goofy selves everytime we're in the phone. I realized my first love (ex) would always have a place in my heart, but my gorgeous man has all my love.

What's even more exciting is, he is doing everything my ex never did; from 'goodmooorrnningggg baby' messages, to motivating me into being the better version of me. Now I'm not going to throw dirt on my ex's name because at one point in my life i was down for him, I'm simply saying that a boy could never be a man to someone he's not ready for.

Consistency was all i ever wanted, and i have that now. We will be meeting for the first time next year around this time and honestly I can hardly wait for that to happen.

I hope you are all well and I just want to say that the fear of being alone can stop you from some of the greatest things to ever happen to you, and I wish you wouldn't be too hard on yourself. Have Hope, for hope is enough. Hope is enough to get you through x

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Please enjoy. I was going through a rough

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I love how, in Demon Slayer.... Tanjiro gets to see what made the demon he just killed, a monster. Or at least parts of it. His soul is too kind, his heart too big that, in a way, he offers forgiveness to the demon and that, i think is a beautiful thing. To understand something and accept it for what it was.

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I support this a hundred and one percent ❤️

Giyu Tomioka appreciation post because (most of) the demon slayer fandom is RUTHLESS towards him​😭

And I still don't understand why?

He almost killed Nezuko and tempted Tanjiro?

Ok? Every single hashira disapproved of Nezuko at first well everyone except Mitsuri and Muichiro(tho he doesn't count because he just didn't care). Sanemi even went as far as stabbing Nezuko while taunting her and testing her self-restraint.

But he was willing to sacrifice his own life for Nezuko because he believed in her and Tanjiro.

Besides he was the entire reason Tanjiro got the opportunity to experience the proper training needed in order to become a demon slayer to avenge his sister and find a way to turn her back to a human.

Sure he's monotonous and doesn't show much character development but I think he has really noble characteristics to begin with. He doesn't show much emotion but he's definitely protective and caring towards those he considers close. He's aggravated when Tanjiro was being attempted to kill and he's very shaken when Shinobu dies.

He's no different from characters like Todoroki(My Hero Academia) or Haruka(Free!) who keep their emotions at bay and hide them until its overwhelming or their protective instinct comes into play.

In conclusion, I love Giyu Tomioka and he doesn't deserve even half the hate the fandom (and most of the canon characters) give him.

(fangirl moment feel free to skip: OMFG THIS GIF HE'S LIKE A PROTECTIVE OLDER BROTHER SJBJBXSBDJ I CAN'T)