mydiary444

[mydiary444]

Having an e@t¡ng dis0rder means believing your mom made extra oil and extra calories in the soup she made, only to manipulate you into getting fatter

[mydiary444]

FOOD LOG || 05.07.2022

Breakfast:

-Pretzel (200cals)

Lunch:

-tomato soup (150cals)

Dinner:

-tomato soup with some bread (300cals)

Snack:

-mint chocolate drops (30cals)

Total: 680cals

Feeling: should’ve skipped dinner :( still kinda proud idk

[mydiary444]

reasons why i want to be sk1nny:

- i won’t be the ugly fat friend anymore

- guys (and girls) will like me, not my friends

- i can hug people without being scared of them feeling my stomach

- wearing cropped tops

- wearing tight, body forming dresses and clothing

- being looked at and asked if i want something to eat out of concern

- being cold on 30° celsius days

- someone can carry me

- being picked for a lead in a musical

- my school uniform fitting properly

- thigh gap 🤩🤩

- being able to fit both my hands around my leg without having to stretch

- shopping at op shops and being able to wear everything there

- looking like the characters i so often read about in my books

- walking through the house and not making a sound

- rings fitting my fingers

- baggy clothing looking actually good 🥹🥹

[mydiary444]

FOOD LOG || 23.06.2022

Breakfast:

Skipped

Lunch:

Skipped

Dinner:

Cherries (110cals)

Bruschetta (104cals)

Snack:

4x ice pops (88cals)

Ice cream (160cals)

Total: 462cals

Feeling: SOOO PROUD OMG!!! Haven’t done this great in a loooong time!! Honestly, I love summer so so much!! Whole day full of eating fruits and ice pops ITS AMAZING AHHH!!!!

[mydiary444]

Genuine question: do you guys use your morning weight or evening/night weight to tell people how much you weight? Because these two are two completely different things lmao

[mydiary444]

I’m this 🤏 close from my first freaking goal-weight it ain’t fun anymore!!! I wanna have it RIGHT. NOW!!

[mydiary444]

FOOD LOG || 06.06.2022

Breakfast:

-2 pretzel sticks with butter (500cals)

Lunch:

Skipped

Dinner:

-lettuce with creme cheese (150cals?)

Snack:

-monster energy ultra (10cals?)

Total: 660cals

Feeling: i know I could & should do better, but I’m still kinda proud of the progress I’m making :) I need to get lower on cals tho, vacation is appearing :/

[mydiary444]

I just want to look as magnificent as Lana Del Rey

[mydiary444]

FOOD LOG || 01.06.2022

Breakfast:

skipped

Lunch:

-sweet patatoes with ketchup (175cals)

Dinner:

-pretzel stick (300cals)

Snack:

-pineapple (90cals)

-chocolate bar (150cals)

-gummy bears (70cals)

Total: 785cals

Feeling: pretty okay-ish <3

[mydiary444]

FOOD LOG || 25.05.2022

Breakfast:

skipped

Lunch:

-soup with bread (300cals ig)

Dinner:

-2,5 Summer Rolls (~120cals)

Snack:

-3 plums (80cals)

-patato chips (270cals)

Total: 770cals

Feeling: pretty good tbh! The past couple of days I binged in the evenings but this time I didn’t!!! I didn’t ignore my cravings (patato chips) I let myself have a pretty normal amount of them and now I’m satisfied and full!!!

[mydiary444]

Hi!!

Okay so basically I haven’t been active AT ALL the past couple of months. This is because I’ve tried to switch on ed Twitter. But Twitter isn’t helping me as much as Tumblr does. (When I was active on tumblr I lost about 6kg in about 2-3 weeks!!!) so I’m going to be more active on here!!! If y’all want to follow me on Twitter tho, this is my username: @mydiaryy444 <3

[mydiary444]

I feel so comfortable and so safe here on tumblr… it’s unbelievable! 

[mydiary444]

Tw: Ed related content. My first account got deleted and it made me so unbelievably upset because it was my save-place… I couldn’t live with my second save-space getting deleted, so if you don’t like my account: Pls just block me and don’t report me!!

Stats:

-she/her

-18

-1.65m / 5“5

-not pro ana

-pro recovery

Goals:

-132lbs / 60kg

-121lbs / 55kg

-110lbs / 50kg

-100lbs / 45kg

[mydiary444]

I’m so unbelievably upset right now… my main tumblr account got deleted… it was my safe-space… how could tumblr do this???? I’m literally about to cry… I needed it so much!!! I miss it sm!